ghost or not

When Zhang Zhiping woke up, he was the only one left in the room, he sat blankly for a while, feeling lost, and then saw Lu Xiaoxian came back with a bunch of branches in his arms, full of cold.

"It's hot water today." Lu Xiaoxian said while stuffing branches at the bottom of the kang, "I'm going to the back mountain to collect some firewood in the morning, are you going? If it's cold, stay indoors."

"Go!" Zhang Zhiping quickly replied, "I dare not be alone with grandma."

Lu Xiaoxian stood up and seemed to be smiling, but unfortunately he turned around too fast and couldn't see clearly.Zhang Zhiping washed up neatly, ate a couple of casual bites, put on his down jacket, and followed Lu Xiaoxian out.Even though he had prepared himself psychologically, he was still shivering violently from the cold wind that hit his face.

The back mountain was very close to the small house, and the two of them walked to the bottom of the mountain in ten minutes.The mountain is covered with a thick layer of snow. From a distance, it is beautifully covered with silver, just like a picture scroll, but when you really walk into the picture, there is a big hole at one foot, making it difficult to move an inch.

Zhang Zhiping stepped on Lu Xiaoxian's footsteps with difficulty, and managed to follow him with great difficulty.The specific work is not cumbersome, you only need to pick the branches of the appropriate size and throw them into the basket.After working for more than three hours, Lu Xiaoxian finally let go and said that it was almost enough.

Zhang Zhiping got a big rock sharply, ran to sit down: "Will Xie make it again?"

Lu Xiaoxian threw the basket on the ground, sat next to him, and looked up at the sky: "Isn't it boring in the valley? When I first came here, I felt that the time was extremely long, and the sun would never set even after it rose."

It was rare for Zhang Zhiping to listen to him talk about himself, so he asked, "How old were you when you came here?"

"Can't remember." Lu Xiaoxian stood up suddenly, "You wait for me here, I'll go back and get something."

"Hey..." Zhang Zhiping couldn't stop him, so he could only stay where he was puzzled.He thought to himself, Xiaoxian seems to be in a good mood today, and he seems to be reasonable.To be honest, he was really a little afraid that the guy would go crazy at every turn.

Lu Xiaoxian came back with a shovel and two large planks.Zhang Zhiping got up to help him pick it up, he didn't know why: "This is?"

"There's nothing to do in the barren mountain. I'll find a way out. Let's go skiing...just ride down the mountain on a wooden cart." Lu Xiaoxian said that he had already started to climb up, and turned around and said, "There are blades at the back, so be careful not to go up." Cut your hands."

Zhang Zhiping turned the board over and saw that there were indeed two thin iron blades embedded in it.

Lu Xiaoxian's movements were very fast, and the snow patted hard after a while, paving a path.The two stood on the top of the mountain and looked down. The whole snowy road was long and steep.Zhang Zhiping had never played such a simple and exciting game, and he was a little excited. He couldn't wait to set up the wooden cart. He sat down on it, and before he had time to adjust his sitting posture, he slipped out uncontrollably.Lu Xiaoxian's heart skipped a beat, he quickly sat down and followed, and shouted against the wind: "Don't look back! Look ahead..."

It's a pity it's still too late.Zhang Zhiping never expected such crazy speed from the friction between ice, snow and iron plates, and the road was not completely smooth. When passing a small bend with a slight pit, he couldn't control the direction, tilted his body, and overturned the car directly. to the next tree.Lu Xiaoxian subconsciously stretched out his hand to grab him, but instead of saving him, he rolled over himself.

The tree was hit hard by two adult men, and it shook violently, shaking off the large lumps of snow accumulated on the branches, which happened to hit the two men on their heads and faces.Staring at each other in silence for two seconds, they laughed awkwardly.

Lu Xiaoxian seldom laughed so happily, his stomach almost hurt: "Why are you running so fast, I haven't told you how to use this thing yet."

Zhang Zhiping said innocently, "I didn't expect it to be so slippery."

"You should take a cardboard case, that will be slower." Lu Xiaoxian saw his beloved car slipping to the bottom of the slope with mixed emotions, he stood up helplessly and wanted to pat the snow on his body, but was suddenly dragged back.

