Cleanliness

No one mentioned anything about that night.

Regarding that dream, if Yu Qinghan had asked ten years earlier, everything would have been very different. It is a pity that she herself was too cowardly to face it until now, and she had already missed what should have been missed and what should not have been missed.

Unknowingly, Yu Qinghan has cooked porridge for Xiao Tong for ten years. When she was young, her ten fingers did not touch the spring water. Now she is middle-aged, but she has a good cooking skill, and the house is also neatly organized. I can't see any domineering youth.

Xiao Tong still has nightmares, the difference is that every time he wakes up and goes to the balcony to breathe, he can always see Yu Qinghan is already waiting.

Xiao Tong looked at Yu Qinghan, Yu Qinghan always smiled and asked her: "Have you had a nightmare again?"

Xiao Tong's cold sweat was still hanging on his forehead, and he nodded in shock.

Yu Qinghan asked again: "Can you tell me?"

The content of the dream is not always the same, so Xiao Tong sometimes tells her, sometimes not.

In fact, even if she told Yu Qinghan, she didn't have any good solutions.For example, sometimes, Xiao Tong's dream is that when he was a child, he was blocked on the road, and stones were stuffed into his mouth, knocking out two teeth, and blood flowed continuously.

Xiao Tong described it vividly, Yu Qinghan said with a bitter face, covering his cheeks: "That hurts so much."

"It hurts so much that I roll in bed at night, and I can't tell my grandma."

Yu Qinghan sighed, "It's not easy for you to grow up."

Then the next morning, when Chen Hui went to buy breakfast, she saw Yu Qinghan covering her cheeks with a frowning face. Chen Hui asked, "Sister Qinghan, what's wrong with you? Toothache?"

"Yes." Yu Qinghan said depressedly, "Don't talk to me, it's hard work."

"Didn't it be fine yesterday? Why did I suddenly have a toothache today? Could it be pulpitis? Should I go to the hospital?"

Yu Qinghan was in a bad mood, and his tone was not kind, "Don't go!"

So Chen Hui went back to the tailor shop next door, and chattered to Xiao Tong, "Yu Qinghan didn't know why, she clutched her cheek and complained of a toothache, as if everyone owed her [-] million."

Xiao Tong waved his fan and the old god was there, "Don't pay attention to her."

Yu Qinghan felt that she had experienced all the hardships that Xiao Tong experienced when she was a child, but the relationship between her and Xiao Tong was still not far or close.

The dreams that Xiao Tong told Yu Qinghan all happened a long time ago, and Yu Qinghan didn't even know Xiao Tong at that time.

Xiao Tong didn't talk about some nightmares, and Yu Qinghan didn't ask, but just casually mentioned: "I used to blame me for not asking, but now you don't tell me after I ask."

Yu Qinghan was not so careful with Xiao Tong anymore, if she complained like this, Yu Qinghan would never have dared to open her mouth before.

Xiao Tong said: "Some things are expired."

Xiao Tong's addiction to smoking came and went even more suddenly. At the beginning of spring, Chen Hui thought of it and said, "Master, have you quit smoking?" Then Xiao Tong remembered that he hadn't thought about smoking for a long time.

"Quit." Xiao Tong nodded.

"Master, you are amazing." Chen Hui gave her a thumbs up, "I see that people have quit smoking for decades and haven't quit. For you, quitting smoking is as easy as drinking water and eating. If you say smoke, you will smoke, and if you say quit, you will give up." Quit, it’s great, it’s amazing.”

Xiao Tong laughed and said, "Nonsense, why should I torture myself when I can torture others."

That smile sent chills down Chen Hui's spine, "Master, you laugh so creepily, don't scare me, who are you torturing?"

As soon as Chen Hui finished speaking, Yu Qinghan limped in with a pair of trousers, "Xiao Chen, mend my trousers."

Chen Hui was surprised, "Sister Qinghan, what's wrong with your leg?"

