i really like you

Tang Yuan has never ridden or sat on a motorcycle. The only thing he has come into contact with that can match the shape of a motorcycle is a motorcycle.

Two different things, this is the feeling after sitting on it.

The roads in the country are different from the asphalt roads in big cities, they are very uneven, with one pit and another, even though Pei Wenjin is a good driver, he still has to bump up and down in the dust.

Tang Yuan, who was sitting in the back, couldn't hug his waist all the way, so he could only hug him on the road where no one was around.

When he arrived at the ground, Tang Yuan felt a little nauseous and wanted to vomit. It was the first time he experienced motion sickness. When he wiped his face, it was sticky, covered with cold sweat and hot air.

I thought it was me sitting on the back of your motorcycle, blowing the wind and watching the world with you, you laughing and me making trouble, the years are quiet and good.

The fact is that the road is bumpy, the mouth is open to eat ashes, the eyes are full of tears, the coercion is embarrassing, and romance and so on only exists in comics.

Pei Wenjin poked at the strands of hair sticking together on the young man's forehead, "Have you satisfied your curiosity?"

"Satisfied, satisfied."

Tang Yuan wiped his face with a wet tissue, "Uncle, your driving skills are overkill on the dirt roads in the countryside. I'll buy you a motorcycle when I go back. Take me for a ride."

"You can still be poor." Pei Wenjin gave him a bottle of water, "Go in."

Tang Yuan drank a few sips of water, looked up at a wide iron railing, "Where is this? A school?"

Pei Wenjin hummed.

The middle school he attended here before was later built a new school, which is much larger and a bit far away, and the range of students it accepts is several times wider, so the old school was shelved.

It is said that it was converted into some kind of office place. After so many years, not a single brick has been demolished, and it is still the same.

The ping pong tables are always there and have been weathered.

Tang Yuan put the mineral water into his backpack, "How do I get in?"

Pei Wenjin lowered his head and unbuttoned his shirt cuff buttons, "Climb over the wall, or climb the iron railing."

Tang Yuan said without hesitation, "I choose to climb over the wall."

The technical requirements for iron railings are higher. He is afraid that if he accidentally pricks himself, he will not be able to stand up for the rest of his life.

Pei Wenjin took Tang Yuan to the back of the school, "Will you turn over?"

"Yes, Ale and I often climb over the wall and go out to play games."

When mentioning the past, Tang Yuan thought of Zhang Shuran, and his face changed accordingly. He handed the backpack to Pei Wenjin, walked backwards for a while, sped up and ran forward, jumped up, and grabbed the wall with his hands.

Fortunately, no broken glass was buried, otherwise the hand would be useless.

Tang Yuan caught the backpack thrown up by Pei Wenjin, and was about to reach out to pull him, when the person had already come up.

The two of them were riding on the top of the wall, looking at each other with big eyes, which was indescribably funny.

"Secretary Pei, your ability to climb over walls is amazing."

"generally."

"that's humble."

"Ah."

"..."

Tang Yuan jumped into the wall and landed firmly. He patted his clothes and trousers. When he climbed over the wall, he rubbed against the moss on the wall. There was an extra green mark on the white T-shirt. unexpected.

Pei Wenjin glanced, "Go back and use 84 to wash you."

"No." Tang Yuan blinked, "I want to keep this T-shirt as a souvenir."

Before Pei Wenjin could speak, Zhang Ping's voice came from the front, "Why did you come here?"

There were two rows of camphor trees planted in the old school, tall and strong, with luxuriant branches and leaves. Zhang Ping stood alone under a tree, and there were two people leaning against the door of the classroom on his left, Zhang Yang and Jiang E.

There was no one else here except a few of them. Zhang Yang's face was exposed to the sun, and it looked like he had put on makeup.

It is rumored that celebrities will put on makeup when they go downstairs to throw trash, because they are afraid of being seen without makeup.

Tang Yuan looked at Zhang Yang's behavior and felt that the rumor might be true.

Zhang Yang is now like a concubine favored by the emperor, with arrogance that cannot be hidden from the corners of his eyes and brows, he has already seen Tang Yuan and Pei Wenjin, regardless of who he is.

