drunk three lives

Tao Shi rode his horse towards the capital, and saw a man in white clothes standing beside the city gate from a distance, the smile on his mouth widened, he waved his whip and shouted: "Pei Xun!"

Pei Xun waved to him, and seeing the young man who had returned from training quickly dismounted and walked up to him, he couldn't help but walk around him, and praised, "It's even stronger than it was a few months ago."

Tao Shi said with disgust: "There is nothing but nonsense."

Pei Xundao: "The wine is ready, just waiting for you to come back."

Tao Shi patted Pei Xun's shoulder mischievously and said, "This is the way to look."

Pei Xun coughed from those slaps, tapped his shoulder with a fan and said, "These slaps are for you."

In the restaurant, Tao tapped the table with his chopsticks and said, "It feels like you have changed a lot."

Pei Xun raised his eyebrows and said, "Really? He's still handsome when he grows taller."

Tao Shi echoed him earnestly, "It's getting closer to Toukui."

Pei Xun clicked his tongue and said, "It's really narrow-minded, but it hurts your memory."

Tao Shi looked very happy, drank a lot of wine, people came and went downstairs, the people at the next table changed and changed, only the two of them drank happily, until the sun set and the west was woven with colorful clouds.He laughed at Tao Shi who couldn't stand still, saw him being taken away by his attendants, refused others to take him home, insisted on walking back by himself, and ended up lying on the table unconscious, not even knowing how to get back to the mansion.

When he woke up, it was already noon the next day, and he was suffering from a headache. He was lying on the bed staring at the curtain, and the voice of the servant woke him up from the trance: "Young master, come to visit with the Taoist, the master asked me to tell the young master One sound."

"Got it." The voice came out in an indescribably hoarse voice.

In the front hall, he respectfully listened to his father chatting with his master, and the topic suddenly turned to him, only to hear Pei Boyuan sigh: "This child is becoming more and more unpredictable nowadays."

Pei Xun lowered his head further.The Taoist accompanying him glanced at him and laughed loudly: "It is said that knowing a son is better than a father, Xun'er is now positive, and he will be fine after this period of time."

Pei Boyuan reluctantly accepted this relief: "I think so."

The Taoist followed him and shook off his whisk and said, "I'm going on a long trip again, and I want to give Xun'er a few words before I leave."

Pei Boyuan was surprised: "Master just came back a few days ago, why are you leaving again?"

"A rootless person is used to wandering."

Pei Boyuan said worriedly: "Master, he never looked for Xun'er when he went out before, did something happen?"

Sui Sui Taoist said: "It's nothing, but this time I've been away for a long time, so I want to say a few more words."

Pei Boyuan nodded and said: "That's it, master please."

A few flying birds passed by in the blue sky, leaving no shadows but sound.The silhouettes of the master and the apprentice by the lake were blown into disorder by the wind. The two looked at the lake and saw the sparkling water on the lake. It was a secret, or Zen and others understood it.Although Taoist Sui Sui is a disciple of Taoism, he actually believes in both Buddhism, Taoism and Confucianism. In his view, all things are connected, no matter which school of thought has the same root, so he traveled around to find the root.He remembered that when he first met Pei Xun, he was covered in blood and his face was distorted in pain. He still refused to cry out, and he didn't even struggle. Maybe he found it useless after struggling, and let the same weak wolf tear his arm. Live but have no survival instinct.He tried to save him, but it was Yao Shiwanye, who was supposed to be a soul taken away by the underworld. He didn't want to be too soft-hearted and violated the law of heaven to save his life with the wolf element found in the body of the black wolf. When it is approaching, life is over.

"Xun'er, look at the willows in the world, which one does not have intertwined branches and leaves, but when the wind is calm, the branches will straighten as they grow."

"There is no wind in my heart, where are the branches and leaves intertwined."

"Since that's the case, why not follow your nature."

"What is nature? No one else has it, so what's the use of it."