"It's nothing, my toenails hurt." Yu Qinghan put down his pants and left.

Chen Hui looked back at Xiao Tong, only to see that Xiao Tong was still smiling, and there was a bit of gloom in his smile.

Xiao Tong felt that he had a tendency to develop in the direction of psychopathy.

After the beginning of spring, Xiao Tong found that Chen Hui's mind was a little wandering. He often asked Xiao Tong for leave, and he always came back after ten o'clock in the evening. Xiao Tong was a little vigilant. Chen Hui sent it back, so that night Xiao Tong asked Chen Hui who the man was, and Chen Hui said he was her boyfriend.

Xiao Tong asked: "How did you know each other?"

Chen Hui faltered before saying that that person was her grandma's neighbor. Last year her grandma fell ill, and that person carried her grandma to the hospital. They became acquainted after going back and forth, and they just established a relationship recently.Xiao Tong asked him what he was doing again, and Chen Hui said that the man was a graduate student of Jiangyu University, and he was about to study for a Ph.D.

Xiao Tong asked Chen Hui to call the boy home for a meal. Xiao Tong felt that he was not good at seeing people, so he specially asked Yu Qinghan to come too, making Yu Qinghan so happy. After the meal, Xiao Tong just Ask Yu Qinghan what he thinks of that boy.

"How about what?" Yu Qinghan was puzzled.

"Character, how is character?"

"It's quite satisfactory, and I don't see any major problems."

"Will Chen Hui suffer from him?"

"I don't know that." Yu Qinghan laughed, "You mean, that person is Chen Hui's boyfriend?"

Xiao Tong said: "Yes."

"I don't know what happened to that man, but don't worry Chen Hui, she has a plan in her heart."

Xiao Tong didn't know if Chen Hui had any ideas in his heart, anyway, in the middle of the year, Chen Hui came to Xiao Tong to bid farewell, saying that he wanted to go to Jiang Yu, and Xiao Tong knew that Chen Hui probably sincerely wanted to live with that boy up.

Xiao Tong didn't keep her either, "It's a good thing to go out and venture, don't resist alone when you encounter problems, talk to Jing Xing more, and listen to her opinions more. If you can't get along with Jiang Yu, come back."

No matter what the reason is for Chen Hui, it is always a good thing to want to go out and make a living. Xiao Tong's own apprentice knows that she has that ability.No matter how bad it is, Jiang Yu still has Jing Xing and Mo Xiyuan, so Chen Hui can't suffer a big loss.

Chen Hui left with that doctoral student in September. She didn't feel it when she was there before, but as soon as she left, the tailor shop was deserted. Xiao Tong really felt uncomfortable for a while.

After Chen Hui left, no one bought breakfast for Xiao Tong, and Xiao Tong's breakfast was not good, it was basically what was in the refrigerator to eat, and then Yu Qinghan packed the breakfast every morning and delivered it directly to Xiao Tong's door go.

When sending it off on the first day, Xiao Tong said, "I don't want it."

Yu Qinghan said: "If you don't want me to knock on the door every day, besides, it's not free for you. I'll keep the bill for you earlier, and it's the same when Chen Hui bought it before. Don't you believe it? Just go to my shop and look through the ledger."

Xiao Tong thought about it, and it would be nice if someone delivered breakfast every day, so she accepted it. At the end of the month, it was the first day of the month, so she felt at ease.

Xiao Tong felt that the relationship between herself and Yu Qinghan was getting closer and closer, but her heart was like a pool of stagnant water, and there were no waves at all, so it didn't matter whether the relationship was far or near.

If people are selfish, they will live a happier life. If Xiao Tong goes back ten years, he must be so anxious that he can't eat or sleep because of the fact that he is hanging on Yu Qinghan so not far away. Having severed ties with Yu Qinghan, she definitely can't enjoy Yu Qinghan's care with peace of mind.But she was getting older and thick-skinned, so she didn't think it was a big deal.

