catch the dream

This relationship was naturally opposed by Lin Xun. Lin Xun hoped to cultivate Chen Yekai and let him teach in Columbia and act as his assistant.However, falling in love with an undergraduate in a teaching assistant course will greatly affect Chen Yekai's future.

And Liang Jinmin encouraged Chen Yekai, as long as he recognizes his own heart, don't be afraid, take the initiative to resign, or change a university, or even put down his studies to re-plan his life.

Chen Yekai has been worrying about gain and loss for a while, and Long Sheng also understands that although Chen Yekai is the only one in his world, Chen Yekai cannot be the only one in his life.Longsheng doesn't understand feelings, and he never expresses them. He chose to avoid and shrink back. He decided not to drag Chen Yekai any longer, and planned to drop out of school and return to Japan.And just before submitting the application for dropping out of school, he asked Chen Yekai to accompany him to see the Iguazu Falls in Argentina.

During that trip, Chen Yekai finally faced up to his heart. For him, Longsheng was like a dose of medicine, which made him forget everything, indulge in it, and feel true happiness.He seemed to be born for him, to live for him.

After returning to school, the medicine of love had worn off, and Chen Yekai had to face Lin Xun's anger and the complaints from students in Liang Jinmin's class.One side is his favorite major since he was a child, and the other side is Longsheng's future.In the end, under Lin Xun's intercession, the school finally leniently removed Chen Yekai's position and allowed him to continue to follow Lin Xun to study as a graduate student.

Lin Xun thought about connecting Chen Yekai and marrying his favorite student to an old friend's daughter. As a result, Chen Yekai didn't talk to an undergraduate student and even came out to his family.The trouble was earth-shattering, and finally the family relationship was almost severed.When it comes to homosexuality in China, it has always been understood and tolerated, but when it comes to my son, it won't work.Chen Yekai insisted on going his own way, and after resigning from his position as a teaching assistant, he lived with Long Sheng.

After the relationship stabilized, Lin Xun asked Chen Yekai to spend more time on studies and projects. After Chen Yekai passed the sweetness of the initial stage of love, he also began to calm down and think about future plans.

But Chen Yekai and Longsheng are like all couples who have ended their love period and entered a period of friction, and start to face various problems in life, such as... Longsheng needs company and Chen Yekai has to be at school most of the time Doing projects; Chen Yekai occasionally ignores Longsheng's emotions; he has different attitudes towards family, friends, relatives, and mentors... Wait, Chen Yekai is in love for the first time, and he is a little bit concerned about the problems that arise in a flash. Caught off guard, he ignored Long Sheng's feelings.

He needs time to read and study, and he is used to being alone.In fact, for many years in the past, he spent a lot of time studying and rarely cared about the thoughts of people around him.The act of cohabiting with Longsheng is tantamount to entering a marriage, but he still doesn't have a clear understanding of how to manage a marriage.

"I still remember that Long Sheng always woke up in the middle of the night." Chen Yekai thought for a while and said, "Turn around and hug me, he is too afraid of losing me..."

Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng listened quietly, the coffee was already cold.

Chen Yekai said again: "At that time I was very tired, very tired, I hoped he would be a little quieter, I was always tired during the day, but I couldn't get enough sleep at night, sometimes I was in the laboratory, even a little Afraid to go back. During that time we talked very little, I was always afraid, I don’t know when, he would suddenly get angry and yell at me... You guys have never been in a relationship, so I don’t understand that feeling .”

The responsibility of "family" has become more and more heavy for Chen Yekai. He tried to communicate with Longsheng, but every time he talked, everything would return to the original within a few days.Then something happened, which caused a devastating blow to their relationship——

——One of Longsheng's friends borrowed his mobile phone and found their small sex video, uploaded it to his mobile phone, circulated it in a small area, and finally uploaded it to Tumblr by someone, which caused quite a stir.

Yu Hao: "..."

Zhou Sheng: "..."

