Jin Shao, kiss

The woman still remembers how gentle Xu Yisheng's expression was when he said this, as if the she he was talking about was his treasure.

The woman didn't know that Xu Jianyi was not Xu Yisheng's biological sister, but at that time she still thought that Xu Yisheng's brother was really the best brother in the world.

Even though he was suffering from cancer, he was still able to talk to people on the phone with a warm voice and a smile, saying that he would make his sister her favorite cake.

It is precisely because of Xu Yisheng who is so gentle and doting on his younger sister that women remember him for so many years.

Even now that she is married and has children, every time a woman thinks of Xu Yisheng, she will always feel a sense of regret.

How could such a good man die so soon?

Get out of the hospital.

Xu Jianyi was in a daze.

brain cancer.

My brother inherited my mother's brain cancer.

Back then, it took only seven days for my mother to be diagnosed, burst out, and died.

What about brother?

If the elder brother is not killed, how many days can the elder brother live at most?

In the afternoon, the sun is hot.

The light is also very harsh.

As soon as Xu Jian came out, she was blinded by the sunlight.

She subconsciously raised her hand to block the light.

Just when Xu Jian raised her hand to block the light, a familiar figure ran towards her.

Xu Jianyi looked at Jin Yi who was getting closer, his eyes turned cold slightly.

But before Xu Jian asked anything, Jin Yi said anxiously, "Young Madam, go and stop the young master, young master - he wants to donate a liver to others, and he already donated a liver a year ago." Kidney, donate half of the liver, his body will not be able to bear it."

"What did you say?"

Jin Yi's sudden words made Xu Jian's body tremble, and at the same time, something gradually became clear in his mind.

She remembered.

Think of what Jin Hanzhou's hand has to do with it!

Jin said with flushed eyes, "After you left, the young master went crazy. He first asked someone to smash his fingers into pieces, and then asked someone to avoid the vitals, and stabbed him more than a dozen times. Donate a kidney."

"Young master, he is atoning for what your brother did for the Lord. He wants to experience everything your brother has experienced by himself."

Jin Yi, a big man, couldn't help crying while talking.

He didn't really leave Jin Hanzhou, he has been guarding Jin Hanzhou in the dark.

He watched Jin Hanzhou destroy his body again and again, but he was powerless.

For a moment, Jin Yi really felt that it would be better not to save Jin Hanzhou at first.

At least at that time Jin Hanzhou would not live in such despair and pain.

He left hopelessly, without any hope in this world.

I have never been redeemed, and I will not suffer so much because of the lack of salvation, and finally end my life in such a tragic way to repay myself for being worthy of the world.

Kidney donation without hemp.

Xu Jian's eyes went dark, her heart seemed to be strangled, the pain made it difficult for her to breathe.

As soon as she grasped Jin Yi's hand, she asked with a trembling voice, "Where is he now!"

"In a private hospital."

"take me!"

Xu Jianyi's eyes became scarlet, and her hands were shaking.

"follow me."

Jin Yi directly led Xu Jianyi to his Humvee.

Xu Jianyi sat in the driver's seat by himself, and then asked Jin to drive out with the navigation.

Following her, she drove a Hummer and staged a speed and passion on the road.

Along the way, Xu Jianyi didn't know how many red lights she ran through, and traffic policemen chased her, but they were all stopped by Jin Er who was following the aftermath.

As soon as Xu Jian drove the car directly to the gate of the hospital, she hurriedly got out of the car.

She quickly ran towards the operating room.

As soon as Xu Jian ran fast, she was afraid that she would be late, and the operation would begin.

At the door of the operating room, there was no one in the corridor.

Xu Jian who couldn't get in was very anxious.

She was anxious like an ant on a hot pan, turning back and forth non-stop.

At this moment, Jin Yi finally caught up.

"Young Madam, don't worry, the operation hasn't started yet. The nurse I put inside has already come to open the door. Just wait a moment."

When Xu Jian heard the words, he suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

The nurse that Jin Yian placed quickly came over and opened the door of the operating room, and then led Xu Jianyi in.