He is disdainful towards the former, but as for the latter, he glanced imperceptibly a few times from the corner of his eye, but did not step forward.

Since Jiang E was with his brother, it was inconvenient.

The five people met face to face, and the atmosphere was unspeakably subtle.

Jiang E didn't know Zhang Yang's thoughts on Pei Wenjin, let alone what he had done to be able to be with Pei Wenjin, he only knew that he and Tang Yuan couldn't get along.

He even called Tang Yuan himself to warn him for him.

Zhang Ping was completely kept in the dark, he didn't even know about the relationship between his younger brother and Jiang E, so he didn't think much about anything else, so he called his old friend into an empty classroom and mentioned what he said on the phone.

Pei Wenjin asked him for a cigarette.

Zhang Ping himself held one in his mouth, and asked while lighting his cigarette, "Old Pei, are you serious?"

Pei Wenjin closed his eyes halfway, and took a long drag on his cigarette.

"Although you have the same sexual orientation as me, you have been single all these years and have no relationship experience." Zhang Ping couldn't digest the explosive news, and there was an obvious inductive meaning in his words, "What I want to say is, are you Got it wrong?"

"Some of the differences between emotions are so subtle that it's easy to confuse them."

He blew out a smoke ring and said pointedly, "Old Pei, if your younger brother is still alive, he will be a few years older than Tang Yuan. Would you just... treat him as your younger brother?"

Pei Wenjin turned his head to the side, frowning slightly.

Zhang Ping sorted out his thoughts and organized his words quickly, "Tang Yuan's father had an accident, and he was forced to stand up to the pressure, using you as straw, driftwood."

"Being trusted and relied on by such a proud young master, no one will remain indifferent. You also like that feeling, so you stay by his side to take care of him, and watch him grow up a little bit, and you will feel a sense of accomplishment. A fine work of art is more dazzling, but in fact it is at most a brother's affection for his younger brother, not love."

Pei Wenjin understated, "I was with him before the accident."

Zhang Ping just sorted out the thoughts all collapsed, he was dazed for a long time, and cursed, "Fuck!"

A gust of wind blew outside, the camphor tree rattled, the leaves fluttered one by two, fell, and were swept into the air by the wind, and so on.

The two buddies are both about to face their thirties. Their lives have their own trajectories and their own troubles, which are permeated in the lingering smoke.

"You've kept it secret enough, Old Pei. As your only good buddy, I don't know anything about it."

Zhang Ping couldn't accept that he was an idiot, so he found a passable explanation in the shortest possible time, "Maybe it's because I don't think you will touch that young master from the bottom of my heart."

"Do the math, since I started working, how many people in my circle have I introduced to you, and there are more than one who have the same qualifications as him, and you didn't like it. If I didn't know that you are not the kind of person who covets power and sells your appearance, I would I really thought you fell in love with him because of his family background."

Pei Wenjin didn't fly into a rage because of those words, he just flicked the ashes, and said in simple words, "It was an accident to fall in love with that child."

Zhang Ping took a breath, and the old friend not only admitted his feelings positively, but also used the word "love". He felt that God was really good at playing, "But you don't plan to turn back."

Pei Wenjin's face was expressionless, but his eyes were soft, "It's too late."

Zhang Ping squeezed the cigarette from his mouth, and asked a bit sharp question, "Then can you come out?"

"Let me answer for you, you can't," he sighed, "Old Pei, from the time I knew your sexual orientation, I never thought that you would come out in the future. Your parents can't handle it, especially Your father, with his body, can't stand any stimulation at all."

"So you can't come out of the closet."

Pei Wenjin said quietly, "Take your time."

"Sooner or later, we still have to face it. The successes of coming out in the circle are similar, but the failures are all tragic in their own way."

Zhang Ping said this to his old friend, and he also said it to himself. He scratched his sweaty crew cut, "When I think about that day, I feel like the sky is going to fall."

"As far as our folk customs and environment are concerned, it is impossible to accept homosexuality. Once it spreads, the family members will have no way to stay here. Anyway, let me tell you that the level of confusion in imagination is eighth. When it actually happens, The level of chaos is definitely going to be multiplied by three to five times that."