Taoist Sui Sui felt a little sentimental, and said, "Xun'er, as a teacher, I don't want you to be able to bear hatred."

"Master wants me to hate."

"Hate it, it's okay to hate it, but you don't even want to hate it."

Pei Xun looked down at his right hand. It had been stripped from his body for only a moment, but it took him a year to confirm its existence: "That wolf threw me to save the prince who was as young as me that year. Now I can understand his loyalty, but when he abandoned me, I understood his cruelty, righteousness comes first, I think I can understand him."

"But..."

"However, I can't understand that everything he gave me was fake."

"Even if it is given to you, how can it be false?"

"A beautiful box with nothing inside."

"There is no parent who does not love their children."

Pei Xun chuckled lightly, with a thick sneer: "But he really doesn't like me. But what I hate is that he hates me to the extreme, but gives the illusion of my father's kindness, and then smashes it with his own hands."

"I must have misunderstood this matter. You have refused to ask him a question for so many years."

"I heard it with my own ears. On the second day after the master rescued me and sent me back, I heard him say in the ancestral hall why I didn't die there."

The Taoist Sui Sui was silent for a while before he said: "Old Taoist, I just don't want you to be imprisoned in place and unable to move forward because of this knot in my heart."

Pei Xun changed his smile and said, "Walking is so tiring, it's good to stand still."

Sui Sui Taoist knew that it was impossible to persuade him, so he changed the topic and said: "The matter of the catastrophe is like looking at flowers through fog, and it seems to have its trajectory. I can't predict your life or death, so I can only earn you an extra life." A kit was handed to him and said: "I can help you in times of crisis."

Pei Xun took it, and after thinking about it, he couldn't help asking: "Master, you never told me what kind of catastrophe it is?"

"Being a teacher is not a capable person, so I don't know."

"Then, it can't be love robbery."

The Taoist Sui Sui seemed a little surprised, twisted his fingers and counted a few times, and said with even more surprise: "I see, the vitality is on your body."

"What do you mean?"

Sui Sui Taoist looked mysterious: "Borrowing from Buddhist Zen words: don't say it."

In the end, I didn't ask anything, and when I watched the master leave, I didn't think that this was the last meeting between the master and the apprentice.

On the way back home, Pei Xun noticed a group of eyes chasing him closely, looking around, he saw people coming and going, and he thought it was his own carelessness.Passing by the wine shop, thinking of the wine that Yun Bugu brought him, he walked in out of curiosity, but couldn't find the taste, and returned disappointed.Yun Bugu would disappear silently every time, and every once in a while he would wake up in the morning and find him hugging himself to sleep, and then stay for a few days before disappearing.Because there is no rule to follow, Pei Xun didn't even know where to put his expectations, and unconsciously searched for things related to him during his disappearance to comfort him.

Tao Shi sent someone to bring a message for him, saying that he drank too much wine yesterday, like soaking in a wine tank overnight, but drinking with his best friend is painful and pleasant, and when he becomes famous in the future, he must drink like this again.Pei Xun asked Tao Shi why he didn't come in person, the man hesitated and was eager to speak, knowing the relationship between the person in front of him and his young master, pretending to be sorry to cover up his smile: "Young master, he probably misses you You, I recognized the willow tree at home as you, pulled the willow branch and insisted on drinking, how do you think the willow tree can be pulled, the young master can't pull the weeping willow upside down, seeing the willow tree not moving, I went up to hug it angrily, but didn't stand up Wen fell down, with a bruise on his face, and he is recuperating at home."

Pei Xun thought about Tao Shi's embarrassment, and felt good for a while, rewarded the visitor, and asked him to bring a message to visit tomorrow to comfort the injury.

Back in the courtyard, seeing a figure in the room, he turned around in a panic, pulled his clothes calmly and walked towards the room, saying as he walked, "It's not right when you come back today, you..." The voice stuck There is no sound in my throat.

Mo Huai looked at Pei Xun who was standing stiffly at the door with a half-smile, and said, "What are you doing standing there stupidly? Sit down." He acted like a master.

