Protagonist, wake up

It was a year and a half later when Jian Zhu was finally rescued.

He lived a year and a half of dark days in the Black Square, which was more desperate than anything he had experienced in the past, and he was on the verge of collapse every day.

At the end of the last half year, his spirit has been stretched to the extreme.

He began to realize that he almost didn't know himself, and his consciousness was sometimes sober and sometimes drowsy.He can still see Jian Lanzhou, and he can still hear the other party's voice, but it is already difficult for him to distinguish these images and sounds and what they represent.And they speak less and less in their minds, and appear for less and less time.

Jian Zhu was terrified.Heifang's methods are really powerful, he is afraid of losing himself completely.

He vaguely realized that something was coming.

Marlin is no longer coming out, she said that she no longer manages, which will reduce the chance of them being injured.Lanzhou rarely appeared, and he himself was not suitable for a low-level place like Heifang.Jian Zhu finally faced the long darkness alone. The personalities were hidden in the conscious world, away from all the troubles of the outside world, and felt very peaceful.This made Jian Zhu's mind more and more quiet. He felt that the personalities began to lose emotion, and there would be no pain without emotion.

Something in his mind began to be filled, and Jian Zhu trembled.Because he had a premonition that soon Jian Lanzhou and Marin would leave him completely.

He was like a snowman starting to melt, feeling his body melting into the darkness from his feet.He has begun to forget who he is, and Marin has even lost the ability to play Sanda, and Jian Lanzhou has become more and more silent.Even if he desperately carved things on the wall, he still couldn't stop the writing from shrinking.

The lack of long-term and reasonable treatment made Jian Zhu's situation develop in an uncontrollable direction. This time, no one taught him how to adjust his depression.He is watching his loved ones leave him little by little in unpredictable ways, and there is nothing he can do about it forever.

"I have nothing left."

They squatted in the darkness of consciousness, the halo of light hit there alone, and everyone was quietly waiting for something.

"Even though I knew that Lanzhou had contacted Xie Lang at that time, I was almost unable to hold on to the arrival of rescue. I was mentally exhausted and desperate, because it was difficult for people to think that I had the possibility of escaping... …I saw Marlin's blade, and suddenly I understood something."

"I put the blade on my wrist, which still bears the marks of my last suicide."

"you understood?"

"I have been led by fate all my life. There is almost nothing that is completely mine and can be controlled by me. But I didn't realize until the last moment that there is one thing that I can completely control. I feel very happy... really I'm very happy...My life belongs to me, I can decide my own life and death. This is the biggest and happiest right in my life...Doctor, I can't decide my own birth, but I can at least choose my own death .”

"I also finally understood why Lanzhou insisted that I undergo personality fusion and become a normal person in the eyes of the society. Because I have the right to choose from now on, and I will not be controlled by others like before. This is me 'real'."

"'No one else, I chose it myself' This is Lanzhou's final blessing and wish for me."

His gums were so swollen that they would bleed when touched lightly.His eyesight also declined rapidly, his stomach and lips swelled, and the edema on his body became more and more serious. He felt that he was getting closer and closer to death.He couldn't see his black face and sunken eyes, but he could feel that his flesh was collapsing at a speed visible to the naked eye, shrinking faster than before.

The people in Hei Fang have already begun to feel that the poor and thin man is dying, but Xie Lang and the others will be there soon.Jian Zhu knew that as long as he could survive before collapsing, he would win.

If you can't make it through... If you can't make it through, just leave.

I don't know when the ear became quieter and quieter. Jian Zhu closed her eyes and felt a strange warm current flowing from her feet to her whole body.All people in the consciousness gathered together, elongated, deformed, twisted, stirred together like a liquid, and then melted in the warm current.They jostled, bumped, bonded, and fell parabolicly down the thermal current...and gliding...*

Then, he came out of the black mouth.

This time Jian Zhu got all the memories, Jian Lanzhou and Marin's experience, plus what he lost, formed a complete memory chain.But he has nothing to be happy about, because no matter how he calls, his mind is always empty and silent.