Pei Wenjin said, "Let's go then."

Zhang Ping took a bite on the ground and rubbed the soles of his shoes, "Go? Go outside? It doesn't matter if we are older than this generation. We don't have such a strong sense of belonging. The older generation can't. They pay attention to returning to their roots. The older they are, the more they want to stay In their hometown, asking them to live in a strange city will make them feel that life has no hope and they can only wait for death, which is too cruel."

Pei Wenjin rubbed his forehead, "It's just to give new hope."

"A new hope? Let them have grandchildren?" Zhang Ping rolled his eyelids, "I can't think of anything else except this."

Pei Wenjin was smoking a cigarette with a calm expression.

Zhang Ping glanced at his old friend, still as calm and stable as ever, and there seemed to be no chaos in his memory, "I can see that you already have a plan to come out. When you succeed, teach me."

He scratched his head, "I'll talk about this and that with you, a lot of big truths, and I have a lot of my own affairs."

"Just that black charcoal head, did you see it? Yang Yang said he was his friend, but no matter how I looked at it, I didn't think it was right, and my eyelids twitched..."

His voice was interrupted by movement outside, Zhang Ping went to the door, and seeing Pei Wenjin coming over, he snorted and said, "See, that young master of yours is just a child."

In Pei Wenjin's field of vision, the teenager was squatting with a pair of twins playing marbles. He was playing with great interest. When he laughed, he was not perfunctory at all. He really laughed heartily. Bitter and pure.

"Did you bring those two?"

"It's my sister's child, just my uncle's son, you've seen them, the twins are four and a half years old, they can't be mischievous." Zhang Ping swallowed, "Old Pei, have you ever thought about what it's like to have children?"

Pei Wenjin said, "I haven't thought about it."

"Then think about it," Zhang Ping described the relationship between his nephews and his cousin, "There is a little boy who calls your daddy, hugs your thigh and acts like a baby, and asks you to buy a toy car, or It’s so much fun to buy a doll, learn how to speak from you, and even look like you, and inherit some of your characteristics.”

Pei Wenjin's tone was extremely cold, "You know, I don't like children."

Zhang Ping rolled his eyes, "In the end you found a child to talk about your relationship with."

Pei Wenjin said, "He is an exception."

"...What's the point of you talking to me? If you want to talk, go to him and let him know how much you, an old man, care about him, and you can't do without him."

Pei Wenjin said with a stern expression, "In front of him, I prefer to talk less and do more."

Zhang Ping almost choked on his saliva, okay, really okay!

He swallowed in a muffled voice, and after a moment of silence he said, "Old Pei, I have a heart-to-heart with you. I dare not even think about coming out. Every time I go home, I feel pressured by my parents." They are all very big, and I don’t know when they will reach the top.”

"Sometimes I just think, find a woman I like to marry and have one or two children. It sounds like the crystallization of love, and the popular point is to reproduce offspring. The child grows up day by day, and that woman and I get older day by day. , there are only so many days, and a lifetime is flat, which is actually quite good.”

"But I'm gay, not bisexual, so I can't be ordinary in this life. Does this count as God's appointment?"

Pei Wenjin's lips twitched.

Zhang Ping looked at the young man who was mingling with the two children, "Old Pei, your first love is too risky, and you can really do it to yourself."

He snapped his fingers, "Being a secretary, an assistant minister, a father, an uncle, an elder brother, a boyfriend, and a bed warmer, how much you can endure, the key is to have a good attitude."

"Really, if I were to change me, I would never dare to find such a small partner. You talk about the future, career, and life with people, all of which are heavy and realistic things. The other party talks to you about romance, excitement, passion, and Romance, talking about Two-dimensional, is not on the same channel at all, if this can last for a long time, it must be a miracle."

Pei Wenjin smoked one puff at a time, his entire face was shrouded in smoke, and he looked extraordinarily silent.

Zhang Ping waited and waited, but did not wait for a response from his old friend, thinking that there would be no more, so he heard him say, "I didn't think so much."

