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"General, please let me go."

The tears were all wiped away by his skirt, if it wasn't for Xiao Suo's faintly red eyes at the moment, there really wouldn't be any traces of crying.

Once the stretched string is broken, it is difficult to continue.It's like climbing a mountain against the current, the body is exhausted to the extreme, and only with the breath in my heart can I barely persevere.

But if the breath is relieved, the steps on the feet stop, and I can't move anymore, and there is only one voice that lingers in my heart - give up.

Shen Yan is the climber who gave up halfway at the moment.Resisting not to see him, refraining to stand by and watching, refraining from enduring it is no longer difficult.But just now, the little truth revealed in his desperation immediately knocked him back to his original form.

He couldn't move anymore, couldn't help it.

"Come with me, I have something to say." Shen Yan glanced around and dragged him down the back mountain without any explanation.

The Yunqi Temple is already halfway up the mountain, and the Fuzhou Mountain is not too high. It is the foot of the mountain after turning two stone steps.Xiao Suo was grabbed by his wrist, unable to break free, "Let me go, what are you doing?"

Without saying a word, Shen Yan led him into a dense forest at the foot of the mountain.Xiao Suo followed him with one deep foot and one shallow foot, and his boots stepped on the fallen leaves, making a rustling sound.

It was early autumn, and the forest was even cooler.Xiao Suo went out at noon, taking advantage of the sunny and warm weather, he was dressed a bit thinly.Walking through the forest at this moment, the hairs on his body immediately stood up, and he shivered unknowingly.

Shen Yan didn't notice it, and pulled him up a stone-paved path, turned to look at him at the end of the walk, "I forgot!" He said, taking off his coat and putting it on with him.

Xiao Suo dodged subconsciously, but he couldn't dodge, so he had to wear his robe.It has Shen Yan's unique smell on it, and he can't tell what it is, like a quilt that has been dried in the sun, or like grass emerging from the drizzle.

Xiao Suo twisted his neck uncomfortably, but the smell was like pool water, enveloping him impermeably.He had no choice but to turn his attention to the mountain wall in front of him.

There are two wooden doors with copper nails on the wall, and the grand arched dome is embedded in the mountainside, polished so that it is not slippery, which shows the effort spent in construction.

Shen Yan took out the fire letter and ignited it, closed the heavy door with a "bang", and pulled him in together, not far away was a stone step, and after dozens of steps, there was another stone step.

Going all the way down like this, the more you walk, the colder you feel.When he got to the last floor, Xiao Suo saw two big iron gates in front of him, he couldn't help but raised his head and asked him: "Where is this?"

"It's an ice cellar." Shen Yan lit up a few candlesticks on both sides of the stone wall, looked around, and pulled him to sit down by the steps, "This is the largest ice cellar in the suburbs of Beijing. There are eight rooms in total, and ice is stored every year. There are hundreds of thousands of pieces of ice. All the ice in the capital in summer comes from here. Compared with the few cellars in the city, they can only be regarded as small cellars for temporary storage.”

Xiao Suo looked around and asked him: "What is the general bringing the students here for?"

Hearing his polite address, Shen Yan was very distressed, how did he treat him, so that the person who was obediently nestled in his arms and acted like a baby disappeared without a sound.Or he finally changed back to him, the serious and honest him in Zhuoyang.

"Your hand... Are you ready?" Shen Yan went to grab his fingers, wanting to see how his nails were growing.

Xiao Suo escaped without a trace.

Shen Yan's expression darkened, and he said: "There are so many eyes and ears outside, some things can't be said freely. This place is deep underground, only you and me. There will be no one to eavesdrop across the mountain walls."

Xiao Suo twitched the corner of his mouth, and said mockingly: "The general is too flattering to the students, how can anyone bother to inquire about me!"

Shen Yan was flabbergasted, but didn't dare to speak back.He felt ashamed and always felt sorry for him, so he could only accompany him carefully and said: "I know you blame me, and you should blame me, because I failed to protect you well. If I had known that this would be the result of coming to the capital, I would rather If I don't bring you here, it's fine to leave you in Zhuoyang in peace. I dare not ask you to forgive me now, but please don't give up on me and give me a chance to confess."

Xiao Suo's eyes turned red again, and he turned his face sideways and said: "We are not the same kind of people by nature, you have your way, and I have my way, and we shouldn't be forced to be together."

He considers himself to be poor and worthless, and cannot be compared to Shen Yan, an eminent general.But when Shen Yan heard these words, his taste changed again.He still remembered Eleven said that Xiao Suo had acquiesced when Li Fengcheng despised him.Hearing this now, I just think that he is like many Qingliu literati in the court, who hates himself for being illiterate, and is a martial artist who can only wield knives and guns.

But he doesn't care: "If only the same people can get together, what's the point?"

Xiao Suo looked down at his new moon-white nails, and asked in a low voice, "What is the general going to do?"

"I want you," Shen Yan grabbed his hand, "I want you!"

Didn't want me back then, wasn't it also you?