After putting on a sterile suit for Xu Jianyi, the nurse led Xu Jianyi to the operating room where Jin Hanzhou was about to undergo surgery.

in the operating room.

Jin Hanzhou was tied up and lying on it.

The doctor asked him again and again, "Is it true that we don't need anesthesia first?"

Jin Hanzhou slowly closed his eyes, "No need."

"So it started?"

The doctor picked up a piece of gauze and put it on Jin Hanzhou's lips.

Jin Hanzhou gave a low hum, and opened his mouth to bite.

Several male nurses surrounded the two sides of the bed, pressing Jin Hanzhou's limbs.

The doctor picked up the scalpel.

Knife falls.

Seeing that the scalpel was about to land on Jin Hanzhou's cold and white abdomen, at this moment, an eager and angry female voice came in loudly, "Stop!"

The doctors and nurses looked at Xu Jianyi who suddenly appeared in the operating room.

Jin Hanzhou also opened his eyes abruptly.

Xu Jian walked over and pushed everyone away.

She looked at Jin Hanzhou on the operating table, her almond eyes were bloodshot with fear, "Jin Hanzhou, come back with me."

Jin sent all the doctors away.

Xu Jianyi and Jin Hanzhou were in the operating room, looking at each other.

Jin Hanzhou stared fixedly at Xu Jianyi, but didn't speak, mainly because there was gauze in his mouth, so he couldn't speak.

Xu Jian lifted the gauze from his mouth and stared at him with scarlet eyes, "Jin Hanzhou, that's enough, don't continue."

Jin Hanzhou didn't ask how she got here.

He just looked up at the ceiling of the operating room, and said in a calm and indifferent voice,

"Xu Jianyi, this is the only way to repay your brother. Father's debts, uncle's debts, and nephew's debts. I will pay for my uncle's evil deeds. If you still don't feel relieved, you can kill him."

"Of course, even if you kill him, your brother won't come back."

He suddenly set his eyes on her again.

He looked at her apologetically, his eyes full of powerlessness and helplessness, "I'm sorry. You lost your favorite brother because of me."

He looked up again, as if he was talking to Xu Jianyi, but also as if he was talking to himself, "You said you didn't save me at the time, so that would be great, you won't sell me, and neither will your brother." won't die."

Xu Jianyi said, "I don't regret saving you."

Jin Hanzhou squinted at her, "You must have blamed me."

He turned his gaze back, looked at the special surgical lamp above, and unconsciously showed a bit of sadness on his face, "When you first learned the truth, you must blame me, blame me for being alive, not your brother."

His eyes were in a trance, "You always tell me full of hatred, why didn't you die."

Xu Jian subconsciously shook her head in denial.

But before she could say anything, Jin Hanzhou said to himself again, "Yes. Why wasn't it me who died?"

"Obviously it's me who deserves to be damned."

His words are full of self-denial.

"I didn't say that, it was your own imagination."

Xu Jian saw it.

She could see that Jin Hanzhou's mental state was not right.

She stepped forward and hugged Jin Hanzhou's face, lowered her head and pressed her face against his, "Jin Hanzhou, I never said that."

At the most irrational moment, what Xu Jian thought about was also why the person who gave Jin Hanzhou his heart was his elder brother.

Of course she wanted Jin Hanzhou to live.

But if Jin Hanzhou's survival must be to take Xu Yisheng's life, it is normal for Xu Jian to lean towards Xu Yisheng for a while.

After all, Jin Hanzhou's short life was not caused by Xu Yisheng.

There is no reason for Xu Yisheng to pay for his short life.

Perhaps Xu Jian had a similar thought when she first learned the truth, but it is impossible for her to say such things to Jin Hanzhou.

"Many times."

When dreaming back in the middle of the night, he often saw Xu Jianyi appearing in front of him, he happily stepped forward to hug her, but was pushed away by her, and she stared at him with hatred.

She said, "Jin Hanzhou, return my brother's life."

"Jin Hanzhou, why do you want to live in this world?"

"Jin Hanzhou, why didn't you die?"

Jin Hanzhou repeated to Xu Jian what Xu Jian said to him in the hallucination.