"It's you." It took a while for Pei Xun to realize, and slowly moved to the stool, trying to sit as far away from that person as possible.That day in the cave because of the dim light and the lack of focus on him, I didn't pay special attention to his appearance, but now I found that the man had a pair of seductive peach blossom eyes.

The setting sun slanted on the two of them through the window, Pei Xun only felt chills rising up, and couldn't figure out what was going on in his mind.

Mo Huai saw his vigilance, poured tea for the two of them, and said: "Don't be nervous, I have already got the holy order, and I won't kidnap you again, but I just passed by, so I will save you the words of invitation, and come here by myself." .”

Pei Xun pulled out a smile and said, "Then you are really... caring."

Mo Huai raised his peach blossom eyes as if he was really appreciated, and said with a smile: "I'm sorry, if you want to say that you are caring, you can't compare it with being unsteady. It took so much effort to abolish the call of the holy order on the grounds of finding the wolf soul." As a result, the bamboo basket draws water."

Pei Xundao: "It's indeed a lot of effort to hijack a person who is powerless."

Mo Huai raised his eyebrows and said, "I originally wanted to make him unhappy, but who knew that I would make him too unhappy, but in the end he made a fool of me."

Pei Xun suddenly felt that the person in front of him was not that dangerous, so he relaxed a little and said, "Where is he now?"

There was a hint of teasing in Mo Huai's eyes, Pei Xun suddenly felt extremely hot, and his mouth was dry, so he picked up the teacup and took a sip to feel better.

"He, he is dealing with the beauty. The wolf soul should be sealed with a formation, so we can't perceive it. If we want to break through the seal, we must ask for the help of our concubine. Coincidentally, our concubine Girl falls in love with him."

Pei Xun's hands trembled, and he said, "Really? What about him?"

"Since ancient times, heroes have been saddened by the beauty pass. I think it will be a matter of time before they are taken down."

The darkness completely enveloped the world, Pei Xun didn't intend to light a lamp, and sat quietly in the darkness.

"Why are you telling me this?"

"I said it, I want to make him feel uncomfortable. He has already warned me because of the last incident, I will not do anything to you, but other people may not be sure, you should be careful in the future. "Totally gloating.

"You and him are friends or foes."

"He and I," Mo Huai let out an inexplicable smile, "We are friend and foe."

After Mo Huai left, Pei Xun sat until the dawn. The servant's call woke him up from his thoughts. After he had someone wait for him to wash up, he remembered that he had an appointment with Tao Shi today, but he couldn't arouse his interest. People sent some wound medicine to chat for comfort, even though the Shi family, who is a family of generals, does not lack wound medicine, but their hearts are indispensable.

Yun Bugu didn't show up for a long time this time, Pei Xun gradually became frustrated from his original eagerness, and at a certain moment he suddenly realized that he didn't want to question anything, because there was nothing to question, he was his doom, it has always been like this.

After a while, his father suddenly said that he had something very important to see him. Pei Xun came to the front hall and saw his father and his colleague Shangshu An Jing having a lively chat, laughing heartily from time to time, seeing Pei Xun Then he beckoned him to go over, stood aside respectfully, and heard An Jing praise: "Sure enough, the tiger father has no dogs, and the son is as extraordinary as the rumors."

Pei Boyuan said humbly: "Master An is overrated, this child is uncertain, it's really troublesome. I heard that Ling Qianjin is the lady of everyone, so she is very reserved."

An Jing said with a smile: "It's common for a kid to be uncertain. Only when he has a family can he establish a career. Mr. Pei filtered it."

