Jin Shao, kiss

After going downstairs to have breakfast, Xu Jianyi took Jin Hanzhou to the best private hospital in Nancheng and saw the psychology department after handing over the three babies to the nanny.

When the doctor was seeing Jin Hanzhou.

She found that Jin Hanzhou had a heavy defense line for self-protection.

He was urging himself and felt that he was not sick.

It is not terrible to be sick, the terrible thing is that the patient does not feel that he is sick.

The doctor couldn't ask Jin Hanzhou any effective information at all, but he could basically diagnose his symptoms.

The doctor prescribed the medicine, so that you can't stop the medicine without authorization, and you have to take it on time.

I also urged Xu Jianyi to always pay attention to Jin Hanzhou's emotional changes, because Jin Hanzhou is more cunning than ordinary depressed patients. He doesn't think he is sick, and he is even good at faking it.

Such a person, he will not tell you what is on his mind, he will hide all the unhappy things in his heart, and then accumulate them to a certain extent, and burst out at once, and at that time, he will involuntarily harm himself, or even commit suicide the behavior of.

After coming out of the hospital, Jin Hanzhou's mood was not very high.

He sat in the passenger seat with a blank expression, ignoring everything around him, including Xu Jianyi.

He was immersed in his own world, and he didn't want to pay attention to anyone, even Xu Jianyi who he once regarded as his life.

While driving, Xu Jian observed Jin Hanzhou.

Xu Jianyi suffered from depressive stupor caused by severe mental trauma. Under the guidance of the doctor, she walked out of a dead end, so she returned to normal.

Just like what the psychiatrist said to Xu Jianyi.

The matter has come to this point, it's not that whoever she wants to live will be able to live.

If you can accept it, continue to love, if not, then stay away.

There's no need to torture yourself like this.

Even if she tortured herself badly, there was no way her brother would come back to life.

The doctor also told her that her brother would not want to see her make herself like this, but she made her brother worry about it and worry about it.

Xu Jianyi's heart knot was Xu Yisheng's innocent death.

In Jin Hanzhou's heart, apart from thinking that he killed his life innocently, there is also Xu Jianyi's abandonment.

Even though Xu Jianyi left Jin Hanzhou alone for two years because of his illness, it is undeniable that Jin Hanzhou was indeed 'abandoned' for two years.

That process made Jin Hanzhou physically and mentally exhausted, even numb emotionally.

Even if he told Jin Hanzhou afterwards that Xu Jianyi had no choice but to 'stab' his body with knives, the reason for the 'stabbing' is no longer important.

The important thing is that Jin Hanzhou has been 'stabbed', and was even almost 'stabbed' to death.

Jin Hanzhou, who has 'died' once, no longer believes that someone will always love him, or he refuses to be loved, and he no longer wants to regard a person as everything in his life.

He didn't want to go through it again, what had to be 'abandoned'.

Once bitten, twice shy.

Even if things haven't happened yet, Jin Hanzhou has already begun to make pessimistic assumptions.

She felt that Xu Jian had to 'abandon' him this time, and she would abandon him again for other reasons next time.

If you are doomed to be unable to hold it from the beginning, it is better not to hold it.

Jin Hanzhou has such a mentality at this time.

He doesn't need love.

Because if you don't love, you won't lose, and if you don't lose, you won't have despair and heartache.

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After taking Jin Hanzhou to see her doctor, Xu Jianyi took Jin Hanzhou and her three children to her seaside villa in the next neighborhood.

Xu Jianyi has not been back for seven years.

Ever since Xu Yisheng left, Xu Jianyi never had the courage to take a step here.

She didn't dare to come back, for fear of touching the scene.

Afraid of blaming myself to the point of wanting to die.

Returning to this seaside villa where she lived with Xu Yisheng and Dai Mianmian after a lapse of seven years, Xu Jianyi was a little shy of nostalgia.

Because Xu Jianyi likes the sea, because she likes to eat seafood, so

The villa has hardly changed much.

The yard is also free from overgrown weeds because someone tends to it.

The butler they hired is still there.

Seeing Xu Jian's return, the old housekeeper almost burst into tears, "Miss, after seven years, you are finally back."

"Thank you." Xu Jianyi nodded to the old housekeeper.

Seeing Jin Hanzhou, the Three Treasures in his arms, and the Big Treasure and Second Treasure in the hands of the nanny behind him, the old housekeeper widened his eyes in shock, "Miss, who are they?"

Xu Jianyi introduced to the old housekeeper, "This is my husband Jin Hanzhou, and these are me and his three children."

The old housekeeper looked at the three children who looked exactly like Xu Jianyi, his eyes were filled with indescribable excitement and relief, "Okay, okay, sir, if you see it, you will be very happy."

Xu Jian smiled lightly, and led Jin Hanzhou and the others into the house.

This is a seaside villa covering an area of ​​300 square meters, with five floors, four floors above and one floor underground.

The price was quite low when I bought it.

That's more than 800 million.

The villa is very close to the sea.

Standing on the terrace, you can have a panoramic view of the sea.

The scenery is very beautiful.

The three children haven't seen the sea yet.

Seeing the blue sea, the three little ones were very excited.

Xu Jianyi let the nanny take the baby.

She went upstairs.

She went to Xu Yisheng's study.

Nothing in the study has changed.

The moment Xu Jianyi opened the door, Xu Jianyi seemed to be able to see Xu Yisheng sitting at the desk, handling official business.

The man was wearing white home clothes, gentle and moist as jade, noble and elegant.

When Xu Shi saw her coming in, the man raised his lips and bent his eyes towards her, "You're back?"

Xu Jian nodded to the man with tears in his eyes, "Well, I'm back."

After her words fell, the man who was sitting at the desk disappeared.