"Jin Hanzhou, I didn't say that, that's not what I said."

As soon as Xu Jian tightly hugged Jin Hanzhou who was restrained and unable to move, his heart throbbed with pain.

Of course Jin Hanzhou knew it wasn't Xu Jianyi who said it, but she avoided seeing him, so that's not what she meant.

"You have thought about it in your heart. Your brother is living a good life, but because of such an indiscriminate disaster, I don't believe you haven't thought about it."

People who are full of pessimism will always think about things in a bad way.

Childhood misfortune created Jin Hanzhou's sensitive and fragile temperament.

When Xu Jianyi was most needed to hug him and say 'she didn't blame him', but he still couldn't get comfort, he would deny the value of life by himself, and would constantly instill extremely pessimistic thoughts in himself.

He even felt that he was a wrong existence to live in this world.

In the past year, it's not that Jin Hanzhou didn't have the idea of ​​committing suicide. When he was in extreme pain, he burned the back of his hand with a cigarette butt.

When swimming, he would submerge himself underwater for a long time, trying to suffocate himself to death.

If it weren't for the heart-piercing cries of the three children suddenly reaching his ears, perhaps at that moment, Jin Hanzhou would have really suffocated himself to death in the swimming pool.

The moment he got out of the water, Jin Hanzhou was actually at a loss.

He didn't even know what he was doing.

Perhaps because he realized that he would involuntarily commit suicide, Jin Hanzhou didn't even step into the swimming pool.

Every time he had the idea of ​​committing suicide, Jin Hanzhou told himself over and over again that he should not do stupid things and that the child would not be taken care of.

When it was too painful, he burned the back of his hand with a cigarette butt.

Afraid of being seen, he wears long sleeves in summer, and he also uses ointment to smear it, so that no scars are left on his arms.

The liver donation was not intentional death, but he was in too much pain.

If a person loses half of his liver, he cannot die.

And it will grow out.

Jin Hanzhou needs to experience the pain that Xu Yisheng once suffered, so that he can continue to live with the heart he snatched from the other party without conscience.

Not giving anesthesia beforehand is also to make myself feel the same as Xu Yisheng.

The doctor will give Jin Hanzhou anesthesia when he can't hold on anymore.

While doing good deeds, he can feel that he is doing atonement at the same time. This is the reason why Jin Hanzhou donated his kidney and liver.

Of course, to truly empathize with Xu Yisheng, one has to sacrifice one's life.

And these two things were arranged behind by Jin Hanzhou.

"Neither in my heart."

Even if there was, it was impossible for Xu Jianyi to tell Jin Hanzhou that what Jin Hanzhou needs now is appeasement, not stimulation.

Jin Hanzhou said, "You have."

"If you really don't blame me, why don't you come out to see me."

On that day more than a year ago, Xu Jianyi's avoidance left a scar in Jin Hanzhou's heart after all.

Even now, there is no healing.

Xu Jian buried her face in Jin Hanzhou's neck, "I didn't miss you, Jin Hanzhou. I was sick at the time, so I didn't miss you on purpose."

"Get ill?"

Jin Hanzhou's handsome face was slightly taken aback.

"Ah."

Jin Hanzhou subconsciously wanted to get up.

But he was tied.

Xu Jianyi untied him.

He sat up from the operating bed, fixed his eyes on Xu Jianyi, "What's wrong?"

"Depressive stupor." Afraid that Jin Hanzhou had never heard of it, Xu Jian explained to him patiently, "It's like a zombie, the mind and body seem to be disconnected, the actions and speech are disabled, and I can't get up all day long. Need someone to take care of you."

"Need someone to take care of her." Obviously he should feel sorry for her, but Jin Hanzhou's heart is more ironic, ironic that as a husband, he is even deprived of the qualification to be by her side, "You erase all traces, don't Let me find you, but when you need someone to take care of you the most, I chose Gu Xijue to take care of you."

Regardless of whether Xu Jianyi had an affair with Gu Xijue or not, the two years of her and Gu Xijue's life were stuck in Jin Hanzhou's heart like a fishbone.