Pei Wenjin had never revealed his inner feelings in front of anyone, this was the first time, his thin lips parted slightly, and a wisp of gray smoke slowly spewed out, "I really didn't think so much."

Zhang Ping asked tentatively, "Then what did you think?"

There was a deep shadow between Pei Wenjin's brows, but his tone was calm, "I won't let him out of my world."

Zhang Ping couldn't understand what was hidden behind his old friend's words. He said honestly, "Eighteen or nineteen years old is too young. We also came from that age. You should understand that most of the love in adolescence comes from Impulse, various impulses, body and mind, you are still in the role, the person has come out, what do you do with the rest? A one-man show?"

Pei Wenjin smiled lightly and shook his head, "Old Zhang, you didn't understand me, what I said was that he can't get out."

Just then, the wind blew away the surrounding smoke.

Zhang Ping finally saw clearly what his old friend was seeing. It was an extremely abnormal possessive desire. He was startled and speechless for a moment.

Tang Yuan by the sand pool sneezed, his hand shook, and the marble he was aiming at deviated from the track, and missed the marble not far in front of him.

So he cheated, "This one doesn't count."

The twin with the more lively personality immediately yelled, "Brother Laipi!"

"No." Tang Yuan looked serious, "Brother twitched his hand just now, that's it, it's so pitiful, shouldn't you give your brother a chance?"

"Well, my brother is very poor."

"By the way, it's very pitiful. Look, my brother is about to cry."

An abrupt voice suddenly came from behind, accompanied by a mocking sound that didn't give face, "Can you show some face?"

Tang Yuan turned a deaf ear and continued to play with the twins.

Jiang E walked over, and said contemptuously, "Tang Yuan, you've gone back to living longer, and even playing marbles with children of how old you are, and playing rogue, I'm ashamed for you."

Tang Yuan smiled at him, "Thank you then."

"..."

Jiang E leaned into his ear and blew, "It was also said that you play marbles with a child, and you look so charming with an innocent smile. Let me play once, and I will settle it at my house. I will never look for it. You are in trouble with your company."

After that, throw the bait again, "I can also persuade my family to become allies with you, how about it?"

Tang Yuan exploded without hearing these words. He looked at Jiang E calmly, "I thought you really liked Zhang Yang."

"I like it." Jiang E grabbed a handful in the sand pool, loosened his five fingers, and the sand fell down with a rush, and when the wind blew, it was everywhere, "Otherwise I wouldn't do it for him. Go in, it’s not an exaggeration to say that my dad hit me, it still hurts now, if I wasn’t lucky, I would still be lying in the hospital.”

"You have to know that there are so many people around me, there is no shortage of bed partners, but I indulge him, make exceptions again and again, go all the way to the island to pick him up, and even let him live in my private villa, unprecedented."

"Then you still..."

"Just playing."

Tang Yuan turned his head back and found that Zhang Yang was looking at him with unknown meaning, his eyes flickered, "Jiang E, did you bet with Zhang Yang?"

Jiang E was a little startled, he grinned instead, showing his big white teeth, "You're so smart, I can't wait to reward you for what you did."

He obviously has a tough guy's face, but his smile is very wretched.

"No." Tang Yuan returned the two marbles to the twins and asked them to play under a tree not far away, "What's the bet?"

"I told Zhang Yang about our childhood, and he asked me to make love to you." Jiang E licked his thick lips, "The bet is, if I sleep with you, he will sell his whole life to me. "

Tang Yuan said with no expression.

There was a smile on Jiang E's dark face, "I dismissed his proposal at first, but when I saw you smiling at the child, I was shaken, Tang Yuan, how about it, think about it?"

Tang Yuan lied without blushing, "I'm not gay."

Jiang's harsh words were shocking, "I'm not either."

Tang Yuan gave him a ridiculous look, you fucking tease me.

"Believe it or not, I'm really not." Jiang E said solemnly, "My desire comes from sexual impulse, and sexual impulse comes from beautiful same-sex and opposite-sex, so gender doesn't matter."

Tang Yuan disagreed, "For me, the most basic thing in a relationship is loyalty."

