song called love

An Yinxuan lived into her 20s, and always encountered situations beyond her control.Especially when I think back to the last few years, I was forced to have a relationship with Liang Xu, and was forced to break up with him. I didn't want to dance and was sent to training, I didn't want to act and was sent to audition, and I didn't want to have plastic surgery and was sent to the hospital.It seems that there has always been a spell that prevents him from getting out of this vicious circle.

But he knew in his heart that it all stemmed from his own weakness and incompetence.

"What did you say?" Lu Yueyang asked again uncertainly.

An Yinxuan repeated weakly: "I'm sorry, I can't make it public, I can't lose my current identity."

Qin Yingchuan did not expect this situation, just now you and I have been showing affection, why the style of painting suddenly changed suddenly.Xiao Quan wasn't surprised, he watched An Yinxuan walking over, so he naturally knew him better.

"Yinxuan, did Xiao Quan tell you to say that?" Lu Yueyang didn't believe his words at all, and asked, "Brother Quan, what did you tell him?"

Xiao Quan thought to himself that the two of you have been stuck together since you entered the door, wishing you could even go to the bathroom with your partner, how could I have the opportunity to instigate him alone, you are too tender.

"It's nothing to do with Mr. Xiao, it's me." He tightly gripped the blanket wrapped around his body, and said, "I can't give up everything like you. New album, there are still many things to do, I can't stop here."

Everything he held in his hands today was not easy to come by, and he even won it with a gamble of everything he had.

"There are too many things we haven't done together. Didn't we promise to go to the island country together? We are too busy to make time, but I always remember." Lu Yueyang squatted in front of him, touching the Zhang Fanhong said, "I really hope that you will be with me for the rest of my life. Can you not leave me?"

Only now did Lu Yueyang understand that the inexplicable anxiety came from being unable to control his lover.An Yinxuan is an extremely focused person, which makes him look very charismatic, but the object of his focus is not himself.While being attracted by him, he also expected that he would fly to a wider world in the end, and couldn't keep him no matter what.

In this relationship, Lu Yueyang is the weak one. He can give up everything for An Yinxuan, but An Yinxuan cannot.When a person pays more, he will sink deeper, and despair will gradually occupy his heart. If the other party cannot respond to his enthusiasm and love, then he will face endless pain. Love is no longer beautiful, but intensified. torture yourself.

"Life is not only love, but also many responsibilities. From the day we choose to be public figures, we are no longer free. We have to face public opinion and distinguish between serious and serious. This is work, not child's play." If their happiness is only It is meaningless to be able to build on the collapsed ruins, and the dreams that were strangled in the cradle are buried under the foundation.

"If my heart can't be free, how can I talk about other things? If I'm afraid of what I want to do, and the person I want to love can't admit it, that's the saddest thing." Lu Yueyang choked up and said, "Or, you don't care at all. Don't love me enough?"

An Yinxuan gave her true love, but in the end he got this heartbreaking question. His eyes were red and swollen, and his voice was trembling: "How could I..."

"But your attitude makes me only think so." Lu Yueyang let go of her self-esteem and revealed her inner timidity: "I have always been afraid, I dare not ask you what you love about me, and I dare not ask you how much you care about me." Some, I'm afraid I'm too greedy, and you will leave if you are under a lot of pressure."

An Yinxuan never thought that he would turn Lu Yueyang into the self-doubting self-doubt he is now. It turns out that her lover has been in fear, and it didn't form in a day, so it's not a knot that can be solved in a day.He even had a sense of self-blame, if Lu Yueyang hadn't met him, would he still be that radiant man.

"I won't go, it's just..." He said as if to comfort a worried and frightened child, "It's just that I don't want to make a hasty decision, and I will regret it on the spur of the moment. Let's think about it more and let Brother Quan and Mr. Qin come to help We get through it."

