186's leg-cutting routine [comprehensive]

Fujimaru Tachika, 18 years old, broke up.

To be honest, Li Xiang didn't want to come back.

But he must ask about this matter face to face.

Li Xiang took out his house key and opened the door. At five o'clock in the afternoon, the man hadn't left work yet, and the room was very clean, as if it was the same as before he left because of the same thing.

It was long past the time to get off work, and Li Xiang looked at the pointer in the room as it went into the night, and the refrigerator was also empty, only some homemade green sauce, some bread and noodles.

Sometimes his elder brother is really stubborn and terrible, and he likes all of them.

Not even eggs.

Li Xiang was on the sofa in the living room where he finished dinner, and was using his mobile phone. At three o'clock in the morning, he suddenly heard the sound of the door opening.

"... Lixiang?" The man standing in the corridor looked at the people in the room in astonishment, and put the things in his hand on the bar in the kitchen.

"Why are you back? Didn't you say you won't come back for the summer vacation?" The man in the lead gray suit had a face very similar to Li Xiang's, but if he had to say it, his eyes were a little slender than his own.

The blue eyes were happy, but seemed a little flustered and overwhelmed.

"I didn't even prepare the ingredients for dinner..."

Qiu Ji rubbed his eyes, his eye sockets were still a little dark, as if he hadn't rested for a long time.

"What's going on here?" Li Xiang walked up to Qiu Ji and put a piece of paper heavily in front of Qiu Ji.

own brother.

He is now his only relative.

"How did you promise me when you were in our country!?" Lixiang pointed to the university application report on the table and said, "How can you modify my wish without authorization!?"

"Eastern University is also very good, their side..."

"What's wrong with Kyushu?" Li Xiang suppressed his anger and took a deep breath.

The same thing happened in junior high school. When he was in junior high school, he wanted to go to the junior high school in the next city.His elder brother's desire for control is getting stronger and stronger, and nothing else matters. After all, his academics are indeed for his own good, but when it comes to private life and major matters, Li Xiang wants to solve them by himself. He is no longer a child.

Qiu Ji has to intervene in things like university volunteering.No matter how far away he is, this brother who has no emotional boundaries will always find a way to reach out and take care of him.

When is he going to figure out that he is an independent existence, not his appendage?

"Kyushu is too far away, and... the University of Tokyo is the best university in Japan, isn't it?" Qiu Ji said softly.

"So, you are applying to Dongda in my name? Are you still planning to help me get a combined Ph.D. and Master's degree?" Li Xiang didn't know how to laugh out loud, "Use your connections and methods to treat me like a doll? "

He was wondering how he received the admission letter from the University of Tokyo, since he had never applied to the University of Tokyo.Their admissions teacher also thoughtfully called him several times to inquire about his health and asked if he had decided where to go.

Only then did Lixiang notice that his college application had been revised again.

I can think of who it is with my knees.

"Kyushu is really too far away, Lixiang." Qiu Ji sighed and said, "After graduating from Dongda University, there are many opportunities there..."

His elder brother is 1.8 meters six and close to 1.9 meters. At this time, it seems that he is bullying him.He would show weakness every time he was angry, but this gesture made Lixiang even more annoyed.

Because he will never change, he will intervene in his choice again and again.

He could understand how difficult it was for Qiu Ji to pull him up alone. He took on the burden of his dead parents so that he could have a stable life.When he was in elementary school, he knew one thing clearly. When talking to Qiu Ji, he would only make a decision according to his own ideas. Whether his promise was fulfilled would depend on whether it was his decision.

But what is this attitude?

What is he in Qiu Ji's eyes?

"Very good, very good." Li Xiang smiled and said very good twice in a row, "You even chose a major for me."

"I asked experts in this field about this major, and they said that it is more optimistic."

"But I don't like it." Li Xiang raised his head and stared at Qiu Ji and said every word.

"...be obedient, Li Xiang, this will help you in the future." Qiu Ji looked at the piece of paper and closed his eyes and said again.

"For my own good again?" Li Xiang said with a smile, "Qiu Ji, this is my life, to what extent do you want to interfere!?"

The last sentence was Lixiang who couldn't stand it and yelled out, as if he wanted to shout out all the grievances he had suffered for so many years.

He didn't have many friends in school since he was a child. In order to fear that he would be bullied at school, Qiu Ji came back every year to beat up the punks in their school, and even took in a bunch of younger brothers for him.There was a quarrel when choosing a school, and Li Xiang went to the next city to study at a boarding school, but Qiu Ji was unwilling, so Li Xiang got the household registration book and went to the school to report.

Although it took a lot of effort in the neighboring city, at least it was done.

Since then, Lixiang has been living in the house, but despite this, his brother still has a way to channel him.He thought that he could finally breathe a sigh of relief during high school. After becoming famous, Qiu Ji was busy with publishing various papers, lecturing, and performing surgery, so he had no chance to take care of him anymore. Facts have proved that he was wrong.

His junior high school and high school roommates were all selected by his brother, and he would try his best to transfer them to the dormitory or transfer himself if he was not satisfied with anything.

He also used his contacts and resources to abruptly change his choice, and even arranged a major and mentor for him.

Qiu Ji always acts like I am your senior in life, so I should let myself listen to him.

"……sorry."

"Oh." The expected answer.

He was always apologizing, but never changed.