Jiang E frowned, showing an even more disapproving look, "Life is very long, and it's so boring to only face one person."

Tang Yuan is too lazy to discuss this topic with him, each has his own point of view, even breaking the sky is useless.

Jiang E yawned, with a look of excessive indulgence, and said lazily, "Tang Yuan, I remembered something during this time. I promised you three wishes before. Why didn't you mention it to me?"

Hearing this, Tang Yuan's eyes instantly became very complicated, "At the end of last year, shortly after you returned to China, my childhood friend told me that he suggested that I rely on those three wishes to win you over and become an ally with your family. The thing is, whoever thinks it’s serious is a fool.”

Jiang E, "..."

"Since you mentioned it to me first, then I will extend it to you." Tang Yuan said, "I don't want three wishes anymore, I want one."

Jiang Erao raised his head with interest, "Tell me."

Tang Yuan lowered his head and scratched his eyebrows, "It's just..."

Jiang E found a small cinnabar mole in the corner of his left eye, "What?"

Tang Yuan raised his head and said seriously, "Please don't appear in front of me again with Zhang Yang, I'll be more polite, within ten meters."

Jiang E was stunned for a moment, then laughed angrily, "I think you think I'm an idiot."

Tang Yuan waved his hand dully, "Cut."

Jiang E went to look at the cinnabar mole at the corner of Tang Yuan's eyes again, feeling a little itchy, and suddenly said, "I have news about your father, he didn't die in Qi County."

Tang Yuan's pupils shrank slightly.

Jiang E realized later that he had said something he shouldn't have said. He said everything he had said, and he couldn't take it back. He simply used this to lure Tang Yuan, "As long as you agree to my conditions, I will tell you."

"I don't ask you to sign any agreement with me, how about staying with me for a few months or a few years, just for one night?"

Tang Yuan thought he was farting.

For the second time, Jiang E betrayed his father and several uncles by mistake, revealing the secrets that the family had just grasped, "Your father's disappearance is related to the Zhang family."

However, Tang Yuan's reaction was completely inconsistent.

Jiang E looked at Tang Yuan's exquisite side face, with a bit of inquiry in his eyes, "It seems that you have already had an idea in your heart."

"That's right, my dad, like many people outside, thought that you would finish the game last year, and then waited for a share of the pie, and wanted to have a good year, but you have survived until now, and you are still playing very well, which shows that there is something wrong with you." A few brushes, not two hundred and fifty."

There was a line of sight from behind, he looked along the line of sight, smiled ambiguously at Zhang Yang over there, and said to Tang Yuan, "I came here after attending Zhang Shuran's engagement banquet, and the banquet was very luxurious , the wine is very good, and the Zhang family attaches great importance to it."

Tang Yuan picked up a leaf at his feet, pinched it between his fingers and turned it around.

Jiang E accidentally caught something, he reached out to grab Tang Yuan's T-shirt collar, and was held down by the wrist.

"what are you doing?"

"Nothing, let me see your T-shirt."

Tang Yuan wanted to push his hand away from the collar, but he tried twice without success.

Jiang E's hands were motionless like iron tongs, he grabbed Tang Yuan's collar wrinkledly, and stared into Tang Yuan's neck blatantly, trying to confirm something.

The two fought silently.

Pei Wenjin's voice came from the left, "Xiaoyuan, come here."

Jiang Evil was slightly distracted, and let Tang Yuan break free.

Tang Yuan stood up, turned his back to Jiang E mischievously, and slapped the sand and dust on the back of his pants against the wind.

Jiang Xi covered his face with his hands and poohed, "Fuck! Are you disgusting, are you? Hey! Stop!"

Tang Yuan walked towards where Pei Wenjin was standing, and waved his hands without looking back, "Brother, we have different views, so there's nothing to talk about."

After walking a few steps, Tang Yuan found that Zhang Yang was looking at him, his eyes were full of jealousy, he stopped in his footsteps, all the unhappiness since the beginning of school last year came out, and his reason was instantly overwhelmed, so he returned to Jiang in the same way. Evil, "Do you know why Zhang Yang made that bet with you?"