After all, Xiao Suo didn't ask, but seeing his gleaming eyes in the dark, with a somewhat wronged expression, he couldn't help sighing in his heart: "Let's just let him go! It's good to be a pastime for him when he's bored, or to comfort him when he's lonely, or that Human replacement is fine too. As long as you keep your sincerity and don't let him spoil it."

Can you help yourself?

"Okay." He said lightly.

In the past, it was because I was too involved, and I clearly thought that it doesn't matter if he doesn't like me, as long as I like him and stay with him.But in the dungeon of the Ministry of Justice, he really understood what "dislike" meant.

He won't be so stupid in the future: "The general wants me, call me anytime." There is no harm in being his attendant whenever he is called.At least, without sincerity, we are more comfortable with each other.

In the past, he had no sincerity, and he will not want such useless sincerity in the future!

Shen Yan's heart was clenched, and he hugged him boldly, kissed his fingertips, and asked tremblingly, "Does it still hurt?"

Xiao Suo shook his head, withdrew his hand and said, "It doesn't hurt, and it won't hurt again in the future."

"That's good." Without doubting him, Shen Yan reached out to rub his tailbone again, "Here, does it still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt anywhere," Xiao Suo chuckled with his head down, "even his heart doesn't hurt anymore."

Shen Yan hugged him on her lap, leaned down to kiss his round lips, bit the tip of his tongue and smacked lightly, and mumbled: "I won't let you hurt anymore!"

Xiao Suo was disheartened, he didn't even have the usual tweaking when he was in love, let him play with it at will, it was as soft as a pool of spring water.Shen Yan endured it for too long, and was rather anxious, thinking that he was the same as himself, because he thought so hard, and he didn't feel anything strange at all.Besides, facing him, I have always been unable to control myself, and now I wish I could drown in his breath.

Xiao Suo's clothes were quickly peeled off by him, and his delicate skin was exposed to the cold for a while, making him tremble all over.But it was so hot inside, as if it was about to melt into his arms.

Shen Yan hastily tore off the obstacles on his body, wrapped him in a warm embrace, followed the memories of the past with one hand, and slid past all the places that made him tremble with ease.Seeing red tides all over his body, broken moans coming out of his mouth, and eager breathing, Shen Yan's heart was filled beyond measure for a moment.

Xiao Suo felt his body lighten, and he had already entered.After such a long time, he didn't feel any pain at all.Sure enough, it was different, and even doing such things in the future would no longer hurt.

In a sense, people's sense of pain is connected with people's love, pain and love are joyful.But at this moment, he no longer has this feeling, or all his sorrows have been extinguished by his own cold blood.

When going back, Shen Yan hugged him all the way, as if he was really precious.Xiao Suo silently leaned against his chest, feeling as calm as a lake.No matter how the autumn wind blows, this pool of spring water will never wrinkle.

Xiao Suo said goodbye to him outside the forest, Shen Yan said: "What I told you just now, at least you don't forget. If you make a mistake, you will suffer."

Just now, he was nestled in Shen Yan's arms limply and masculine, with his disheveled head resting on his heart wearily, and asked him in his usual gentle voice: "Will you come to Gouwei Lane to find me in the future?"

Shen Yan paused for a moment, and said: "The emperor... forbids you and me to get close. I know you misunderstood me and blamed me for not being able to protect you at that time. But I really have nothing to do, the sacred will is hard to violate, in order not to let him take If you have a knife, I have no choice but to stay away from you."

In fact, he didn't know, Xiao Suo never complained about him.He just didn't expect that when the time of trouble came, he would abandon himself and go first.For example, he let Yan Jun come to persuade him to retreat despite difficulties, or he knew that he was taken away by the Ministry of punishment but did not do anything, or for example, he sacrificed himself in front of the emperor that day when the court rod.

Not to love is not to love, no matter how extravagant it is, it is a whitewashed peace after all.Because he doesn't love, when his official career is threatened, he can decisively abandon himself.Because he doesn't love, so the favor is almost lost, he can resolutely sacrifice himself.

Xiao Suo used to think that if he didn't love, at least he would stay by his side, day and night together, could it be that affection is really less than love?But he was wrong after all, not loving means you are not that special.Not loving means that you will be replaced at any time.

He can escort Yan Jun and ride his horse to open the way, but he can only sit beside him forever, existing as an accessory.This is the difference between love and not love. It seems that the difference is almost the same, but in fact it is separated by thousands of rivers and mountains.

Shen Yan didn't know about these twists and turns of misunderstandings, he was already thinking about the future, even thinking about the future if the emperor is in good health and doesn't let him go free, what should they do.

"I'll go to Gouwei Alley to find you. It's just that we can't meet there. I usually pretend to go to the Siqian Building opposite Gouwei Alley. Presumably the emperor is used to me going there. It's just right for you and me to meet there in the future. It can be deceiving."

He said to himself: "Just remember, don't show me a good face in front of people, you can be as disdainful as you can. I will pretend that I don't know you, don't get me wrong Me. Also, don’t tell anyone about this matter, if it gets into the ears of the emperor, saying that we are fooling him, you will suffer again. You must remember this point!”

Shen Yan instructed him so, Xiao Suo also complied one by one.