Lu Yueyang couldn't listen to any persuasion, he got into a dead end, just wanted to know how important he was in An Yinxuan's heart, he pleaded: "You have confidence in me, okay, I will make you happy, you I will not regret making such a choice, and we will face any responsibilities together, and it has nothing to do with others."

"How can it have nothing to do with others? As long as you are still living in society, you can't be separated from public opinion. I have never doubted your feelings for me, and I love you wholeheartedly. Spread the romance on the table and let this farce intensify."

The word "necessary" pierced into Lu Yueyang's heart, as if his feelings had been quantified, he couldn't accept it. He broke down and asked, "Actually, in your heart, even love is not necessary, is it?"

Lu Yueyang is emotional, the most loyal love he knows is to be able to dedicate and sacrifice for it, and he is ready to give everything.

But An Yinxuan is different, he has too many things to take into account, he doesn't have the courage to put all the eggs in one basket like Lu Yueyang, so he is so rational that it can be said that he is cold-blooded.His love is just love, which cannot replace career success and family warmth, but Lu Yueyang's fiery love can burn all emotions.

"When we were talking about love, it never occurred to me that someone would lose their job or lose their dreams because of it. They need me, and I need them. I am not qualified to destroy so many people to help me build stage."

Despair slowly climbed into Lu Yueyang's beautiful eyes: "Is there anything I can't give you?"

Liang Xu also asked him this question.After such a long time, his ideal and his feelings are still in opposition, this is the cruelty of reality.

"It's different." He suppressed the tears that were about to burst and said, "I have the responsibility to protect the name An Yinxuan. I promised Wang Wei that he would return to the glory of ten years ago; I also promised Chen Junshan, Continue to write lyrics for his songs; I also promised Chenjia to let him let go to realize his ideas. If the name An Yinxuan is broken, I will break my promise."

Lu Yueyang asked: "Then what did you promise me? Didn't you agree to face it together, solve it together, and never separate? I am not as good as your brother or your job. I agree with that." But am I not as good as your producer, your guitarist, or even your makeup artist?"

"You have no idea what everything means to me right now."

Lu Yueyang said angrily: "Then what does it mean that I am in your heart?!"

An Yinxuan also raised her voice a bit, and said, "Yue Yang, you can't force me!"

"I forced you? Is it me?" Lu Yueyang couldn't believe that An Yinxuan had such a decisive attitude, he stood up shaking, and said in a daze: "Okay, I won't force you, you can do what you like, I I won't get in your way any more."

An Yinxuan raised her hand to grab his arm, but everything she saw was blurred, so she missed it, and let Lu Yueyang stride out, Xiao Quan hurriedly followed, and said, "Yueyang and I will go down first." , there are reporters outside."

Qin Yingchuan nodded, he was very relieved of Xiao Quan's work.

The two came out of the underground garage one after the other, and the reporters swarmed in. If Lu Yue hadn't raised his voice, the microphone would have punched him in the face.The assistants and bodyguards in the nanny's car rushed out to protect the two of them. Lu Yueyang was tall and long-legged, and got into the car within two steps.

Seeing that the protagonist was about to run away, the reporter grabbed Xiao Quan in desperation and kept asking if the matter was true. Xiao Quan looked calmly at the camera and said, "The company will issue an announcement within three days. Planned premeditated slander, the company will take corresponding legal measures to protect Yue Yang's legal rights. In addition, please don't disturb the artist's private life. Huaying and Xingyun will not hide any questions you raised, and will hold a meeting The press will answer them one by one, after all we have a clear conscience."

After all, he got into the car, and the nanny's car nimbly dodged a group of reporters and cameras, and quickly drove out of the garage.The sky in the east has turned pale, and everyone was exhausted this night.

Lu Yueyang, who had been greatly injured in his heart, lay on the seat, looked out dully, and said, "Are you satisfied with this result?"

"Do you think I'd like to watch you cry and cry for life and death?" Xiao Quan sighed, shook his head, and said, "I'm not a bully who specializes in beating mandarin ducks. Being in love doesn’t delay anything, but do some things just go away if I say what I say?”

