Today, the cubs of the Oda family are also ordinary

As Oda expected, Dazai hung up the phone almost without thinking.

After the conversation was successfully concluded, Oda was about to close his phone when he saw Dazai send him a "rolling eye" expression, followed by a complaint with a strong sense of complaint - "You asked me to connect to the one I just clicked. Couldn't drink a glass of whiskey."

Oda carefully read the text message twice before putting his phone back in his pocket.

Successfully avoided the topic.

If you ask, if he dies, among all the people he knows, who is Oda most worried about.

Oda thought about it, and found that what he was most worried about was Osamu Dazai who was talking to him.This answer was not surprising, and Oda took it for granted that he would have such thoughts.

This is not to say that Osamu Dazai is as fragile as paper, unable to withstand the death of a friend; nor is it that Osamu Dazai is a person who cannot take good care of himself.

Oda believes that Dazai can live a life without him in the past, so in the days without him in the future, Dazai will not say "I don't have any meaning to live without you", he will still Continue to live life at your own pace.

However, this made it difficult for Oda Sakunosuke to explain why he was worried about Osamu Dazai.

After all, it seemed, there was nothing to worry about him.

Moreover, the lives of him and Osamu Dazai were originally like two parallel lines, only because some things began to gallop forward in the same direction.In these two lives, he can see Dazai, and Dazai can also see him, but they rarely interfere with each other.

Dazai is smart and transparent, and he also seeks the meaning of life and living in his own way.And Oda himself seldom opens his mouth to stop what Osamu Dazai wants to do, because he has no right to comment on other people's lives, not to mention that he himself is a shallow and boring person.

just one day—

It was about three years ago when I was working under Osamu Dazai.

Osamu Dazai stood on the overpass, propped his chin, and looked down at the traffic on the highway below.His iris-colored pupils are hollow, as if penetrating the substance of matter until reaching other, deeper, invisible and intangible things.Oda himself stood next to him, watching the traffic under the overpass.

"Odasaku, if I die, will you laugh?"

The "laughter" here does not refer to an explicit state, but a state of mind, which refers to a mood, joyful, refreshing, liberated, and free and easy.Any good emotion can be associated with it.

Osamu Dazai paused, with a tired and loose look on his brows, and said slowly: "People, they obviously don't understand each other at all, and they see each other wrongly, but they regard each other as unique best friends. They have never been together in this life. You will understand the true nature of the other party, and when one party passes away, you will cry and recite the eulogy.*”

He, is he perfecting his personality, or satisfying his affection?

But people always pursue these formalisms to satisfy themselves.Even if the person who died knew that the other party was not completely sincere, he still hoped that the other party would shed tears for him. After all, he also treated the other party as a close friend.So at least such a small reward should be obtained, even if it is false.People are really weak. "

Osamu Dazai maintained a long silence, and finally looked in the direction of Oda Sakunosuke: "Aren't you going to say something? Don't you have any ideas?"

Oda Sakunosuke didn't quite remember what he said at the beginning, but the answer was basically the same.

"I just think it's good to be myself. Whether the other party is true or not, what does it matter to me? Dazai-kun would think so, is he trying to get something from others?"

He was sure that Osamu Dazai was eager to pursue something, but Dazai even wanted to deny this idea.

Dazai Osamu's kite pupils widened slightly, finally turned his head, and after a moment of silence, he said, "I'm giving you a serious warning, this is considered malicious speculation. I Dazai Osamu, would I want anything?"

meeting.

Oda has always thought so, but never said it like this again.

Osamu Dazai has always been a blunt person.So for a long time, Oda felt that he always made Osamu Dazai unhappy. At least every time he saw him, he would always have a blunt and alienated attitude, not like facing Nakahara Chuya. An animated gesture.Therefore, when Hirotsu Yanagi said that Dazai actually liked him quite a lot, Oda was more surprised than grateful.

Probably from that time when he pretended to swallow a gun, that is, when he met Chief Mori and asked himself if he thought he was suitable to be a Mafia member, Oda saw Nakahara Chuya who was panicking, and also saw the Osamu Dazai next to him is like a lost child who doesn't know what to do.

When Oda saw that expression, he felt a pain in his heart, and felt sorry, he shouldn't make such a joke, especially in front of Osamu Dazai.It would be great if I could help Dazai a little bit.He thought so, but Osamu Dazai's heart was always closed, even if some flaws were leaked in the previous second, he could perfectly remain indifferent in the next second.