"You..." Falling onto Zhang Zhiping's lap, Lu Xiaoxian saw the look in Zhang Zhiping's eyes and suddenly forgot what he wanted to say.

"Xiaoxian, don't lose your temper with me." Zhang Zhiping brushed off the snow from his hair, showing [-]% sincerity, "I really like you, come back, okay, we're still the same as before."

After hearing what he said, Lu Xiaoxian twitched his lips and smiled: "Before? Do you still want to be deceived by me? You are so strange, do you have some kind of Stockholm? Like me... oh, like me so bad that I am inhuman or not?" What. Do you forget the people I tortured, or do you think you're different enough to be treated with tenderness by me? It takes a few stabs at you to believe that you're not that much to me important person?"

"You won't stab me, you're afraid of my blood."

"..."

Zhang Zhiping unzipped the chain of his coat, took Lu Xiaoxian's hand and stuffed it into his bosom: "It's because you hurt others that I tied you to my side. Whatever you want to do, just come to me alone."

Lu Xiaoxian unceremoniously stretched his hands from his back into the sweater to keep warm, and pressed his face against the other's chest. He sneered and said, "You are so enlightened...your heart is beating so fast, I'm a little hungry." After a moment of silence, He opened his mouth again: "Brother Ping, be sensible. We each go our own way, and we are good to everyone. I promise you, until you graduate, I will be honest. I am going to go abroad. Things, you can also have an explanation with your family."

"Going abroad? You still want to harm the people of the world, no."

Lu Xiaoxian's eyes were cold, and he straightened up: "Don't be shameless."

Zhang Zhiping pressed him back into his arms: "Then you can go, you have to take me with you."

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Lu Xiaoxian was so upset, "You don't like me at all, you are just a rebellious mentality that you can't ask for, and this feeling will disappear sooner or later if you really get together. Besides, love is about the unity of soul and body, this I can't give you either of these two things!"

"If you don't give it, I'll give it. If you want to fuck me, I don't care. If you still don't want to do that thing, don't do it. I can solve it myself." Zhang Zhiping sighed, "If one day I don't I like you, that's good too, I'll feed you blood and poison you to death."

"..." The restlessness in Lu Xiaoxian's heart miraculously calmed down.He actually couldn't believe that someone was kind to him unconditionally, not because he thought it was wishful thinking, because he didn't think about it at all, but simply didn't believe it.He felt more at ease when he heard threatening and vicious words, as if everything was still running normally.

The two of them didn't speak any more, they were only silent in the silvery white.After some time, Lu Xiaoxian noticed that Zhang Zhiping was freezing and trembling instinctively. He pulled out his hand, helped him straighten his clothes, and stood up: "I'm not afraid of the cold, so I don't need your attention. Get up, let's see what I do. It's so cold on the ground, is it fun to pull your butt?"

Zhang Zhiping stood up with the help of his hands.

Lu Xiaoxian didn't bother to look at his bloodless face and pale lips, thinking to himself, idiot.He turned around and walked down the mountain: "Go home. You don't know how to speak when it's cold, so you just keep your mouth open." Zhang Zhiping followed him, and softly defended: "I'm afraid that after today, you'll be in a bad mood and won't let me touch you again."

Lu Xiaoxian paused, but did not answer his words.When he reached the foot of the mountain, he said again: "Maybe you are talking about feelings with me because you want me to be better, but please don't waste your efforts. I do a lot of bad things not because I don't know what is good or bad, but because I am willing." , the fear of others gives me pleasure.

Many studies have shown that the hormones in the murderer's body or the structure of the brain are different, but in fact there is no difference. Everyone has different excitement points, which is not worth discussing, but I am a person who bases happiness on others In terms of pain, it hurt the interests of some people, so it became the target of your so-called normal people's crusade.That's okay, I don't care.

Brother Ping, I've said so much, you should understand what I mean, I don't think I'm doing anything right, but I never think I'm doing anything wrong.You can never change me, what you want to give me is what I don't need.Even at this moment, I'm not touched by what you're doing or anything, it's just a little annoying. "

"I have no intention of changing you. All my actions are just for my own pleasure." Zhang Zhiping suddenly took out a gadget from his pocket, "Here, take it."