"Did you know that Yinxuan would not choose me?" Lu Yueyang asked as if all the strength in his body had been drained, slumped on the backrest.

Xiao Quan adjusted his glasses and said, "I'm not 100% sure, but I'm [-]% sure."

Lu Yueyang smiled miserably, and said: "It seems that you know him better than I do, but I never thought that he would not stand by my side. Without any mental preparation, I lost completely."

"That's because you don't know what he has experienced along the way, you only see his beauty reflected on the screen, the result of his first record being awarded and sold, you don't know how much he has paid. "

"You're right, I don't know anything." Lu Yueyang's eyes were moist, and he said, "Brother Quan, can you tell me about it? Tell me about An Yinxuan you know."

It was extremely cold that morning, but the temperature in the car was very warm. At 06:30 in the morning, there were only a few cars driving on the ring road. They passed the bar where An Yinxuan used to sing, passed the club where he performed for Bai Yanlan, and passed by him. The old house where he lived for many years passed by the dance studio where he had trained for several months.

Like a narrator in a documentary, Xiao Quan narrated An Yinxuan's past.

It turned out that he went to the draft and was eliminated in the first round; it turned out that he missed the opportunity to go to Mr.Right because of his uncoordinated dancing hands and feet; it turned out that he spent a month in the Conservatory of Music in order to impress Shen Meiming; Switch came out of the mountain, even Chen Junshan didn't do it; it turns out that he...

really let go.

The more you know, the more you love him, and the more you love him, the more you despair.

Desperate that this person will never be able to reciprocate his passionate, desperate love.

After Lu Yueyang and Xiao Quan left, An Yinxuan fainted on the sofa. Qin Yingchuan tried his watch for him, and it went up to forty degrees.He pays attention to keeping in good health, and he never gets sick once a year, and there is no medicine at home, so he can only carry him to the guest bedroom upstairs, and call a private doctor to come over.

After the full examination, the doctor left anti-inflammatory drugs and antipyretics, saying that he would be cured in three to five days, and then told Qin Yingchuan: "You are too careless, you can't make such a fuss, how can he hold on with such a small body, I will Prescribed some external medicine, must be applied on time, you'd better abstain from sexual intercourse during this time."

Qin Yingchuan: "?"

All the helpers were temporarily dismissed by him. It is estimated that they have already returned to the Philippines for vacation, and they can't find a replacement for a while.Qin Yingchuan walked into the bedroom and changed An Yinxuan's neck cooling patch before he understood what the doctor was talking about.

Unbuttoning his jacket, he found red marks not only on his neck, but also all over his body. You don't need to look at the bottom, there must be more.He thought to himself that Lu Yueyang is really good, don't say pity the fragrance and cherish the jade, but don't go too far!

Qin Yingchuan covered the quilt tightly, and almost had a picture in his mind. He could feed the medicine, but he couldn't help with it, it was too embarrassing.

An Yinxuan still had a high fever and fell asleep, unconscious.Qin Yingchuan picked up a tube of medicine on the table. Although he said in his heart that he didn't want it, he still had to take it. He couldn't just watch him dying.As soon as he took off An Yinxuan's outer pants, the phone in his pocket started vibrating.

Qin Yingchuan picked it up and took a look, then quickly picked it up.

"Mr. Zhou, I knew you had to call me. Now that the situation is under control, this is the bottom line. It's a good time to buy at the bottom. I want to do it myself."

Zhou Han ignored him and asked directly, "Is An Yinxuan with you?"

"?" Qin Yingchuan said, "Yes."

Zhou Han said "I'll be right over" and hung up.

Qin Yingchuan had long known the rumor that Zhou Han was interested in An Yinxuan, and it was said that the two had known each other since he was not famous.Of course, Qin Yingchuan didn't remember the New Year's Eve in the hot spring hotel many years ago, passing by An Yinxuan but didn't pay attention.