Pei Xun immediately understood why this time, as the center of the topic, he was like an outsider who couldn't get in a word. He listened to their mutual compliments, probing back and forth, and calculating their own interests, and suddenly realized that his marriage had nothing to do with him and the woman. It doesn't matter, it's their own path only in the end, and those who contributed to this matter mostly broke up, leaving the two of them bound for a lifetime.If he left first, the woman would erect a monument for him and write it as a survivor.Widow, what a cruel word.When he uncovered the hijab to know the appearance of the person he had been with him for the rest of his life, that poor woman became his appendage. Even if he died, even if she didn't die, in the eyes of the world, she had to die halfway.The widow, who is obviously a living person, will be treated incompletely.And when she died, he could find another possible widow.It turns out that a man's wedding is to find one widow after another, and the destination of a woman is either to die as an appendage or become a widow.

After sending An Jing away, Pei Boyuan and Pei Xun returned to the front hall.Pei Boyuan saw that Pei Xun was silent for a long time, although he was dissatisfied, he still said: "I have met the daughter of the An family, she is well educated and reasonable, and she is beautiful. The An family is very strict in etiquette, and we are considered to be in the same family as our Pei family. Today you are also I heard that An Jing is satisfied with you, and you are not young anymore. Your mother is gone, so I will discuss this matter with your sister and ask the emperor to grant you a marriage."

"I reject."

Pei Boyuan thought for a moment that he was hallucinating, and then he continued after being dazed for a moment: "You also have to plan for the future, the best way to send a letter as soon as possible."

Pei Xun said firmly: "I can become a scholar, but I don't agree to the marriage."

Pei Boyuan was surprised and said: "Why? The daughter of the An family's concubine is a lady of everyone, and besides, the An family has a good background, it will only benefit you and not harm your future officialdom."

Pei Xundao: "I will not marry anyone."

Pei Boyuan's face was full of disbelief, wondering what he heard: "What do you mean?"

"literal meaning."

Pei Boyuan was completely angry, but Pei Xun's calm expression calmed him down: "What happened?"

Pei Xun bowed and knelt down, seemed to be thinking about it before he opened his mouth and said, "There's nothing, it's just my heart's longing."

"Longing for what?"

"All my life, alone and helpless."

Pei Boyuan trembled with anger, paced back and forth, suddenly thought of something, stopped suddenly, stared at him and said, "Are you still resentful for leaving you behind?"

"Don't dare."

"Look at me!" The increased tone made Pei Xun's heart tremble, and he looked up with a frank expression.

Pei Boyuan said in a calm tone: "Xun'er, eat the king's salary, and serve the king. Between you and the prince, the father has to leave you to protect the prince. The father knows that this is inhumane, but he has no choice but to do it. Fortunately, God has eyes and kept you unscathed. For so many years, the heart of being a father is always in pain." When he mentioned the past, his tone revealed a slight tremor.

Pei Xun wanted to suppress his smile, but the smile burst out of his facial features, and an uncontrollable laugh echoed in the entire front hall, laughing until tears came out: "Father, you are heartbroken that I didn't die there, right?" .”

Pei Boyuan's face changed, and his voice was hoarse: "Nizi, you..."

"Of course I understand your childish loyalty, and I'm also trying to understand how you can be affectionate in the face of a disgusting person."

In the darkness, no matter how much he shouted, the person he was thinking about failed to keep his promise to save him. He was torn apart and dragged into the darkness. His father's words still lingered in his ears: "Xun'er, as a father, you must send the prince back to the palace safely. Please understand father's dilemma, don't worry, I will definitely come back to save you." Lie.No one came, and there was no human breath around, because the wolf didn't raise its vigilance at all.No one will come to his rescue, no one will come.It seemed that God didn't want him to die like this. At the last moment when his consciousness was hazy, a touch of whiteness appeared under the moonlight, which became his salvation, and also became a curse that he could not escape in his whole life.In order to save him, Sui Sui Taoist injected wolf soul into his body, causing catastrophe.But in Pei Xun's view, the biggest catastrophe was seeing his father's complicated eyes after he came back safely, and the heart-wrenching words he overheard.His father seems to be the same as before, but Pei Xun is no longer the former Pei Xun. He has learned to pretend and cannot tell his sincerity, so he has no choice but to give his sincerity.

