Being-Towards-Death

He is Shi Guyuan again.

He forgot to say goodbye to the boy, and only waved his hands in the boy's shout without looking back; the ocean passed behind him, and the lights on the shore were like cheap artificial gems, not as natural as the bright moon and stars on the sea; he was attached to him The waves are clamoring to go ashore, but they don't know that the scenery on the shore is beautiful, and it is only beautiful when viewed from a distance.Shi Guyuan set foot on the main road, lowered his head to call his sister, but it didn't work; he called William, but it still didn't work.

Anxiety flooded his chest like water, he was looking for Liu Mian's phone, and was almost knocked over by a sudden bicycle.The bicycle disappeared into the horizon like a meteor, and Shi Guyuan found himself walking in the middle of the road.Liu Mian's phone was connected, and there was the sound of pushing a cup and changing a cup.

Shi Guyuan collected himself and said, "Hello, Liu Mian?"

"Hey, Mr. Shi, what's the matter so late?"

Shi Guyuan asked bluntly: "Can you get in touch with Xiaofeng?"

Liu Mian walked out of the box and came to a relatively quiet corridor: "The poles in the practice room were padded for her the day before yesterday, what's wrong?"

Shi Guyuan said angrily: "Then what did you do yesterday and today? I asked you to look at her, and that's how you look at her?!"

Liu Mian felt aggrieved, Shi Gufen was such a big man, and there was a tall and burly William escorting him, how could he be in any danger?That's why Shi Guyuan treats her like a baby.But he quickly adjusted his mentality.Shi Guyuan doesn't get angry easily, and when he gets angry, he just discusses the facts and does not rise to the level of personal attacks.Liu Mian's body and mind were ready in time, and instead of denying the obvious anger, he asked, "Mr. Shi, what's wrong with Xiaofeng?"

Shi Guyuan weakly supported the bench on the side of the road and sat down slowly. He couldn't see whether it was dirty or not in the drowsy night, and he was not in the mood to develop a cleanliness habit. He closed his eyes, tried his best to straighten his trembling voice, and said, "... ...I can't get in touch with her, you hurry to find her, and William."

"Okay, I'll go right away, Mr. Shi, don't worry, nothing will happen."

Liu Mian said it on his lips, but he didn't think so in his heart.Shi Guyuan did not explain the threatening phone call to him in detail——Liu Mian is all-faced, and his mind is like a beehive. In the precarious situation of the company, Shi Guyuan did not want Liu Mian to participate too much in his private life. But thousands of miles away, he couldn't find a suitable candidate for a while, so he had to settle for the second best, and he didn't dare to confide in him.

And Liu Mian has more important matters: the city bureau copied gambling the night after tomorrow, so he hurriedly informed Qian Youdao to close the museum the day after tomorrow.Qian Youdao is a veteran of the world, copied gambling and copied his experience, Liu Mian was relieved; when the wine game was over, Liu Mian saw that it was already early in the morning, and it was not good to disturb Shi Guzhen rashly, so he planned to take a detour before going to work the next day go for a trip.

After talking with Liu Mian, Shi Guyuan rushed back to the hotel to pack his bags, and called to book the nearest flight to Taoxian.Just as he was about to go downstairs to check out, the bell rang again.

Shi Guyuan hoped that it was Liu Mian who had found the news about Xiaofeng, but he saw on the bright green screen the number he had been rubbing day and night and hadn't pressed for a long time.

Shi Guyuan held his breath, his heart beating violently.He hoped that the ringtone could be extended indefinitely, as if Chi Yu was really willing to have a long conversation with him.

But after all, he couldn't restrain his longing, and the irreplaceable voice of the bell sounded in his ears, showing hesitation: "... Guyuan?"

Shi Guyuan couldn't help softening his brows, and said softly, "...it's me."

"Guyuan, do you know where William is?" Chi Yu said, "Today, their kindergarten organizes a movie viewing in the afternoon, and school ends an hour earlier. I have agreed with the teacher, please ask her to accompany Xiaoyu, and I will go there after I get off work. But when I arrived, the teacher said that she had been picked up by William, but I couldn't get through to William's phone number, and neither could Xiaofeng's."

Shi Guyuan opened his mouth, fear was like a bloody vine, climbing and taking root along his bones, grabbing his mind.All his attention was on Shi Guzhen, the cry of a child suddenly seemed like a dream, and this moment came to him along with threats.

"Hello? Guyuan, are you listening? Is the signal not very good..."

"Chi Yu, don't talk now, listen to me," Shi Guyuan stared straight at a square pattern on the floor stand, almost staring at a double image; his breathing may be a little rough, but his voice is still calm, "Xiaoyu is with Xiaoyu now. They have some troubles. I don't know what role William plays in it, but trust me, I will solve it."

"What do you mean? Shi Guyuan, speak clearly! What happened to Xiaoyu! What did you do to her!"

