If Kosaka Kyosuke Had a Saber Face

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Confession has two meanings

392 Confession ([-])

Afternoon classes are always so drowsy.

The season is the junction of summer and autumn, but in the afternoon, the temperature is as high as midsummer. The sultry air creates a hypnotic atmosphere, and the one who is chanting the hypnotic spell is of course the bald man holding the lesson plan on the podium teacher.

Xiao Jing, a classmate at the next table, was sleeping, but the teacher didn't bother with him, probably because the teacher was too sleepy and couldn't get enough energy to do it.

After all, this is the last few classes of this semester, and it is normal for everyone to be unmotivated.

except me.

Ever since I was picked up by my manager a year ago, I have been full of energy, not because I am a person with high energy and high ambitions. Orange, motivated just because it has to be motivated.Only by grasping every minute and every second can we get a relatively good situation like now, I mean career.

There are clear divisions in the classroom, and the difference in each student's performance can be seen just by looking at the performance at this time.Those who still insist on listening to the teacher's chanting at this time must have done well in the final exam, while those who are about to be reflected into salty fish by the scorching sun outside the window, their final grades may not be certain.This is a report card that is more real than a report card.

I used to be one of those students who were paying attention, but now that I'm here thinking about it, it's enough to show that I'm not anymore.This is not degeneration, I call this progress.

Concentrating on listening does not mean seizing every minute and every second. In many cases, being meticulous in class is just a fool's self-satisfaction.

For example, at this time, the teacher who had already started to breathe out talked back and forth for half a class, and I understood it after flipping through the textbook, and memorized it after reading it twice.It's not because I have a superhuman IQ, it's just that he has covered this in half of the class.

What can be learned in a few minutes by turning over the textbook by yourself, but it takes 10 minutes to concentrate on listening to the lecture. Wouldn't the ten minutes that are the difference between the two be wasted in vain?

So after learning this from the textbook, I was probably confused, and after the teacher who insisted on talking about some new knowledge before the holiday, I took the time to think about some other issues.

Of course it's about Xiaojing.

During this period of time, Xiao Jing still maintains the view that my agent and I are boyfriend and girlfriend. When I take the initiative to talk to him, I can reveal his cognition in just a few words.But now, I actually want to understand, what I need to worry about is not the fact that Xiaojing thinks I have a boyfriend.

Because I have a simple and effective way to prove that my agent can't be my boyfriend.

And the crux of the problem is that even if I successfully prove that I didn't have a boyfriend at all, it doesn't make sense, because Xiaojing's attitude towards me changed before I said my manager was my boyfriend. of.

So I had to find out the real reason why Xiaojing changed his attitude towards me.

On the first day when I came to this school, after class, Xiao Jing and I talked a lot in the small garden. Although I think about the process now, there will still be an uncontrollable sadness pouring out of my heart. But now that I think about it, I actually got some information from it.

Thinking that I was afraid that he would tell me that my manager and I were boyfriend and girlfriend, Xiaojing said that my manager and I were not boyfriend and girlfriend. Xiao Jing said that day, "I will not be angry because of your sudden departure a year ago. Any vindictive mentality that arises."

At that time, I was too emotional to think calmly, and then I was afraid of sadness overflowing my eyes, so I deliberately didn't think about what happened that day, but now, if I hold the corner of my skirt and think hard, this sentence is really not normal.

The reason why Xiao Jing explained to me that he would not have a vengeful mentality must be because he thought I thought he would have a vengeful mentality, that is to say, he thought it was reasonable to have a vengeful mentality based on what happened to him, so He will feel that I have such a reasonable judgment.

But the question is, why does Xiao Jing feel that even if his experience produces a mentality of revenge, it is reasonable and reasonable?What happened to him was just my sudden departure, right?

I really like Xiao Jing all the time, yes, I want to be boyfriend and girlfriend with him, I want to marry him, and have children, but in fact, he and I are just childhood friends after all.

As a friend, it's really not good to leave without saying a word, but it's not to the point of needing revenge, right?

And according to my observation, for Xiao Jing, I didn't feel that he paid special attention to me.I have always been the one who rushed to find him, took the initiative to ask him to help her review, took the initiative to ask him to go to school together, and took the initiative to invite him to my house to play, but he never took the initiative to come with me.

So I always feel that Xiao Jing is probably just used to me. He doesn’t have any special and strong feelings for me, just because I have been chasing him to let him get used to my existence. I disappeared, and he probably wouldn't be very sad, because that's how he always behaved.

If he valued me as much as I value him, he wouldn't be so passive when I was with him.After school, on weekends, at home, when alone, he will always miss me, right?But why in my impression, before I left him, he almost never came to me on his own initiative?This shows that he has never thought about me, which is why I have been chasing him.

Because of Xiao Jing's passive behavior of ignoring me all the time, I came to the judgment that he didn't value me, and ran away from him.

I don't think my sudden departure will cause much stimulation or blow to him, but I just hope that after losing him, he will understand how good I am to him.It would be great if you could value me more after I come back.

However, before I left, at any rate, they were friends with no scruples about each other, but now, I feel the wave-like rejection from him all the time.

If it was because of the long-term distance that the relationship faded, even though I didn't want it, I can understand it now, but what caused him to have this abnormal rejection of me?Let him feel that even if he feels revenge on me, it is reasonable?

Is it simply because of the departure of the person who maintained the friendship with me unilaterally?I don't think so.

Then there must be other factors.

I guess it has something to do with his parents suddenly becoming more indifferent to him when I left a year ago.

So I think it is necessary for me to find a way to go to the place where he lives now on the last day before the holiday, meet his uncle and aunt, and understand the situation.

I bit the lip flesh inside the corner of my mouth, feeling some pain, and let go of the crumpled skirt corner.

Author's message:

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various situations

After that, the specific time is uncertain, and it is very likely that it will not be updated for a few days.

The chapter you are seeing now is the second edition. There is a paragraph that is not clear, so it has been revised.

In fact, I want to explain that Kyousuke also has problems.If you like it, just show it.

393 Confession ([-])

The next few classes were as usual, neither too fast nor too slow.

But this is just for me. During the break, I can always hear some students say, "This class goes by so fast, it's over in a blink of an eye. Is it because the holiday is coming soon? So Do you feel that the last few classes are not difficult?".

But there are also students who hold the opposite opinion, such as "I feel that time passes so slowly. I can't wait to go home and play games, but there are still so many classes.".

It is quite common that cognitive changes are caused by differences in heart and attitude. Even I have the illusion that the 10 minutes between classes is not much different from the 10 minutes in class.