don't you see the stars

With strength, he squatted on the ground, holding his head and trying not to let himself cry, but the unsatisfactory tears gushed out of his eye sockets like broken beads.There is still Shen Ye's shirt hanging in the room, Ji Xingchen originally wanted to return it to Shen Ye, and now there is no way to return it to him. I am afraid that even seeing him in the future will become a luxury.

Before Bai Qingli returned to the hotel, he received another call from Shen Ye, so he had to rush over to look for him again.

"You also found the man, why don't you come here to drink if you don't look for him?" Bai Qingli wanted to complain a few more words, but facing Shen Ye's dark face, Bai Qingli still shut up.

"I'm in a bad mood, have a few drinks with me." Shen Ye handed the bottle to Bai Qingli.

"I'll have to drive you home later, drink it yourself." Bai Qingli pushed the wine aside.

Shen Ye took a few sips of wine, said with a wry smile, "Brothers are broken in love, you don't even want to drink with me, hehe." After speaking, he took a few more sips, and the bottle soon bottomed out.

According to Shen Ye's way of drinking, he is not far from alcoholism, Bai Qingli really has no choice but to follow suit.

Ji Xingchen didn't have anything to clean up, but he just dug out the photos taken by Shen Ye, put them away, turned them out again, put them away again, looked at them over and over again, felt sad and cried over and over again, and met Shen Ye Ye, it was Ji Xingchen's luck, but it was Ji Xingchen's misfortune to fall in love with him.It was too difficult to say goodbye to him, so Ji Xingchen chose to run away.It doesn't matter, he is very angry now, but soon he will not be angry, and when he completely forgets, everything can be regarded as never happened, yes, it never happened!Ji Xingchen said sorry in his heart over and over again.

Shen Ye nestled on the sofa in the dark corner of the bar, drinking wine without saying a word, Bai Qingli didn't answer the questions, his face became more and more ugly, and his mind was a little unclear.Bai Qingli couldn't stop Shen Ye, if he was allowed to drink more, even if he didn't suffer from alcohol poisoning, it would be necessary to go to the hospital for gastric lavage.Bai Qingli had no choice but to call Ji Xingchen, but fortunately Ji Xingchen didn't hang up directly.

"Mr. Ji, I don't know what's going on between you and Shen Ye, but as his friend, I hope you can come and persuade him not to ruin his body. If you don't care about his feelings, I will I can't force you, it's just that he misjudged the person." Bai Qingli said with suppressed anger.

Bai Qingli's tone was very bad. One sentence, Mr. Ji, has destroyed all the previous affection. Ji Xingchen is not in the mood to care about Bai Qingli's opinion of him. When he hears that Shen Ye has something to do, Ji Xingchen's heart hangs. up.

"Can you tell me what he's doing?" Ji Xingchen asked worriedly.

Bai Qingli sighed, and said, "He's getting drunk, he's about to die."

"What, is he okay? I'll come here now. Where are you?" Ji Xingchen wiped away his tears carelessly, grabbed his coat and ran outside.

After going downstairs, Ji Xingchen hung up the phone, didn't care about thinking, and immediately rushed to the address sent by Bai Qingli.

When Ji Xingchen arrived at the bar, Shen Ye was already drunk and started talking nonsense, his clothes were all stained with wine.

"Shen Ye, what the hell are you doing!" Ji Xingchen snatched the wine glass from Shen Ye's hand in surprise, and said, "Stop drinking!"

"Chenchen, you're here, aren't you avoiding me?" Shen Ye saw the face in front of him clearly, stammered and pulled Ji Xingchen, and said excitedly.

"Okay, take him home first, don't stay here." Bai Qingli said, helping Shen Ye up.Ji Xingchen quickly helped Bai Qingli, helped Shen Ye out of the bar, and sent him to the car.

Bai Qingli and Ji Xingchen dragged Shen Ye home with difficulty, and after placing Shen Ye in the bedroom, Bai Qingli looked at Ji Xingchen and said seriously, "It's not convenient for me to say more about the things between you, but please see that he treats you For the good sake, take care of him temporarily, and when he wakes up, you can talk about it. Some things are unclear, and it will be torture for you."

"Okay, I will." Ji Xingchen nodded.

Bai Qingli sighed, closed the door, and went out from Shen Ye's house.

After Bai Qingli left, Ji Xingchen walked into the bedroom and helped Shen Ye take off his soiled coat, shoes and socks, so that he could lie down more comfortably.Another hot water was brought to help him wipe his face clean. Ji Xingchen's fingers accidentally touched Shen Ye's skin, and he withdrew quickly like an electric shock.

Sitting by the bed, Ji Xingchen looked at Shen Ye who was lying in front of him, and couldn't help recalling that the first time he met him, he was taking care of him when he was drunk. If he hadn't met him that day, what would he be now? What does it look like?

