Being-Towards-Death

It was a day of shallow spring and tender cold, and the sun was rare and unclear. The billowing clouds seemed like people in the whole city were cooking soup at the same time. The rising moisture only waited for an order, and it turned into rain like oil, which complimented the poet "wool is produced." On the sheep" opportunity.

Shi Guyuan shivered when he went out, then went home and added a sweater to his windbreaker.He first went to the company to have a look, and then went to the piano store to pick out a piano for Chi Xiaoyu.

There are many children's pianos in the piano store, with a wide variety of colors.Shi Guyuan thought that most of Chi Xiaoyu's schoolbags and clothes were pink, so he picked a pink one for her.

Using this excuse, he went to the kindergarten after school.Chi Yu was going to be late, this time he remembered to call the teacher so that the garden would not be in a hurry.When Chi Xiaoyu saw Shi Guyuan, he embraced him affectionately, leaving the teacher aside.This teacher was the young teacher whose mother was hospitalized. She still remembered Shi Guyuan. The two chatted for a while, and Chi Xiaoyu complained that he was hungry. Chi Xiaoyu, another copy for the teacher.

Chi Xiaoyu took small bites of the chicken nuggets, wiped his mouth full of sauce, and said after swallowing, "Uncle Shi, are you here to pick up Brother Xiaohan? I saw him being picked up by his father."

Shi Guyuan touched her face, felt as cold as frost, took off his overcoat and wrapped it up for her, fastened the sleeves under the neck to make an irregular cloak.Shi Guyuan was quite satisfied with his workmanship, and said: "Do you feel cold at night, and you need to tell your dad to spare some clothes for you - I'm not here to pick up your brother Xiaohan, I'm here to find you, uncle What I promised you, I will fulfill it today."

Chi Xiaoyu's eyes sparkled, and the sticky sauce fell onto Shi Guyuan's coat, but he didn't notice it. He happily kicked his two legs that didn't touch the ground: "My cello! My cello! Where is it?"

Shi Guyuan had no choice but to fetch it for her, Chi Xiaoyu only had room for a new love in his eyes, but Shi Guyuan's old love made Chi Xiaoyu drown in the love in his eyes.The teacher also said: "You are an uncle, just like a mother."

Shi Guyuan was afraid that Chi Xiaoyu would hear that "mother" was sad, so he shook his head slightly at the teacher, only smiling.

The teacher turned to Chi Xiaoyu and said, "Xiaoyu is awesome, learn the cello well, and show it to the kids at the end-of-term party."

Chi Xiaoyu's face flushed red, like an immature tomato that secretly rubbed her mother's blush, half ashamed and half happy.She let Shi Guyuan wipe her hands and mouth clean, hugged the little Qin and couldn't put it down, looked at and touched it for a while, and asked, "Why is it different from Uncle's?"

Shi Guyuan said: "You are a child, you want to use the small qin, but I am an adult, so I use the big qin."

Chi Xiaoyu accepted this argument, and said, "Why are the colors different?"

Shi Guyuan said, "Don't you like pink?"

Chi Xiaoyu glanced at him, very melancholy: "I want to be the same as Uncle."

Shi Guyuan couldn't help laughing. Four or five-year-olds like to imitate adults the most, so he had no choice but to say, "Then I'll change it for you tomorrow."

Chi Xiaoyu cheered for a while, after getting acquainted with Shi Guyuan, her behavior became more lively and playful, and Shi Guyuan was also happy to see her success.After eating, Chi Yu appeared in a hurry. When he saw Shi Guyuan, he was taken aback for a moment. Chi Xiaoyu didn't have any scruples. For the first time, he didn't stretch out his arms for a hug, and showed off to his father: "Dad, look, uncle gave it to you." mine!"

Chi Yu bid farewell to the teacher first, and then said to Shi Guyuan, "How can I buy such an expensive thing for my child, and she can't pull it?"

Shi Guyuan smiled and said: "Who is born with it? I was just about to discuss it with you. Xiao Yuer likes the cello very much. I think the child, don't limit her interest, why don't you send her to learn it? Music is quite evocative.”