In order to prove Zhou Han's intentions, Qin Yingchuan personally sent two VIP tickets to the Golden Melody Awards Ceremony. He knew that Zhou Han would not even participate in charitable activities, let alone such profit-making activities.

Looking at the two empty seats not far away, he didn't give up hope at first, but Zhou Han arrived at the venue just in time before An Yinxuan took the stage, and left the venue just in time. This trend is really exciting , let Qin Yingchuan amazed.

So as soon as this scandal was exposed, combined with the powerful forces behind it, the first candidate he thought of was Zhou Han.Just now he learned about the entanglement between Bai Yanlan and Lu Yueyang, Qin Yingchuan only felt that the wealthy brothers were all in An Yinxuan's hands. He looked at the sick patient lying on the bed, and the high fever smeared his fair face. Flushed, lips parted, defenseless.

Qin Yingchuan twisted the ointment back, thinking that someone is rushing to take care of you, so I won't make any trouble.Young man, you can do it, this is the only thought in Qin Yingchuan's mind.

Only ten minutes later, Zhou Han arrived. Qin Yingchuan briefly informed An Yinxuan of the situation, and then brought him into the guest bedroom upstairs.

Zhou Han sat by the bed, An Yinxuan seemed to be sleeping restlessly, and sometimes frowned slightly, his heart softened into a puddle of water, and he rubbed his hot cheek with the back of his hand in distress.

"Then Mr. Zhou, I'll order some lunch, but you haven't eaten yet?" Qin Yingchuan asked at the door.

Zhou Han didn't even look away, and said: "If there is anything to do, just let Secretary Qiu do it, please."

Qin Yingchuan tactfully closed the door.

The bed sheet is white, and the quilt is also white, which makes An Yinxuan's complexion blend with the background.Because the cushion was very soft, An Yinxuan was almost sunk in it. He was very thin, and lying on the bed had no thickness, like a piece of paper.

Zhou Han drew the sunshade curtains so that the light would not be so glaring. There were only the two of them in the huge room, quiet but undercurrents.

There are many medicines on the table, some of which have been opened, and some of which have not yet been opened.Zhou Han scanned the doctor's order, dissolved the anti-inflammatory drug in warm water, hugged An Yinxuan in one hand, and held the cup in the other, but the medicine came to his mouth but he couldn't drink it. An Yinxuan didn't have any consciousness at all, and the medicine went smoothly It dripped from the corner of his mouth.

He wiped it clean with a tissue, sighed, drank the medicine into his mouth, and leaned forward holding the back of An Yinxuan's head.The charming facial features gradually enlarged, and finally stopped on the long eyelashes. This person was so close that he could even feel the fluff on the tip of the other's nose. An Yinxuan exhaled warm breath and sprayed it on his face , he slowly closed his eyes, and only moved forward a little, and touched those lips.

An Yinxuan's smell is fascinating, and Zhou Han is more pity than desire at this time.Under the effect of the high fever, the lips were very hot and dry. He pinched the mandible with two fingers to make him open his mouth, then pushed the tip of his tongue lightly, and let the medicine go in. He didn't let go until he heard the sound of swallowing reflexively.

This is not a kiss, but the closest they have ever been.

Western medicine is specially made into fruity flavors for the taste. It is indeed sweet at the first entrance, but after swallowing, only bitterness is left between the lips and teeth. The sweetness before is mixed with the bitterness of chemical preparations, which is even more unacceptable, just like his current mood Same.

Zhou Han took out home clothes from the cloakroom and put them on the bed, soaked the towel in hot water, and carefully wiped An Yinxuan's face and neck.There were only two buttons on the shirt, and they were still misplaced. Qin Yingchuan or the doctor should have unbuttoned them when he was seeing a doctor. He was actually prepared in his heart, but he was still deeply shocked when he saw it.

