Being-Towards-Death

The wound at the end of the eye looks terrible, and the blood flow is also very fierce. In fact, no nerve is injured, and it is not serious, but I don't know if it will leave a scar.Even so, Zheng Zhichu's concern was chaotic, registering, paying the bill, getting medicine and finding a doctor, all busy back and forth; when Shi Guyuan treated his wound and was discharged from the hospital, he followed behind step by step, like a depressed dog in the water; Shi Guyuan Feeling sorry for his appearance, he was really in no mood to comfort him, so he sent him back.

Zheng Zhichu bowed his eyebrows and quit: "Where are you going, I'll see you off."

Shi Guyuan frowned and said, "I'm going back to the company, you don't have to follow."

Zheng Zhichu acted in a natural way: "It just so happens that I also want to go back to the company. This is also my company, so you can't kick me out."

Shi Guyuan squinted half of his eyes, and smiled angrily: "Now that I think about it, this is your company?"

Zheng Zhichu turned a deaf ear, looked up at the sky, the morning sun hung high like a demon mirror, and the awkward guilt in his heart was spread out under the blue sky and white sun, fully revealing.Zheng Zhichu became annoyed for no reason, but when he saw Shi Guyuan's eyes covered with gauze, he was discouraged again, and said, "It's noon, why don't you go eat first? Let's go back together after dinner."

Young people have a fast metabolism.Shi Guyuan said helplessly: "Let's go, but let's talk about it first." He pointed to his eyes, "I can only eat light food like this. If you can eat, you can come with me. If you can't eat, you can find a place by yourself." Let's go."

Although Zheng Zhichu said that he would not be low-key and small, but he made mistakes first, so he had to suppress his temper and make up for it; after dinner, Shi Guyuan returned to the office, still couldn't help it, and asked the secretary for a mirror to look left and right .

Zheng Zhichu stood far away, opened a can of fruit juice, and lubricated his throat before he dared to say: "Don't watch it, it makes you feel panicked, why don't you watch it. If you want me to say that you are disfigured , break through your pretty face, and I don't dislike you either."

Shi Guyuan felt that the communication with him was extremely difficult, so he said: "You don't have to look for trouble, and whoever I do with is out of your control."

"you--!!"

"Why, do you still want to smash a glass?"

Zheng Zhichu felt sorry for the reason, not only didn't get rid of his firecracker temper, on the contrary, he restrained his anger and said, "...I'm sorry, why don't you?"

The sound was like a mosquito, but Shi Guyuan still heard it clearly; Shi Guyuan buckled the mirror, took out glasses from the drawer and put them on to cover the wound, and then went to review the contract as usual.Zheng Zhichu rubbed against him, swaying from side to side, like a huge fly circling around; Shi Guyuan was so annoyed, he put down his pen and said, "Find a stool to sit on, it makes my head hurt."

Zheng Zhichu moved a chair and insisted on sitting next to Shi Guyuan; Shi Guyuan glanced at him, handed him a few draft contracts with a normal face, and said, "If you must stay here, keep quiet, I will I don’t have time to talk to you, you should read these first, and write on what you don’t understand.”

Zheng Zhichu looked through the light like a treasure, and said, "I don't understand anything, just explain it to me now."

"You look first."

Zheng Zhichu pulled away the goose-like neck, and his eyes fell on Shi Guyuan's slender and strong hands: "What are you writing?"

Shi Guyuan took a deep breath, not to argue with him, spread his free palm with five fingers, covered Zheng Zhichu's face and pushed back: "Why didn't you find out before, you talk so much?"

Zheng Zhichu leaned back to his hand again, and looked at him from bottom to top: "I didn't realize it before, and you're not that annoying."

Shi Guyuan said: "You should continue to hate me."

"why?"

Shi Guyuan said: "Remember eating but not beating."

Zheng Zhichu suddenly realized, straightened up and pulled him back, "Anyway, you are no longer a young child, nor my own brother, so what are you so embarrassed about? Besides, that Chi Yu is not as good-looking as me, nor as young as me, and his physical strength is definitely not as good as mine." I, I don’t have any money, and bring a bottle of oil, you are blind to like him? If he saved you, I will save you this time, do you have to repay me? "

Shi Guyuan thought that his knowledge was mediocre, but at this moment he had the absurd feeling that a scholar met a soldier: "What nonsense, you have a good time in the Jinlou, why are you always thinking about me?"

"Why are you so happy that I went to sell the gold building?" Young Master Zheng was very unhappy, deliberately annoyed him, "They are not as good-looking as you, and they are not fun to play with."

Shi Guyuan snorted coldly, too lazy to talk nonsense with him; Zheng Zhichu couldn't get enough of it, and continued to mess around; Shi Guyuan put up the document and knocked on his head, saying, "Quiet!"