"It has been deleted." Chen Yekai said, "There are still some that have been downloaded, but I can't help it. When we were together, I was dazzled by love and took a few scenes. Later, I almost shot and killed Long Sheng's friend. ...Fortunately, I stopped my horse from the brink under his dissuasion...Sometimes I feel that there is a kind of hysterical violence in my character, but most of the time it is hidden deep."

Yu Hao suddenly remembered the way Chen Yekai solved the problem that night.

"Actually, many foreigners like to take pictures." Zhou Sheng changed the topic and said, "Same-sex and opposite-sex are the same, what's wrong with wanting to keep the memories of my youth?"

Chen Yekai laughed and said, "You probably aren't interested, Yu Hao, don't search, it's too embarrassing, but you probably won't be able to find it either."

Yu Hao hurriedly said in embarrassment: "I...I promise I will never search for it!"

"Longsheng has been apologizing to me for that matter." Chen Yekai sighed and said, "I'm really upset, the attitude of my classmates, the comments behind my friends... I can't stand it, and Many people ran to my INS to leave messages..."

"Long Sheng should be the most uncomfortable." Yu Hao said.

"Yes." Chen Yekai said, "but later, I suggested that we should separate for a while, let's calm down. I want to finish my graduation thesis well, and then take him to South America, where we have traveled, to Peru. Machu Picchu, many places... to get married in that little white church at the southernmost tip of the world."

Having said that, Chen Yekai stopped, raised his hand, and pressed his eyes with his wrist.

Yu Hao stretched out his hand and covered the back of Chen Yekai's hand holding the coffee cup, Zhou Sheng also stretched out his hand, and they both covered him together.

"Thank you." Chen Yekai smiled, "After that time, I kept it in my heart and didn't tell anyone."

Not long after, Long Sheng came back again. Chen Yekai noticed that something was wrong with Long Sheng's mental state, so he took him to see a doctor and found that he was suffering from depression.The genetic factors of family history, the insecurity and anxiety in love, and the video that finally spread made him blame himself, facing all the "good comfort"... This is a physiological problem, and he needs to pay attention to taking medicine.During that time, Chen Yekai was so busy that he wanted to give up his graduation thesis, but Long Sheng insisted on keeping him busy, otherwise he would not stay by his side anymore.

Chen Yekai had no choice but to supervise him to take his medicine on time, and bought a ticket, planning to take Longsheng with him after the defense. However, on the day of the defense, Longsheng did not come to have a date with Chen Yekai for dinner.

He left the house alone again.Chen Yekai immediately went to call the police, but the police refused to accept the case because it did not constitute a disappearance. Chen Yekai learned that Long Sheng had changed his ticket and flew directly from New York to Argentina that day.He chased him to Argentina and came to the small hotel they booked...

"He has committed suicide." Chen Yekai said calmly.

"When I arrived, the scene was cleaned up. The hotel had changed the sheets and hired a few workers to paint the walls. The police showed me a gun he bought on the black market and put it in a plastic bag." Chen Yekai He said in a daze, "I remember every little detail of that day... His body was covered with a white sheet, and the blood was all drained..."

"Don't think about it, Kaikai." Zhou Sheng said, "It's not your fault."

Chen Yekai smiled, and said: "Outside Chichen Itza, there is a wide cuju field. It is said that in the ancient customs of the Mayans, in the cuju competition, the captain of the victorious side would be sacrificed and cut off. The head, dedicated to the gods."

"Longsheng likes to watch me play football. I scored a goal for him in front of the tourists that day." Chen Yekai murmured, "Kick the ball from the square and pass it through the hoop used in the game. Maybe At that time, I already fell in love with him...willing to dedicate the rest of my life, even my life, to the only God."

"There is a well in the middle of Chichen Itza. Long Sheng said that he believes that it is the road of reincarnation of the Mayans. He has always wanted to come, from this life to that life. He knows that I don't love him, but he wants to Make a wish with me by the well, to be best friends in this life, and to go one step further in the next life, he wants to be my lover.”

"I feel that his love for me is so deep that it can reach from one end of the cycle to the other. But I think the phrase 'I love you too' is enough courage to say it in this life, why wait for the next life ?”