I don’t know if the weather has changed. Xiao Tong has been suffering from back pain recently. Xiao Tong has always been afraid of going to the hospital. He thought that back pain was not a serious illness, so he endured it all the time. As a result, he passed out in the tailor’s shop one day. When I went in, I saw Xiao Tong lying on the side of the sewing machine clutching his waist, Yu Qinghan was so frightened that he almost lost his breath, his heartbeat almost stopped for several seconds, his fingers trembled when he took out his mobile phone and dialed 120, when the ambulance arrived For a moment, I didn't know which one to rescue.

The doctor performed a full body examination on Xiao Tong, and found that she had a tumor on her waist, which needed to be sliced ​​to find out whether it was malignant or benign. When Yu Qinghan heard this, she held Xiao Tong's hand, and two lines of tears came down at that time.

Seeing this, the doctor thought Xiao Tong was Yu Qinghan's biological sister, so he couldn't bear it, and comforted him: "Don't worry, the tumors at this location are generally benign, and basically won't recur after surgical resection."

But everything is related to Xiao Tong, Yu Qinghan can't help but think about the worst, what if it is vicious?What if it relapses?The more I thought about it, the more frightened I became, I couldn't stop crying, and the cup covering Xiao Tong's body was wet from crying.

Just when Xiao Tong woke up, seeing Yu Qinghan crying, he deliberately stabbed her with words, "I'm not dead, why are you crying?"

"Bah!" Yu Qinghan wiped away tears and angrily reprimanded, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

She hadn't spoken to Xiao Tong in this tone for many years, she raised her eyebrows, frightened Xiao Tong, and muttered for a long time, "Aren't you just kidding, why are you so fierce..."

Seeing Xiao Tong's aggrieved look, Yu Qinghan was very sad, but she couldn't help being amused by her, and said with a straight face: "You still have the nerve to say that you won't go for a regular physical examination, it's all right now , The doctor said that you have a tumor on your body, I don’t know whether it is malignant or benign, so let’s see what to do.”

"Tumor?" Xiao Tong was taken aback for another moment, and after touching the word several times, he laughed, "It's good, it's good."

"What's good? Not good! Very bad!"

Xiao Tong didn't take it seriously, "I've eaten enough, lived enough, and suffered enough in my life. It's Lord Yan who took pity on me and wanted to take me back to prevent me from suffering again. Isn't that good?"

"You have a good idea." Seeing her heartless appearance, Yu Qinghan gritted his teeth and said, "I won't let you go, even if Lord Hades comes to take you."

Xiao Tong glanced at her coldly, "Yu Qinghan, after 20 years, your nature really hasn't changed at all."

"Didn't you say that the country is easy to change and the nature is hard to change. You know what kind of virtue I am. Anyway, I can't change it in this life."

Xiao Tong thought that he didn't have a good life for a few days anyway, so he didn't bother to quarrel with her.Yu Qinghan has always been like this, unwilling to face reality.

The two made up a life-and-death scene here, but after a few days, the sliced ​​results came out, it was a benign tumor, and there was basically no possibility of recurrence after resection. Xiao Tong looked at Yu Qinghan and felt quite speechless.

Yu Qinghan didn't believe in the medical level of the county hospital, so she accompanied Xiao Tong back to Jiang Yu for surgery. Xiao Tong thought, since God forbids her to die, if she encounters someone with a poor level in the small hospital, something will happen during the operation. What's the problem, it's embarrassing enough to suffer a crime in vain if you don't die, so you agree to go back to Jiang Yu with Yu Qinghan for surgery.

On the day of the operation, Mo Xiyuan and Chen Hui arrived, and Xiao Tong fell unconscious after receiving the anesthesia. When he opened his eyes again, the operation was over, and there was nothing else, except that the incision felt like a fire after the anesthesia passed. The pain made Xiao Tong unable to sleep at night, and he stared at Yu Qinghan.

