My Best Wife

However, just like what Fang Zhiqiang said just now, what can be seen on the surface is really the truth? What does the truth look like? At this moment, Liu Jiaying has no time to think, she only knows that Fang Zhiqiang at this moment has more weight in her heart.

Fang Zhiqiang was also staring straight at the woman in front of him. The impression she had given to herself in the past was often tough, domineering, and even vicious. However, the more contact with her, Fang Zhiqiang found his previous impressions. The lighter, it seems that I don’t have that kind of thought for her now, and even a little more sympathy, sympathy for the toughness this woman used to disguise, but when she strips off these tough appearances, in fact, her heart is weak. , A soul lacking love, but for so long, she has never got what she really wants. She wants someone who knows how to cherish her, and someone who is willing to care for her and take care of her, but obviously , She didn't seem to have met such a person.

Moreover, looking at the way Liu Jiaying couldn’t stop nodding just now, Fang Zhiqiang also knew that to her, other people’s opinions were not important at all. She just wanted to live like herself, just to make herself happy. But just such a simple ideal is always difficult to achieve. This makes Fang Zhiqiang unable to help but think of himself. When facing feelings, he used to be so vacillating. He wanted to listen to his inner voice, but always I can't find what I want.

After so long, now I can finally know exactly what I want, but I find that there is no longer the same person by my side. At that time, Li Xiaoxiao, who always adhered to him, and that always The mature, stable and rational Wang Yaxin, now looking back, they have all disappeared in the vast sea of ​​people. If it were not for Xiaoyu this time, Fang Zhiqiang would not know if there was any renewed dialogue between himself and Wang Yaxin. It is possible, and even if it is because of Xiaoyu that the lives of the two people once again have a point of intersection, Fang Zhiqiang knows in his heart that the two people who cannot get together, no matter how hard they work, no matter how good the opportunity God arranges for them, they After all, it is still impossible to come together.

This caused Fang Zhiqiang to be in a daze. Life is a drama without rehearsal. No one knows what will happen until the next moment. But this is also the charm of life.

If a person can foresee his life and guess his end, then TA’s life will have no meaning, just like a movie. Perhaps the first time you watch it, you will feel novel and exciting. , But when you watch it the second time, you will lose the original taste. When you watch it the third and fourth times, you will feel bland and no more feeling.

Just like an unknown life, from the moment of birth, it is destined to be a lonely and long journey. No one knows what kind of people they will meet in their lives, what they will experience, and what their ending will be. , When the last moment comes, everyone's life is a mystery.

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During the period when Li Xiaoxiao was in Tibet, he actually established a strong relationship with the local Tuye people. After a long time of getting along, Li Xiaoxiao felt that they were full of truth, kindness and beauty, and the people in his big city It’s not the same. Although people in big cities look more glamorous on the outside, they can even be described as “human-like dogs”, but in fact, everyone wears them from the moment they open their eyes every morning. With their own mask, when facing any person, people often show their hypocrisy, even the words they say and the things they do, as if not much of them are sincere.

However, the local Tuye people are just the opposite. They will show their true feelings on their faces, and as long as they feel a little unhappy, they will immediately show it, whether it is the person closest to them. , Or enemy, they will not hide their true inner thoughts, it seems to them, this is a human, this is the life they should have.

Li Xiaoxiao discussed this matter with the patriarch. At that time, the patriarch gave Li Xiaoxiao’s answer: “In fact, for us, we have been cut off from the outside world. I have seen the outside world. It’s really terrible. Now, if we leave this group of people outside, none of us can survive. Therefore, we can only maintain our original way of life here. Only in this way can we gain our place in this world. It’s not a long-term solution, just like you accidentally broke into our territory. If more people discover our place in the future, then maybe our last piece of pure land , Can't keep it anymore."

After the patriarch’s conversation, Li Xiaoxiao discovered that among the entire Tuye tribe, the patriarch is the most concerned person, and he is also the only one who has seen the outside world. On the surface, he only He is just an ordinary patriarch, and what he has to do every day is to lead his clan, go out hunting, and then bring back the obtained prey to support his family and clan.

At that time, after the patriarch told Li Xiaoxiao about this in sign language, Li Xiaoxiao couldn’t help but become more curious about the patriarch. After that, she had a more in-depth exchange with the patriarch. Li Xiaoxiao discovered that the patriarch had actually I have also struggled with it. If you choose to stay, then your descendants, ancestors and ancestors will be the kind of indigenous people who seem to know nothing for generations. They will never see the outside world, let alone know that there is still more to life. There are many possibilities, which is obviously a loss for them.

But the patriarch thinks more about the future of the entire ethnic group and the current security issues, including his wife.

At that time, if you choose to go out and integrate into this society today, it is obviously a very new and exciting thing for the entire ethnic group. They will definitely be excited by seeing something they have never seen before, but the patriarch is very excited. Sober, it is only a momentary excitement. When their lives return to plainness, they will find that they are incompatible with this world. At that time, even the basic food and clothing problems cannot be solved.

