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Bu Yishu raised his head in a daze, rubbed his eyes, looked at the people at the scene who were stumbling around, and took a moment to realize what was going on.

Then he stood up and moved around a bit before walking to the bathroom with a sway.After running the water out, I washed my face with cold water again, and finally became more awake.Then I remembered that tomorrow is the weekend, so I got the studio to bring some tools and go back to continue studying.

Coming out of the bathroom is the door at the top of the stairs, and Bu Yishu is too lazy to go there to take the elevator, let alone the distance to the third floor is only a few steps away.

So I opened the half-hidden door and found that the lights in the stairs were on, which was even better. I thought I had to find the switch in the dark.

However, as soon as he entered the stairs, the half-hidden door closed silently again, and then Bu Yishu heard a strange sound.

The monsters at night were in a panic, and Bu Yishu immediately lost his confusion. He couldn't help but stop, held his breath and listened quietly, like a gasp?What the hell is this?

Bu Yishu wanted to turn around and go back, but he was a little curious, and the lights were on, so it wouldn't be a hell of a thing, would it?So he walked down the stairs gently, always paying attention to the movement around him.

After walking a few steps, Bu Yishu's eyes widened in shock, and he quickly covered his mouth.

Near the corner of the stairs on the third floor, Mr. Chen Zhinan pressed Mr. Yi Chen against the wall and was kissing passionately. Mr. Yi's shirt was pushed up by Mr. Chen's hands until he could see his belly... …

Bu Yishu stared blankly for a while before realizing that he had seen something he shouldn't have seen. He hurried back and gently closed the door at the stairs.

Walking all the way back to the K-song classroom, Bu Yishu's mind was still replaying the scene just now.

Yi Mingche woke everyone up, and just sent Lan Meiling downstairs, and handed her over to Lan Meiling's mother who came to pick her up.When I got back to the fourth floor, I saw Bu Yishu walk into the classroom in a daze, without even looking at him.

hey what's going onWent to the bathroom and became more unconscious?Throw your soul in the toilet?

Just about to ask him if he was okay, when he came in, he heard Yang Lanxin ask first, Bu Yishu said he was fine, probably because he drank too much and felt sleepy.

Yi Mingche was a little puzzled, he looked fine before he went to the bathroom, not to mention he fell asleep on his stomach, something was not right.

Both Cheng Hao and Mai Jiawen live in the direction of the river east, Yi Mingche called a car for him to take them back, and Yang Lanxin was her family's driver who came to pick her up.

Li Kaining and Han Xueying went back to the fifth floor, Chen Zhinan and Yi Chen haven't seen anyone yet, but they have nothing to worry about, they are all adults.

With Bu Yishu left, Yi Mingche decided to send him back by himself. It was relatively close to their home, and seeing Bu Yishu alone, he was still a little worried.

As for the mess in this classroom, let's wait until tomorrow to clean it up.After taking the car keys, Yi Mingche went downstairs with Bu Yishu.

It was the first time for Bu Yishu to ride in Teacher Yi's car, he was a little nervous, and he felt embarrassed by the smell all over his body, so he sat in the back seat of the co-pilot.

"Student Yishu, you live in the Xishuli community, right?"

"Ah."

"What's the matter with you? Are you feeling uncomfortable? It's like losing your soul?"

"Uh, no."

"No? It doesn't look like it, why don't I take a guess?"

Glancing at Bu Yishu on the back seat from the rearview mirror, although he didn't say anything, he was obviously guilty, and it seemed that something really happened.

Of course, Yi Mingche didn't ask Bu Yishu to tell him everything, but mainly wanted to tease him for a chat, so he started a bold guess.

Bu Yishu felt drunk after hearing these weird guesses, so he also chatted together and paused the carousel in his mind.

The road was unimpeded in the middle of the night, and it took only half an hour to arrive at the Xishuli Community.Bu Yishu said that it is not far from the gate of the community, and it is troublesome to swipe the card to enter the community, so it can be delivered to the gate.

Yi Mingche watched Bu Yishu walk into the first building on the right, and then turned around and went home.

When Bu Yishu returned to his eldest sister's house, her eldest sister, brother-in-law and two nephews were already fast asleep.

He simply took a shower and returned to his room.

Originally, it was easy to get sleepy after drinking, but lying on the bed, he couldn't fall asleep at all. His mind was in a mess. For a while, it was the picture of Teacher Chen kissing Teacher Yi, and for a while, it was some scenes of himself in high school.

High school is generally the most beautiful and unforgettable time, even if it is burdened by heavy schoolwork, it is also very fulfilling and happy.For most people, the future is full of memories, and they will be remembered from time to time, or mentioned to friends.