Lu Xiaoxian took it and looked at it. It was a metal USB flash drive with a funny scarecrow drawn on the surface - the one he met on the road during the organic vegetable field internship.Lu Xiaoxian admired it carefully for a while, and sighed: "You can find the original picture."

"Just go there and take another shot."

Lu Xiaoxian looked up at him: "What's in here?"

"I recorded 99 songs. It's a New Year's gift for you." Zhang Zhiping smiled, "The Chinese New Year will be one week away. I'll make dumplings. What do you want to eat?"

"Chinese New Year? Do you want to stay here for the New Year?"

"Well. If you don't give me an accurate answer, I dare not leave. Thinking about it, I am also very miserable. I have lived for more than 20 years, and I have only chased you once. Not to mention chasing you twice, each time is more difficult than the first time. .”

Lu Xiaoxian ignored him, thinking to get out, did you fucking chase after me last time or do you think I don't know?He rubbed his fingers twice on the USB flash drive, and finally put the gadget in his pocket.

Zhang Zhiping failed to stay at Lu's house for the New Year as he wished. On the twenty-sixth day of the twelfth lunar month, Lu Xiaoxian woke him up early and stuffed an envelope into him: "Hurry up and get dressed and wash your face. When I'm done, I'll take you to the intersection and wait for the bus."

Zhang Zhiping was still confused: "Huh? Sleepy...I'll sleep a little longer."

"Don't sleep." Lu Xiaoxian suddenly lifted the quilt and froze him half to death, "The bus doesn't arrive at the right time, so you have to go early."

Zhang Zhiping was so wronged that he was about to cry, and he put on his sweater tremblingly: "What's the matter, why don't you drive me away? Didn't it all be agreed, once I leave, that dumpling..."

"You are the only one in the world who knows how to make dumplings? There is no reason not to be with your family during the Chinese New Year. When I didn't know you, I lived a good life every year, so I don't need you to worry about it. What are you dawdling about, be quick!"

Zhang Zhiping folded the quilts and piled them in the corner cabinet. Then he remembered that he seemed to have put down an envelope just now. He found it and bent down to pick it up: "What is this?"

"Don't take it apart." Lu Xiaoxian grabbed his wrist, "Go back and watch it on New Year's Eve."

Zhang Zhiping was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "So mysterious? It's not a love letter... Hey, you haven't told me whether you want to reconnect with me. How many times have I asked this, Xiao Xian? Baby... ..." He chased people down the kang, chattering endlessly all the way, even brushing his teeth and talking.

Lu Xiaoxian couldn't bear it any longer and said, "Shut up. I'm really afraid of you. You can go back and take it apart and you'll understand that what I mean is all in it."

"Don't, I can't wait that long. Tell me now, or you can read it to me, okay?" Zhang Zhiping had a reason for returning to his hippie smile. In recent days, he felt that Lu Xiaoxian's attitude towards him had softened. Many, they couldn't help but started to kick their noses and have fun.

"Shut up if you don't want to fight...you pack up everything, pack everything up, and don't fall here."

The two went out with their bags.Grandma Lu followed their footsteps with a hoarse voice: "You little bastard, don't come back if you have the ability! You white-eyed wolf, you don't know how to raise a son..."

After walking far, Zhang Zhiping asked, "Why did your grandma scold you again?"

"Don't pay attention to her, she thought I ran away with you."

"..." Zhang Zhiping was still full of worries, "I'm leaving, what if she beats you again?"

"I can't be beaten to death." Lu Xiaoxian said casually, pointing to a small house not far ahead, "That's a shop, if you want to buy bread or something, go in and have a look, pay attention to the expiration date. After a while, the car will stop there, you go up That’s fine, I’ll send the rest of the way to your mobile phone. Press that, and you’ll be able to get to the train station almost at night. As for train tickets, they may not be available during the peak season of Spring Festival travel. You can go to City T first and transfer from there More convenient."

Zhang Zhiping was dumbfounded: "Aren't you going to take me to the train station?"

"Are you missing an arm or a leg?"

"No, little brother, even though you've lost your horse, there's no need to be so cruel!"

Clenching the hand in his pocket, Lu Xiaoxian reluctantly said, "Be careful on the road."

Zhang Zhiping smiled: "Okay, nothing will happen, I'm still waiting to go home to open the letter. Hey, you're leaving now? Can't you accompany me until the bus arrives and then go back?"

