catch the dream

Chen Yekai: 【What do you want to ask me this afternoon? 】

Yu Hao: 【Mr. Chen, have you ever liked girls before? 】

Chen Yekai: [Why did you suddenly ask this? 】

Yu Hao realized that this topic was a little impolite, and thought about saying something to interrupt, so that Chen Yekai could ignore it, but Chen Yekai replied with a long line.

[From the beginning of my gender consciousness, I think my feelings for the opposite sex are normal. I like beautiful and sexy girls. In high school, I also came into contact with AV by chance, and I would have lust for the opposite sex.After studying abroad, I will have a good impression of an intellectual, gentle sister who is one or two years older than me, but relatively speaking, the family education is relatively conservative, and premarital sex is more serious. 】

Yu Hao didn't expect Chen Yekai to answer himself so seriously, it's really embarrassing to discuss this topic.

Yu Hao: 【Alright, I see. 】

Chen Yekai: 【Meet me tomorrow and have lunch together?I just happen to have a chat with you alone. 】

Yu Hao: "???"

"Zhou Sheng?" Yu Hao raised his eyes and looked at Zhou Sheng who was lying on the other side of the bed with his head facing him, "Tomorrow I..."

With a glance at Yu Hao, Zhou Sheng knew what he wanted to ask, and said, "Kaikai asked you out? Go."

Fu Liqun went to take a shower, Yu Hao said, "Have you been looking for him often lately? What are you talking about in private?"

Zhou Sheng: "It's none of your business."

Yu Hao: "Why is it none of my business!"

Zhou Sheng: "I said it's none of your business, Yu Hao, do you want to quarrel?"

Yu Hao felt something was wrong: "Have you guys already discussed the case? Why didn't you tell me?"

Zhou Sheng turned over and sat up, looking at Yu Hao.Yu Hao said, "What's the situation, I also have the right to know."

Zhou Sheng thought for a while and said, "Just chat casually, I will remind you of something important."

Yu Hao looked at Zhou Sheng suspiciously: "Really??"

After Fu Liqun finished washing, Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng ended the topic. Yu Hao replied to Chen Yekai, who only asked him to wait at the school gate tomorrow: [We have something to meet. 】

At noon the next day, Chen Yekai hailed a car and picked up Yu Hao, but he wasn't in the car, and walked through a small half of the city to the CBD, where it was supposed to be a Thai restaurant.This is a high-end residential area, almost no students come to activities, and it is not easy to run into two people.

Chen Yekai sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows in the small private room, looking down at the message sent by Zhou Sheng on his mobile phone.

Zhou Sheng: 【Treasure it, after the end, many of your memories about this period of time will be gone. 】

Chen Yekai: [I know, we agreed, but will I forget it completely?I will be suspicious later, right? 】

Zhou Sheng: [It depends on how much you want to keep, at least regarding supernatural powers and dreams, you can’t keep them. As long as you don’t forget them on a large scale, the disappearance of a small number of memory fragments won’t make you suspicious, because we won’t look for one specially. Something I don't have. 】

Chen Yekai: [What is the mechanism of memory forgetting based on?Wipe or block? 】

Zhou Sheng: 【Why do you ask so many questions?The most convenient thing is to let your memory roughly go back to a certain day, and the rest will be fuzzy, or let you make up a false memory yourself and overwrite it. 】

Chen Yekai: 【It sounds fantastic. 】

Zhou Sheng: [It’s not that fantastic. Find the corresponding place in your dream, determine where that piece is, and then tear it down and rebuild it, or flatten it all. It’s a bit troublesome to find, but there are more times in dreams to find it slowly , you are the master of the dream, so you can't fail to discover it. 】

Chen Yekai: 【Can I choose the time myself? 】

Zhou Sheng: 【Which day do you want to go back to? 】

Chen Yekai: [The second day of the college celebration. 】

Zhou Sheng: [The operation is not so precise, try your best, there is no guarantee. 】

Yu Hao thought that Huang Ting would be there too, but in front of the private room, there was only Chen Yekai himself. There were very few customers in the restaurant at noon, so Chen Yekai ordered food and said, "The weather is not so good today. If it clears up, the scenery will be beautiful. "

When Yu Hao saw Chen Yekai, he found that his hair was cut an inch, and it was almost shorter than Zhou Sheng's.Round inches is a test of face shape and head shape, but this guy Chen Yekai has 360 degrees without dead ends, and he looks much more masculine with a different hairstyle.

