Moon white

Cen Sen felt that it was time for him to be sick. If he was as busy as before, he really would not have time to get sick. The cold came on violently, sore throat, stuffy nose, runny nose, and tears. These were all bearable, the most intolerable It was because he was dizzy in his head, and his senses were dull. Everything around him seemed to be separated by a layer, and his work efficiency was extremely low. He persisted for three days, and finally couldn't stand it any longer, and ran to The hospital prescribes medicine.

The classmate who asked him to come here came to see him after learning about it, and even cooked a sumptuous dinner for him. The cold apartment was bustling with visitors.

After the meal, the classmate held a cup of coffee and expressed his opinion while drinking, "Are you 33 this year?"

Cen Sen slowly took out two capsules from the medicine box, "Yes."

The classmate glanced at him, "It's time to think about finding someone."

Cen Sen smiled and remained silent.

The classmate said again: "A child ran to the company to look for you yesterday."

Cen Sen raised his head in surprise, "Looking for me?"

Classmate: "Well, he was asking someone. I happened to hear it when I passed by. Although the kid doesn't look big, he seems to care about you. Do you want to think about it?"

Cen Sen didn't want to say anything more on this topic, "I'm so busy, how can I have time to think about these things."

The classmate snorted, obviously disapproving of what he said, "There is always time, as long as you think about it."

It was Christmas when Cen Sen saw that boy again, and the company was on holiday. He had nothing to do, so he went to volunteer to pass the time.

Since the last snowfall, there have been several snowfalls in between. The weather is very cold. The boy is wearing a light-colored down jacket and a hat. He looks very cute. Cen Sen is also dressed casually this day. The boy saw him Obviously very excited, he waved to him from a distance, ran over and said, "You haven't been here for a long time."

Cen Sen said, "Didn't you go home for Christmas?"

The boy muttered: "My parents are too busy, and I won't be able to see them when I go back." He smiled unabashedly and said, "I can still see you if I stay here."

Cen Sen was a little moved, "You want to see me that much?"

The boy nodded, "Yes, I went to the company to look for you, but I didn't know your name, so I couldn't find you."

Someone called over there, and Cen Sen glanced back, "Let's do things first."

The boy smiled and said: "Okay." Then he said coquettishly: "You can buy me coffee when the meeting is over."

Cen Sen hesitated for two seconds, then nodded slightly.

Every Christmas, Xinxin Manufacturing will give out a big apple. Li Yuebai doesn’t like to eat fruit, so he gave it to Liu Xingxing after work. When he was eating, he checked Moments. Cen Sen updated his status with only four words, Merry Christmas, below With a group photo, many people crowded in front of the church, and he seemed to be doing volunteer work again.

The car was running out of gas, and Li Yuebai went to refuel after dinner. Just as he was about to go back to the dormitory after refueling, Qian Cheng called him again and asked him to go for a drink. He didn't go when he was told last time. It would be unreasonable not to go this time, so he had to drive past.

Li Yuebai returned to the dormitory after eleven o'clock. He was drunk, and he didn't bother to take a shower, so he lay on the bed when he entered the room.

When I was drinking at night, I checked Moments, and I saw many people posting red envelopes. At a glance, they were either 520 or 1314. Even Qian Cheng and Tang Qun wanted to stimulate him. survive.

Li Yuebai was dizzy in his head, laying on the bed scratching his head and thinking about Cen Sen. The phone was repaired last time, but everything in it was gone. He regretted not backing up the photo album, so he can only go to Cen Sen now. Sen's circle of friends chatted about lovesickness, while staring at the enlarged photo, he closed his eyes and masturbated randomly.After masturbating for a long time but still not coming out, he gave up and clicked on Cen Sen's WeChat to send him a red envelope.

The boy and Cen Sen were sitting in a coffee shop holding coffee and chatting. The boy showed great enthusiasm for Cen Sen. Cen Sen listened to him talking about the school with a smile on his face, and was occasionally asked about his school days Only then would he simply say a sentence or two, and his expression was calm throughout the process.

Cen Sen's cell phone on the table rang suddenly, and he said to the boy, "Sorry."

The boy smiled slightly, "It's okay."