So Oda never knew how to help him.

Rather than saying it, it is more practical to do it.

If he stayed in Ganghei to find something, Oda wanted to help him find it until he found it.

That night, however, during a family meeting where the family was discussing whether Oda would become a full-time writer, he received several calls from Osamu Dazai.At first it was still connected, but he didn't speak; the next two times when he got connected in Oda, he immediately disconnected.

Inexplicably, Oda understood Dazai Osamu's hesitation to speak, so he waited patiently.

Until Dazai finally sent a text message - "When are you willing to tell me that you are a novelist", Oda Sakunosuke does not want life and work to be mixed together, everyone's position in his mind is a rule Well, no matter how good the relationship is with some people, they can't say certain things; some people can still pour out their hearts and souls even if they just meet by chance.For Osamu Dazai, he is like treating other Hong Kong and black colleagues, and he will not say what he has done.

But Oda Sakunosuke still chose "Oda Saku" as his pen name, which only Osamu Dazai would call out. Although there are elements of laziness and some elements of being unable to think of what name to choose, Oda has also thought about it. man, he would know.If he saw this name, even if the whole world didn't tell him, he would know the truth immediately.

Oda also knows that he will be inexplicably obsessed with some meaningless things, such as insisting that the public and private should not be confused, such as insisting that he is still a member of the Mafia, and will not tell any Hong Kong gang members that he writes novels, such as that he will never kill people .But he can't change these stubbornness, just like everyone has their own persistence and principles, even if it doesn't make sense, he can't go beyond this step by himself.

What a smart man Dazai is.

He knew that Oda was not suitable to be a member of Hong Kong gangsters.

Oda has no way to kill people, and Dazai also knows that if Oda himself breaks the ban, it may not only bring changes in life, but also a deadly frustration that he will not be able to write again psychologically.

He posted a picture of "Rain".

He said, "I've already bought it, but you didn't tell me you wrote it. What's the point of reading it. Don't let me waste my money, Odasaku. This is a serious warning!"

Dazai was pushing himself to make a quick decision not to look back.

Oda sent a sentence - "now".

He will tell Dazai now that he is Odasaku, the Odasaku who wrote "Rain", and the Odasaku who wants to become a novelist.

That night, Oda took the initiative to contact Dazai again.

"You are a good person."

Despite the layers of camouflage, he is a kind and gentle person with a soft heart.

Osamu Dazai sent a passage——

"There are no more than two reasons in this world to think that the other party is a good person:

One, the other party is a person of real noble character; two, this person treats oneself well.

I must not be the former, then I probably did something to make you think I was nice to you.Otherwise you wouldn't have such naive and ridiculous ideas.That being the case, Odasaku, you should never forget my kindness to you. "

"Even if you don't say that, I won't forget you."

……

There are always such people in the world, you may not be able to get close to him heart to heart, but you still want to protect him and remember all the trivial things about him.

Oda knows that this is not the category of friendship, but beyond friendship, which is difficult to define.

This matter also troubled him for a while, until he met the young manga artist Yumeno Sakiko, who told Oda exactly what this unusual feeling was.

Yumeno Sakiko's real identity is a male college student named Nozaki Umetaro, but his works are so emotional that Sakiko Yumeno has always been known as "the spokesperson of the girl's heart/emotional master" among readers.

The Mengye teacher answered Oda's questions in a professional tone.

"Even if there is always a estrangement between each other, they don't think about staying away from each other. And he still won't express his concern for you, and you will give him as always. You think this relationship is far more than friendship, but it can't be defined ——

The answer is actually quite obvious.

I can't call it "maternity" because you are a man.But in fact, it has the same root and the same origin, which is exactly the same, that is, father's love, which is the indescribable feeling of a father towards his children, like mountains and seas. "

"Oh!!!!!"

Oda understood.

However, Dazai probably doesn't like being treated like a child, so Oda didn't tell Dazai what he really thinks.Needless to say, just go on like this, and it will be fine.

……

Just as Oda finished answering the phone, there was a scorching sound coming from the stairs.

"Sakunosuke, I saw them start to move, hurry up and hide!"

"Um--"

Oda was about to go downstairs when he suddenly found unclear fingerprints on the wall of the stairs.Although he didn't take the escape ladder when he went down to the bottom floor, so he didn't know if there was a big change here, but the fingerprints on the wall were so new that they weren't even covered by dust.

Is anyone here?

Why are you here?

Did you leave?

With doubts, Oda continued to go to the mortuary.