Exploring the Entertainment Circle [Ancient and Modern]

Tao Qingfeng thought in a daze: He has been stupid for so long and didn't realize it.In fact, Yan Dan treats each other in various ways, expressing hints, brows and eyes, and pulse.Looking back at the memory, there is a tenderness and smallness of forbearance and temptation everywhere.I didn't even notice it?It was only at this moment that I woke up like a dream.

Tao Qingfeng almost froze in place, he couldn't bear to look into Yan Tan's eyes, and he cried out in his heart, begging him not to speak out.But this request is too selfish.He couldn't say it.

Yan Tan smiled, and said: "It's a joy to be honest with yourself. It's really happy to say it."

"You know my heart..." Tao Qingfeng almost wanted to beg him, begging him not to say the next thing he knew well——

"I like you." Yan Tan squeezed Tao Qingfeng's hand even harder, "There is no one else. It has always been you. It has always been you. And——"

Tao Qingfeng's head was on Weng Ming, he shook his head sadly: "No—"

His voice overlapped with the raised voice of Yan Dan's next sentence: "And I believe you will like me one day." Yan Dan blurted out, these words were actually not planned in advance, they just popped out of his chest like a ghost It seems to have been hidden for many years, and I want to say to him without hesitation, "One day, you will definitely like me. You will like me like you like Yan Tansheng. I am very similar to him. Sometimes You see me as—"

Tao Qingfeng's eyes widened suddenly, panting quickly, remembering the occasional confusion and overlapping, flashed a flash of shame, and then was cut off by the undercurrent in his eyes: "My fault, it's all my fault. Never again. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for both of you."

"Really?" Yan Tan smiled lightly, he still had a secret in his chest, which made him sad that he would "definitely be rejected", by the almost blind self-confidence and the secret that he murmured secretly every time he woke up from dream dilute.He was convinced for no reason that Yan Dan's mood was the same as his.Whenever he thought of the way Tao Qingfeng looked at him in his dream, the jealousy in Yan Tan's heart would miraculously be extinguished.

Yan Dan thought: The relationship between himself and Yan Dan in the dream seems to be subtly adjusting his behavior.For example, some time ago, Yan Dan still adhered to the boundaries of that far-sightedness, but people's thinking can change.Yan Dan felt that ever since his "never in love" heart lake was frozen and dissipated at Tao Qingfeng's place, until now, he would actually press Tao Qingfeng on the sofa.

Tao Qingfeng leaned back against the sofa, the hand holding the cup was still held tightly by Yan Tan, watching Yan Tan getting closer in his retina, Yan Tan didn't wear glasses today but was invisible, which made that face very strange Tao Qingfeng's impact increased wildly——

"Who the hell am I? Can you really tell the difference? How about this?" Yan Tan leaned forward, his face was very close, and the tip of his nose was slightly tilted, as if he was about to touch the other's lips with the next breath, but Yan Tan intentionally leaned against that distance, and said: "It's over the limit, why don't you push away the one who taught you?"

Only then did Tao Qingfeng gasp as if he had just woken up from a dream, and suddenly struggled, the water in the teacup in his hand was shaking violently, if it hadn't been for the lid, it would have spilled all over the floor.Tao Qingfeng was trembling all over, his face was flushed red to the back of his ears with shame.

Yan Dan let go of his hands with a smile on his face, Tao Qingfeng breathed a sigh of relief and just put down the teacup, ready to stand up and explain this muddled account to Yan Tan. Confused by the illusion, feeling very sad in his heart, he felt sorry for Yan Tan, and must end this matter—suddenly, Tao Qingfeng saw Yan Tan smile again, accompanied by a sigh.

Tao Qingfeng was bewildered, when Yan Dan suddenly possessed himself again, clasped his five fingers into Tao Qingfeng's palm, and although he was not strong, Tao Qingfeng froze like a stone statue. Dan leaned closer and said with a light smile: "The eyes don't change, can you tell them apart? Who are you lying to?"

Tao Qingfeng couldn't understand, and his mind started to get confused again.In fact, Yan Tan didn't use much strength, but leaned closer to Tao Qingfeng's body leaning on the sofa, and leaned against him.But Tao Qingfeng suddenly felt as if he was being crushed by a huge boulder.In a trance, the huge stone turned into a coffin containing Yan Dansheng, and the door of the coffin was opened to cover him in the shadow.That was the place he never dared to think about, but he willingly wanted to be locked up.

Tao Qingfeng's tears flowed down the corners of his eyes silently: If this is how you came to me——

Yan Dan followed the tears and kissed Tao Qingfeng's lips, which was different from the superficial touch of water after drunk, or the shallow taste and restraint of sickness.It was a real, loving, non-aggressive kiss in the waking state.Yan Tan kissed Tao Qingfeng's soft lips.

Clear, decisive, accurate.

Tao Qingfeng felt that he was haunted by ghosts on the bed, which was exactly the same as when he was always pinned down by Yan Dansheng in his dreams and couldn't move.He endured the kiss against his will in a daze, motionless, as if his soul had come out of his body.Let Yan Tan's literal sense of "Han Ying Ju Hua", savor every inch carefully, and act as an "uninvited guest" and "take it without asking".

