[Vampire Knight] Briar

[What is the difference between human beings and objects?Humans, objects and animals are all beings, but only humans can think that they and objects 'are'.A person who can understand the concept of 'existence' in contrast to a purely existing object is 'dasein'. 】

——Heidegger (Dasein)

Humans always think that the natural enemies of vampires are blood hunters or werewolves.

Actually they were all wrong.

The worst enemy of our species is ourselves.

For the purebloods, there are not many vampires who have been obliterated in time because of self-loathing.That number was much higher than the Level A that was hunted by blood hunters and werewolves.

For vampires, the most painful thing is the long time.

Day after day, endless loneliness.

Eternal life is the greatest and most sinful curse of our race.

In fact, whether it is LevelA, LevelB, or even LevelE, they can all eat human food.However, that did not curb our hunger.

Only blood can make us feel 'full'.

Bite the prey's veins or arteries, gushing out blood full of vitality.

From this point of view, I think we are like thieves spying on other people's "life".

Only by absorbing this freshness of life from human beings can we have the motivation to continue living.

Therefore, rather than saying that we are sucking human blood, it is better to say that we are sucking each other's emotions and lives.

That's what really 'satisfies' us.

"Good boy." Calamus gently stroked the hair on the back of my head, and gently closed my eyes while I was eating.

However, after just a couple of light nibbles, I started licking his neck to help him heal.

"Drink more," he told me.

"I'm full." I shook my head, moved away from his neck, but shrank my head back into his arms.

In fact, there are very few willful vampires like me, and even fewer people who are willing to accommodate me like Calamus.

When I was young, when I was still in Japan, I was just taught by the "old pedant" in the family that "boys and girls are different", and I was particularly resistant to serving me, taking care of me, and being male. calamus.

So, during that time, I pestered Calamus every day and asked him to conjure up a 'big sister' for me.

Iris was probably too troubled by me, so in order to coax me, she pretended to be a girl who had been there for a while.His hair has grown long since then, and even when I became sensible later, I never cut it short.

When I was young, Iris had a kind of indistinguishable beauty.

Because he hadn't grown an Adam's apple at that time, even in women's clothing, he didn't look awkward at all.

At that time, I especially liked to drag him around in a rococo court dance dress to attend banquets, and then show off to every peer I saw that I had such a 'sister' who took care of me.

Calamus will of course choose to cooperate with my actions.

Back then he pretended he couldn't speak, in case his boyish voice could easily expose my lies.

Even, my memory tells me that he once learned that kind of very virtuous, gentle, and toothless smile, which is the shy but shy smile that I would show when I dragged him in front of others as a "lady". The kind that responds to other people's compliments without pretentiousness.

He played my 'sister' so successfully that the young master of the Lantang family, the vampire of Level B, Lan Tangying, blushed at the first sight of Acorus, and felt that he was a 'girl' The calamus fell in love at first sight.

Even when Calamus returned to men's clothing, Lan Tangying still pestered him with all her heart, all her heart was preparing to curry favor with her future 'brother-in-law'.Little did he know that the person he was entangled with was his "little wife" whom he had "loved at first sight".

But Jiu Lanshu's expression made me proud for a long time.

When he saw Calamus standing behind me in men's attire, his face, which was usually full of old gods and deep melancholy, showed disbelief for the first time.

Although only for a moment.

But you also know that a monster like Jiu Lanshu who acts like he is five hundred years old when he is five years old, and his indifferent face that is out of place among a group of children and shows off for me on weekdays, can show a trace of such an expression, probably In my heart, the world is already falling apart and I doubt life.

It is not easy.

In fact, as a pure blood family, the Feiying family is far less powerful than the Jiulan family.

Otherwise, my aunt Fei Yingxian would not have to be confined to the Senate from birth because of her marriage contract with Jiulan's family, saying that she was cultivating feelings with her fiancé.

In comparison, I was relatively lucky.

Although I have never met my mother, and my father is only a symbol of estrangement, I have calamus.

He's been able to keep things involving me organized since I was a kid.Even when I just entered the teenage period when I could book a marriage contract, at my begging, he took me to Europe and lived a life completely different from the repressive, decadent, hierarchical Japanese Sakura head family.

Among the pure-blood families in Japan, only the Jiulan family and the Baiyu family have always been stronger.

The Huangli family is gentle but seems a little weak, they are 'peacemakers'; the Orange Mo family hides from the world, mysterious but also reduces their influence; The people in the family are a little irritable, cruel but not so tricky; while the people in the Feiying family are mostly paranoid lunatics.

"What's the matter, today?" Calamus lowered his head, licking away the remaining blood from the corner of my mouth. "Is there anything on your mind? If you don't want to go back to Japan, then don't go back. I will find a way to help you solve the marriage contract."

"But you can't disobey my father's order. It's not worth the loss if I take you in when the time comes." I said sullenly. "And I see that your face looks a little pale today, you should take a good rest, we will go back the day after tomorrow."

"It doesn't matter," Calamus's voice sounded above my head, tolerant and gentle, "I was just affected by the Judgment Circle left in the Milan Cathedral today, it doesn't matter."

"Ah," I hurriedly looked up at him, a little at a loss. "Is that so? I don't know." I whispered, feeling guilty. "Because I'm a Level A vampire, some magical circles won't work for me. You should tell me."

Calamus just smiled gently: "It's okay. But if we plan to go back the day after tomorrow, I have to start packing. Also, in that invitation letter, the Black Master Academy will start in two days. Arrive early It’s good to get acquainted with the environment. By the way, do you have anything you must bring back? Venetian masks? Verona embroidered scrolls? Genoese conch? We went back in a hurry, I’m afraid I missed something.”

"No, just leave these here. If I can, I plan to come back." I looked at Calamus's light green pupils at such a close distance. The light shone on his pupils, and his eyes were like a A green emerald with the charm of time. "It's just that I need to bring some small specialties from here, at least those Level Bs who played with me when I was young, and their gifts, each of them has to prepare a copy."

"Okay, master." He answered me.

"You should just call me by my first name. Such a title..." I couldn't help covering my face, "Lan Tangying and the others will probably die of laughter."

He was silent for a while, and then said: "... cool?"

"Actually, I wanted you to call me 'Maria'." Over the years, I have always called myself Red Maria.Calamus suddenly called me by my original name, which made me feel that this name was quite strange for a moment.

However, a fake is a fake.Even though I have stolen my cousin's name for so many years, in the end, I still have to return to my own identity.

"Forget it." I sighed, "Then let's dye my hair back too." I pulled a strand of my own hair and held it up to my eyes. They showed a light chestnut color in the light.

But I know that my original hair color is the same as that of the Fei Ying family, which is a sickly silvery white.Fortunately, my eyes follow my mother's, which is a kind of dark green that is close to black.Otherwise, with the long silver hair and the lavender eyes inherited from the Feiying family, she looks like a Mary Su walking around the world.