"Chi Yu, calm down—"

"How do you want me to calm down!" Chi Yu roared in the wasteland like a mother beast that lost her cub, "Xiaoyu is my daughter! Now it is my daughter who is gone, not yours, of course you don't care—you have already Knowing that my daughter is missing, for so long, you didn’t tell me—you know—whether you called the police! Did you call the police!!”

"I'm looking for them," Shi Guyuan clenched his fists, trying to control the shaking within a distance invisible to the naked eye, "I'm sorry, Chi Yu, but you can't call the police."

"Why?! Is it related to you? Shi Guyuan, is it because of you!"

Shi Guyuan's heart was throbbing with pain like pinpricks, he put his backpack on his back neatly, and switched the phone to the other hand, as if doing so would change his mood: "I'm still out of town, I'll be back soon." Taoxian, I'll see you as soon as I land—promise me, Chi Yu, promise me, don't call the police."

"If something happens to Xiaoyu—"

"—I pay you with my life."

"--What's the use of me wanting your life?! If Xiaoyu is gone, then I won't be alive!"

"You—" Shi Guyuan paused, stunned for a while, and said softly, "What stupid things... I won't let you have trouble. Trust me."

"How do you make me believe you?" Chi Yu cried desperately, "I dare not... I know you are dangerous, but I still can't control it—I can't help but want to get closer to you, even closer... ,,,, But you shouldn't—you shouldn't drag Xiaoyu into the water...she likes you so much..."

He couldn't go on.

He also knows that this argument is suspected of being vexatious, but human instinct is always so bad, to get the pleasure of catharsis by wantonly hurting the people close to him, and to calm the panic caused by helplessness.

"I'm sorry..." Shi Guyuan could only apologize over and over again, "I'm sorry..." He closed his eyes wearily, "Chi Yu, don't call the police."

He hangs up.He needed a long journey to practice the performance when he met Chi Yu; and Chi Yu couldn't wait for the three hours in the sky, his swelling anxiety, impatience, and panic were about to explode his physical body.He sat on the bed blankly, raised his eyes blankly, and in front of him was Chi Xiaoyu's favorite beauty Sakura. Thinking of whose gift it was, he slowly stood up and held the flower pot, as if he was holding a beating heart, or It was the snow in the north that froze the ice cube of a thousand words and then broke it.

The charge horn sounded, and he was like a soldier who bears the hatred of the country and the family, using his hands as swords, knives, and guns, and his eyes were red on the battlefield of Baishiping; The objects imprinted by Shi Guyuan are waiting to be killed.I don't know how long it took before the gunpowder smoke dissipated, and the scene seemed to be a torn galaxy, disorganized: the cup was broken, the clothes were torn, Chi Xiaoyu's violin corpse was separated... He really hated him.

When Shi Guyuan arrived in the early hours of the morning, facing this unexpected scene, he had no time to unload his bags. He dug out the absent-minded Chi Yu from the broken pieces, and said angrily, "What are you doing!"

Chi Yu grabbed his collar and said hoarsely, "I only want my daughter..."

Shi Guyuan was wearing the thin long-sleeved shirt he wore in Takasaki. Before he got off the plane, he had no time to put on a thick coat. He raised his hand to hail a taxi and rushed to Building 15. He didn't feel the cold all the way.The wind that turns from summer to autumn is just like the ten years that fresh graduates have grown into standing youths. It has gradually changed from honest and gentle to cold and hard. It blows on the hearts of all living beings, but it is smooth, as if the coming winter wind is also Incapable of harming him.

Shi Guyuan slapped Chi Yu's face, and said, "Chi Yu! I'm back! Be sober! Xiao Yu will be fine, listen to me—" He stopped slapping, and cupped his face instead , wiped away tears for him meticulously, "It's my fault, they won't be in danger for the time being, let's make good preparations, I will take you to pick up Xiaoyu later, but you must not go out like this..."

"Who are they?" Chi Yu came back to his senses, his eyes became clear, and he knocked off Shi Guyuan's hand, "You still refuse to tell me everything by this time? She is my daughter! Where is she! What is she doing?" Already?!"

Shi Guyuan opened his mouth - the matter between him and Zhao Tiegang involved too many causes and consequences, he didn't know where to start, but no matter where he started, it would bring out his humble past.

He is good at patience - this seems to be a commendable quality - but the only thing he can't bear is the contempt from Chi Yu.

How he wished that he would stand at the current height when he was born. He would definitely have a brighter future and enough confidence to hold Chi Yu's hand.

Chi Yu didn't wait for an answer, so he sneered miserably, and said, "You still defend him up to now...you really deserve to be a family—do you think I don't know? Zheng Zhichu went to Xu Liwei and asked him to withdraw the lawsuit, otherwise Xiaoyu will be taken into action." You said that nothing can escape your eyes, I don't believe you don't know!"