Cen Sen clicked on WeChat, and saw the red envelope from Li Yuebai, 520 yuan, his heart beat suddenly, he froze for a while, and tapped his fingers on the screen quickly, he put down the phone after replying to the message, the boy was a little curious Ask: "Is it someone you like?"

Cen Sen blushed a little, "Is it so obvious?"

The boy nodded, took a sip of his coffee and said sourly: "You are very good-looking, but you used to have no good looks, sometimes even a little gloomy, just now, I saw the radiance on your face, very touching. Why don't you go after him?"

Cen Sen was stunned, "What?"

The boy repeated: "I mean, since you like him, he will send you messages again. He seems to be a familiar person, why don't you go after him?"

Just as Cen Sen was about to answer, the phone rang again, and Li Yuebai dialed it directly.

Cen Sen pointed outside, "I'm going to answer the phone."

The boy teased with a slightly sour tone: "Is it him?"

Cen Sen smiled and nodded, before he could say anything, he strode out of the store with his mobile phone in his hand.

"Hey, I miss you." Li Yuebai turned over and lay on the pillow.

Cen Sen was shaken by his aggrieved nasal voice, "Have you been drinking?"

"Well, they dragged me there. I didn't go last time. I'm sorry I won't go this time. What are you doing? I saw the circle of friends you posted."

Cen Sen glanced at the coffee shop behind him, "I'm eating."

"Are you alone?"

Cen Sen didn't want to lie, "No, with someone else, just the Asian boy in the photo."

Li Yuebai smelled of alcohol and jealousy, "Are you dating him?"

"No, he wants to chase me."

Li Yuebai jumped up from the bed, and said in a strong tone: "You must not agree."

Cen Sen didn't find it funny, "Why?"

Li Yuebai said depressedly: "Can you be more serious, I don't want you to date other people, especially on this kind of day."

Cen Sen decided not to hang on to him anymore. If he had trouble sleeping and eating because of this phone call, he would also have trouble sleeping and eating. "He's too young. I don't plan to date him. I just want to have a cup of coffee with him after the event. It’s not easy to find someone who can sit down with a cup of coffee and speak Chinese.”

"Are you homesick?"

"It's okay." Cen Sen said lightly.

Li Yuebai was silent for a long time, then suddenly said: "Cen Sen, can we make up? Don't break up with me, I really love you and miss you very much."

Standing by the side of the cold street, Cen Sen suddenly felt warmth flowing through his body. He remained silent for half a minute before he said, "How do I know if you're talking drunk?"

Li Yuebai wished he could pat his chest to assure him, "Speak the truth after drinking, I speak from the bottom of my heart."

Cen Sen fell silent after a moment of impulsiveness. He felt his heart beating, felt the thriving love rushing through his chest, making his heart ache and sore. At the same time, he silently forced himself to cool down his mind. To calm down.

Li Yuebai held his breath and waited for his reply, the air seemed to freeze, he even took his breath very lightly, fearing that a single sound would trigger something unknown and lead to unacceptable consequences.After a long time, he heard the familiar and unfamiliar voice on the phone say: "Although you love me, you can't accept the fact that I approached you because you are like Ling Feng at first, can you? The question now is not whether I love you or not. Love you, would you like to reconcile with you, but whether you can completely accept this flawed relationship. "

After Cen Sen finished speaking, instead of Li Yuebai's long silence, Cen Sen finally couldn't take it anymore and hung up the phone.

Cen Sen returned to his seat in the coffee shop, the boy was still waiting for him, pondering his expression and asked, "How was the talk?"

Cen Sen stirred the coffee in the cup, and said bluntly: "He wanted to get back together, but I refused."

The boy was surprised and said: "You obviously like him so much, why didn't you agree to him? Are you whetting his appetite?"

Cen Sen shook his head, and said in a low voice: "If you make him feel bad, I will feel more bad than him, but I can't help it. I did something wrong before, and I was too casual when I confessed to him. Although we all love each other, we are together. In this relationship, some things are wrong from the beginning, then two people will only consume each other if they are forcibly bound together."

The boy shook his head thoughtfully, "I don't quite understand."

Cen Sen drank the coffee in his cup, put down the cup and smiled lightly, "You are still young, but I hope you will never understand this. As someone who has experienced it, I would like to warn you, do you want to hear it?"

