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"You...you seem to be in a better mood today, is it because he came?" Yu Jun asked him with a light smile, shaking his wine glass lightly.

"Huh? Did I look in a bad mood before?" Mo Xu put down his knife and fork, took a sip of his wine, and lowered his eyes to cover his sight.

"Because of the contrast, there are few people and things you care about, so you hardly have anything on your mind. But recently, you have been worrying about something, but after he came today, that kind of feeling A little faded."

Yu Jun put down his wine glass and looked at him very seriously: "You care about him very much." With affirmative words, there is no need to ask any more, he is very sure that no one can match the weight of that person in his heart.

Mo Xu looked at the wine glass in his hand, lowered his eyes and smiled: "Yes, I care about him a lot."

"you like him?"

Mo Xu looked up at him, just smiled and didn't speak, Yu Jun looked at him for a while, then smiled relieved: "I understand, I'm sorry, I seem to have done something I shouldn't, I hope he doesn't mind, we will only be friend."

The assistant drove Mo Xu back to the hotel, and he went to Li Xun's room. Li Xun had just taken a shower, and his hair was still wet in a bathrobe. Mo Xu found a towel, wiped his hair, and asked him, "Have you eaten yet?" ?"

"I've eaten it. Xiaomi brought it over. She looked at me and took the medicine." Speaking of which, in the past, he often wiped Mo Xu's hair. After Mo Xu knew that he was sick, many things changed Come over, now more, it is Mo Xu who is taking care of him, he takes Mo Xu's hand, pulls him in front of him, and hugs him, "Little Mo, are you still as good as before? I'm just sick , it’s not that I can’t take care of myself, I can still take care of you.”

Mo Xu lay on his shoulders, hugged his waist, lost weight again...

"I know, you take good care of me, so good that you ignore yourself, so now, I want to take care of you, you don't have to think about anything, you just need to think about me, you look at me by my side , I feel that I am alive."

"What nonsense, you can live well without me, and you will live well in the future, okay?" Mo Xu was too dependent on him, what he just said suddenly reminded him that he would be gone a year later, Mo Xu What should I do next?Not sure if he will have the idea of ​​committing suicide...

Mo Xu raised his head, held his face, and said seriously: "Li Xun, I'm serious, if you hadn't been with me all the time, I really don't know what I would degenerate into now, such a hard life For a few years, if it weren't for you, I really wouldn't be able to hold on, you have already integrated into my life, you are my life, and you are the reason why I live."

He listened to him quietly, smiled faintly, then tightened his grip, and whispered in his ear: "What should I do? Mo Xu, I just hope you are well, even without me, you There is still a long life, you will meet many people, you will meet people who care about you more than me, you should be happy in the future, you should not always be trapped in a cage named Li Xun, So, what should I do? What should I do so that you can let me go..."

"No... I won't meet anyone better than you again. This cage is too strong. No matter what I do, I can't get out. So, Li Xun, try to live longer, even if It’s very painful, please persevere, don’t leave me alone, it’s too painful, I’m not that strong, I’m also very selfish, I can’t go on by myself, you stay with me, even if it’s painful, you stay with me Look at me..." Mo Xu looked at him and smiled, that smile was very fragile, as if it would turn into tears if touched a little bit, Li Xun held the corner of his mouth, trying to keep his smile, but he Because of himself, he gradually lost his smile, and he hated it a little, but who should he hate?alone……?My body is made like this because I don't care too much, I always feel that I am still young, very healthy, and I can work hard, so I am like this...

Panic... He had to think of a way, he didn't have much time, even if he really wanted to be with him for a long time, but reality was reality, no matter how extravagantly he hoped, there would be no miracle, Mo Xu couldn't keep relying on him like this, he After death, there must be something, so that he can continue to live, it may be very painful, but after a long time, he may forget, he will still live a good life, but without him, he hugged Mo Xu tightly, Frowning and thinking, what should I do?If only there was some way to distract him during that time...

He patted him on the back lightly, and responded to him: "Okay, I'll be with you, I will try my best to live longer, even if you are tired of me, I will not leave, okay, let's not talk about this makes people uncomfortable It's time to talk about it, um... tell me about you recently, have you had a good relationship with Yu Jun recently? How about others? "

Mo Xu frowned slightly and thought about it: "Yu Jun...you have met him before, he is very nice and can be a friend."

"Well... what did you talk about today, he seems to like you very much."

"It's nothing, just some work matters. It's not easy to make friends in this circle, and it's even more difficult to have a friend who can talk with confidence. He may think, maybe I can have a deep friendship?"