Jiang E looked interested, "Why?"

"Because..." Tang Yuan smiled maliciously at Zhang Yang, then turned to Jiang E and said, "He is using you."

Jiang E didn't understand, "What?"

Tang Yuan whispered a few words in Jiang E's ear, and nothing else, just talking about him, Zhang Yang, Pei Wenjin, and the entanglement between the three of them.

Emphasis was placed on the agreement between Zhang Yang and Pei Wenjin.

Based on Tang Yuan's understanding of Jiang E, he can give his bed partner money and resources, as long as he likes it, he will get what he needs and live in harmony, but he does not allow the other party to calculate his feelings.

Zhang Yang calculated.

It was the last time, and it is actually the same this time. If you want to kill two birds with one stone, you can not only provoke him and Pei Wenjin, but also measure Jiang E's sincerity towards him.

After Jiang E finished listening, he squatted blankly for about a minute.

The next moment he stood up, rushed to Zhang Yang violently, and slapped him with a raised hand.

Tang Yuan put his hands in his pockets, and looked at Zhang Yang's mouth bleeding from the beating with a half-smile, "I don't provoke you, you want to provoke me, challenge my bottom line again and again, fuck you."

Zhang Yang twisted his face and looked at Tang Yuan. He wanted to rush up, but was stopped by Zhang Ping who joined the battle.

A mess.

The table tennis game was not successful, and there was no mood to go shopping in the town, so Pei Wenjin took Tang Yuan home.

On the way, Tang Yuan asked Pei Wenjin to stop, and he got down from the back seat, apologizing for his inability to control his rational behavior, "This time your buddy knows everything."

Pei Wenjin rubbed the boy's hair, "I can't hide it, I planned to tell him today."

Tang Yuan felt better. He looked around, and when he saw no one around, he took the man's big hand, "Jiang E probably won't reveal our affairs, right?"

Pei Wenjin smiled lowly, "Now you know you're afraid?"

"I was impulsive," Tang Yuan curled his lips, and said speechlessly, "Zhang Yang's arrogance kept poking me, once, twice, three times. If I had been serious with him, he wouldn't know where he is now, Jiang Eineng. It would be good for him and everyone to take this opportunity away.”

"He can't bear that kind of arrogance at all. If he doesn't take it away, he will definitely kill himself in the future."

Pei Wenjin said, "Jiang E won't reveal it. He has his own considerations. As for Zhang Yang, he won't come out in a short time."

Tang Yuan asked further.

Pei Wenjin said in shock, "He will be locked up by Jiang E."

Tang Yuan's eyes widened slightly, and he was silent for a moment and said, "As long as Zhang Yang doesn't mess with me, I really won't do anything to him. There are too many enemies to deal with, and he can't be ranked."

"Ah."

Pei Wenjin asked Tang Yuan to get in the car, Tang Yuan's cell phone rang, and he received several voice messages from Chen Lie, but the voice that came out was Zhang Shuran.

【You blocked me. 】

This was the first one. There was a self-deprecating smile in his voice, mixed with disappointment, and...anxiety that couldn't be concealed.

Tang Yuan's breathing tightened suddenly, he and Pei Wenjin exchanged glances, and clicked on the second option.

【I took Alie abroad, and Xiaochao said that he will arrive tomorrow, and he is missing you. I hope you can come within two days. 】

Tang Yuanqing handed the phone to Pei Wenjin with a grimace, frowned and gnawed on the knuckles of his index finger.

Compared to Tang Yuan's irritability and panic, Pei Wenjin was very calm. He continued to speak without changing his face, without even moving his brows.

[By the way, I forgot to tell you, the address is the town you circled on the map two years ago, where you want to retire in the future, Xiaoyuan, I don’t want to make too much noise, I just want to catch up with you, drink A few glasses of wine and a few words, you all ignore me now, and I won't come to my engagement banquet, so I can only think of this method. 】

There is another one behind.

[If you don't want to be alone, you can take Pei Wenjin with you, but... if you take him with you, there will be no one in your company, so think about it and have a good trip. 】