Ji Xingchen stared at Shen Ye for a while, and said with a choked voice, "Shen Ye, I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you, I don't deserve what you do for me. I like the feeling of being by your side, but I'm afraid to leave You are too close, I am afraid that you will hate me if you know my past, and then I am really not qualified to stay by your side. It is my selfishness, and it is all my fault. I know that I cannot rely on you, but I But I can't help approaching, I shouldn't think about staying in the city with you, thinking about having the opportunity to see you from a distance, I should hide in a place where you can't find me, so that I don't have to talk about those things that hurt you If you do, it won’t hurt you.”

"Even if you hide in the ends of the earth, I can still find you!" Shen Ye opened his eyes, looked at Ji Xingchen and said.

"Shen Ye, you're not asleep!" Ji Xingchen said in surprise.

"I drank a lot, but it's definitely not as exaggerated as Lao Bai said." Shen Ye said with a smile, "It's just that my head hurts too much, but after lying down for a while, it's much better."

Ji Xingchen stood up abruptly, and said, "Since you're fine, I'm leaving!" After finishing speaking, Ji Xingchen walked out quickly, angry and ashamed.

It's all because of Lao Bai's bad idea!Shen Ye hurried over, blocked the door, and locked the door behind him.

"Shen Ye, get out of the way!" Ji Xingchen said softly.

"Chenchen, don't be angry, let's sit down and have a good talk, okay?" Shen Ye said sincerely.

When Ji Xingchen thought that what he said just now might have been heard, he wished he could find a crack in the ground and sneak in.Seeing that Ji Xingchen didn't object, Shen Ye let him sit by the bed, and pulled a chair to sit opposite him.

"Chenchen, I've always wanted to tell you something, but I was afraid that I would scare you if I said it suddenly, so I didn't tell you. Now that you know everything, even if you start to hate me, I hope you don't hide from me , I won't force you to accept this kind of feeling, can you trust me? Can you stop avoiding me?" Shen Ye looked at Ji Xingchen affectionately and said.

Shen Ye's words made Ji Xingchen even more uncomfortable, how could he deserve this, obviously he was the one who was struggling all this time. "I never hated you." Ji Xingchen said with his head down.

Shen Ye happily pulled Ji Xingchen and said, "Since you don't hate me, can I treat you like me too!"

"Shen Ye, I am different from what you imagined. I am a very bad person. You don't know me that well. You don't know anything. People I care about will be implicated by me. I don't want to bring you any harm. So we shouldn't have started! If I accept your feelings, it will bring you a lot of trouble, I don't want to do that." Ji Xingchen said excitedly.

"Chenchen, calm down first." Shen Ye got up and hugged the helpless Ji Xingchen, and patted Ji Xingchen's back lightly.

Completely give up!Ji Xingchen finished talking to himself disheartened, then broke away gently, looked at Shen Ye and said, "My parents' accidents were all caused by me."

"What?" Shen Ye looked at Ji Xingchen in surprise.

Seeing Shen Ye's surprised expression, Ji Xingchen said with a wry smile in his heart, after the story is finished, you will hate me.Ji Xingchen lowered his head, painfully recalling the unbearable past.

On the day of the accident, Ji Xingchen, wearing a school uniform, was standing by the back door of the school, holding a blue envelope in his hand.During class during the day, Ji Xingchen found a letter in the book, which contained a photo. The person in the photo looked familiar. He was the chairman of the student union and the first grader. No one in the school didn't know him. After all, he had been It is an eternal topic among girls.How could he write to himself?Ji Xingchen read the contents of the letter paper suspiciously. "I may have fallen in love with you by accident. I'll wait for you at the back door after school. See you soon." Seeing this sentence, Ji Xingchen was even more surprised. Could it be that he is the same person as himself!Although Ji Xingchen has no feeling for this person at all, but thinking that he is "the same kind" as himself, Ji Xingchen still decides to go to the appointment.After school, Ji Xingchen waited by the back door for more than ten minutes, but no one came to the appointment. Just as he was about to leave, several girls surrounded him and suddenly appeared in front of Ji Xingchen. "It's really a homosexual, it's disgusting!" "It's just like you, you have the nerve to like our senior!" "Why don't you die like a trash, it's disgusting." Those girls said viciously to Ji Xingchen.Ji Xingchen was stimulated by the words of the girls, and retorted, "I didn't! I didn't like him!" The man smiled mischievously, and said to Ji Xingchen, "You are really disgusting, liking men. Don't say it in the future, so as not to dirty other people's eyes." Ji Xingchen didn't know how he escaped from their ridicule, it rained heavily in the evening, Ji Xingchen didn't go home, and wandered numbly on the street.The night was hazy, and the rain was getting heavier and heavier. Ji Xingchen heard the voices of his parents coming from behind. They must have come out to look for him before Ji Xingchen came home.Ji Xingchen seemed to be possessed, and rushed to the opposite side of the road without looking back, until he heard a loud noise, and when he turned around, his parents were already lying on the bed.