Li Xun thought for a while, then nodded: "If you keep in touch for a while, if you think it's okay, you can try to have a deep friendship. Yu Jun is not bad, and I can rest assured that he will accompany you in the future."

Mo Xu stared at him and tilted his head with a smile: "Li Xun, why do I feel a little wrong when I hear your words?"

Li Xun hesitated, want to say?Tell me now whether he will be angry, but if you don't say it now, when will you have to wait?Wait till you die?When you die, it's too late...

His Adam's apple rolled, and he turned his face slightly, lowering his eyes: "...Yu Jun, he likes boys, maybe, in the future...you can try to date..."

Mo continued to stay silent, looked at him with a smile for a while, and then pushed him away: "So, you mean you don't want me anymore, don't you?"

He took a few steps back again, "Push me to someone else, just like this, the distance from you is getting farther and farther until I can't hold it anymore, are you willing? If I go to like someone else, if I go with Don't you care about other people hugging, kissing, and even...doing those things? Will you be happy?"

He stopped in his tracks, "But Li Xun, no matter whether you are reluctant or happy, I will not be happy. Since you thought about pushing me away, I am very unhappy."

He pointed to the position of the heart, "Here, it's like being stabbed by you, it hurts... You can't, think about how to hold me tighter, you can't, don't always think about who can Take your place? Can't you, okay, don't think about anything, just simply stay with me?"

He lowered his head, his bangs covered his eyes, and he smiled palely: "Li Xun, who allowed you to let me go...?"

"...If I could, how could I let you go and push you to someone else? Facing the reality, I am more afraid that you will have a bad life in the future. I have nothing left after I die, and I will never know anything, but you are still alive, and living is always more painful than dying, so I think... If you can There is a person, if you like someone else, if there is another person who can accompany you to comfort you, maybe...you won't be so painful..." He looked at Mo Xu who was standing by the door and distanced himself from him, obviously Right in front of my eyes, I could hug him in two steps, but why does my heart hurt so much?The pain made my whole body stiff and I couldn't move a step. Is it because of the resistance and alienation that Mo Xu has shown since just now...?

"Since you are so reluctant!" Mo Xu suddenly raised his voice, raised his head and looked at him with red eyes: "Then hold on to me! Why do you like others? Li Xun, tell me, my brain, my heart, my body , My whole soul is engraved with the name Li Xun! How can I do it before liking other people! I can't do it..." He raised his hand to wipe his tears, "You don't have to wait until you die, you It hurts me right now, you don't want me anymore, I'm so sad that I'm dying, this is my reality..."

He turned around and slammed the door and went out, it was so uncomfortable... He was so painful that he could hardly breathe, he leaned against the wall outside the door, trying to calm down his emotions, Li Xun didn't chase him out, Xiaomi looked at him worriedly.

"what's up?"

"...No, I passed by, and I heard that there was arguing..." Xiaomi said cautiously, afraid of intensifying his emotions.

"It's okay, you can go back, I want to be alone for a while." Mo Xu turned his face away, so as not to let her see his red eyes.

"Well, okay..." Xiaomi went back, looked at him worriedly before entering the room, and couldn't help but say, "Well, Mr. Mo, the hotel is full of people, don't stay in the corridor for too long."

"Well, I see." Xiaomi entered the room, closed the door, he let out a sigh of relief, reached into his pocket to find nothing, yes, although he also smokes now, but when he saw Li Xun, he He never took it, and was a little irritable and unable to relieve it. He walked a few steps in place, kicked the wall, and then went to knock on Li Xun's door.

Li Xun opened the door, Mo Xu pushed him in, and when the door closed, Mo Xu hugged him and kissed him hard, as if he was trying to relieve the frustration in his heart, Li Xun also kissed him hard back, as if he wanted to melt him into his own His body and lips suddenly hurt, he backed away with a muffled grunt, Mo Xu bit him, his lips were torn and bled, Mo Xu's mouth was covered with his blood, Mo Xu pursed his lips, stared at him complainingly, and then kissed He licked and sucked the bleeding place gently, the blood was licked off by him, the wound was stinging, he looked down at his sad and distressed expression, kissed his forehead, "I'm sorry... I won't do it again Thinking about letting go of you, you left just now, I feel as if I was abandoned, I was so flustered that I was at a loss, it was really painful..."

"Ah Xun, let's stop arguing about these things. We don't have much time. Why do we waste this little time arguing? We shouldn't be like this... We are clearly in love, why should we?" To quarrel and suffer for unworthy things..."

"I'm sorry... no, never again..."

From now on, I won't let you go until I die...