Mid single, I am blue, don't bark

"Are you so afraid that our relationship will be known by others?"

Lu Ziju's mind was buzzing, and it was Yan Ming's trembling questioning voice, which pierced into his flesh like a needle, and the question made him feel pain.

Is he that afraid?

I don't want to let people around me know, whether it is classmates or family members, is it because I don't want to, or is it because I am afraid that I will be viewed differently by others?

In the whole school, except for Chen Rui who had noticed it before, he didn't mention it to anyone else, and he even avoided it and covered it up.

Is it that blind to the light?

With Yan Ming, there is no law or crime, so why cover it up so much?

Because from the bottom of my heart I feel that they are in an abnormal relationship, I feel from my bottom of my heart that this is a shameful thing that should not be known by others, I feel from my bottom of my heart that they cannot receive blessings from others like normal couples, and I feel that they are afraid of others from my bottom of my heart Criticism and strange eyes.

Thinking about it further, Lu Ziju felt that the relationship between him and Yan Ming, which was as thin and fragile as paper, would collapse without wind.

Love is freedom, liking can be very impulsive and decisive, but reality is a wall of the objective world, which blocks the front, and cannot be crossed or passed.

Lu Ziju sat in front of the seat, the light from the computer shone on his pale face, he was in a daze for a long time, Chen Rui was about to go to bed, and asked him: "Brother Ju, are you still going to take a bath?"

"Oh." Only then did Lu Ziju realize that it was very late, so he took his pajamas and went to take a shower.

When he came back from washing, the lights in the dormitory were turned off, he went to bed lightly, took out his cold cell phone and checked, but there was no message from Yan Ming.

Are you still mad at him?

In this relationship, Yan Ming will act like a baby, play tricks, and do some willful things with arrogance, but he has always followed him in getting along with him, and has never said a serious word to him. This time, he came down several times It really made Yan Ming feel uncomfortable, so he turned black with him.

Lu Ziju felt guilty, but he was a stuffy character with a thin skin, he licked his face and wanted to coax Yan Ming, but he didn't know what to say.

He even wanted to go to Baidu to search for questions and answers about how to apologize.

Searching until one o'clock, I still haven't figured out how to explain it. In a daze, thinking about the morning class tomorrow, my brain hurts, so I put down my phone and forced myself to go to sleep quickly.

The next day, Lu Ziju was uneasy and woke up very early. He closed his eyes on the bed for a while and didn't hear the alarm clock. He touched his phone and found that there was still half an hour before the alarm clock went off.

In the dormitory, Jia Wen was the only one who woke up, and Lu Ziju couldn't fall asleep, so he just got up too.

Knowing that it was still early, he washed slowly, got dressed, took the textbooks for today's class, and prepared to leave the dormitory.

Li Mingzhi got up from the bed like a corpse, poking his head out: "Fuck me? What time is it!"

Chen Rui also woke up in shock: "Why didn't I hear the alarm clock?!"

Lu Ziju opened the door of the dormitory: "It's still early, not too late."

Li Mingzhi breathed a sigh of relief and sat on the bed: "Why do you get up so early?"

"I have something to do." Lu Ziju went out, closed the door, and went to the cafeteria first. There was no one in the cafeteria at the moment, and the breakfast was hot and fresh from the oven. Lu Ziju thought about Yan Ming's favorite breakfast, and bought him cash. Ground soy milk and my favorite leek box.

Yan Ming's learning status has improved recently, and he no longer follows the time to the classroom. Lu Ziju checked the time and calculated that Yan Ming should be up now, and he will be able to go downstairs in 15 minutes.

The chill in the early spring morning was still seamless, Lu Ziju waited for Yan Ming downstairs with his breakfast in his hand, and looked at the people who came downstairs from time to time.

Chen Rui went downstairs. When he saw Lu Ziju, he was stunned: "Brother Ju, why are you still here—oh, are you waiting for Yan Ming?"

Lu Ziju acquiesced.

Chen Rui: "No, I just saw that Yan Ming has left."

Lu Ziju was stunned: "Huh?"

Chen Rui blinked his eyes complicatedly: "Did you guys quarrel?"

Lu Ziju's face was turned pale by the wind, and when he heard Chen Rui's question, he subconsciously shook his head, froze for a moment and nodded again.

Chen Rui knew that his personality was unwilling to talk to him, so he patted him on the shoulder and left first.

Lu Ziju stood for a while longer, feeling overwhelming jealousy and anger.

The jealousy and anger were not choked up all at once, but eroded little by little after knowing it, making it more painful and heart-wrenching.

Lu Ziju felt a great grievance that he had never felt before. It was different from the kind of being favored by his parents. It was a steady stream, and now it has become a habit.

He was so heartbroken that he couldn't do anything, so he ate the chive box he bought for Yan Ming in two bites. He ate too fast, and even choked, his stomach felt uncomfortable, full of dissatisfaction and discomfort, and went to the teaching building go.

This morning's class was English. Lu Ziju entered the classroom 2 minutes before the start of class. He almost stepped on the bell.

Could it be that you didn't even come to class after a few words of confusion? What's the reason for this?

But didn't Chen Rui clearly see him leaving?

Lu Ziju's face was displeased, and with the short sleep time last night, his complexion became even worse, with a bit of gray and decadence, he picked a seat and sat down.

This semester, very few people took the initiative to sit next to him—because those who had a good time with Lu Ziju were more or less "warned" by Yan Ming once, knowing that the seat next to Lu Ziju was his Yan Ming. Ming made a reservation, so he didn't dare to approach without authorization.

