Red Heart Survey

   letter to you

  This is a letter to you. I originally planned to write it again when I went into the boutique with my heart and soul.

  But by coincidence, today I saw another question of sincere evaluation in Zhihu, so I wrote this letter in advance.

   Forgive me for not having time to rephrase the text, and only bring the original text that I answered in Zhihu. Because I don’t write novels anymore, the day after tomorrow’s updates will be dangerous...

  But please believe, my true feelings.

  ————

  The question is [One year has passed, how to fairly evaluate the work "Surrounding the Sky". 】

  My answer, the full text is as follows:

  Thank you for your concern and love for me.

  But I didn’t want to answer this question. There are three reasons.

  As a result, I really can’t evaluate my work objectively. I prefer every word I write. My evaluation of my work does not have any objective value. What I really want to say is the sentence from a year ago-[The only thing I can be sure of is that I will type every word with my heart, and I am not sure whether they will be loved. I can be sure of my efforts, but I cannot be sure of my gains. 】

   Until now, I still can’t be sure whether it will be loved by more people, and I can’t be sure of my harvest.

  But I think, I have spent a year, 1.8 million words, to prove my intention and hard work.

  Secondly, I am afraid of such problems. Needless to say, I am really scared. When I was invited to answer the question about sky survey a year ago, the novel had just written five chapters at that time, and the three answers to the question were all blows.

  I was very guilty. I quickly put down the novel and wrote an article in fear, but I didn’t expect that after the article was sent out, I discovered that when I was writing the article, there was already a lot of criticism.

  I am deeply impressed with [This novel can be signed as I lose] [This is the level of my son's elementary school. 】【Only fancy writing, no story at all】, and taught me to use punctuation one by one.

  I have been writing for some years. To be honest, I have never accepted such "criticism". I am very uncomfortable and very painful. This kind of pain lasted for a long time, and I couldn't sleep for a while, just thinking, am I really that bad? Are the praises and recognitions I have received fake?

  I always firmly believe in myself, but that painful experience is also true.

  Three times, I write very slowly. Readers who are chasing the red heart know that the most commented chapters are always "very short"... When I wrote about the entity before, I basically wrote it only when I had feelings. It may only be written three or four days a week, two thousand words a day.

   After writing the Red Heart Survey, it started with two shifts from Monday to Friday, and single shifts on weekends. Later, it gradually became two shifts and four thousand words a day. Although it is also at the bottom of the net author, I actually feel that I am already extremely squeezing my energy.

  Why writing is so slow, I can explain to readers here.

  I usually have to enter that situation when I write, and I have to put myself in that emotion to be able to write the plot more fluently. I usually have to sit in front of the computer for more than half an hour, and go through various plots in my mind until I find the most suitable one. After writing a paragraph, there will be a feeling of being hollowed out.

  Secondly, I have literal obsessive-compulsive disorder. Not only can I not read typos, but readers with a heart of surveying the sky may find it. Basically, the same word does not appear in my two adjacent sentences. This is a sequelae of writing poems, I think this will affect the sense of language. The last sentence is used, and the next sentence must be different words.

  I often struggle with a name for a long time, people and places, always want to fit the situation.

  I also have my own paranoid requirements. In the world of Red Heart Survey, not only each country and each sect has different systems, different national conditions and politics. In this book, even each city is different. I will compile their history, customs, Special snacks, even if you don’t need them sometimes. The reason for writing this way is because in the real world, every city is different.

  Because of these broken habits, I write very slowly.

  The time to write an article can be enough for me to refine a chapter of the novel. (My daily writing is to write two chapters and refine the two chapters the day before yesterday.)

  Hundreds of thousands of followers I know, should also be aware that in the year of writing Red Heart Survey, I almost completely withdrew from Zhihu. Sometimes I want to write something, but when I think about it, I haven't finished my novel yet. You can only close the knowledge in a dingy way.

  Because of the above three reasons, I have already ignored the invitation to this question.

