After rebirth, my wife just wants to be a widow

After drinking a bowl of hangover soup, Shen Ruoyan seemed to wake up a little and looked at Lu Yan with complicated eyes.

Under the clear moonlight, Lu Yan's stern brows were filled with emotions she couldn't understand.

The person in front of her had been entangled with her for two lifetimes. She thought that this time the two of them could finally achieve consummation. However, no matter how passionate the relationship was, it was eventually lost to time.

After a while, Shen Ruoyan pushed Lu Yan away and whispered again: "Don't be so nice to me."

Stop being nice to her.

Stop giving her hope.

Shen Ruoyan was already ready to give up on this relationship.

Now that the relationship has faded, she doesn't want to force it. From now on, she and Lu Yan will be a respectful couple.

But why is Lu Yan still treating her so well?

Did he know that as long as he gave him a little sweetness, she would be uncontrollably hopeful?

A heart will be repeatedly pulled between love and non-love, doubling the pain.

After Shen Ruoyan finished speaking, she breathed a long sigh of relief, as if she had exhausted all her strength, hugged the pillow and fell on the soft couch in the study room and fell asleep.

That night, Lu Yan stood at the head of the bed, staring intently at the person lying on the bed.

The man's thick eyelashes drooped, leaving a shadow on his cheek, making it impossible to see the emotions surging in his eyes.

The next day, Shen Ruoyan woke up and found that she was sleeping in Lu Yan's study.

Rubbing her groggy head, she only remembered that she drank too much last night. She seemed to have done a lot of things and said a lot of words in a daze.

Some snippets come to mind.

Shen Ruoyan frowned and shook her head vigorously.

How could she step on Lu Yan's shadow like a little girl and be so bold as to steal someone else's tribute to the moon?

"This should all be just a dream." Shen Ruoyan patted her chest and comforted herself in a low voice.

It wasn't until I got up and got out of bed that I saw the thing on the table, and my whole body suddenly froze in place.

A grapefruit was placed squarely on Lu Yan's desk.

Shen Ruoyan held her forehead, feeling the urge to get back into bed and isolate herself from the world.

Qin'er outside the door heard the sound and asked, "Is the young lady awake?"

After waiting for a while, there was no response. Qin'er thought she heard wrongly. At this time, the door was opened from the inside, and Shen Ruoyan walked out holding a grapefruit.

"Young Madam." Qin'er stepped forward and glanced at the grapefruit in Shen Ruoyan's arms.

Shen Ruoyan didn't want to take the grapefruit out, but if she left the grapefruit in Lu Yan's study, she would be even more unhappy, so she took it out after careful consideration.

"Take it to the kitchen and eat it." Shen Ruoyan handed the grapefruit to Qin'er as if she were handing over a hot potato. In order to ease the embarrassment, she changed the topic and asked, "When Lu Yan left today, was there anything special? ?”

Qin'er thought about it for a moment, "Your Excellency went back to the house this morning, changed into court clothes, and then went out to attend court. It's no different than usual."

Shen Ruoyan nodded.

Although she was drunk yesterday, she still had some sense. She deliberately used the drunkenness to go to the study to sleep, hoping to see what Lu Yan hid in the study.

She had looked through the study just now and found nothing suspicious.

Is it really just me who is paranoid?

Shen Ruoyan blinked, hiding the bitterness in her heart.

She didn't want to believe it, but she couldn't find a second reason. It turned out that Lu Yan's recent cold attitude towards her was really just a weakening of his feelings.

"Young Madam, those people you called have all arrived in the capital." Qin'er took Yuzi and whispered, "According to your instructions, I didn't let them enter the house. Now they are all waiting at the clothing store."

"Well, I'll change my clothes and go there." She felt sour in her heart and didn't want Qin'er to notice, so Shen Ruoyan found an excuse and left quickly.

She never thought that she and Lu Yan would reach this point.

I still remember that when they first got married, Lu Yan handed over all his belongings to Shen Ruoyan without reservation.

How to describe the feeling at that time?

Shocked, delighted, and touched by being completely trusted.

However, no matter how strong the love is, it will slowly fade away with time.

Shen Ruoyan's upbringing from childhood prevented Shen Ruoyan from making a hysterical fuss in front of Lu Yan.

The only thing that is fortunate now is that she has not confined herself to the back house in the past few years. Through repeated experiences, she has also cultivated a force of her own.

Ever since she noticed something strange about Lu Yan, Shen Ruoyan secretly selected a group of people who were loyal to her and transferred them to the capital.

Even though she still felt sorry for the estranged relationship between herself and Lu Yan, Shen Ruoyan also realized very clearly that she could never continue to share the manpower of the mansion with Lu Yan as before.

She needs to have her own eyes.

own ears.

because……

She could no longer trust Lu Yan.

The bitter smile on the corner of her mouth could not disappear, but Shen Ruoyan's movements did not hesitate at all.

After combing her hair, she immediately went out and met privately with the person she selected at the clothing store.

When she told them that she wanted them to monitor Lu Yan, Shen Ruoyan did not miss the surprise that flashed across those people's faces.

“I have my own reasons for this.

If you don't want to, I won't force you. " Shen Ruoyan explained with a smile, glanced at everyone, and added in a playful tone, "However, please don't go to Lu Yan to inform. "

These people were all favored by Shen Ruoyan. After hearing what Shen Ruoyan said, they naturally agreed.

The results of the investigation were sent over within a few days.

After Shen Ruoyan read the contents on the paper, she folded the letter paper into thin strips and lit it with a candle.

The flames quickly engulfed the paper.

Shen Ruoyan looked a little lost in thought, and the uneasiness in her heart became more intense.

According to the investigation, Lu Yan has been very close to several military attachés these days.

Especially General Duanmu. After Lu Yan left office, he often drank and chatted with him. The two seemed to have become sworn friends.

Shen Ruoyan's fingers tapped on the table unconsciously.

Although Lu Yan's father was a famous general, he himself took the imperial examination route. After becoming an official, he entered the cabinet and now he is the deputy governor of the Metropolitan Procuratorate. These are all proper civil servants.

Although today's Holy Father always emphasizes in words that civil and military people belong to the same family.

But who doesn't understand that if the two forces really communicate too closely, it will definitely arouse the suspicion of the Holy Emperor.

What's more, now that the emperor has not appointed a crown prince for a long time, all the princes are very ambitious for the position of unification.

Lu Yan really shouldn't be too close to those military attaches.

Isn't he afraid that if he shows his sharp edge, he will be killed?

Or maybe Lu Yan did it intentionally and there were other purposes hidden behind it?