running boy

Tsukishima Kaoru thought he was hallucinating.

She stared intently at the figure outside the monitoring window.

Just like that, suddenly and without warning, the boy in memory appeared in an impossible place.

It doesn't matter if it's a hallucination, she won't rub her eyes, even if he disappears in the next second, she still has to look at him for one more second without blinking.

The man also looked straight at him.

It was as if time had never passed, as if he had returned to the first time he watched his game, and when he was caught peeking on the second floor, he also looked back without hesitation.

……

In fact, Ririren, who was standing next to Niu Dao, was relieved—seeing Yue Dao's way of seeing no one else at all, and staring straight at Uu Dao, he knew he had guessed right.

("It's not that I don't work hard, I don't forget anything...")

Looking at the two people who are separated by many people and an observation window exuding an aura of "there are only you and me in the world", Ririren silently turned and left.

(But you will never forget, Tsukishima.)

After the simulation training was over, Kaoru Tsukishima came out.Niu Dao turned around in front of the window, watching her step by step towards him from the door.

She was wearing a blue work uniform like nothing he had ever seen before.

The two faced each other, speechless for a moment.

"You, why are you here?" In the end, Yue Dao spoke first, standing two steps away stiffly.

"I heard about you, so I want to see you."

"I heard that you have something to say to me - if there is anything in the suicide note that you must say to me, tell me now."

(Everyday people!)

Even though I wrote everything down in the letter, I had prepared myself to confess everything, but Udo appeared so suddenly that it was difficult to speak all at once.

Tsukishima fell silent, lowered his head, and repeated self-construction in his heart.

"Actually, I regret it very much." Seeing Yue Dao's silence, Udo Dao spoke first, "I regret that I didn't get to know you well."

The question in my heart can finally be asked directly.

"I want to know what troubled you when we were dating—I didn't notice it at all at the time."

"I want to know, when you broke up, what was the dream you said - you will also have things you like to do, I didn't think about it at all."

"I regret it, if I had paid attention to you, just like you have been watching me, everything would be different."

"At least I won't even know where to find you."

(I don't even know how to work hard if I want to.)

Looking back on those short few months for a long time, Ushishima wanted to understand one thing. The reason why Tsukishima Kaoru was her "understander" must be because she was doing a good job besides coincidence. look at yourself.Just like what Tiantong said, because Xun looked at herself attentively, that's why she knew herself so well.

And myself, not at all.

"Actually, I don't understand you either." Tsukishima Kaoru said in a low voice, "I didn't have time to understand you better..."

(In fact, there are still many things I want to know about you.)

She recalled the thoughts that annoyed her that always popped up from time to time when she was in Xipu.

(such as how you usually get along with your classmates, such as what you look like when you train,)

(Another example……)

"For example, when you graduate..."

"What?" Ujima took a step closer.

"When you graduated, did you give any words to the juniors in the team? Did you say anything?"

Ushishima recalled in doubt, and said honestly, "I have some suggestions for everyone,"

Tsukishima smiled softly.

(I really guessed right, it really is his style.)

Seeing that Yuedao seemed interested in this topic, Ushidao recalled sentence by sentence, "Tell Chuanxi to be more confident and strengthen his weaknesses; tell Baibu to have the self-consciousness of being the center of the team and better mobilize everyone. He only revolves around me, but he can’t do this anymore in the future; Umeda’s problem is that he doesn’t pay attention during practice, and his serving posture is not stable...” Because it is his teammates who have been together for a long time, it is something he has thought about seriously, so I still remember it clearly until now.

Ushishima recounted the memories sentence by sentence, and every main election has instructions.

Some people's names, Yue Dao, could no longer be remembered. When Uu Dao was mentioned, the memory gradually recovered.

As she listened, her heart felt soft.

(It's something he did...)

(He is so serious, so nice...)

Ushido said at the end, "Actually, there are a lot of things I want to tell Wu Se, but he knows it all, and he has put a lot of pressure on himself, so in the end, I just told him to please."

It seemed that he had finished speaking, but Tsukishima immediately noticed from his seemingly expressionless facial features that he seemed to feel a little...complicated?

Seeing Yuedao looking at him curiously, Ushidao continued, "As a result, Wushi cried on the spot..."

Tsukishima remembered Wushi, with a reminiscing smile on his face, "Because that child has always admired you, your words are a great affirmation to him."

that kid?Niu Dao was secretly puzzled.

Yue Dao smiled and recalled that he once watched Ushi Dao and his teammates from the stands, and secretly nicknamed Wu Se Gong "Xiao Li".

When he came back to his senses, Ushido looked at her silently, as if he had something to say.

"Actually," Ushidao finally said when he saw Yuedao came back to his senses and finally began to look at him properly, "I was very emotional after seeing Wushi cry."

(It's still the same as before, when you talk, you will look directly at each other.)