The accusation was unimaginable, Shi Guyuan did not hesitate at all, and said: "You misunderstood, it wasn't Xiao Chu, I didn't know he went to find Xu Liwei, but this kid is quick to talk at most, he is not bad-hearted, let alone How about Xiaoyu?"

"I don't care what happened between you—don't think I can't see—he cares about you! Are you incest?" Shi Guyuan opened his mouth to argue, but Chi Yu suppressed it even louder, "Or whatever, follow me It’s okay! You are responsible for the dirty things you have done, Xiaoyu is innocent! Give her back to me!!”

Every word is like a hammer hitting the heart, echoing in the closed valley, and it is hard to tell whether it is real or an auditory hallucination.Shi Guyuan gave up resistance.

Whatever, he thought, Chi Yu's first glance at him was mixed with impurity, the only one who could be ranked ahead of Xiao Yu by Chi Yu was his strange younger brother.

So he broke away Chi Yu's hand holding his collar, straightened his body, tried to make himself look more upright and reliable, and said, "It was Zhao Tieqiang who kidnapped Xiao Yu'er and Xiao Fen, and it was Xiao Fen who broke in at the engagement banquet." The person who came, we have some personal grievances, he left Taoxian a while ago, I thought...he won't come back—not so soon, just in the meantime, I have something to figure out, "Shi Guyuan stopped, pursed his lips hard, "Zhao Tieqiang called me and asked me to meet him at the factory in the south of the city at [-] o'clock in the evening, and I will take you with me. Take Xiaoyan away." His gaze fell firmly on Chi Yu's face, "I asked you to learn about bus tickets before, I hope you have almost learned it."

Chi Yu lowered his head, the tips of his hair were in a mess, his eyelashes were wet and glued together, and the color was even darker.

"Calm down, I'll pick you up at night. Remember, don't call the police, this is their request," Shi Guyuan turned and walked to the door. Before leaving, he turned his back to Chi Yu and whispered, "Maybe not When talking about this, but, Chi Yu," his voice gradually faded, "... from beginning to end, only you."

After speaking, he quickly went out, as if he was afraid that a monster would appear behind him in the next second.He went down to the underground garage, found his car and got in, put on a thick coat, and turned on the heater.

He puffed hard on the cigarette, and he reached the end of it after two puffs.His hands were tightly clenched into fists, and he slammed on the steering wheel, once and again.

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At 06:30 in the evening, Shi Guyuan went to the supermarket to buy bread and water, and then told Chi Yu to go downstairs.

When Chi Yu got into the car, Shi Guyuan handed over the bread and water and said, "Eat something."

Chi Yu took it silently, without opening it, and said urgently, "Let's go."

Shi Guyuan restrained all his emotions, and the two of them did not have any conversation along the way.The south of the city is an area to be rectified, a gathering area of ​​some factories with large emissions in the early days; as the state-owned enterprises have been weakening year after year, the factories have gradually shut down, and nearby workers have moved out in order to survive. The south of the city has become the most troublesome black spot for the Taoxian government.

There were no street lights along the way, and the navigation was entirely dependent on the lights of Yimapingchuan; the potholed dirt road made the two people in the car feel as if they were experiencing an earthquake, Shi Guyuan slowed down the speed, and slowly advanced into a warehouse with sudden lights in the dark.

He parked the car on the path outside the warehouse, Chi Yu immediately wanted to open the door, but Shi Guyuan grabbed him back: "You wait here, don't come out."

"How can I--"

"Be obedient!" Shi Guyuan said, "Just trust me once, I have dealt with them before, it's safer for me to go alone."

Get out of the car after speaking.

"Guyuan," Chi Yu called him, "I'm sorry for what I said this morning."

Shi Guyuan smiled and jumped out of the car; after walking a few steps, there was a human voice—it was the shouts of men playing cards.As Shi Guyuan walked closer, he could clearly see the large-character slogans painted on the white wall more than ten years ago. The iron pipes on the protruding beams were covered with dark red rust, and the creases were smoked from years of burning coal for heating. Irregular black, there is actually a bird's nest in such a bad corner.

Shi Guyuan raised his hands and walked into the warehouse.

When the lively sound of playing cards came to an abrupt end, his eyes quickly swept across the entire space: there were no figures of Xiaoyu and Xiaoyu, but there was a locker room at the east end of the warehouse; Shi Guyuan was not sure if the two were here, His hands were kept on the side of his head, not daring to act rashly.

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Forgive me for stopping for such a long time. I am really busy with work and time is tight. This chapter is based on various fishing time codes. I originally wanted to finish writing all the abuse points and post them together. In the end, tenosynovitis committed OTZ (text migrant workers Sad Sang...) So... let's put these first.

Next, the small watch will drop because of work, and it will fall irregularly for a long time, but trust me!Just like Erkang promised Ziwei, he promised to believe in me!This article will never be pitted! !Never will! !Never will! !

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