"Does it look good?" Chen Yekai smiled and stroked his hair.

"Handsome." Yu Hao laughed, "If you show up at school, you will be booed and secretly photographed again."

The floor-to-ceiling windows were cloudy, and looking out, it was foggy.

"This restaurant is very expensive!" Yu Hao only felt that the decoration style was a bit shocking.

"It's okay." Chen Yekai didn't let him read the menu, and didn't intend to let him know the price, and of course he wouldn't fry up a whole book like Zhou Sheng, and said, "Just treat it as eating with me, and I planned to eat at this restaurant as well. , Thai food is hot and sour, appetizing, I am in a good mood today, I want to eat more."

Yu Hao immediately felt like he was on a date with the CEO. Luckily, Zhou Sheng reminded him to change his clothes before going out, otherwise he would have planned to go out in a T-shirt and big pants.

"I rented an apartment upstairs and lived there temporarily." Chen Yekai said, "Everything is ready, so you don't have to worry about it."

Yu Hao: "Ready? What is ready?"

Chen Yekai: "The case has made a lot of progress. I got the transcripts of two parties who are willing to cooperate with me. Because they are international witnesses, there will be a little trouble, but they can be overcome."

Yu Hao: "Great! What else?"

Chen Yekai thought for a while, and then said: "The most important thing now is that there is still a lack of evidence for the process of man-made car accidents. Zhou Sheng provided me with a hypothesis, that is, once it can be proved that the teacher's wife was taken into the car. In a coma, as long as this link is established, Lin Xun will not be able to deny it."

Yu Hao said sharply, "Yes!"

If Liang Jinmin had already fallen into a coma when Lin Xun took him into the car on the afternoon of New Year's Eve, then why did Lin Xun take his wife in shock on the highway, or even visit friends, instead of wearing a seat belt for her? This series can no longer justify itself up.

Yu Hao wondered, "But Zhou Sheng didn't tell me anything!"

Chen Yekai said: "We just chatted casually."

Yu Hao said: "If Teacher Liang can wake up, it should be of great help to the case."

"Well." Chen Yekai said, "But at present, it seems that we need to wait patiently. I believe the future is optimistic."

A small plate of shrimp crackers and salad dressing was served before the meal, Yu Hao didn't move, he looked outside and then at Chen Yekai, who happened to be looking at him too, Yu Hao felt a little embarrassed.

"What did Zhou Sheng say?" Chen Yekai asked suddenly, with a sly smile in his eyes.

Yu Hao: "?"

Didn't say anything, Yu Hao thought to himself, what did Zhou Sheng tell you?Then he shook his head suspiciously and began to think.

"I've decided to resign." Chen Yekai said, "I talked to my dad some time ago and told him not to accept Lin Xun's consultation."

Yu Hao recalled that night, when Lin Xun went upstairs on the phone, he must have consulted Chen Yekai's father.

"What did he say?" Yu Hao became nervous again.

Chen Yekai replied: "He told me to mind my own business."

Yu Hao suddenly frowned deeply.

"I know I can't stop him, but at least it will make him think more about it. This is the first time we have taken the initiative to reconcile with him since we were deadlocked. I think he should face up to this issue." Chen Yekai said, " He came out four years ago. At that time, I was still a child who needed to pay tuition at home in his eyes. Now he thinks that I have grown up. My mother has always cared about me for so many years, so he is slowly thinking about it. .”

"I thought I would urge you to go back and get married." Yu Hao laughed.

"It's true that I said that by the way." Chen Yekai replied, "But I refused."

When the meal came, Chen Yekai shared the soup for Yu Hao. The Thai food was really appetizing. Yu Hao drank some soup, looked at Chen Yekai seriously, and said, "Then will you marry a girl in the future?"

"I don't know." Chen Yekai thought for a while and said with a smile, "I'm a little confused."

In the past two days, Yu Hao has always been reminiscing, not only recalling the process of falling in love with the same sex, but also trying to analyze and understand various cases of boys having feelings for the same sex.

"You care about this?" Chen Yekai asked again, "Is it because of Zhou Sheng that you asked me about my relationship experience last night? So I ask you, what did Zhou Sheng say."

"Uh..." Yu Hao knew that Chen Yekai knew exactly what he was thinking. In fact, Chen Yekai, Fu Liqun, and Zhou Sheng seemed to be able to guess his thoughts, and it was useless to deny them.