Xiao Tong thought hesitantly, this probably counts as a walk through the gate of hell.Thinking that she was lucky and fateful in this life, she walked through the gate of hell several times, and suddenly she came back alive, it was not easy, it was not easy.

Xiao Tong recovered well after the operation, and after he was discharged from the hospital, he rested in Mo's house for a period of time. When the incision healed, he and Yu Qinghan returned to Shangrong, but Yu Qinghan actually entered the house, and lived in Xiao Tong's house on the grounds of taking care of Xiao Tong , in the room where Chen Hui used to live.

"Yu Qinghan, don't push yourself too hard." Xiao Tong warned.

"You hate me for beating and scolding me casually, Xiao Tong, I can't watch you have an accident in front of me again, really, I'm old and my heart is not good."

"I didn't allow you to take care of me."

"It's my fault, I asked for it, you can treat me as a servant or nanny, okay?"

"I don't want such a disgusting nanny like you."

Going back ten years, Yu Qinghan's heart ached when he heard this, and now he has cultivated a diamond heart. Xiao Tong scolded her like this, but she was still smiling, "It's better to be disgusting than nothing, isn't it?" ?Otherwise, isn’t your illness still healed? How about you try it out for a month and return it if you’re not satisfied? "

Chen Hui was not there, Xiao Tong couldn't resist her alone, so he just led the wolf into the house.

On the first day Yu Qinghan moved in, Xiao Tong had nightmares.

In the dream, it was Yu Qinghan insisting that he be nice to her, sometimes Yu Qinghan abandoned her, and sometimes it was Yu Qinghan messing around with others when he was young, and Xiao Tong was so angry that he lifted the quilt and went to bed in the middle of the night. Kicking at the door of Yu Qinghan's room, "Yu Qinghan! You fucking bastard! Get lost!"

Yu Qinghan hadn't slept yet, so she went to open the door after Xiao Tong finished cursing. As soon as the door opened, Xiao Tong slapped her hard, knocking her into a daze.

"Having a nightmare again?" Yu Qinghan was slapped in vain, but she didn't get angry, but put a piece of clothes on Xiao Tong first, "dream about me?"

"Yu Qinghan, how can you be so dirty? You're not afraid of getting sick after sleeping with so many people, right? You live next door to me, and I feel sick."

Yu Qinghan knew what Xiao Tong dreamed about.

Yu Qinghan let Xiao Tong scold, and when she had finished scolding, she said: "But I am already like this, Xiao Tong, this has become an unchangeable fact."

Yu Qinghan avoided Xiao Tong's past, and also avoided her own past. Now that she thinks about it, after decades of avoiding, there must be a day when she faces it squarely.

Xiao Tong looked into her eyes and said: "Yu Qinghan, I can't get rid of you in this life, and I don't love you. As soon as I think of you by my side, I have to be wary of you hurting me again, Yu Qinghan , I have distorted it a long time ago, in this life we ​​can only torture each other to death."

"You don't need to torture each other, Xiao Tong, just torture me."

"But your existence itself is a kind of torture to me." Xiao Tong smiled, "Yu Qinghan, what do you think you are here? I won't love you, and I won't be grateful to you, because when I think of wanting Hugging or even kissing you makes me feel sick, I think that when you were with me, you were thinking of another person, and you have hugged and kissed countless strangers with your body."

Xiao Tong said: "Yu Qinghan, look, you are here, you can only endure this kind of me, selfish and vicious, and will only stab you with words until we can't stand each other. I love you I can't have any normal feelings anymore."

"Then let's wait until the moment when we can't stand each other." Yu Qinghan said, "Xiao Tong, anyway, you need an outlet to vent your emotions. Before that, you just need to use me as that outlet, okay? ?”

"Xiao Tong, don't you want to take revenge on me?"

Xiao Tong felt that Yu Qinghan was the one who needed to see a psychiatrist, and Yu Qinghan was already crazy.

The author has something to say: I thought this chapter could be finished, but it turned out that it couldn't be finished...then let's finish the next chapter...