Chi Yu naturally hopes that his daughter will grow up to be a lady, but he is embarrassed to say that he is in the People's Hospital. With a small salary, she can only maintain daily expenses, and Chi Xiaoyu already has a swimming class, so she definitely has no spare money to learn piano again.

Therefore, Chi Yu said vaguely: "Let me think about it."

Shi Guyuan glanced at him, but didn't continue talking.After sending the two of them home, he didn't leave in a hurry downstairs at Chi Yu's house. He leaned against the car door to smoke. In the night, it was exactly as Zhang Ailing wrote: an orange-red flower seemed to bloom on his mouth.The difference is that the flowers did not wither immediately, so there was no cold and darkness.

The sound insulation of the old building was not good, and Chi Yu didn't hear the sound of the car starting to go away.He passed by the corridor, and through the window decorated with patterns, he saw only a flower that was flickering.

Chi Xiaoyu was still immersed in joy. She grabbed her father's hand, shook it coquettishly, and said, "Dad, Uncle Shi's cello is really good. I want to learn it too. I want to learn it too." !"

Chi Yu picked her up and stopped paying attention to Shi Guyuan's movements. He sighed and said, "Let's wait a little longer, shall we?"

Chi Xiaoyu asked suspiciously, "Why?"

Chi Yu said: "Father has no money now, we will learn when we have money."

Chi Xiaoyu let out a muffled "Oh" and stopped making excessive entanglements.Chi Yu stroked the hair on the back of her head, her eyes were slightly moist.

He doesn't know whether his choice of insisting on coming to Taoxian City is correct or not. This place is unfamiliar, and it is not Gaoqi City where he and Chi Xiaoyu have lived for many years. If he hadn't learned about the unjust case by accident, maybe he would have kept it in his heart The most secret emotion, growing up with Xiaoyu in the warm south - he always thought that as early as four years ago, he had already passed his life, but it was because of Xiaoyu that he became a person with a little obsession. The walking dead.

However, fate made him meet Shi Guyuan.

He was lying on the bed, listening to Xiaoyu's even breathing, and under the moonlight, he spread his left palm and looked at the red mole again and again.

What the future looks like, he doesn't know.He lives in the night, secretly, stealthily, collecting a touch of moonlight.

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Shi Guyuan changed the piano the next day, and before he could hand it over to Chi Xiaoyu, he was called away by a phone call from Liu Mian: Zheng Zhongtian's last batch of smuggled cars should have entered Hong Kong today, but the customs changed the piano. After the newcomers were approved, they actively responded to the call of the central government and intensified the crackdown on smuggling. The smuggling boats did not dare to dock. After a few days of waiting and watching, they simply returned.The other party was still very unreasonable, and refused to refund the deposit, and refused to deliver the goods. Anyway, there was the Pacific Ocean in the middle, and no matter how far Shi Guyuan dropped the teacup, it would not fall into the Western Hemisphere.

So after Zheng Zhongtian's first seven days, Shi Guyuan personally traveled to the United States to fight with foreign bastards.After finally negotiating the conditions, when they returned to Taoxian City, the green willows by the river had already sprouted buds.Shi Guyuan found time to send the piano to Chi Xiaoyu, but Chi Xiaoyu lost his excitement, and instead sighed, "Uncle Shi, if you teach me how to play the piano, how much will it cost?"

Shi Guyuan was amused by her stern tone, and said, "How much do you have?"

Chi Xiaoyu dragged her chin, looked at the grass in the distance, thought for a while and said, "I have a whole piggy bank!"

Shi Guyuan sat beside her and asked, "What's the matter, your father won't let you learn?"

Chi Xiaoyu told the truth: "Dad said we have no money and we have to wait, but I can't wait, so I dare not tell him."

Shi Guyuan was thoughtful, and when Chi Yu arrived at the kindergarten, Shi Guyuan sent them home as usual, and chatted about interesting things in the United States. Shi Guyuan changed the subject and said, "Chi Yu, my friend has a house. The __cpLocation is not bad, he is going abroad, so he is in a hurry to rent it out, please help to pay attention to see if there is anyone around you who wants to rent a house, I will leave a phone number for you later, whoever wants to rent, just contact him directly."

Chi Yu asked: "Where is the house? How much is it a month?"