Zheng Zhichu rubbed his head, held the draft and kept to himself. During the period, he asked a few low-level questions, but Shi Guyuan explained to him meticulously; Condensed his mind and studied it seriously.

In the evening, Shi Guyuan finally raised his head, tidying up his things and leaving get off work; Zheng Zhichu was bored all day, finally waited until Shi Guyuan moved, and hurriedly said: "You want to go? Come home with me. You see, I still have so many Haven't finished it yet."

He dusted off the rough draft, wagging his tail to try to be nice to Shi Guyuan; Shi Guyuan said unexpectedly: "You have changed your temper today, it's really rare."

Zheng Zhichu said: "I dare to act bravely. It is my fault to hurt you. Why don't I take care of you these few days."

Shi Guyuan looked at him more pleasingly, and said: "You take care of me, why don't you take me away? If you can be as peaceful every day as today, my injury will not be in vain. It's alright, alright, hurry back Come home, Aunt Liu must have cooked for you."

Zheng Zhichu's face was sullen, his eyes full of surly: "What about you, are you still rushing to find Chi Yu?"

Shi Guyuan admitted generously: "Yeah. Hurry up and go home, I'm leaving first."

"Shi Guyuan!"

Zheng Zhichu grabbed his arm, and Shi Guyuan pulled back hard; Zheng Zhichu used his force to press Shi Guyuan against the door, gnashing his teeth: "You fucking want to piss me off?!"

As he said that, he tore off the collar with one hand, and the other hand was already sliding on Shi Guyuan's back.

Shi Guyuan bent his knees to push away Zheng Zhichu's stomach, then kicked him again, pointed at him, and said without hesitation: "Bastard! I think you are trying to piss me off!"

Zheng Zhichu didn't realize that he was wrong, so he stiffened his neck and was angry; Shi Guyuan fastened his buttons, and rushed up with a burst of anger, his voice became hoarse: "Then fuck——then it's your father!!"

"What's wrong with my dad? You are still adopted by him in name, why don't you go to bed with him as usual! Why can't I if he can do it - why can Chi Yu do it, but I still can't?!"

"You are his son! This is fucking incest!"

"You are his son too! When you slept with him, why didn't you think of propriety, righteousness and shame, and now you actually teach me the opposite!"

"How dare you fucking say that!"

Shi Guyuan slapped him mercilessly on the face, the sound was crisp and loud like fried firecrackers, Zheng Zhichu's face immediately had five red marks, I don't know if it affected the lacrimal gland, or it was just because of the pain, Zheng Zhichu His eyes widened as hard as he could, but water leaked from the red eye sockets.

"You let me down so much," Shi Guyuan said, "I don't want to see you again, and you are not allowed to enter my office in the future!"

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Sitting in the car, Shi Guyuan didn't start the car immediately, but leaned tiredly in the driver's seat, covered his eyes with his back, and sighed deeply.

You must let him talk to this point, you must embarrass both of them, you must push each other farther and farther, you must let him cut open the scab again——Shi Guyuan laughed at himself I thought to myself, if he didn't go to Ci'en Temple to burn incense and worship Buddha every year, and donate a lot of incense money, what kind of unlucky would he be?

Shi Guyuan never hated Zheng Zhichu, more often he didn't take him seriously, but when mentioning him, the first thing Shi Guyuan thought of was that this was his few remaining relatives.

He hated Zheng Zhongtian, but he couldn't forget the first meal Zheng Zhongtian gave him and his sister.During that time, he really respected and loved this elder, and he also really loved Zheng Zhichu, a younger brother, because he didn't understand at that time that survival is the exchange of prices between people, and the debts owed will one day be repaid. Return with interest.

So his indifference is not natural, just like dancing on the tip of a knife every day is also a condition for his extravagant living; he is like the hair in the ground, the algae in the deep sea, a ray of light accidentally glimpsed in the dark and damp, dry and warm, Only then did he know that in the world, there will really be sacrifices without regard for returns.

Shi Guyuan's eyes softened, he took his arm away, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up; he checked the time, then kicked the accelerator and drove towards the hospital in the suburbs.

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Chi Yu had an impromptu report meeting in the afternoon, which delayed getting off work for a while.Shi Guyuan said earlier that he would pick him up at night and wait for Xiaoyu to leave school. Chi Yu couldn't wish for it. After reporting the progress of the research, he began to return to his heart; He bowed his head and sent a text message to Shi Guyuan, explaining the situation to him, and Shi Guyuan replied: Don't worry, I'll wait for you in your office.

Chi Yu's mood suddenly became more at ease, his face was sullen; the colleague next to him who was also absent-minded saw this, and asked kindly, "Girlfriend?"