Pulling him by force and leaving him behind, Zhang Zhiping enthusiastically ran to a small store to buy a pack of spicy strips, and threw them with his bare hands with a fearless spirit. The backs of his hands were red and his fingers were purple from the cold.Lu Xiaoxian had nothing to do with him, and reluctantly ate half a pack, he suddenly remembered something and asked, "Have you checked the expiration date?"

Zhang Zhiping: "..." Damn it, if there is a real fight, he may not be sure that he will be able to escape unscathed now.He smiled standardly, put a spicy stick into his mouth, and said vaguely: "Looked at it." Then he ate it up in three or two mouthfuls, and threw the packaging bag into the cardboard box next to him: "Why isn't the car still here?" Come on? It's too cold."

Lu Xiaoxian glanced at him, but said nothing.

Zhang Zhiping chuckled: "Xiaoxian, cover your hands for me. It is said that the part under the hat is very hot. This action is so stupid, I was embarrassed to do it before, but anyway, there is no one here..."

"Okay, why are you talking so much nonsense?"

Zhang Zhiping was quite happy being scolded, and moved behind Lu Xiaoxian, he stretched out his arms and put his hands into each other's pockets, holding the other two hands hidden in it.Lu Xiaoxian was stunned for a while, but didn't say anything.The person in his ear acted sadly: "Honey, I don't want to leave you, I told my family that I won't go back after the New Year."

Lu Xiaoxian was unmoved: "Then you appear again, they must be very surprised."

"Brother first, don't you want me to accompany you on New Year's Eve?"

"I heard the sound of a car, and I should be there right away." Lu Xiaoxian broke free from his embrace, and turned around, "...you are scared, right? Afraid that I will regret it again, and that I will ignore you again when we meet again." Sliding his left hand to the back of the other party's neck, Lu Xiaoxian suddenly forced the person in front of him to lower his head, and sucked heavily on that dry, somewhat torn lips, he half-backed away, and asked: "This guarantee is enough." ?"

Zhang Zhiping felt that his mouth was getting hotter, and he said slowly and unsurely: "Did you kiss me just now?" Before anyone could answer, he hugged Lu Xiaoxian and strangled him tightly: "Fuck, Whoever loves will go, I won't go!"

"Then return the letter to me."

"...Ah? Isn't there a third option?"

After haggling for a long time, Zhang Zhiping still didn't get any benefits, and got into the car without hesitation: "Then I will call you, remember to answer it."

"Call again on the first day of the new year, the signal in the room is not good." Lu Xiaoxian watched the bus gradually disappear from view, he stood there for a long time, took out his mobile phone and dialed the operator's number.

When Zhang Zhiping returned home, he was still in high spirits.At that time, Zhang Zhiya was eating fruit in the living room, and was a little surprised when he opened the door and came in: "Didn't you say you won't come back? Why, you've already coaxed him?"

"Brother, please keep your voice down." Zhang Zhiping was afraid that his father would hear the truth, so he hurriedly gestured for silence.

Zhang Zhiya threw the orange peel into the trash can: "What are you afraid of, my father already knows."

"What?" Zhang Zhiping's face changed, "What did you say? Why are you doing this? Are you my real brother? What did you say?"

"I said that the last time I went to see you, the work in the laboratory was very busy, and it's normal not to be able to go home during the Spring Festival."

"..." Zhang Zhiping angrily snatched the orange from his brother's hand and ate it, "You're really good at it, you still play tricks on me when you're a grown man."

"I'm just a little curious. It's no stranger to someone accusing me of being righteous when I went to work without telling my father, but it turns out that I lied to him myself."

"Can the nature of our affairs be the same..."

Zhang Zhiya peeled off two more oranges and put them on the tray: "Let's not talk about that. It's just in time for you to come back. Grandpa is taking care of his health in Jinshatan. You will pick him up tomorrow."

"Okay," Zhang Zhiping said perfunctorily, "I'm really convinced, and started to arrange tasks for me before my butt was hot."

Grandpa Zhang is quite old, but perhaps because he has been living a retirement life since he was in his 20s, he has always been full of energy.He was fishing when Zhang Zhiping arrived by car.

He tiptoed to his grandfather and sat down. Zhang Zhiping also picked up a fishing rod, baited it and threw it into the ice hole.