"Father, what exactly is Xun'er to you?" Pei Xun smiled and wept, straightening his back, "I have always played the role of a good son, only this time, I hope my father will be happy."

Pei Boyuan hunched his back, and said with an unspeakable vicissitudes in his tone: "Xun'er, that was just a moment of anger."

"But that's your true heart, angry words, are you angry to speak the truth?"

Pei Boyuan shook his head and said: "After so many years, my grievances have disappeared. How can parents not love their children. Back then, I accidentally found out that your mother had a crush on someone. I was devoted to her, but she missed others, and even After having you, I still miss you so much that I die in depression. Your eyes are so similar to your mother. To be honest, thinking that you are dead does save me from being exposed to those eyes every day, but it also makes me suffer a lot. That night I just want to make a break with the past and pour out the depression in my heart, but I don't want to be heard by you. Xun'er, you asked me what you are, you are my child."

"By marrying Shangshu, you will get a powerful ally. In addition, Tao Shi, who is close to me, will really make my father a leader in the political arena. I remember that you arranged the acquaintance with Tao Shi. First, Take the line of the Tao family, and then use me as bait to get a reward, and don't forget to send my sister to the palace. Father, I am not your child, I am your bargaining chip."

Pei Boyuan became angry with embarrassment: "It's such a misfortune for the family to have such a rebellious son like you, talking nonsense. Come, please ask the family law. You have to agree to this marriage, and you have to agree to it if you don't."

The only brilliance in Pei Xun's eyes faded, and his body collapsed.

The ruler hit the body one by one, shattering the last family dream. There was no grievance and resentment, nothing, and only then did I realize my self-deception.Who is it useful to be angry with?Getting angry with someone who doesn't care about you cuts off your happiness and shatters your vitality, only to realize that it's all your own one-man show.

Forget it, it's all over.

"Father, it's the last time I call you that. Let's cut off our friendship from now on. It's also a bit of respect for each other."

Pei Boyuan grabbed the ruler and broke it. Seeing that the person lying on the ground showed no repentance, he said viciously: "You were born as a member of my Pei family and died as a ghost of my family. If you want to run away like your mother, Don't dream, turning into ashes is also the incense of my Pei family."

Eyes full of red, gradually turning dark.

Woke up again and returned to his own yard, which was once the world left by his mother. I don't know if his mother understood in the end that her escape was just a circle back to the original place.The people serving in the house were all unfamiliar faces, and their bodies were fine.After narrowly escaping from death at the age of ten, his physical recovery ability was particularly strong, and he almost recovered when he woke up.In order not to let the servants notice the abnormality, he still lay on the bed for a few more days, and insisted on changing his dressing, ignoring the suspicious gazes of the servants - in their eyes, Pei Xun was still too impatient.

Must escape.One night, this thought was so strong that it made my heart chill. This small courtyard that trapped my mother to death seemed to be opening its bloody mouth everywhere to swallow people up.The yard where he lived for more than ten years turned out to be a man-eating monster.The servants did not expect him to move freely, coupled with his familiarity with the small courtyard, Pei Xun finally fled there.I left the cage on impulse, but I didn't know where to go.Strolling around aimlessly, the capital city under the night is as silent as a dead city, only the watchmen report the watch on time, and there are some patrolling soldiers.The capital city has been at ease for too long, and the so-called city tour has become a kind of leisurely walk psychologically, which actually allowed Pei Xun to avoid them, and finally went to the willow by the river to snuggle up and watch the moonlight.

Suddenly the sound of breaking wind hits, there is no time to react, I just feel falling into an embrace, the familiarity makes people want to rely on under the loss.