The boy nodded curiously, "Yes."

Cen Sen motioned him to get closer, and then said in a low voice, "Don't casually make appointments with people in bars, social software, or other places."

The boy raised his beautiful eyes to stare at Cen Sen in surprise. Cen Sen sat up straight and beckoned the waiter to pay the bill.

After that phone call, Li Yuebai suffered from insomnia—the love between him and Cen Sen was like a pearl growing in a river oyster, and the river oyster inevitably contained some sand, just like the blemishes in the relationship. Bringing the tide to help them carry the sand away, waiting for the day to come, but never thinking about trying to push the sand out of them themselves.

After knowing Ling Feng's existence, they tested each other, uneasy, suspicious, and tried hard to maintain the illusion of peace. Pearl was dusted by this, maybe Cen Sen was right, he went abroad, separated from himself, and stopped the loss in time, so that he didn't let that A pearl becomes utterly hopeless.

Even tonight, if it wasn't for the alcohol, he probably wouldn't have taken the initiative to show his love to Cen Sen.He cared so much in his heart that he couldn't say it out of his mouth - if it was when the two of them were in a good relationship, he could pour out sweet words without any scruples, but now the relationship between the two is neither awkward nor awkward, and some words are no longer difficult to say It's not how valuable his self-esteem is, it's just that after years of struggling in society, the boring life, work and life that can be seen to the end at a glance have grown an invisible armor on him, which has the ability to fear The function of automatically shrinking when the host is disappointed.It's like many people can give patience and kindness to their colleagues, but they can't give it to their closest people.

We hate our twisted selves, but we can't help ourselves!

Can you fully accept this flawed relationship?Li Yuebai asked himself.

After Christmas, Xinxin broke another shocking news. Li Yuebai, the R&D supervisor, resigned. This incident alarmed Zheng Chen in City A as quickly as possible. The supreme spirit called Cen Sen. At that time, not long after Cen Sen fell asleep, he was woken up by the phone, and he was in an understandable mood, "It's so late, what's the matter?"

Zheng Chen: "Gong Li resigned, did you know that?"

Cen Sen reacted for a moment, then said flatly, "I don't know."

Zheng Chen: "The letter of resignation has been handed over to Lao Jin, and he said that he will not come after the end of the year. Are you two having a fight again? Do you know how difficult it is to recruit a job now, or how irreplaceable he is? The key is that it is too difficult to find a suitable person. Although Liu Xingxing under him has also studied with him for two years, he is too careless and doesn't care about work at all. He is thinking about playing games all day long. Where are we going to find someone to replace him!"

After hearing Zheng Chen's complaint, Cen Sen lifted the quilt and sat up, and turned on the small lamp beside the bed, "We are so far away, is there any reason to quarrel? Besides, we have broken up, so what's the trouble?" Although he denied , but he couldn't help wondering whether Li Yuebai's resignation had something to do with the previous phone call. He thought for a while, and then asked, "What do you mean by calling? Let me help you persuade him to stay in Xinxin?"

Zheng Chen sighed, "That's not necessary, people, you can go after whatever you want. He told Lao Jin that he couldn't find a partner in Xinxin and wanted to pursue love. How do you think we can continue to keep him? Since you I don't know, then it seems that you are not what he wants to pursue, so let's do it, don't feel bad, anyway, you said it, you are all divided."

"Hello, are you listening? Hey..." Zheng Chen heard the busy voice, and said to himself, "You actually hung up on me! If you care so much, why did you go early?" Although Zheng Chen and Cen Sen were friends , the relationship between the two of them is many times better than the relationship between him and Li Yuebai, but in his private heart, Zheng Chen has always felt that Cen Sen is a bit pretentious.

Originally, the circle of friends was the only way for the two to spy on each other's lives, but since Li Yuebai resigned, his circle of friends has become barren again, and Cen Sen no longer posts any personal status. Originally, the photos he posted as volunteers were all for Li Yuebai to see Yes, now that he's gone, there's no need to post.

How many times did Cen Sen dream back in the middle of the night, wondering if he said too much that day, but how would he know Li Yuebai's true thoughts if he didn't say that? It seems that he really cared and escaped immediately after recognizing the reality. Without hesitation.