Li Xiang took a deep breath. Anyway, the account book was on him, and sometimes he would think that he might as well draw out the account book by himself, and then let him disappear in the world, so his brother would understand.

At this time, Li Xiang noticed what Qiu Ji brought back from the corner of his eyes.

A very Q figure, which looks a bit like the dress of a little witch. He seems to have seen the cover of this show somewhere, and vaguely remembers it is the story of two little girls under the age of ten?

He also saw this thing in Qiuji's room just now, and he must have liked it very much, otherwise he wouldn't have specially made an acrylic display box to protect it.

His brother really likes this cute doll.

"You like young girls?" Li Xiang said with a snort.

Qiu Ji was obviously taken aback.

"I'm leaving, you don't care about my affairs in the future." Li Xiang walked around Qiu Ji and walked towards the entrance.

"Wait, Lixiang, it's very late now, you'll wait until tomorrow..." Qiu Ji grabbed Lixiang's wrist.

"Don't touch me, I like the perversion of young girls." Li Xiang slapped Qiu Ji's hand away.

Li Xiang left the place without looking back, and slammed the door heavily.

Fujimaru Tachika, 19 years old.

that bastard...

Holding two pieces of paper in his hand, Lixiang didn't know how he got out of the law firm.

There are people coming and going on the street, and the busy street seems to prolong the picture.All the colors faded in Li Xiang's eyes, leaving only gray and white.

Li Xiang leaned in the alley and looked at the death certificate and the certificate of cancellation of account, why is his brother so stupid.

He froze when he got the facts from Dr. Roman.

For so many days, he has been thinking that this matter is fake, and Qiu Ji just went to participate in a secret mission. It is normal for a doctor like him to participate in a secret mission, but, but... definitely not the result.

On the opposite side of the road, Matthew and Roman stood in the shadow of the building and looked at the smiling Lixiang who refused Gao Wen's company, lowering their eyes slightly.

This is the only similarity between the two brothers Lixiang and Qiuji.

Never worry about anyone you care about.

"Dr. Roman, what is Dr. Qiu..." Matthew looked at the frowning Roman who couldn't bear to look at Li Xiang and asked softly.

"I am also responsible for Qiu Ji's death." Romani sighed deeply after a while, "I discovered his illness very early, and he worked hard to make himself normal, but...it was too late .”

Qiu Ji has a paranoid personality disorder, and his illness is still developing towards schizophrenia.However, Qiu Ji, who is also a doctor, is actually aware of his own situation. He has taught himself some books on psychology and spirituality, and used the convenience of the laboratory to dispense medicine for himself. His condition has finally stabilized a little bit, but only slightly.

Qiuji loves Lixiang, but his love is also extremely selfish.

For Li Xiang, Qiu Ji was too cruel.

Only the living will bear everything.

Lixiang refused Gao Wen's company. He didn't know why he returned to his home alone. The world was gray and white. Only when he turned on the light at home, the world became colorful again.

Everything in this house is the same as when he left.

Qiu Ji must have gone out to work.

It's just that it's been a little longer since I left, and the house is a little dusty.

Li Xiang huddled on the sofa and logged into Qiu Ji's accounts one by one. He had seen Qiu Ji's email account in the previous school, and after trying the password a few times, he got it out.

My old brother's password was changed back and forth, just three or four, and it was easy to try it out.

It is a private account, which is used to renew game membership and the like on weekdays.

All advertising emails are not opened after a certain day.

At this time, a familiar name caught Lixiang's attention, which was around 2001 in the Western calendar.

Sent by Romani Akiman.

It was Qiu Ji's diagnosis report. From the communication of the letter, Qiu Ji took the initiative to contact Dr. Roman and asked him to give him a complete copy of the diagnosis report.

In the report, Lixiang finally understood a lot of technical terms by searching on her mobile phone.

In the letter, Romani and Qiu Ji also communicated and knew that Qiu Ji has been taking medicine and receiving treatment, which can be regarded as controlling the self-harm.

Lixiang clicked on Romani in the contacts and read all the emails between them

Tears could no longer be controlled, it was the warmest time in June, but Li Xiang was cold all over.

He didn't even know that Qiu Ji, who seemed extremely strong, committed suicide several times because he couldn't control his illness.

He tried very hard to be a 'normal person'.

Gao Wen stretched out his arms and hugged Lixiang.

The armor on his body did not materialize, and the soft cloak wrapped the collapsed boy in his arms.

"Lixiang, I'm here."

Gao Wen said with a sigh.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Li Xiang grabbed Gao Wen's clothes, and apologized over and over again, "If I noticed earlier... If, if I had earlier... I'm sorry, Qiu Ji is sorry."

If, if he had reacted to Qiu Ji's situation earlier, then he could have participated in Qiu Ji's recovery with the doctor, then this would not have happened between them.

When he was a child, Qiu Ji put too much pressure on himself in order not to let himself be wronged, and that pressure had already crushed Qiu Ji.But he didn't notice anything. In his impression, Qiu Ji was still as unbelievable as he was when he was a child, no matter what he could do, no matter what he would stand in front of him.

Qiu Ji asked for help to his closest friend again and again, but he didn't find out.

Every apology he makes is a hysterical plea for help.

But he didn't notice it.

But it's too late now, and the dead can no longer hear the voice of this world.

The author has something to say:

Maybe it's because my writing is not good and I didn't write too clearly before, Ah Qiu is actually not the kind of good parent, he is super selfish [gesture]