"Yes." Yu Hao had no choice but to admit honestly, "I was wondering if he would like me too, or we... um... Is it possible... even if it's just a very small possibility..."

When Yu Hao said this in front of Chen Yekai, he felt as if he was talking about a somewhat shameful extravagant wish, such as "I wish I could be the mayor" or other unrealistic fantasies. What came was embarrassment.

Chen Yekai did not smile, but said lightly: "I think, maybe? He is a person who is not willing to face up to his own thoughts. I think you know him better in this regard." He took the ice water bottle and gave it to Yu Hao add water.

Yu Hao said, "Really?"

"I don't know." Chen Yekai said blankly, and then the two laughed.

"What are you laughing at?" Chen Yekai looked puzzled, Yu Hao shook his head and said, "I don't know either."

He felt that the way of getting along with Chen Yekai was very relaxed, and he had returned to the previous mode of being able to say anything without being afraid of the other party's jokes.

"Do you need help?" Chen Yekai asked.

Yu Hao immediately said: "Okay!"

Chen Yekai fell into deep thought: "Well, let me think about it, is there any way, do you want to confess to Zhou Sheng? Take ten thousand steps back, it's better if the confession fails, and you can continue to be friends..."

Yu Hao said "Okay" originally because he wanted to hear Chen Yekai's opinion on this matter, but he didn't expect Chen Yekai to be so serious about helping him think of a strategy, so he hurriedly said, "No, I'm not talking about this kind of help. , I was just thinking, under what circumstances, a straight man might fall in love with the same sex, what I want is a direction to work hard.”

Chen Yekai came back to his senses, smiled, and replied: "Understood, a direction to work hard, this is the motivation for you to ask me the question last night."

Yu Hao sighed: "Some people say that liking friends of the same sex is like waiting for a boat at the airport. Sometimes I really think it's impossible, but I'm not reconciled, and I'm quite entangled."

With the knife and fork between his fingers, Chen Yekai twirled the knife and fork neatly, with his slender fingers nimbly controlling the knife and fork, pressing a prawn on a clean plate, skillfully peeling the prawn with the knife and fork, then His behavior was very handsome, which attracted Yu Hao's attention.

"In my memory, what did Long Sheng say to you that day?" Chen Yekai changed the topic and said, "Is there anything you want to tell me?"

Yu Hao told Chen Yekai what Long Sheng told him in "The Next Life", and Chen Yekai immediately laughed, and replied: "It's very similar to what he said in the letter, cognitive behavioral therapy for depression , is also my future professional research direction, after solving this matter, I want to become a psychological counselor."

"That's great!" Yu Hao hurriedly said, "Long Sheng will definitely be happy for you!"

"Freud said." Chen Yekai said, "Dreams reflect the most important desires in our hearts, and every dream is our expectation for our own life."

Yu Hao remembered that it was also included in professional courses. Although it was part of his sophomore year, he had already read it in advance: "It's just that dreams are very good at disguising. In order to pass the review of self-awareness, it will use many layers of meaning, even the opposite of it. performance to present."

Chen Yekai nodded, and replied: "Now that I think about it, everything about Chichen Itza in my dream reflects my wish, which is to let go of my pain, remember my love for Longsheng, and welcome the new generation in the future." life."

"Just like today, I can no longer shy away from mentioning Longsheng, mention past mistakes, stop torturing myself, remember those beautiful memories, and welcome new sunshine."

Yu Hao smiled and looked at Chen Yekai. Chen Yekai drank some ice water, pondered for a moment, and said:

"When I first liked Longsheng, it was just a kind of duty-bound care and care. Then, without any mental preparation, I was suddenly hit by some things about him. If I had rejected him first, Then maybe no matter what he does, I won’t be moved, it will only feel like a burden, and at the same time, it will also make me feel utilitarian, the sacrifice is just for the exchange of love.”

"I understand!" Yu Hao immediately understood, and interjected, "At that time you were still very good friends, you didn't expect it at all, and you also felt that his original intention was just to let you..."

Chen Yekai said: "Yes, as long as I am happy, as long as I am happy, he can do anything. He likes to make me happy, so that he will also feel happy. I think I must cherish him as a friend."

"Love can't be utilitarian." Chen Yekai said, "If I don't give you something, you will love me a little bit. If the goal is not achieved, the money will be wasted... I just want you to be happy, so I also sincerely wish you happiness." feel happy."