For Bu Yishu, it was the painful time that he least wanted to remember, let alone mention it to others.It also contains the most regrettable thing he has done in life - giving up the college entrance examination, which is also a key turning point in his life.

In high school, although Bu Yishu's grades were not as good as his elder sister and second sister, he was also a member of the key class in the most powerful high school in the county.The ranking in the class is also average, not too good, but not too bad, and it is no problem to get into a second college.

So no one can understand his abandonment of the college entrance examination, and no one knows the reason.Everyone can only think that he is under too much pressure and his mental capacity is too poor. After all, he has seen the news about jumping off a building because of the college entrance examination.

As for the main reason, it all started when Bu Yishu was a sophomore in high school.

In the second year of high school, Bu Yishu met Wu Yaoqing in separate classes of arts and sciences. The two were in the same class and dormitory, and they slept in the next bed next to each other.

Bu Yishu has been shy and introverted since he was a child, but Wu Yaoqing is the exact opposite, a very sunny and enthusiastic boy.She has a good relationship with all the students in the class, and is the monitor of the class, and also the head of their dormitory.

I don't know why, but Wu Yaoqing took special care of Bu Yishu, took him to play ball and run together, took him to go shopping together, took him to eat supper together...

In just one semester, Bu Yishu and Wu Yaoqing became good friends who were inseparable. When the two of them didn't walk together, other students would ask why they didn't see the other person.

However, somehow, this friendship slowly changed.Bu Yishu found that he felt uncomfortable not being with Wu Yaoqing for a moment, especially in the summer vacation between the second semester of the second year of high school and the first semester of the third year of high school, he realized very clearly that every day is a day of suffering.

In the third year of high school, the pressure of study is even greater.But Bu Yishu found that he couldn't concentrate on studying, because he was always paying attention to Wu Yaoqing's every move, and didn't know what was wrong with him.

As long as Wu Yaoqing is not in the classroom, he will think about where he went and what he is doing?Then he often sits in the classroom by the window and listens to the footsteps outside, and he will be happy when he hears Wu Yaoqing's footsteps. When Wu Yaoqing returns to the classroom and starts studying, he can temporarily calm down and study.

Bu Yishu was very distressed, and tried to alienate Wu Yaoqing to force himself to focus on his studies.

However, it was of no use. On the contrary, because they took the initiative to alienate Wu Yaoqing, the relationship between the two appeared cracks, and they stopped doing everything together.But Bu Yishu wanted to know what Wu Yaoqing was doing even more, and couldn't concentrate on studying.The grades of both of them also declined, basically forming a vicious circle.

By the second semester of the third year of high school, the relationship between the two had become inseparable.But Bu Yishu's longing only increased. Even when he woke up in the morning and saw Wu Yaoqing sleeping next to the bed, he wanted to reach out to touch him, or even kiss him.

Bu Yishu knew that his actions and thoughts were wrong, he even felt that he was sick and a pervert.After all, the thoughts in my mind really exist, and that desire cannot be deceived.

Seeing that the college entrance examination is coming, but his grades are getting worse and worse.He was in pain, not knowing what was wrong with him, what to do, feeling like he was going crazy.

In the end, he couldn't bear this kind of torture anymore. Just a week before the college entrance examination, he asked the teacher for leave, bought a ticket and took the bus to another city to work alone.

At that time, unlike now, everyone had one or two mobile phones. At that time, they all went to the phone booth to insert the card and dial, so no one could contact him.

After the college entrance examination was over, he called home and told his family where he was.

This week, the family members were naturally going crazy, and they couldn't find anyone everywhere, so they reported to the police and dealt with it as a missing person.

After confirming his personal safety issue, he was asked why he gave up the college entrance examination.Bu Yishu couldn't answer, and didn't know how to say it, so he hung up the phone directly.

For the next two years, he neither wanted nor dared to go home, but only called occasionally to report his safety.

In fact, part of the reason is too young, and the rebellious psychology that is often caused by the number of family members.And by the time he regretted and wanted to repeat the course because of this incident, it was too late.

Later, he worked part-time to earn money and bought a mobile phone. Through the powerful network, he realized that he was gay, and he also admitted that he once liked Wu Yaoqing.

However, he still felt that homosexuality was abnormal and wrong, so he became more inferior and did not want to communicate with others.

In the five years on the factory assembly line, he has never met the same kind.After all, homosexuality is only a small number of people, not to mention his three-point and one-line life. When he is free during holidays, he still lives in a rented house and paints, so he doesn't know many people.He didn't even think about finding someone to fall in love with.

But tonight, he suddenly found two of the same kind as him, which was a critical blow to him.I had to face my own sexual orientation again, and I also remembered the high school days that I didn't want to think about.

It's really messed up, if you can fall asleep, you'd be so heartbroken, you wouldn't be Bu Yishu himself.