Shi Guyuan said: "It's in the same neighborhood as mine. It's very close to your hospital and Xiaoyu Kindergarten. The price is negotiable." As the certification said, he tilted his head and smiled at Chi Yu while waiting for the red light Next, "If it wasn't for the rush to go abroad, he wouldn't have thought of renting it."

Chi Yu chatted and asked: "Which country do you plan to go to? More and more people are going abroad now, does he plan not to come back?"

Shi Guyuan said: "His wife and children are all in the United States. He just got his green card, so he probably won't come back."

Chi Yu nodded, and before getting out of the car, Shi Guyuan left him a number.On the way back, Shi Guyuan contacted Liu Mian and said, "I gave your phone number to a friend of mine. If he asks you about renting a house, you can take him to Building No. 15. You have the key. Don't mention me."

Liu Mian asked in surprise: "Mr. Shi, do you want to rent a house? How much do you plan to rent and how will you settle the settlement?"

Shi Guyuan said: "Let them say it as low as possible—not too low, lest they get suspicious."

Liu Mian complied, and Shi Guyuan noticed that Liu Mian's background voice was changing cups and toasting each other. He had a score in his mind, and his tone slowed down, "Is it the customs?"

Liu Mian wiped his face: "Well, they understand the old rules."

Shi Guyuan reminded him: "Drink less, don't be too late, remember to take a taxi back, and go to the accounting department for reimbursement tomorrow."

Liu Mian thanked him.After hanging up the phone, Shi Guyuan tapped on his forehead.After entering the building, the security guard stopped him and said that there was mail for him. He opened it as he walked, and there was a letter inside.Shi Guyuan looked at the beautiful handwriting on it, shook his head helplessly and smiled.

At nine o'clock in the evening, the landline at home rang.Shi Guyuan just got out of the shower, put on a bathrobe, picked up the phone and said, "Hello, Xiaoyu."

"Brother, how do you know it's me?"

Shi Guyuan wiped his hair, sat on the sofa, and said with a smile, "What's wrong with you, brother?"

"Oh..." The female voice was soft and clear, "Then do you know what I'm going to do?"

Shi Guyuan said: "You are thinking, should you come back or come back?"

"Brother, you are so annoying!"

Shi Guyuan laughed loudly, folded his legs, and assumed the posture of a long talk: "I'll come back when I'm homesick, book a ticket, and I'll pick you up."

"I want to come back, but not because I'm homesick!" Shi Gufen said, "I wrote you a letter, did you receive it?"

Shi Guyuan held the letter between two fingers, and shook it in front of his eyes, as if his sister could see it: "I just put it away, I haven't had time to read it yet."

"Liar, you must have watched it! I've been admitted to the Royal Ballet, so why don't you say anything?"

Shi Guyuan looked at the surging strokes of the "Royal Ballet" on the letter, and said casually, "I have to wait for you to come back before I can honor it."

Shi Guzhen stood with her head held high in a red telephone booth on the streets of London, like an elegant and proud swan; holding the microphone, she pouted at the girl in the reflective glass: "By the way, how is Dad? His voice sounded like he was not in good health."

Shi Guyuan's father was Zheng Zhongtian. Shi Guyuan put aside the letter and said casually: "Ah, I was busy a while ago, so I didn't have time to tell you that he passed away."

"What?!" Shi Gufen turned pale with shock, "Why didn't anyone tell me!"

"I didn't let you say it. You have to take the exam, for fear that it will affect your performance."

"Shi Guyuan, you bastard!" Shi Guyuan sobbed, "How can you hide such a big matter from me! If I don't ask, when are you going to tell me? Dad when... when? Died? I didn't go back to see him for the last time, he must be very sad!"

Shi Guyuan lowered his eyelashes and took a deep breath: "When you come back, I will take you to worship. Life and death are fate, don't think too much."

Shi Guchen said: "I'm not as cold-blooded as you! I've booked a plane ticket for the day after tomorrow, and you'll take me there as soon as you land!"

Shi Guyuan said "Okay" twice, and when his sister knocked down the phone angrily and mournfully, he stood up with his forehead propped up, fastened the belt of his bathrobe again, and went to play the violin in the study.

The closed door of the study can't stop the beautiful and peaceful "Swan" from flying out. Every wing of this swan is wrapped with rational sadness.