But Tao Qingfeng felt that it was not a hot and nimble soft tongue that made it difficult for him to breathe, but the hard and heavy tombstone that was wrapped around the soft moss on his lips.It was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, but he hoped that it could melt into his body.Tao Qingfeng knew that this kind of thinking was absurd: when he was kissed, he seemed to feel that Yan Dansheng was here, it was the air, it was the hot and intoxicating breath, it was the heat and pain of the intertwined lips and teeth.Through the electric tremor of the heart, like maggots attached to the bones, it made his whole body limp but stiff.

Yan Tan also felt dizzy and empty in his heart during that brief contact, as if a thirsty traveler had traveled for centuries and finally drank the sweet spring.So he made this decision not to let go... After a long time, he finally satiated and "returned with a full load", he raised a little distance, and the palm that was holding Tao Qingfeng loosened, and then he did not hold it tightly, repeating it several times , as if fiddled with a soft cushion.

Seeing Tao Qingfeng's bewildered eyes that were almost out of focus by the kiss, Yan Dan laughed shortly, and said, "I don't care if you can tell the difference clearly or not, anyway, I have confirmed a conjecture—" Yan Dan lowered his head Leaning into Tao Qingfeng's ear, she said, "As long as I want to kiss, you can't refuse. It's exactly the same as that time. So you will always like me."

Yan Dan was also surprised by himself: for more than [-] years, there was no wave in the lake of heart, and he was aloof and estranged in his dealings with others, yet he could say such a thing.

Tao Qingfeng's eyes widened in astonishment, those red-rimmed pupils became more and more aggrieved by the steaming water vapor, one glance made Yan Tan's heart tremble, and he wanted to bend down again to do the same.

But Tao Qingfeng suddenly struggled to get out of his body and stood up, the tears in the corners of his eyes were still wet, and he staggered back.At this moment, he couldn't even say the word "self-respect".Because of the situation just now, if Yan Dan acted abruptly, he would be an accessory.Tao Qingfeng didn't know what was going on with his senses and body, and why he always betrayed his will again and again.

"Yan...you...are you really going to make me feel embarrassed when I see you, and I can't even be friends?" Tao Qingfeng stepped back, feeling sad and wanting to escape: Since Yan Tan already knew that he had someone in his heart, Why can't... why can't everyone keep that line and be friends quietly, how wonderful it would be.

Yan Dan looked at the flying clouds on Tao Qingfeng's cheeks, he took a step forward, and Tao Qingfeng took a step back, until he reached the door like this:

"You don't have to force yourself to be so ruthless." Yan Dan's extremely determined voice, with a kind of self-confidence that should be taken for granted, "You will think it's unnecessary in the future. Because you will always like me. It's not that I don't cherish you Friendship, it’s just that you and I will get a relationship that is broader than friendship and encompasses more of us. There is no need to regret.”

Tao Qingfeng wanted to faint: where did this maddening sense of superiority come from?Why--

Yan Dan was about to press Tao Qingfeng against the door as he approached, stretched out his index finger to touch his bright red lips, and said as if reading his mind: "If I want to kiss now, you won't be able to let me kiss you. But let's count today." Now, kissing your lips again will bleed. It is unlucky to celebrate Chinese New Year, continue next time." After speaking, she smiled.

Tao Qingfeng slammed open the door, thinking with thunder in his heart: What is kissing as soon as you want——Yan Dan's actions tonight completely subverted his gentle and gentle style in Tao Qingfeng's heart, tainted with a layer of obscurity Ambiguous color.Not only his appearance, but also his personality gave him all kinds of illusions about Yan Dansheng.

Weirdly, Tao Qingfeng didn't feel the sadness of losing his friend—maybe it wasn't lost, because he had seen Yan Tan's other side, understood him better, and even brought him closer to the embarrassing distance, and now he wanted to break free.

He has always been kind, respectful and appreciative of Yan Tan, but after witnessing this side of Yan Tan, Tao Qingfeng thought blankly that he doesn't hate him.He's not annoying at all.My emotions are only shyness and... the sadness and nostalgia caused by not being able to distinguish Yan Dan's life.There are still some doubts.

He didn't even dare to refute it back, because he subconsciously knew it was true.If he said: "That's not the case." Then Yan Tan could immediately push him against the wall to prove it for the second time... No, counting the time when he was drunk, maybe it should be counted as the third time.This is the fact that Tao Qingfeng can't bear: when Yan Dan got close to him, because of Yan Dansheng, he really couldn't resist moving.This is a very ridiculous thing.Yet it happened again and again.Could it be that Yan Tan was so sure about this, that he was so unscrupulous?Just now Yan Tan almost forcibly kissed someone who said he didn't like him, but didn't he feel that it violated the principles of a gentleman?

Tao Qingfeng thought in a daze: This is not like Mr. Yan...what the hell is...what's going on?

