Flick of the Fingers--Tan Hua

When the clock struck twelve, Li Sayu woke up.He didn't know how long he slept.

The person sitting by the bed smiled tenderly at him with a thoughtful face.

Li Sayu turned his face away and covered his eyes with tired hands. "I'm hallucinating again...but it's good to be able to see you, even if it's a hallucination."

He smiled at him.He stretched out his hand: "Can you come to me? Let me get closer to you, okay?"

Zhou Hong got up and took off his shoes, got under the quilt, and hugged the person next to him.

Li Sayu buried his head on Zhou Hong's chest, and said in a light voice, "I have seen you in hallucinations more than once, but it's the first time you hug me. I'm so happy."

Zhou Hong put his hands on his head, stroking his black hair one by one. "Don't be afraid, I'm back. I will hug you every day from now on."

Li Sayu looked up at him: "Really? Are you not angry with me anymore?"

Before Zhou Hong could answer, he had already sat up by himself, his expression was no longer sweet and shy, and he said anxiously: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to break the appointment, I am willing to go anywhere with you, but my brother is sick, I can't Abandon him and mother. I'm sorry! Can you wait for me? Wait until my brother recovers from his illness..."

Zhou Hong held him in his arms: "Fool, I don't blame you. I'll wait for you for as long as I want."

Li Sayu said: "You hate me...otherwise, why don't you want to see me, refuse to listen to my explanation, and still want to get married?"

Zhou Hong had nothing to say.

Li Sayu said to himself: "Since it's an illusion, it shouldn't matter if I'm self-willed... Zhou Hong, don't get married, okay? Me, I'm very sad. I don't want to see you marry someone else."

Zhou Hong hugged him and put his chin on his head: "OK."

Li Sayu got the answer, but he looked disappointed: "It's a pity that I gave the ring to someone else in exchange for money."

Zhou Hong said: "It doesn't matter, when you are well, let's choose together."

Li Sayu became happy: "You said it! I want to go to the playground, can you, you promised me, take me to the playground."

This was a promise that was too late to keep. Ten years ago, he promised him, but it turned out to be a lie in the end.

"Okay. Go to the playground. I will accompany you wherever you want to go. I will listen to whatever you want to say. I will never leave you behind."

Li Sayu smiled, and nestled obediently in Zhou Hong's arms, like a big cat.

Zhou Hong thought he fell asleep again.Suddenly I heard a muffled voice coming from my chest: "Do you know, in fact, I found something growing in my head a long time ago, but I made a bet with myself, if you come back, I will receive treatment, so that we You can go to see flowers together, go skiing together, start a family together, teach him to ride a bicycle; if you don’t come back, then I’m not interesting by myself...fortunately, you’re here, I’ll go tomorrow Hospital. I'll be fine, and this time, you can't leave me behind."

Zhou Hong closed his eyes, suppressing the pain in his voice: "Okay, go to the hospital tomorrow. Go to sleep, and I will take you there when you wake up."

Li Sayu opened a pair of eyes that seemed bigger due to weight loss, they were exceptionally clear, and looked at Zhou Hong without blinking: "No, I don't sleep, when I wake up, I won't be able to see your hallucinations."

Zhou Hong smiled softly: "It's okay, I will be there when you wake up. I promise. I will never lie to you."

Li Sayu looked at him for a long time, as if to confirm that what he said was true, finally lay down, stretched out his hand to touch the red rose on the quilt, and closed his eyes with peace of mind.

Zhou Hong hugged him, stroking his head tenderly.No sleepiness at all.At this moment, he finally calmed down, whether it was the demons that almost destroyed him and Li Sayu ten years ago, or all the hesitation, anxiety, panic and jealousy ten years later, they all became calm.He finally knew that after so many years of hard work, the peace he was looking for had already been obtained.

It's just morning bells and evening drums, heard day and night.

Zhou Hong was finally able to quietly recall being submerged in the prosperity of the past.

From Li Sayu's silent and proud back, to his tenderness begging for mercy under him; from the sycamore trees covering the sky on the sidewalk, to the red roses in the back seat of the car; "Dream Wedding"; from the drawings of fighter planes drawn with pencils to the promises that cannot be fulfilled... Half of my life is full of chaos, full of hustle and bustle.

It turns out that peace is not born, it is just a burnt wasteland.

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