Yun Bugu put Pei Xun in place, and quickly went up to fight with a black shadow, he couldn't see their movements at all, only the strange wind movement told them where they were.Although he couldn't see it, Pei Xun's dangerous instinct made him on guard, and he turned around to block another black shadow's attack. Although it was a little difficult, he could still protect himself.Under the moonlight, he couldn't see the man's face clearly, but he felt the chilling green eyes. He didn't dare to neglect his hands, and his offensive gradually became stronger. Pei Xun was slapped by his palm when he caught the opening, and his heart suddenly hurt, and blood spurted out. out.Seeing that Pei Xun was still able to parry, Yun Buguyuan just wanted to end the battle as soon as possible. Looking back, he was surprised to see Pei Xun being injured. He was shocked and indignant. He slapped a palm, and then Pei Xun disappeared after a few ups and downs. The man in black Seeing this, he hurriedly chased after him, but there was no one there.

Yun Bugu took him to a hut outside the city and settled him. Just as he was about to heal his wounds, he saw white light flowing from his body, which instantly resonated with Yun Bugu. Yun Bugu was astonished and his face became gloomy.

The chirping of birds in his ears was noisy in Pei Xun's ears. He opened his eyes and realized that he didn't know where he was. The situation of last night came into his mind, and he suddenly got up to look for Yun Bugu's figure.

"Lie down." The voice came from above his head, Pei Xun followed the voice and found that Yun Bugu was standing at the head of the bed with a worried expression on his face.

Pei Xun smiled and said, "Thank you for saving me, who were those people last night?"

"An outsider who competes with me for the title of wolf king." His tone was dry.

Pei Xun noticed that something was wrong with him, and frowned, "What's wrong with you?"

Yun Bugu laughed suddenly, but there was no sense of joy inside: "I found the wolf soul, as long as I bring it back, I can successfully succeed to the throne."

"Isn't that bad?"

"Okay, very good, why not." Yun Bugu paced back and forth irritably, stopped suddenly, stared at Pei Xun and said, "You were attacked by a black wolf, and when you were dying, you were quickly saved and recovered."

"What's wrong?" Pei Xun couldn't understand for a while, and then he remembered something after asking, "The thing that Master took out from the wolf's body is the wolf soul!" It was what Yun Bugu had been looking for.

"What are you going to do, take it out?"

Yun Bugu said angrily: "I tried it, it has already merged with your soul, once you take it out, your soul will fly away."

Pei Xun looked at him, not wanting to miss a slight change in his expression: "Then what do you want to do?"

"If there is no wolf soul, the fortune of the wolf clan will be weakened."

"Then take it out."

Yun Bugu didn't deny it, but just kept silent, Pei Xun suddenly felt very relieved, it had been like this all his life.

"I only have one thing. My master once mentioned it to me inadvertently. Tao Shi's luck is short, and he will be in trouble after the age of [-]. I just hope you can help him. If you don't want to owe people favors, you can pay them back." Bar."

"Pei Xun, as long as you tell me, I can act as if I don't know anything to help you re-seal the wolf soul. Human life is short, and the wolf clan is not bad for decades."

"What do you want me to say? Please spare my life?"

"You are always absent-minded, I just want a word."

Pei Xun knew that he was telling the truth, but after thinking about it, there was really nothing in this world to be nostalgic for.He remembered that the master said that life was in his hands, but he didn't want it anymore.

"I really have nothing to say. It's just that I haven't drunk the jug of wine yet, but forget it, I'll lose my mind after drinking it."

Mo Huai held Wang Yin and squinted at Yun Bugu: "Why, we still want beauties and not Jiangshan."

Yun Bugu said indifferently: "I never wanted this position."

"Then you are still desperately looking for the Holy Order and the wolf soul."

"I just don't want to lose my promise to the former wolf king."

"Then you now..."

"I'm tired. I have never broken my promise in my life. This is the only time. Besides, you will do well." Yun Bugu got up and left.

Mo Huai looked at his back, and murmured to himself: "Knowing that your heart is not in the temple, I will compete with you for the throne. You want to be free, and I want you to be free. Have we all won?"

There is a yard in Pei's house that no one has lived in for many years, and the paper on the small square table in the study has turned yellow.

My moonlight seems warm and moderate.

The author has something to say: there will be extra episodes, past and future lives, and supplements to the ending of the story