Unknowingly, she stopped avoiding his sight, and listened and watched carefully.

"I know the strengths and weaknesses of each teammate, I know the pressure in Wu Se's heart, and I can talk so much when we part."

(Looking straight at each other without avoiding it.)

Every word, deed, and action of Ushido made her feel familiar and nostalgic—she couldn't bear to blink.

"But that day, I couldn't say a word,"

(...)

Tsukishima was stunned, and then suddenly realized which day he was talking about, and wanted to turn his eyes away in embarrassment.

"Your last phone call, I couldn't even say a word to refute you."

"I know my teammates so well, but I don't know you at all—"

Ushido's gaze was still firmly locked on Tsukishima's, as if he was saying silently, look at me.

But looking at him, not escaping from his calm sight, is so difficult at this moment.

"I'm sorry." She interrupted him.

"I owe you an explanation." She took a deep breath and spoke slowly.

"Actually, I deliberately deceived you from the very beginning. I concealed my age and identity from you..." Difficult to say every word.

"...I'm actually much older than you..." At the end, she turned her head slightly in embarrassment.

(“That kid,” no wonder.)

(And don't want me to ask her what grade...)

Niu Dao was thoughtful.

"How big is it?"

"I'm... 5 years old."

"Were you single at the time?"

The two almost only meet each other on weekends... Yue Dao is elusive, and has no idea what she is doing at ordinary times. In retrospect, it is actually easy to find out the truth about what she is hiding. "Is there another lover" is one of Ushido's thoughts after discovering that a playboy teammate around him has similar behavior.

"Of course!" Tsukishima was a little aggrieved, turned around, and immediately met her gaze, and Ushishima was still looking at her.

"Yeah." His face was flat, and there was no fluctuation in his brown eyes.That's just a few years older, is there something else?

Tsukishima couldn't escape for the second time, so he forced himself to watch Ushido carefully and finish the rest of his sentence.

"I, and, I was working in high school." The voice trailed off.

"..." Niu Dao was stunned, this seemed really bad.

"……"perturbed.

"Shiratori Ze?"

"no!"

"..." It's okay if it's not Shiratorizawa's teacher.

"...In short, my behavior at that time was very inappropriate, not only for myself, but also for causing trouble to you, Ushido...I'm very sorry." Tsukishima bowed his head and apologized formally to Ushishima.

At this time, Niu Dao was distracted.

(It turns out that's what she was hiding.)

(It turned out that Xun used to worry about these things... She was worried about these things on the day the relationship was confirmed...)

"So I tempted you." Niu Dao suddenly said with a solemn expression.

Tsukishima held back, this is a serious moment to apologize, hold back!

But in the end, he couldn't hold back and burst out laughing.

(What is this guy talking serious nonsense about?)

"It was I who said first that day - "be a boyfriend and girlfriend", Xun was struggling and distressed at the time, so it was also my fault, Xun couldn't withstand my temptation. "

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Yue Dao didn't find it funny anymore, and was a little annoyed. He blushed and quickly changed the subject, "Anyway, it's my fault... Originally, I wanted to confess to you on the phone that day, but I couldn't do it anyway. Can't speak..."

"..." Niu Dao looked at her quietly.

"In the end, I really don't want you to hate me." Tsukishima lowered his eyes and whispered.

(would you hate me?)

"I don't hate you."

Tsukishima looked up, his expression looked very serious.

Rather, he is serious all the time, and every word he says is sincere, without jokes.

It made her feel disgusted by her past deception.

But he said "It's my fault" and "I won't hate it", so he gently let go of this topic.

The two stood quietly without speaking.

"Have you arranged a place to live yet?" Tsukishima finally asked.

"Not yet..." Niu Dao hesitated, remembering what Nanbo Riri said.

"Tsukishima is the same as my house, so she has a vacant room in her house."

"Look at the situation, you can live with her..."

"If not, there are many hotels nearby, and the Johnson Center is a scenic spot after all..."

(Depending on the situation... what is the situation now?)

While Ushido was hesitating, Tsukishima said, "I have a vacant room in my house, you can live here—" She stroked the hair around her ear a little embarrassedly, "If there is no other place to live."

"Thank you." Niu Dao answered quickly.

Tsukishima looked up at him suspiciously.

Niu Dao was expressionless.

The author has something to say:

I really like the plot of Niu Dao’s graduation. Many people in the barrage on station b said that they were fans of Niu Dao…Here, Niu Dao really showed a side that he didn’t usually show.

What I personally like the most in this passage is that when everyone went to persuade the crying five colors, Ushido stood where he was, with no fluctuations on his expressionless side face

I always feel that this scene best shows what kind of person Ushido is. His silent tenderness and concern are buried deep under his unwavering expression.

Many thoughts in his heart are not always on his lips, and the biggest expression on his face that can be seen from his expression is that the corners of his mouth are not so tightly pursed, and his brows are slightly loosened...