Siheyuan: A Cook in the 60s

I didn't rush into the attack.

Instead, gather intelligence first.

Although the drama has already described their personalities and general past.

But it is better to have no books than to believe in them blindly.

Some things still need to be investigated.

It just so happened that Xu Damao asked me to go to his house and cook a meal for him.

I agreed happily.

Sure enough, Lou Xiao'e is a very lonely woman.

Actually, it’s normal when you think about it.

The way Lou Xiao'e was brought up is the same way big families in later generations would bring up their children.

In this era, there is no place to display your talents and you can only hold it in.

It would be nice if you could meet someone who understands you and with whom you can have a chat.

Meet Xu Damao...

That's like talking to a cow. It would be strange if you weren't depressed.

This also seems to be an opportunity.

Many people think that dating two people at the same time is a foolish act. If you are found out, you will be in big trouble.

In fact, when the relationship has not yet been confirmed, having two people at the same time can actually promote the relationship. Of course, the degree must be struck well.

When Lou Xiao'e saw the sachet I gave to Qin Huairu, she was really defeated.

Once a person's defense is broken, it is easy for them to do things that they would not normally do.

And Qin Huairu's defense was also broken.

It was because of the breach in defense that I had the opportunity.

Of course, getting married is impossible. Neither Lou Xiao'e nor Qin Huairu are suitable.

Behind Lou Xiao'e is the Lou family.

Qin Huairu has the Jia family behind her.

They know it very well themselves.

So, Qin Huairu pulled Qin Jingru up, and I didn't even need to say anything, I just went along with it.

Qin Jingru is the kind of cute, silly type that makes people want to tease her. The silly girl was fooled by me and took the bait.

To me, marriage is important, but not that important.

In this era, you have to get married. If you don’t get married, you will be an outlier.

So, I planned from the beginning to marry a woman who would not control me too much, so that when the time comes, I can do what I need to do without any delay.

But in the process, I gradually felt something was wrong.

What are Lou Xiao'e, Qin Huairu and Qin Jingru to me?

At first, I was after them.

Later, when I saw Qin Jingru and Qin Huairu whose eyes were full of me, for some reason, I felt a little guilty.

This reminds me of my first love, the age when I was willing to give everything for love.

There was something like that in Lou Xiao'e's eyes, but it was covered up by her unyielding character. She seemed to see my guilty conscience and attacked me fiercely.

Have to admit.

This woman is really good at attacking people's hearts.

Sometimes, there are things that you have to admit, even if you don't want to. You can't deny it.

I like them.

As time goes by, liking someone turns into love.

Love is something, well, it's very complicated.

But there is a prerequisite for love, that is, it must be mutual.

If both parties are unequal, it is not love.

Lou Xiao'e told me that you will get retribution for being so greedy.

At first, I didn't take it seriously. Retribution? Am I afraid of retribution? You probably don't know how I died in my previous life.

Later, I realized that this retribution was much more painful than "three cuts and six holes".

How does it feel to have a woman tied to you wholeheartedly?

I feel it.

Sometimes, you have to admit that conscience is really not a good thing.

Of course, I'm not a good person either, but I do have some conscience.

I dare not mess around with other women anymore.

Some people say that you have to pay for what you have done.

When I realized I had to take responsibility, I realized what a mess it was.

The first to be affected was Lou Xiaoe.

This woman is too smart. After she went to Hong Kong, I guess she would not easily accept an ordinary cook after she comes back. Even if she accepts, she will gradually drift away from him.

Actually, if you want to say it, I can also just give up.

This way, when I come back, I’ll have one less thing to do.

But after thinking about it, I still don't want to let go.

Okay, let’s do it.

After she left, I started thinking about what I would do after opening up.

Qin Huairu is fine. As long as she can eat her fill, she is actually a very ordinary woman. There is no romance in her affairs, just ordinary and plain things. She will be very satisfied if you walk around with her.

As for Qin Jingru, Qin Xiaozhu was silly and cheerful, and didn't cause any trouble.

It is because she didn't do so many weird things that I understand the meaning of the phrase "Damn it".

Life.

Always live in a noisy manner.

Sometimes I wonder.

How did I become what I am now, wanting to take everything on my own shoulders?

After thinking about it later, I understood that it’s not about wanting to take everything on myself, but whether it’s worth it.

In the previous life, most of the “worthiness” was based on “benefits”, so there was no such thing as “worth it or not”. After graduation, wherever I look, all I see is the word “benefits”.

My thinking is also gradually changing from belief to the shape of "interest".

People are always like this. After being hurt a few times, they feel that the whole world owes them and become indifferent from then on. However, those who still have hope are the brave ones.

I'm not a hero, I'm just an ordinary person.

It is only such an ordinary person who will feel the heavy pressure when bearing three kinds of "love".

With pressure comes motivation.

These days are quite enjoyable.

Actually I know.

In addition to Qin Jingru, Qin Huairu and Lou Xiao'e also had things hidden in their hearts.

Lou Xiao'e was a proud woman who was not willing to share with others, but she was probably embarrassed because she was already married. In addition, Qin Jingru was cute, which suited her taste.

I didn't point this out. For some things, it's useless to rely on others, you have to rely on yourself. She is so smart, she can understand it herself.

As for Qin Huairu's problem, I also understand it.

But I can't solve it.

Life is always like this. It is painful to not get what you want, but I am here, so why should she suffer? When she is suffering, just persuade her, and it will be fine once she is no longer suffering.

What else can you do about things that can't be solved except keeping them deep in your heart?

Every adult has experienced this feeling of powerlessness.

Just bury it.

After the reform and opening up, my career has improved a little.

I got myself a talisman.

During those ten years, I would pick up old men and women whenever I had nothing to do. To be honest, I didn't have much utilitarianism in this matter. Only in this era did I understand what cruelty was.