"Okay, the story is over, I have to go."

Yu Hao was silent for a while, Chen Yekai drank the last bit of coffee, stood up, and said, "When I was sitting in the infirmary and listening to your story, I wanted to comfort you, Yu Hao, but I understand that the power of words is limited after all. It can only be said that you can regard me as your friend, as a big brother who is willing to listen to you."

"I also know that I didn't know how to comfort you that night; just like you didn't know how to comfort me this morning. Saying anything is pale and powerless, but our souls can produce a kind of happiness here and now. This kind of resonance comes from the suffering we have suffered." Chen Yekai laughed, "It comes from my disappointment to another soul, the mistake I made, and there is no chance to recover from it, and yours Life is still long, and there are more possibilities and sunshine.”

"The mood you want to comfort me now is exactly like my mood at that time. I think this may be enough."

Chen Yekai's luggage was only a backpack, and the rest was sent away. He went downstairs, and the car was waiting outside the back school gate.

"I'm leaving." Chen Yekai said to the two, "Hold one?"

Chen Yekai hugged Zhou Sheng and Yu Hao one after another. When hugging Yu Hao, he patted him on the back vigorously and said, "Remember what I said."

Yu Hao's eyes were red, but Chen Yekai got into the car and left the back school gate.

Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng sat down in front of the steps of the teacher's dormitory building, and they looked at each other. Zhou Sheng's eyes were also a little red, and he said, "The sun is so fucking dazzling."

Yu Hao said: "In his heart, he doesn't even have a safe haven now."

Zhou Sheng asked: "Where is the courier sent, have you noticed?"

Yu Hao calmed down, took out his phone, and said, "I took a picture."

"Check the address." Zhou Sheng shook the cigarette case, leaving the last one.

"Stop smoking." Yu Hao said, "It's not good for your heart."

"Two puffs." Zhou Sheng pinched his nose and said, "If your nose is blocked, just take two puffs. He still didn't talk about what happened that night."

Yu Hao: "Could it be because of Long Sheng's conflicts in the past, plus Teacher Liang's domestic violence, that's why he..."

Zhou Sheng replied in a deep voice: "He behaved normally when he spoke and acted. Long Sheng's death was not Lin Xun's fault, and domestic violence would not make him angry enough to want to kill Lin Xun... Remember his consciousness In the world, there are thunder and lightning everywhere, he wants to destroy himself, this is a more violent behavior than actively falling into the subconscious, we must drag him back, and ask again, is it what we guessed. "

Yu Hao looked down at Chen Yekai's courier address, thinking about Zhou Sheng's words.Under the sunlight, Zhou Sheng looked at Yu Hao quietly, his eyes were very complicated, and his brows were furrowed.

"What's wrong?" Yu Hao raised his head from the phone and asked in a daze.

"It's nothing." Zhou Sheng looked away, took out his phone, pondered for a while, picked up the phone, stretched out his hand, and took a selfie for the two of them.

Zhou Sheng: "Smile?"

Yu Hao: "You are sick..."

Zhou Sheng: "Smile."

Yu Hao looked at the camera, and was taken a selfie with Zhou Sheng, his expression was both crying and laughing, as if he was dazzled by the sun.

"Is life always so painful? Or is it only like this when I was a child?" Zhou Sheng said.

"It's always like this." Yu Hao replied casually, he found the address of Chen Yekai's courier, and when he went upstairs, he paid special attention to the courier that was taken away, and said, "This is the address of a public welfare organization... It's strange... ..."

"It's not surprising." Zhou Sheng said, "He wanted to donate things."

Yu Hao: "Where is he going? I saw him put a passport in."

Zhou Sheng: "Should go back to the United States. He has severed ties with his family and will not go home. It always feels dangerous to empty out the property in the house and donate it... Go to sleep, let's go. Go back and get your ID card, go Open a room off campus."

"Are you sure he'll sleep later?"