  But after seeing @公孙珣's answer, I think I should write something.

  Gongsun Xun is my knowing concern, because I like his "Fuhan" very much, with a rare heroic spirit.

   Going back to the question itself, how to fairly evaluate "Red Heart Survey"?

  I think the evaluation I can make is——

  It is a work devoted to my great efforts. It is an account of my own fairy dream. It has witnessed my strength and fragility, making me softer and stronger.

  As for how this work is, I think it can only be handed over to the time.

  Will come back ten years later.

  And what I want to say is that since I wrote about the sky with my heart, I didn’t understand the rules of online literature at the beginning, and I didn’t know how to get the new book issue. It was on the streaking shelf, the only big recommendation so far, and it was limited to one million words. At that time, it happened to be free for the whole site...

  Except for a reader who is the leader of a love elder brother to help me with love sui py, I don’t have any other pys. Readers keep saying that Ashi, you go to py, good books need to be promoted, but I am really socially incompetent.

  The only thing I am good at and passionate about is writing.

  It can be ordered step by step from 60 to the present, there are six leaders (two of which rewarded three alliances), and the monthly pass can finally linger at the starting point of 200.

  I am most grateful to my readers.

  I will never forget. Amidst the scolding, I rewarded Ulay, the first leader, who made me strengthen my confidence in myself.

  I want to thank the leader Huahua, as a female video author, who buys a house on his own with the contribution fee, for giving me a lot of advice on the Internet.

  I want to thank Chen Zeqing for following my heart-heartedness during the entire study period in the United States. Once asked me if 10,000 plus one is more acceptable, I didn't dare to respond, I really couldn't increase it.

  I want to thank Chai Chai, he has a bad temper, but he can listen to reason. I rewarded the leader, and brought me Manxi.

  I want to thank Man Xi, the plot is lively dictionary, every time the reader has any setting or plot that he doesn’t remember, he can blurt it out. I have to read some settings myself...Thanks to Man Xi for giving the most energy to the book Red Heart Survey.

  Except for his girlfriend, it's me.

  I want to thank Camellia. Camellia is the reader who followed me when I wrote a short story. It's not a year or two, but the entire university time. I built a building to seek alliance after it was put on the shelves. I didn't expect to be so uncomfortable with my heart... It took so long to build a thousand buildings.

  Writing here, I seem to have completely deviated from the original question.

  But it doesn’t seem to be. A fair evaluation is the book of Red Heart Surveying the Sky. It is only my insistence and it is difficult to write it up to now. It is the support and love of so many readers that make me firm.

  I still remember that a reader gave me a tip.

  He said I’m sorry, he has no money, and the book is very good, but he can only give a reward of five yuan.

  He ate four yuan of rice, but gave me five yuan as a reward.

  (There are screenshots here, which should be available in the boutique posts in the book review area.)

  I saw that book review at the time and my eyes were sore.

  I told my mother, how much he loves this book, how can I stop writing it?

  How can I stop writing?

I want to thank too many people, the readers who have followed the online articles from the entity, the readers who silently vote for me every day, the readers who praise me every day, and the readers who earnestly help me recommend this book to my friends... …

  I remembered again.

  It wasn’t long since I was serializing myself. I lost my hair, was anxious, couldn't sleep all night, and I was suffering.

  Some readers said, Come on, Ah Shi, one day he will step on those sunspots under his feet.

  A few days ago, some readers said this again.

  But my answer has not changed.

  I said, I wrote Red Heart Survey, not to defeat someone, not to prove it to someone.

  At first, I just wanted to write a complete and unfettered long story, writing a real world in my mind, as I said in the introduction, this is the world of Xianxia, ​​you are welcome to come.

  I still do.

  I don’t want to knock anyone down.

  Resentment cannot make me go further.

  It is the love you give me that supports me from the beginning to the present, and will continue to move into the future.

Thanks again.

  [Update unchanged at night]

  (End of this chapter)