"The eldest grandson is here?" Grandpa Zhang smiled, turned his head to see his grandson's serious face, and hurriedly asked, "What expression! Do you have something to say to me?"

"Yeah. Grandpa... I did something recently, but..." Zhang Zhiping didn't know how to describe his feelings, so he thought for a while and said, "The path I chose follows my heart, but I feel very uneasy , maybe that's not right."

"You're afraid of future regrets."

"Regret?" Zhang Zhiping repeated blankly, "Maybe. Grandpa, have you ever done anything you regret?"

"Nonsense. I've lived for decades and I haven't regretted it. Could it be that I've become a goblin?" Grandpa Zhang rolled his eyes, "The thing I regret the most is getting married and having children, otherwise you wouldn't be making noise in front of me now." .”

"...Grandpa, I'm telling you the truth."

"Okay, your grandfather, I have recently learned some fortune-telling skills, so I will give you some pointers. Tell me first, what you are asking about is your future or marriage."

Zhang Zhiping suddenly felt a little embarrassed: "...Marriage."

"The marriage is good. I haven't learned about this marriage. You should ask about the future."

Zhang Zhiping said discouragedly: "Forget it, grandpa, you should go fishing with peace of mind, I won't talk anymore."

Grandpa Zhang didn't seem to hear: "Grand grandson, do you know why grandpa lost his ancestral craftsmanship?"

"You've said it eight hundred times, because..."

"It's not what I said before, it was used to lie to your father." Grandpa Zhang waved his hand, "Actually, when I was young, I fought with a little girl and lost, so I threw away my job in a fit of anger. Fortunately, we The money passed down from my family is enough to allow me to squander at this age. If you ask grandpa if he has regretted it, of course there are thousands of regrets, but many of them have been forgotten after a few years. Only this one, I always remember that if I was not arrogant or impetuous, I learned a lot from the fall, and chased the little girl well, you might change to a grandma now. Oh, that girl has a hot body and a violent temper, tsk tsk tsk, don’t say it Yes, you won’t be able to comprehend even if I tell you.”

"?" Zhang Zhiping was listening nervously, because he suspected that his grandfather was regretting that he did not persevere in catching ghosts and had let down the Zhang family's ancestors, but after a long time the old man was reminiscing about the throbbing of his youth. He felt annoyed and funny: "Without my milk, there will be no me! Don't use the newly learned online vocabulary indiscriminately. It's a waste of emotion. I thought you regretted playing every day."

"You're still young, you don't know how much fun it is to play every day."

"..." Zhang Zhiping stood up angrily, "Grandpa knows the most, let's go home. It was cloudy yesterday, and the fish all ran to the bottom, so you couldn't catch them."

New Year's Eve.

Mother Zhang was in a good mood, and her youngest son helped her make dumplings with ten kinds of fillings.Zhang Zhiya also tactfully did not touch his father's bad luck, and had a happy reunion dinner.After the meal, everyone gathers together to watch TV and watch the New Year.

Zhang Zhiping was thinking about the envelope on the desk, and also thinking about New Year greetings to Lu Xiaoxian.He thought happily, he was so good this time, he really didn't call until the Chinese New Year, he had to ask for some favors.Eager to ask for too many benefits, the more Zhang Zhiping thought about it, the more dry his mouth became, and he couldn't hold his breath, so he slipped back to the bedroom on the grounds that he was tired of making dumplings.

After bathing and burning incense, he opened the envelope and took out a piece of paper from it.But it is not a letter, but a painting.Watercolor drawing, a butterfly with yellow and red spots flies towards the sun.Half of its wings are gorgeous and eye-catching, but the other half is baked into a charred color, as if... as if melted in the scorching sun.

Zhang Zhiping took a breath, not because the painting was so stunning, but because he suddenly had a very ominous premonition.He took out the phone twice before he took it out of his trouser pocket, and typed in Lu Xiaoxian's number in a crackling voice.

As if in a nightmare, only a mechanical hollow female voice kept repeating: "Hello, the number you dialed is empty, please check before dialing again." Zhang Zhiping obediently followed the woman's instructions to check and checked. Over and over, night after night, year after year.

Until he was finally tired and tired, and couldn't tell who was the butterfly.