Zhou Sheng said: "He didn't sleep very long last night, he must be very tired now, I guess he needs to sleep for a while on the plane. If not, I have to sleep too..." He yawned: "I didn't feel much last night sleep."

Yu Hao said stubbornly: "You slept at noon, what if you can't sleep at night?"

Zhou Sheng: "Take sleeping pills!"

It's too weird for two boys to buy sleeping pills and meet up to open a room, Yu Hao thought.

At noon, Chen Yekai arrived at Ying City Airport, went through the security check, and boarded the first-class cabin.

"Don't eat." Chen Yekai said to the flight attendant, "Don't disturb me later, I'll sleep later, thank you."

in the world of consciousness.

"Look! I'll just tell you!" Zhou Sheng said, "I'm definitely asleep!"

Yu Hao: "Where can I find him?"

Zhou Sheng: "Drive away first!"

Chen Yekai's words confirmed Zhou Sheng's guess, this small three-story building would not be a safe haven, they must find Chen Yekai who stayed here as soon as possible.When Yu Hao went downstairs, he looked at the dense dark clouds and churning thunder and lightning in the rainforest world.

More fires are burning in the rainforest than yesterday.

The trees were still collapsing, showing the trail of a huge monster walking through, Yu Hao said, "Zhou Sheng?"

"What?!" Zhou Sheng had already left the hotel, and shouted outside, "Jump down! Yu Hao!"

Yu Hao: "Something is coming!"

Zhou Sheng: "Run!"

Yu Hao jumped out of the roof guardrail, stepped on the window on the third floor, jumped off the awning on the second floor, and slid down, when Zhou Sheng's SUV drove up, wrapping Yu Hao firmly.

"Is the egg okay!"

"Stop making trouble!" Yu Hao picked up a gun and pulled the safety catch.Zhou Sheng drove around the front door of the hotel, put one hand on the back of the seat, turned around and reversed the car.

Yu Hao: "Your clothes...why have you changed?"

When Yu Hao saw Zhou Sheng's shirt, it turned out to be the navy blue shirt that Chen Yekai wore when Chen Yekai and Zhongchuan Longsheng took a photo together in front of the Iguazu Falls!

"What?" Zhou Sheng didn't have time to pay attention to what he was wearing. He was reminded by Yu Hao only to realize that he was wearing a navy blue shirt, and his lower body was still the camouflage pants of an off-road military uniform. "I don't know! Last time I came in, I was wearing that This body is just like a bitch!"

"What a bitch!" Yu Hao roared angrily.

"Yu Hao, you're sick!" Zhou Sheng said, "When you were running, you told me that a shirt is a sissy or not?"

"You said it first!"

"Here we come!" Zhou Sheng just reversed the car and got out, when there was a roar in an instant, a mass of black giant smashed through the rainforest, and rushed up the hillside!

Yu Hao was holding the gun, but forgot to shoot for a while, only to see a tyrannosaurus rex with a height of ten meters appearing, stepping over their off-road vehicle with one foot, the shadow instantly covered their heads.

"Wow." Zhou Sheng said, "Kaikai has such a big brain, does he have dinosaurs in his dream?"

The next moment, the tyrannosaurus rex bumped into the hotel, knocking half of the brick and tile hotel down. Yu Hao immediately said: "Let's go!"

The two came back to their senses. As soon as Zhou Sheng stepped on the accelerator, the off-road vehicle almost rushed down the hillside. Hearing the sound, the Tyrannosaurus rex immediately noticed the ground, and then it roared with an "Aw", and rushed towards the two of them!

"Where did you learn to drive?"

"No driver's license! I learned it in the arcade!"

"Shooting too?"

"Where is there so much nonsense!" Zhou Sheng drove, carrying Yu Hao, and rushed all the way down the hillside with full horsepower. The Tyrannosaurus rex followed behind him with shocking power. Yu Hao turned around, held a gun, and fired several times at the Tyrannosaurus gun.

"I think I really need to learn something special." Yu Hao looked at the Tyrannosaurus Rex and said.

Zhou Sheng said, "I think so too!"

Yu Hao: "Shut up!"