Xu Jian raised her head and blinked, then walked to the man's desk.

There are two pictures of her on the table.

In the first photo, she was wearing a white skirt, standing sideways to the camera in the sunset, her waist leaning against the fence of the terrace, her black hair was flying, youthful and bright, willful and flamboyant.

In the second photo, she is wearing a high ponytail, her eyes are wide open, and she is looking at the camera with a bit of confusion, looking innocent.

These two photos were secretly taken by Xu Yisheng when Xu Jian was not paying attention.

Xu Jianyi didn't like to take pictures. There were photos of her at home, most of which were taken by Xu Yisheng, and they were all taken from sneaky angles.

Fingers gently caressed the photo frame on the desktop, and then Xu Jianyi sat down on the office chair.

She sat on the chair, looked at the desktop for a while, and then raised her hand to open the drawer of Xu Yisheng's desk.

Xu Jianyi remembered that Xu Yisheng had a notebook when he was alive, and he would record some daily life in it when he had nothing to do.

Xu Jianyi saw it by chance once, and the records were all about her daily life growing up, such as what she did today, Xu Yisheng thought it was interesting, so she wrote it down.

The last layer of the drawer is equipped with a combination lock.

The password is Xu Jianyi's birthday.

To be exact, it was the day when Xu Jianyi was sold to the Xu family.

Because Xu Jianyi's exact birthday was unknown, the day Xu's family was sold became Xu Jianyi's birthday.

Coincidentally enough, too.

That day also happened to be Xu Jianyi's birthday.

Xu Jianyi entered the password and opened the drawer.

A black diary lay quietly on it.

Xu Jian raised her hand and took it out.

Xu Jian saw the previous one.

She directly opened the pages she hadn't read.

The ones I haven't seen later are recorded since she was 15 years old.

April 3

The girl is greedy, eats too much sweets, complains of toothache.Really want to break her sweet tooth.

April 3

The girl took advantage of my absence and slipped out to play car racing behind my back. She didn't look like a girl at all.

April 4

The girl acted bravely and beat up the male classmate. The teacher asked me to hold a parent-teacher meeting.

Three men can't beat my girl, and she still has the face to call her a parent.I don't know how to be ashamed.

April 4

The girl fed the tortoise I had raised for several years to death, and secretly bought me a new one, thinking I didn't know.

I don't know what she feeds, the tortoise can feed to death... Poor tortoise.

May 5 Mother's Day

The girl drew a picture for me and said to wish me a happy Mother's Day...Happy Mother's Day...Well, for a moment, I wanted to slap her.

June 6 Father's Day

The girl learned how to make cakes from Mianmian, and I didn't even notice cooking, but making cakes is delicious. If she didn't say happy Father's Day, I might be happier.

April 7

The girl seemed to be in love, so when she came back, she locked herself in the room and drew other boys.

April 7

When the girl grows up, she already has boys she likes.

There was a line of words after that, which was crossed out by him, and Xu Jian couldn't see what the words were.

After that, it will be after she leaves the mission.

Almost every day is recorded.

It's nothing more than worrying about her mood.

Until April 4th when she came back.

On April 4, he recorded his last mood.

The girl came back safely from a mission, but——I ran out of time.

The boy the girl likes seems to have a heart problem and went to Beicheng to seek medical treatment.

Why is the girl so unlucky, her brother is sick, and the person she likes is also sick.

What will she do next?

The doctor said that I had an intracranial tumor, which generally would not spread throughout the body, and I could donate my organs after death.

I signed an organ donation, I heard that he is also ab blood type, I hope my heart can be successfully matched with his.

I have no cure, I hope he can live.

Later, he suddenly emphasized another sentence.

——I hope the matching can be successful.

It's gone after that.

As soon as Xu Jian closed the diary, her face was icy cold.

She raised her hand to touch it, only to find that it was tears.

Why not wait.

Why did you choose to treat your brother in such a cruel way.

Obviously as long as you wait, my brother's heart will also be donated to Jin Hanzhou, so why not wait!

But soon, Xu Jianyi understood why he didn't wait.

Not waiting.

But can't wait.

Jin Hanzhou couldn't wait for the day when his elder brother voluntarily donated his heart, so Cheng Jinzhi made the move directly.

but--

Why let Nighthawk do it.

Why not give my brother a happy one.

Xu Jianyi still hated it after all.

Xu Yisheng could have died peacefully, but Cheng Jinzhi forced him to experience all the suffering that he shouldn't have to bear.

Xu Jianyi stayed in the study alone for an hour before she calmed down and came downstairs.

After Xu Jian went downstairs, she found that Jin Hanzhou was not downstairs.

She subconsciously asked the servant where Jin Hanzhou had gone.

The servant told Xu Jianyi that Jin Hanzhou seemed to be walking towards her studio.

As soon as Xu Jian heard this, she seemed to have remembered something, and immediately walked towards the studio.

In a studio of about twenty square meters.

The surrounding walls are covered with Xu Jianyi's paintings, many of which are Xu Yisheng's sketch portraits.

There are fronts and sides, sitting, standing, all kinds.

And in these sketches.

Jin Hanzhou saw Xu Jianyi's painting of him.

When Xu Jian opened the door and came in,

Jin Hanzhou was standing in front of her drawing of him standing next to the racing car, with a racing hat under his right armpit, his head tilted, with a rebellious face and a smile on his mouth, in front of the painting full of flamboyance.

Seeing Jin Hanzhou staring at his painting, Xu Jian suddenly felt ashamed of being peeped into his mind.

She hurried forward and covered the painting.

Jin Hanzhou lowered his eyes to look at her, and obviously had a guess in his heart, but asked her in disbelief, "Why did you draw me?"