Lu Ziju sat alone, threw his textbooks and notebooks on the table, and was in a daze.

When the class bell officially rang, he finally saw Yan Ming coming in next to Zheng Zhe and Zhou Yu. Yan Ming's eyes greeted him when he entered, and met Lu Ziju's eyes.

Yan Ming clearly saw the dissatisfaction in Lu Ziju's eyes, and was startled. It seems that the anger from last night is still there?

Yan Ming averted his eyes and looked elsewhere uncomfortably. He didn't wait for him in class in the morning. It seemed that he was really angry.

He got up a few minutes earlier than usual today. When he went to dormitory 205 to look for Lu Ziju, Li Mingzhi told him that Lu Ziju had left first, and that Lu Ziju was busy.As soon as Yan Ming heard it, he understood that Lu Ziju's business was nothing at all, and he just wanted to avoid him and leave first. His heart sank for half a minute, and he went back to his dormitory and waited for Zhou Yu and the others to leave together.

Zhou Yu also teased him: "Didn't you leave with your family today?"

"You lost your temper with me." Yan Ming said.

Zhou Yu: "Lu Ziju also loses his temper?"

Yan Ming: "Is he still not a human being? Even if he has a temper?"

Zhou Yu was choked, knowing that Yan Ming was in a bad mood, so he shut up obediently and went to wash his face.

Now that I am lingering in the classroom, seeing Lu Ziju's cold face and cold eyes, I suddenly feel that I am dreaming back to the year when I was still unfamiliar with Lu Ziju, and I feel uncomfortable, walking three steps in two Going to Lu Ziju's side, he sat down nervously.

Lu Ziju didn't want to reconcile with him.

Yan Ming saw it.

The English teacher is not the same as last semester, but a male teacher, who has more bullshit than the female teacher. Every day, he either assigns homework after class or dictates the next class. At the beginning of this class, he has to ask someone to stand up and answer the previous class. Homework assigned by class.

Yan Ming didn't even have half the time to care about asking questions. He was so focused on how to reconcile with Lu Ziju. After thinking about it, he planned to use his [-] shameless skills. Just when he was thinking about it, the English teacher called out his name.

His mother has a grudge, right? Why do teachers like to call him by his name so much?

Yan Ming stood up, opened the book, and suddenly saw the blank textbook, and stared at the English teacher for two seconds in silence.

English teacher: "Tell me, what is the answer to reading?"

Yan Ming subconsciously went to Lu Ziju for help.

Lu Ziju supported one side of his head and looked elsewhere, pretending not to see it.

Yan Ming put his hands in his cuffs and gently tugged on Lu Ziju.

Lu Ziju really wanted to leave him alone, but Yan Ming's hand scratched him itchyly, and he seemed to lose his anger, and turned to that page in his textbook.

Yan Ming glanced over and said to the teacher, "BDCC."

"That's right, sit down."

The English teacher's question was a breakthrough, and Yan Ming used this breakthrough to push his nose and face, and took the initiative to show his goodwill to Lu Ziju.

It's not that he can't fight coldly, but he can't fight coldly with Lu Ziju. He can't stand Lu Ziju just sitting next to him without saying a word.

What Yan Ming didn't expect was that what made Lu Ziju angry was not what he said last night, but because he was not called in class today.

Yan Ming spoke first, and accompanied by the English teacher's crackling English, he said, "Yesterday was my fault."

After saying this, he touched Lu Ziju's hand on the table flatteringly. Seeing that Lu Ziju didn't dodge, he even attached his palm to it. Only then did he feel that Lu Ziju's hand was very cold. He frowned: "Why are your hands so cold?"

Lu Ziju's hand moved unnaturally twice under his palm, and said, "It's cold."

Yan Ming took out the glove from his pocket and gave it to Lu Ziju.

Lu Ziju refused: "It's not easy to write with gloves on."

Yan Ming didn't have to take a pen during an English class, but Lu Ziju was different, he had to take notes.

Lu Ziju lowered his eyes and looked at his hands, and said a few words: "I was also at fault."

Yan Ming heard this and looked up at him.

Lu Ziju's side face was a bit thin, reflecting the blue and black under the eye circles, Yan Ming suddenly felt distressed, knowing that Lu Ziju must have not slept well last night, this distress was far greater than other emotions, and he swore in his heart that he would not sleep well in the future. Talked like Lu Ziju.

Lu Ziju: "I'll change it."

This sentence "I'll change" completely suppressed Yan Ming's draft of "If you don't tell others, don't tell others" that Yan Ming had written all over his stomach. He looked at Lu Ziju in surprise and joy for a while, After realizing it, this was Lu Ziju's compromise and accommodation to him.

Lu Ziju immediately added: "When I said change, I didn't mean to announce it to the world, and I didn't feel ashamed to be with you, I just—"

Because I care, I will explain.

Because they care so much, they will accommodate and compromise with each other.

Yan Ming nodded: "Yes, I know."

The first quarrel between the two of them seemed to be violent and violent, but it ended very quickly. The main reason was that the two of them were really reluctant to be tough, and the soft words faded away. The quarrel between young people came quickly. Going fast, and soon reconciled as before, and it meant to be a little more intimate.

After they enter the next semester, the course is no longer as easy as last semester. The teacher also took some award topics for them to choose the design. The group is used as a unit, which is counted as their usual grades. The time is quite rushed. Yan Ming and Lu Ziju have no Don't worry about other things, I am busy with these every day.

After Lu Ziju finished his work, he remembered that he hadn't been home for several weeks. A few days ago, his grandma called to say that he was not feeling well, had a headache at night, and couldn't sleep well. He must take some time to go back this week.