"I slowly realized that I also want Longsheng to be happy. This may also be love. We are used to being with each other until the end, as long as I am free, I will inevitably think about him. It is full of sunshine, many things, I want to share with him, this should be... love."

The two were silent, and Yu Hao began to understand gradually.

Yu Hao said: "But it's going to bed... I'm sorry, Mr. Chen, when you go to bed, don't you have... any obstacles to the same sex?"

"First you have a relationship foundation," Chen Yekai said, "you will subconsciously want to have physical contact. It was a bit unnatural at first, but because you like it, you get used to it quickly, and it is even more exciting than watching AV. Even more strongly, I think, my body is also actively and spontaneously learning sexual orientation?"

"Should it be that when you like a specific person, dopamine rewards will occur, and conditioned reflexes will be established? Then... well, this is not sure, a little cognitive experience, just for His Highness the Archangel's reference."

Speaking of this, Chen Yekai was finally a little embarrassed, and Yu Hao was amused by the title "His Royal Highness the Archangel", and replied: "I understand, Lord Chief."

There was a momentary confusion in Chen Yekai's eyes, and he continued: "Masculine instincts and hormones urge us to pursue the opposite sex and continue offspring. But the same feelings that are born as humans will also guide us to find in this world. The one that is best for our life partner."

Yu Hao: "!!!"

"That's a person who can resonate with each other." Chen Yekai peeled the shrimp and put it on Yu Hao's plate, explaining, "Whether it's the same sex or the opposite sex, I don't think it's too important, even if you don't Sex, only platonic love, so what does it matter?" He said and smiled at Yu Hao.

"I think..." Yu Hao said, "Yes, I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I like him. I want... to pursue him? Is that how you say it? This is a strange way of saying it, I think... I want to go further with him , but after hearing what you said, I don’t think it’s necessary to be too utilitarian, just let nature take its course.”

余皓以前鼓起勇气朝男生表白过，但最后这件事对他的人生形成了毁灭性的打击，令他从此开始抗拒恋爱，并形成了不小的心理阴影，直到将军把守门人揍成天边Only then did he start to feel obsessed with love again.

"This is good." Chen Yekai peeled the shrimp for Yu Hao again, and Yu Hao hurriedly said, "I won't eat it, you can eat it yourself."

"Hmm." Chen Yekai said with a smile in his eyes, "What were you going to do?"

Yu Hao hasn't made up his mind yet. He knows that Zhou Sheng instinctively resists love and marriage because of his native family. This kind of self-suggestion may also come from the spiritual world... But his thoughts suddenly diverged, and he suddenly thought of something Strange thing.

In Zhou Sheng's conscious world, what is under the sea of ​​clouds?He once said that his own life was a mess, so in his dream, could it be that under the sea of ​​clouds is also a... dark world?Thinking about it this way, if the Golden Crow Wheel stands above the clouds, wouldn't it not be able to illuminate the area under the thick clouds?

"Yu Hao?"

Yu Hao came back to his senses and realized that his expression just now might have been a bit serious.

"Yeah." Yu Hao pulled back from his messy thoughts and said, "I haven't thought it through yet."

"He has a strong desire to possess you." Chen Yekai said, "I think you have already touched him, and he is now in a moment of hesitation. He suspects that he likes you, but he is unwilling to admit it."

"Why don't you try to make him realize that he doesn't want you to leave? Most of the time, I think he is acting like a baby to you in a special way, because then you will value him and return to him , Your commitment to him makes him feel that he is very important to you, that is unique."

Yu Hao said: "Indeed! Teacher Chen, you are also very good!"

Chen Yekai: "Don't call me teacher anymore, I have already resigned. Zhou Sheng's current attitude should be partly due to the fact that the threat he receives is not strong, and he believes that you will not leave his side, but once the crisis becomes real When the earth turns into reality, maybe he realizes the serious threat and has to get serious..."

"...So why don't you find someone to cooperate with you in dating? If you pretend to be like one, maybe he will fully understand his feelings for you?"

Yu Hao said: "Who are you looking for? This is too nonsense, in fact, it's not good, if the person who cooperates with the acting takes it seriously..."

"For example me?" Chen Yekai said with a smile, "Eat more, you are too thin. I don't cook well, I only have money, where do you want to eat, in this world, as long as it is a place that collects money , I can take you there anytime."

Yu Hao: "..."

Three hours later, the dormitory.

"Back?" Zhou Sheng asked.