As if escaping from something, he quickly put the home clothes on An Yinxuan, held the person in his arms facing each other in the same posture as when he was just feeding the medicine.Zhou Han squeezed some ointment on his middle finger, found that spot and spread it evenly.

An Yinxuan lay on his shoulder and groaned unconsciously, but in the next second, he was in agony as if being nailed into his heart, because he heard the person in his arms whispering: "Yue Yang... Yue Yang..."

That's right, such an intimate gesture should have belonged to An Yinxuan and Lu Yueyang, he was just a stand-in who took advantage of the situation.

This body trace clearly recorded the love and desire between the two. Before he knew it, they had already depended on each other, even though he was madly jealous, it would not help.

Love is the most unpredictable thing in this world, and also the most unreasonable thing, why he can't do it, why can't he accept him, this is a question that will never be answered.

After taking the medicine, Zhou Han just stayed by the bedside, wiping his sweat as soon as the fever subsided.In the evening, the temperature soared again, An Yinxuan curled up under the quilt, shaking from the cold, he could only go to the cabinet to find another quilt, but as soon as he got up, his trouser legs were pulled.

"Yueyang, don't go." An Yinxuan was already in a coma, but she couldn't recognize Zhou Han when she opened her eyes.

"Well, I won't go." Zhou Han sat down again, took his hand and kissed it, and said, "I won't go."

An Yinxuan closed her eyes again, her teeth chattering from the cold, "I'm cold, you hug me."

Zhou Han pursed his lips, took off his suit jacket, unbuttoned the first button of his shirt, leaned over to lie beside him, wrapped him in a quilt, and hugged him tightly.

Whether it's a substitute or anything, just let me hold you and comfort you at this moment, even if you don't remember anything after waking up, it doesn't matter.

An Yinxuan was like a boat hiding in a safe haven, she kept diving into Zhou Han's arms, pressing her face against his neck to seek warmth.

Lu Yueyang returned to his apartment like a walking corpse. There were two people when he left, but now he is the only one who came back. The room was empty and so quiet that it was scary.

He walked to the bar, picked up various wine bottles, recalled how An Yinxuan made that glass of spirits yesterday, he needed such a glass of wine that one sip could knock him unconscious, maybe he woke up and found that all this was just a nightmare field.

He impatiently mixed many kinds of wine into the shaker, and took a big gulp without shaking.

No, it's not like that at all.How exactly?What kind of wine is there?What ratio?As Lu Yueyang thought about it, the face that looked at him last night, the slightly raised corners of the eyes, and the happy smile appeared in his mind again.

Right in this living room, right on this dining table, even the position has not changed, but now he is alone, the loneliness is like a dark cloud covering him, making him unable to breathe.

Lu Yueyang casually grabbed a bottle of wine, raised his head and poured it in, mouthful after mouthful, his throat was so tight that his physical tears flowed down, and when it was about to bottom out, the esophagus could no longer bear the burning stimulation and go up Instead, he spit out the wine in one gulp, coughing uncontrollably, and his face flushed from the suffocation.

I can't breathe, it's too bad.

To dig a person out of my heart alive, only I can understand the pain, but I can't do anything to see that person go away, and I don't know when the wound will heal.

The alcohol gradually took effect, and his vision was vaguely blurred. At this time, the door guard rang, but he ignored it.Then there was a second sound, and he threw the wine bottle in his hand at the monitoring screen. With a "crash", the bottle shattered to the ground, and even the monitoring device fell off.But this didn't stop it from ringing for the third time. He pressed the door open button to see who was so persistent.

Lu Yueyang opened the door unsteadily, only to see a very thin figure standing in front of him.

Bai Yanlan didn't sleep all night, he knew that he had caused a catastrophe, so he said regretfully, "I'm sorry, Brother Yueyang."

This is what An Yinxuan said to him a few hours ago. Lu Yueyang embraced him and said in a daze: "Don't say sorry, I don't want to hear sorry again."