Yan Tan didn't know what was going on with him either. Looking at Tao Qingfeng's appearance, he suddenly thought of a vulgar Internet phrase that he had accidentally glimpsed in the Year of the Monkey: "Your mouth is so, your body is very honest." Thinking of Tao Qingfeng He likes Yan Dan, and he can see Yan Dan's perspective in his dream.Yan Dan does not have the sensitive reaction of ordinary people to "sorrow" about rivals in love.Never worrying about gain or loss, it is not fighting with others with all its strength, nor does it show the desire to monopolize.It's an incomparably weird... shared mentality.

Analogous cases can probably be found in biology, but those starting points are mostly for the reproduction of ethnic groups.And Yan Tan's actions are deeply rooted in the ancient genetic code, and are activated in the strange reincarnation dream... The existence that was included in the territory of the self in the previous life must be grasped without hesitation in this life... from the subconscious and instinctive. level.

Tao Qingfeng had already opened the door and took half a step back to go out.Yan Dan stood at the porch, with hot eyes and a smile on his lips, the lights of the corridor and the room projected on him, as if he was shining with grace, like a lonely and handsome young man who came out of a painting.Tao Qingfeng couldn't help but think of the first time he met Yan Dansheng, he was also standing in the shadow of the lantern in the bridge hole... I really don't want to admit my mistake, but how can I not.

Yan Tan stared at Tao Qingfeng's water-colored lips and confused eyes after being kissed, and kindly reminded: "You are still standing there, do you want me to go over and continue kissing?"

Tao Qingfeng's expression changed, he let go of the doorknob, quickly withdrew, and fled.Yan Dan's clear and joyful laughter came from behind him.

Regardless of what happened to Teacher Yan, Tao Qingfeng felt that he had a bigger problem.

During the New Year's Eve, Tao Qingfeng was in a state of confusion, so he took the initiative to go to the hospital, a place he had avoided before.

Whether it is a holiday or not, there are many people in the outpatient department of the hospital.The Spring Festival is also the peak period of the disease, and there are more people.Tao Qingfeng went to the emergency room and waited almost an hour for his turn.It was a young doctor who attended the consultation.On this kind of holiday, leaders like to arrange for newcomers who have not yet married to be on duty.

During the consultation, Tao Qingfeng took off the disguise and said hesitantly: "The problem is... I can't control my body, I don't know what's going on."

The young doctor looked very serious, and asked: "Do you have seizures often? Tell me in detail?" He was already imagining about paralysis, hemiplegia, or cerebral infarction.These diseases also sometimes occur among young people. For example, improper sitting posture causes spinal misalignment, which will affect the nerves.

This doctor hasn't seen the movie "Queen of Guining" yet, and he doesn't know Tao Qingfeng, but he couldn't help watching it a few more times, after all, handsome guys always wash their eyes.

Tao Qingfeng's face turned red, he opened his mouth, organized his words for a long time, and whispered, "When I'm kissed by someone, I just can't move my body. It happens every time, I really don't know..."

Halfway through Tao Qingfeng's speech, he heard the sound of the doctor sitting upright putting down his pen. When Tao Qingfeng finished speaking and looked up, he saw the doctor folded his arms, almost rolling his eyes at him.

Then the young doctor closed the medical record book, with a twisted smile on his face, but he felt like he was gnashing his teeth: "Little handsome guy, it's New Year's Eve, can you find some other entertainment?"

Seeing that the doctor didn't take it seriously, Tao Qingfeng was really flustered and anxious, and hurriedly said: "But I really don't know what to do, I really can't move... Can you check this, is there something wrong? There is something wrong, can I take medicine to cure it. I am really troubled."

The young doctor quickly typed a few words on the computer, turned on the printer, and said to Tao Qingfeng earnestly: "Little handsome guy, don't rely on your good looks, you can work hard when you are in a relationship, right? The young couple is having conflicts." , go to the movies, go shopping, buy a bunch of junk food and munch on it. Well, in view of professional ethics, I advise you not to eat too much, and everything will be fine after a night of sleep. I am still busy, and there are patients queuing up outside. "

Tao Qingfeng heard that the other party issued an order to evict the guest, so he had no choice but to leave the consultation room full of grievances and shame that were regarded as vexatious.Behind him, the doctor pasted the A4 paper that had just been printed and said "Dog walkers and those who spill dog food are not allowed" to the back of the door, and toward Tao Qingfeng's back, he showed the sad eyes of a single dog: New Year's Eve Yes, these "why not eat minced meat" guys have also come out and ran around. It's not easy to be a doctor.

Tao Qingfeng walked on the street in a daze, smiling wryly, so the "modern" "high-tech" hospital couldn't cure him, so he didn't treat this as a disease, but just nonsense.Tao Qingfeng thought perplexedly: It is impossible for one person to like two people in his heart.I like Yan Tansheng, but also regard Yan Tan as Yan Dansheng, and I can't refuse his love.Knowing the absurdity in his heart, he couldn't control his response.Sure enough...Yao Shi ignored it.