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After Yun Xiang told Wuyue those things impulsively, he felt even more like a waste. He also wanted to help Wuyue solve her psychological problems, and asked her why she was obsessed with cleanliness. He couldn't even solve his own problems.Well now, he finally cut off the last intimate connection with this world, and he can die.

Telling Wuyue that he wanted to commit suicide but refusing to let Wuyue stop him, dragged Wuyue to moral self-condemnation... This made Yun Xiang feel more disgusted with himself, and he used the usual method to get rid of these things that made him Uncomfortable emotions are like working crazily, leaving no room for breathing.

When Yun Xiang was awake, he was reading and writing, swallowing food without taste, and often vomited it out due to stomach cramps.He is enduring, waiting for the day when he receives the notification of his mother's death from the hospital or he arranges to commit suicide himself, whichever day will come first.Maybe because the day of death is getting closer and closer, some revolving flashes of the past always flashed in his mind. He thought of his mother who was fighting with his father in adolescence, and standing by the side who was always wiping tears...

After being transferred to a boarding school, not only did he not restrain himself, but he even intensified his opposition to his parents out of revenge against them.He used the most vicious words to curse his father in front of his classmate Ling Wei, saying that he wished him to die.So one day Ling Wei brought a group of people to block his father, and killed his father by mistake.

Ling Wei was not criminally responsible because he was under the age of fourteen, so he did not go back to school for anything.Yun Xiang remembered that when Ling Wei came back, he asked him: "Your father let me beat him to death, what do you think?"

Yun Xiang heard himself reply in a disdainful voice: "If you die, you will die. It's none of my business."

After his father died, Yun Xiang never returned to his home, not because his mother complained that he didn't want him anymore, but on the contrary, his mother came to school again and again to pick Yun Xiang home, but Yun Xiang refused.It was also after his father's death that no matter what Ling Wei asked Yun Xiang to ask, Yun Xiang would always agree.

Ling Wei is a typical villain, emotionally indifferent, cruel and selfish, he wants to get a great sense of masculine authority through Ling Yuyun.Yun Xiang voluntarily was treated as an animal by Ling Wei. As long as he still blames himself for his father's death, this relationship will not end.

At the very beginning, Yun Xiang chose to distance himself from his mother, but instead got closer to the murderer who killed his father, all because of an instinctive fear.Because apologizing to his mother at home means admitting that he killed his father, which he cannot accept.He could only escape, paralyzing that his father's death had nothing to do with him.

In the end, he could accept that he killed his father, but because of this, he faced his mother even more shamelessly, and continued to let Ling Wei torture himself, which was his self-punishment in despair.He didn't deserve to be called a human being, so he chose the worst life path for himself.

Yun Xiang's father is a middle school Chinese teacher. He taught Yun Xiang to read many books since he was a child.During the years when he and his father were at odds, he naturally didn't read any books, but one day after his father died, Yun Xiang picked up the book and read it again.He was taciturn in school and didn't like to make friends. Being surrounded by scum like Ling Wei cut off his possibility of establishing normal interpersonal relationships.Yun Xiang read books all day long, as if he was using this method to comfort his father's ghost.

When applying for college application, Yun Xiang chose to stay at the local university in Ying City, even though he never met his mother in the same city.Not long after entering college, he learned that his mother was suffering from stomach cancer. Although the family had money for surgery, it was not that rich, so Yun Xiang started looking for odd jobs that are common among college students, and finally registered as a Author, start writing novels.

The pseudonym Yun Luoti was able to make money to pay all her mother's medical expenses. After more than two years, Yun wanted to remit the monthly manuscript fee to her mother, but she never went to see her in the hospital.Today, each of Yun Xiang's novels can easily earn more than [-] million yuan, but he has never had the opportunity to show his works to his father, and no amount of money can be exchanged for his mother's life.

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November 11rd was the day when Wuyue arrived in Ying City from Yancheng. After speculating that Yunxiang was probably Yunluoti, she tried her best to check all the reliable information she could find, and wanted to know what happened to Yunxiang. What caused him to commit suicide.Finally, I saw a local news report in 23××× on the Ying City Daily. The content of the news is:

Yun XX, a male teacher from an experimental middle school in this city, was killed yesterday on his way off work.The reporter learned that the murderer was a student in the junior high school where Teacher Yun's only son was.

If the teacher Yun from Ying City Experimental Middle School mentioned in the news is Yun Xiang's father, then according to the news, the death of Yun Xiang's father was caused by Yun Xiang.Is father the one Yun Xiang regrets the most and can never be redeemed... Is he the "beloved person who was killed by himself" in "Black Cliff"?

Wuyue thought about going to Yun Luoti's private number to contact him through the staff of Lewen.com, but she still felt abrupt, what if Yun Luoti wasn't Yun Xiang?She finally decided to come to Ying City by herself and try to find a patient with advanced gastric cancer whose family name is Yun Xiang in several big hospitals in Ying City by pretending to be visiting patients. Mother.In this way, she is very likely to wait for Yun Xiang in the hospital, but if she makes a mistake and Yun Xiang is not Yun Luoti at all, then she will never find a mother named Yun Xiang in Ying City who was hospitalized with stomach cancer. people.

As a result, Wu Yue found Yun Xiang's mother at the Ying City Cancer Hospital on the first day she came to Ying City, that is to say, she basically confirmed the fact that Yun Xiang was Yun Luo Ti.However, things didn't go as smoothly as they did at the beginning. Wu Yue didn't wait for Yun Xiang who came to the hospital to sign the agreement to withdraw the medical equipment that kept her mother's life. The hospital waits to be empty every day.

With the mentality of believing that Yun Xiang will definitely come to the hospital to see her mother in the end, Wu Yue wants to continue waiting no matter how long, but she is actually getting more and more anxious, because she is afraid that she will continue to dawdle like this, and wait for nothing to change. Take the initiative, and miss the time to save Yunxiang.

Until December 12th, Yun Luoti's official blog posted an update, which read: Merry Christmas! "Black Cliff" has been finished, and the last seven chapters are stored in the manuscript box and broadcast on time every day.Tomorrow, from December 24th to December 12st, there will be a 25-hour live broadcast on Lemon Channel (link attached)!Welcome little cuties to come and support~~

Before Wuyue saw this Weibo, she almost had to convince herself that life was more important than human dignity. She could put down her own and the other person's dignity in order to save Yunxiang. the door.But after this Weibo post, Wuyue was given another week of hesitation. She thought that Yun Xiang would not commit suicide during at least one week of the live broadcast, so she would watch the live broadcast first before deciding what to do next.