Of course, the patriarch’s knowledge of the outside world is also very limited. Li Xiaoxiao immediately began to refute him after hearing his statement at the time: "Patriarch, although the outside world is very different from yours, it is not what you imagined. So bad, I believe that if you choose to go out, you will definitely be able to get the help of many people. They will provide you with the food and even all the daily necessities you need in life. You will surely survive smoothly."

But before Li Xiaoxiao had finished speaking at the time, the patriarch waved his hand and said: "I know this, but do you think, if it really becomes like that, what is the difference with the walking dead?"

The words of the patriarch made Li Xiaoxiao stunned again, and she realized once again that her understanding of the patriarch was only at a very shallow level.

"Maybe our current life is not the best, but each of us is flesh and blood. As you can see, none of us will hide our emotions in our hearts, and all of us will be revealed on our faces. Don’t you think this is the most real thing?"

"Actually, when I talked about it, I also had my own selfishness. At that time, my wife was about to give birth, and I was also shaken. I also wanted my children to see the outside world from the moment they were born and be able to become like the outside world. People, but I thought about it later, if that were the case, my wife would lose the feeling of being a mother. She could no longer give her children the help she deserves, nor could she feel the children’s admiration for herself. And love, because the child will start to resist or even hate his native family because of exposure to the outside world and learning about the outside world. I don’t care, because I know clearly that all I do is to be able to change Child, but for my wife, it’s completely different. She gave birth to this child so hard, but in the end she became an outsider, as if she had nothing to do with herself. For a woman , Obviously a huge blow, and I don’t want my wife to suffer such a blow.”

The patriarch’s statement completely shocked Li Xiaoxiao’s soul, because Li Xiaoxiao could feel that the patriarch and his wife were not very affectionate, even in front of the patriarch, the wife was a bit conspiring, but At that time, after listening to what the patriarch had said, Li Xiaoxiao realized that the appearances she had seen had deceived herself again, and once again let herself pass the truth.

"Hehe, maybe you are very confused now? You don't think I usually have much affection with my wife, right?" The patriarch at that time also noticed Li Xiaoxiao's emotions, so before Li Xiaoxiao could speak, the patriarch took the initiative Continue to say, “Actually, I did this deliberately. This is the tradition of our ethnic group. Men play a dominant role in life, while women are only responsible for taking care of their own men and children. If I let my wife experience When it comes to that distinctive treatment, the entire ethnic group will compete to imitate. At that time, it is not only the status relationship between men and women, but also the ethical issues of the entire ethnic group and the change of lifestyle. The most important thing is Yes, my wife will become the object of all women’s jealousy and even hatred. They themselves are not treated so well, but only my wife is the only one who will naturally not be balanced in their hearts, and I don’t want to do it for me. The wife brings that kind of trouble."

"So, have you ever told your wife about this matter?" Li Xiaoxiao was still confused. She felt that the patriarch had a lot of her own little secrets in her heart, as if he had never shared it with anyone. And such a patriarch should be very tired too? Because no one can understand his inner difficulties and thoughts, he can only spend his time by himself.

"No." The patriarch waved his hand extremely firmly at the time, and his behavior immediately made Li Xiaoxiao even more puzzled. Since he loves his wife so much in his heart, why not let his wife know? Why are you hiding from your wife?

The patriarch continued to say: "A person has become accustomed to the original way of life, he will not feel that there is any problem, but if one day, when he sees a better way of life, he will have expectations and Yearning, but this expectation is still unable to be met, then he will begin to lose and even suffer."

The expression of the patriarch, as if directly hitting Li Xiaoxiao's heart, made her heart tremble violently. She couldn't help but think of her previous days. Isn't it just like the patriarch said?

It seems that in my relationship with Fang Zhiqiang, I have always only known to ask the other party for what he can give, or even what he can’t give, and all this is just because I always have full expectations. I hope that I can have a happier life, and that my husband can give myself a sweet love and a happy life.

But at the beginning, I had never thought about what I gave to the other party in that relationship?

Just like the patriarch, he knows everything in his heart, but he still loves his wife in his own way, and strives to create the best living environment for his wife, and takes care of all her feelings, but what about himself? At that time, did I only know complaints and dissatisfaction every day? Interfere with the other's life, affect the other's choices, challenge his patience and bottom line over and over again...

After thinking about this at the time, Li Xiaoxiao's eyes immediately became wet, but she realized that she had lost the man who always cherished herself now, and no one would ever want to wipe away the tears that flowed down for herself. So, she didn't let the tears flow in the end, but she couldn't stop the bleeding in her heart.

She realized:

The most regrettable thing in a person's life is not to miss the person he loves most, but to miss the person who wants to be nice to himself most.

Perhaps for Li Xiaoxiao, her life has been lucky. She was born with a golden key. Even if part of her childhood life was missing from her parents' love, she never worried about her life.

After I grew up, before I had formed a mature view of feelings, I met the man who cherished himself. No matter how self-willed he was, he would never leave himself. For so long, he has been caring for him. Although he still keeps his original appearance unchanged, he never thought that, in fact, maybe he is the one who needs to change.

It's just that when I realize all this and want to find myself in a long way, everything is already too late.