Chi Yu was taken aback for a moment, before he could hide his smile, he denied it flatly: "No."

"Looking at your grin like a lotus flower, I thought it was a girlfriend." No one in the stands paid attention to them, so he said, "Didn't you want to find another one?"

Chi Yu was silent for a moment, and said, "Wait until my daughter is older."

"If you want me to say, if you have a suitable one, you should go with it first, but you must have a thorough understanding of the foundation before considering marriage; this person is not sincere."

Chi Yu smiled faintly, lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking, his soul had already flown away; the remaining colleague lacked interest and yawned profusely.

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When Shi Guyuan entered the hospital, he received many condolences and attention gifts along the way; he talked with a few acquaintances for a while, and all of them cared about his eyes.Shi Guyuan only said that he was not careful, and when he entered Chi Yu's office and was alone, he finally couldn't get over the knot in his heart, and looked in the mirror again.

There are glasses blocking it, and after a few days when the gauze is taken off, it won't be so conspicuous; Shi Guyuan put on his glasses and visited Chi Yu's site idly.Getting to know someone you like is like digging out money from clothes you haven't worn for a long time. Even if it is a steel coin, it is also a joy.

Shi Guyuan picked up the white coat on the back of the chair, shook it away, and saw Chi Yu's breastplate hanging on it; suddenly remembered that in Chi Yu's painting, there was a picture of him wearing glasses and a white coat , He put on his coat by a strange coincidence, and combed his hair again in front of the mirror, and then looked at the cabinets one by one.

The test products were neatly stacked on the trays in the cabinet. Shi Guyuan pressed the door of the cabinet and curiously chose the middle one to check; the small bottle was not as long as a thumb, and the liquid inside was as clear as ordinary water ——

"Don't move that!"

Shi Guyuan turned his face and saw that Chi Yu had just opened the door and came in, and said with a smile, "What's wrong?"

In the afterglow of the setting sun outside the window, Shi Guyuan seems to be a silhouette pushed out from it; the white gown is transparent, and the outline is also trimmed with gold edges, shining brightly, like a visitor from heaven.

Chi Yu was in a trance for a while, as if falling into a dream; Shi Guyuan stepped forward, raised his hand and waved in front of his eyes, couldn't help laughing: "Why do you make people stupid in a meeting?"

Chi Yu was shocked, came back to his senses, snatched the small bottle from Shi Guyuan's hand, and said, "Don't touch this."

He put it back carefully, Shi Guyuan asked: "What is this?"

Chi Yu said seriously: "It contains potassium, such a small bottle is enough to poison an elephant to death."

Shi Guyuan said: "What have you been studying all day long, and you have even researched poison."

Chi Yu said: "It's the medicine that divides the poison into three parts, and the poison doesn't divide the family."

After finishing speaking, his eyes kept drifting to Shi Guyuan's clothes.

Shi Guyuan put his hands in his pockets, and said calmly: "Didn't you always want to see my image, how is it, are you satisfied?"

Chi Yu's eyes were flickering, he turned his eyes away, with a gloomy brow.

Shi Guyuan also frowned, raised his hand to stroke Chi Yu's brow, and said, "...What are you worrying about?"

"It's nothing."

"The first time I saw you, I wanted to ask; after so long, you are still like this."

"..."

"...If you don't want to say it, forget it——hmm!"

The soft touch of the lips touching each other made Shi Guyuan stunned for a moment, they were very close, close at hand, close to the eyelashes, so close that the eyelashes touched each other, so close that they breathed together.

No one remembers the time of a kiss, it can be as long as a big tree, or as short as a mayfly, it all depends on one's state of mind.But no matter how long or short it is, it is enough to make people memorable.

After parting, Shi Guyuan licked his lips and jokingly said, "Is this the reason for your depression?"

Chi Yu said softly, "I owe you this."

"You……"

"What's wrong with your eyes?"

"I accidentally touched it," Shi Guyuan said, "It's okay."

Chi Yu didn't break through this perfunctory remark; he held Shi Guyuan's jaw and inspected it carefully, and said, "I'll change your medicine tonight."

Shi Guyuan smiled and said, "Okay."

After finishing dressing up, the two walked out of the hospital talking and laughing.At a red light on the road, Shi Guyuan stepped on the brakes, turned his head suddenly, and said to Chi Yu, "There are surveillance cameras in the office."

Chi Yu said: "Who will turn to the monitoring when nothing happens."

Shi Guyuan smiled so much that his teeth were exposed, and his dimples were clearly visible: "There is no surveillance in the car."

Chi Yu pursed his lips, deliberately waited until the moment when the red light turned green, pulled Shi Guyuan's head, and kissed him carelessly the way Chi Xiaoyu kissed him.