Yun An Lok

The last night was as quiet as ever.

Jing An excused that Chao En taught him the questions until very late, and after planning for a long time, he solemnly suggested to Chao En, who kept sighing, "It's late, or you can wash up and sleep with me!"

Chao En looked up at the clock, it was twelve o'clock, the window was as dark as paint, the lights in the village were silent, and there was a slight chill.

"Well, I'll squeeze with you tonight." Chaoen replied.

His side face was hidden under the warm yellow light, and the fine and dense fluff was faintly visible.

"Chao En, you have grown a beard." Jing An said this without thinking.

"Ah?" Chao En was startled abruptly, taking advantage of his long arms to reach the mirror in front of the counter and take a closer look.

It took a long time to let out a sigh of emotion: "Jing An, why do you think I am 23!"

Jing An said nothing, bowed his head in meditation.

It turns out that time is a powerful and fair existence for everyone. You are 23 years old and I am 17 years old. The difference between you and me is one-half of a cycle, and it will never be equal.

It is like an iron wall, which is always between you and me despite the waves of time.

"Do you remember, I used to laugh at you for being a little kid!" Chaoan seemed to be recalling something: "You were very angry, and then after a year, you said aggressively..."

He looked at Jing An as if he was trying to show off, "I'm another year older, and in a few years I'll be the same age as you!!!"

Jing An let out a "poof" laugh, there were stars in his bright eyes, and his eyebrows were curved.

When I was young, I simply wanted to be as mature and as strong as you.

Only now, some desires have changed, such as: I want to walk shoulder to shoulder with you for the rest of my life.

"Actually, have you ever thought about crossing the gap of age and trying to see me as someone you can rely on?" Jing An stared at Chao An with burning eyes, and the uncontrollable bitter anticipation stuck in his throat.

Clenching his fists tightly, his veins almost popped out.

The twilight is warm and warm, and the cold October actually forced beads of sweat.

It's okay, it's okay, say it.

Chao En was taken aback for a moment, and several horizontal grooves were abruptly squeezed out of his smooth forehead due to surprise.

"You said...what did you say?" Chao En looked back at Jing An: "Is it the kind of feeling I understand?"

"You...you can see it all!" Jing An's voice trembled slightly, as if he would lose his balance and fall to the ground in the next second.

"Well, I saw it a long time ago!" Chaoen looked at the ceiling: "You think you are precocious, but you can't hide anything!"

"But, how do you ask me to accept it?"

"Do you know about homosexuality?"

"Do you know the rumors that those who are desperately together suffer from rumors?"

"Have you ever experienced the feeling of being betrayed by everyone and everyone accusing and insulting you?"

Chao En posed so many questions in one breath, Jing An, who smacked like a hammer, fell into an ice cave.

"I can resist, as long as you give me a word of like." Jing An said lightly.

"But I can't bear it!" Chao En sat down on the edge of the bed, his eyes slightly closed.

"You probably don't know yet, I'm gay, and I'm destined to be different from ordinary people."

Chao En narrated slowly, as if pouring out all his courage and strength.

"I have been in love, and he is very shy and kind. He should have been innocent and innocent all his life, but because of my pursuit, his life stumbled."

"First the gossip, then the blatant warning from the school."

He paused, his voice hoarse.Jing An listened silently, and thought absurdly: Sure enough, someone got there first!

"In the end, his father was furious and beat him into a cripple in a fit of anger. His legs were broken. Do you know that?"

"I saw with my own eyes that he was covered in injuries, and his face was covered with tears, until finally he curled up on the floor begging for mercy, sobbing and choking."

"And I couldn't do anything about it! In the end the relationship was over, and after all these years, I can't let it go."