"Aifei, are you back?" Fu Liqun said, "Did you pack dinner for me?"

Yu Hao was preoccupied, so he put the packing bag on the table, revealing the restaurant logo, Fu Liqun said, "Wow, this restaurant is not cheap, it costs more than 2000 even to eat and take."

"Is it so expensive?!" Yu Hao immediately exploded, "I'll just say it!"

"Kaikai has plenty of money!" Zhou Sheng pulled out his chopsticks and opened the coconut curry chicken, which was still hot, "Don't help him save money."

"You eat too." Fu Liqun said, "Yu Hao!"

"I can't eat it!" Yu Hao was not thinking about eating at all, and went to the balcony to wash clothes.

Fu Liqun held his lunch box and put on his earphones to watch variety shows.Zhou Sheng came to the balcony with a lunch box, and said to Yu Hao, "What are you talking about?"

"Nothing to talk about." Yu Hao roughly said, of course they didn't say a word about Zhou Sheng's discussion, finally Chen Yekai saw that he was too embarrassed, so he changed the topic and sent him an electronic contract.

"Help me find a part-time job." Yu Hao wiped his hands, showed Zhou Sheng the emails in his phone, and said, "Translate some investigation reports, and pay by the word count."

Chen Yekai wanted to give Yu Hao the computer to use, but Yu Hao insisted on going to the Internet cafe by himself, so Chen Yekai asked him to go back and sign the electronic contract for confirmation. If it goes well, he can earn seven or eight thousand if he does it for two months.

"Oh, it's good." Zhou Sheng said, "I can't understand the letter, how much is it?"

"A few thousand." Yu Hao glanced at Zhou Sheng, and reached out to help him wipe the rice grains from the corner of his mouth.

Zhou Sheng: "Didn't you say anything else?"

Yu Hao: "No!"

Zhou Sheng looked at Yu Hao suspiciously, Yu Hao felt a little guilty, and emphasized: "Really not, you know I've always kept my mouth shut."

"Oh—" Zhou Sheng replied.

Yu Hao felt a little guilty, and was just about to find something else to talk about, but Zhou Sheng went in again with a lunch box in his hand, turned on Fu Liqun's computer, and the two of them watched variety shows together.

What Chen Yekai said today was like a violent storm, and it continued one after another, Yu Hao still hasn't regained his senses until now.Of course, Chen Yekai was very smart, he didn't wait for him to refuse, and after changing the subject, they tacitly stopped talking about it.

Let's make money first, Yu Hao thought for a while, he decided not to accept Chen Yekai's suggestion, but he also understood something, he always wanted to buy Zhou Sheng a birthday present to make him happy, such as a mobile phone or something else what.

"Where are you going?" Fu Liqun and Zhou Sheng turned to Yu Hao from the variety show.

"Internet cafe." Yu Hao said, "Translate something."

"What time is it, do you want to stay overnight?" Zhou Sheng got up, took off his earphones, and said, "Go, let's go together."

"Use my notebook." Fu Liqun put the notebook away and handed it to Yu Hao, and said, "I'm asleep, the train is early tomorrow morning, I'm going to find your sister-in-law, please help me take a name."

Tomorrow is Friday again, and there are only two public classes in the physical education class. Fu Liqun is going to meet his girlfriend in a neighboring city. They can be together for three days, and he is really happy.

"Stop abusing single dogs, okay?" Zhou Sheng flipped over, flipped onto the bed with ease, and added, "When will you introduce me to me?"

Yu Hao: "..."

Yu Hao rarely suffered this kind of violent attack in the dormitory. He knew that Zhou Sheng must have said this on purpose, so he felt a little sad immediately.

"You have Yu Hao, get out!" Fu Liqun replied very beautifully.

Yu Hao: "..."

"Get out!" Zhou Sheng didn't say anything, and ended the conversation.

Yu Hao didn't have time to appreciate the meaning of this, so he turned on the computer and logged into the mailbox, where he received the contract and asked Yu Hao to add his contact information.

"Zhou Sheng, can I borrow your VPN for a while?" Yu Hao asked Zhou Sheng.

Zhou Sheng got down from the bed and handed the phone to Yu Hao. The notepad contained his VPN account password. When Yu Hao was typing, he saw Fu Liqun sent Zhou Sheng three messages in succession.Fu Liqun suddenly realized that the phone was in Yu Hao's hand, and immediately glanced at Yu Hao who was under the bed opposite him.