So he knew that Lanzhou and Marin had all left.

No drugs, no hypnosis, no trick therapy, his determination to die and deliverance finally brought everyone together.This time, his obsession with life and death is so strong, just like the desire to be loved when he was nine years old. All his determination has a clear purpose. He feels the truth, and feels the various emotions that he used to have through the glass. Feel alive.

Death brought him back to himself from the bottom of his heart.

**

The Black Square stronghold was destroyed, and Xie Lang hardly dared to recognize him when he rescued him.

Jian Zhu was found in the hidden detention room underground. When he was found, there were no living people around him.Heifang's human experiments are too overbearing, and the experimental subject next door has actually been dead for a long time.Only he nestled quietly in the darkness, maintaining regular breathing.

The person in front of him was terribly thin, almost only a thin layer of skin was left covering the skeleton.His body was covered in purple and black bruises, his clothes were torn, and his eyes were dull.Xie Lang squatted in front of him cautiously, his lips trembling, tears almost fell from his eyes.

Jian Zhu seemed to have recovered a little bit, but he was still dazed, and his voice was even thinner than a mosquito, "Win?" He moved his arm, trying to touch Xie Lang, but he couldn't fall down halfway.

Xie Lang cried out.He saw that Jian Zhu was missing one finger, and the nails on the other fingers fell off.

Wang Yunzhou and others who came after him turned their faces away.

"Can I...leave...?"

When I went out, the blue sky was like washing, high and far away.

He hasn't been in contact with the outside world for a long, long time, and his eyes are not even used to the sun.Jian Zhu narrowed his eyes, waved Xie Lang away, and crawled out little by little while holding on to the door.When he stepped over the threshold, he flinched suddenly, and his whole body froze there.It wasn't until a long time later that he turned around and asked Xie Lang in a hoarse voice: "I really...can I leave?"

"Can I go get a drink?"

Xie Lang finally understood how much the black workshop's captivity reform had hurt his friends, so much so that he now subconsciously rejects the outside world, and even almost lost his normal consciousness.He cried out in tears: "Yes! This is not a prison, you can do whatever you want!"

Jian Zhu stood there in a daze for a long time before slowly sticking out one foot.The toes came out, followed by half a leg, half a body... He tripped over the small pit outside the door, then struggled desperately to stand up, and rushed out like a madman.

"Hey, what are you doing?" The person calling was stopped by Xie Lang.

Jian Zhu walked all the way forward, he didn't know where he was going, and the car followed behind him.

After a long time, his eyes gradually brightened, and he couldn't move and fell to the ground.He heard the noise in his ears, and he realized that he had walked into the downtown area at night.

Lights are on on the main road, and vehicles are rushing.Huge LED display screens and neon lights of various colors are flashing, people are coming and going on the street, snack carts are emitting a strong aroma, and the atmosphere of urban life is spreading.

Jian Zhu staggered and walked all the way to the middle of the sidewalk, regardless of other people's strange eyes.

Xie Lang followed him, silently watching him gradually bend down amidst the noise, and burst into tears.

For Jian Zhu, he finally felt the existence of this world thoroughly, and felt that he was still alive.He can run freely and breathe fresh air.No need to take strange medicines, no need to worry about your own life.

But in this situation, he was the only one left. Lan Zhou left, and Marin also left.He used to have relatives, lovers, and friends, but now they are all gone and never look back.The whole world is immersed in sound, all of which are colored, only he is blank.

The mistake brought about the beginning of everything, and now that the mistake has been corrected, he just feels empty and sad.No one will accompany him through the second 15 years, and no one will take on all the roles in his growing life like Lan Zhou.

He became normal.

He also lost everything.

The author has something to say: it’s almost over, if you have any extras you want to watch, you can leave a message and tell me, I can also try the sweet extras of Jian Zhu and Lanzhou orz

Note* - "24 Billys"