No man would not mind.

Xu Jian frowned subconsciously, "I didn't choose him."

Jin Hanzhou sighed lightly, "So, he took the initiative to hide it from you to prevent me from finding it? Can I sue him for hiding my wife?"

Xu Jianyi had a headache and couldn't explain clearly, "It's not..."

"No?" Jin Hanzhou raised his eyebrows lightly, and curled his lips sarcastically, "After all, you are blaming me."

Seeing that he went back and forth and returned to the original place, Xu Jianyi had a very headache, "I heard Jin Yi say that you were going to secretly erase my memory after I went to A continent."

Xu Jianyi didn't know how to explain Jin Hanzhou's behavior that seemed to be jealous but not jealous, so he spoke incoherently, "I was really confused at the time, one was that I just learned that my brother's death was related to you, and the other was that you To erase my memory, my mind was very messed up, so I thought of hiding for a while. I didn't expect that I would be quiet for two years."

"The reason why I stayed with Gu Xijue was because he was the first person I met when I got sick."

It wasn't that Xu Jianyi had to choose Gu Xijue, but that Gu Xijue happened to appear at that time, and she fell ill at that time.

Jin Hanzhou is emotionally indifferent now, and if he doesn't love, he won't be as jealous and fussy as he used to be, so he didn't say anything more.

It's just that the explanation after two years is meaningless after all.

It's like, when you're in so much pain, there's no anesthesia.

When you are numb from the pain, the anesthetic is found again.

It's useless at all.

The same is true of Xu Jianyi's explanation.

Jin Hanzhou's heart was already numb.

His emotional world has been closed, he no longer knows what it's like to love someone, what it's like to feel sorry for someone.

It takes time for the earth to rejuvenate, and when will the numb heart be relieved.

Jin Hanzhou's eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist, the smog was so thick that he couldn't see the emotions clearly, "Even if you didn't avoid it on purpose two years ago, we will never go back to the beginning, you will never forget your brother How did you die?"

"Xu Jianyi, we can't go back."

As long as Xu Jian didn't forget how Xu Yisheng died, it was impossible for them to return to the original state.

And he seems to have lost the ability to love.

He no longer knew how to love Xu Jianyi.

Xu Jianyi is like the sand in his hand, the tighter he holds it, the faster it will be lost.

Broken mirrors naturally have cracks.

Xu Jianyi never thought of being able to return to the original state.

Even if Xu Yisheng got cancer, even if he died soon, he should die from the torture of illness, not the inhuman humiliation of Nighthawk.

Xu Jianyi would not let go of what Cheng Jinzhi did just because Xu Yisheng was going to die soon.

Xu Jianyi is not qualified to forgive the perpetrator for Xu Yisheng, but she wants Jin Hanzhou to live, and thinks that he can live without so much guilt and self-blame, at least, don't feel that she shouldn't live in this world, "My brother——"

"Before the accident, I had brain cancer."

"What do you mean?"

Jin Hanzhou subconsciously looked at Xu Jianyi.

Xu Jian looked at him, "Even if your uncle didn't plan all that, my brother won't live long."

Xu Jian raised his hand and touched Jin Hanzhou's cheek, "Jin Hanzhou, you are not a thief, you did not steal my brother's life, my brother's time is numbered, you are like this, it is a continuation."

"I'm not a thief?"

Jin Hanzhou stared at Xu Jianyi quietly for a while, then his eyes turned red slightly, his handsome face was full of disbelief, "I didn't kill your brother?"

"It can't be said that you killed him." Xu Jian hugged him, "Jin Hanzhou, don't feel guilty."

Two years.

Two full years.

Jin Hanzhou waited for Xu Jianyi's hug for two years.

Jin Hanzhou raised his arms to hug Xu Jianyi.

He buried his face in the crescent of her neck.

Like a wronged child who has finally washed away his grievances, and his grievances are as snowy, tears flowed out of his eyes uncontrollably.

these two years.

Jin Hanzhou has been living with a sense of guilt.

He was often overwhelmed.

At that time, he really really wanted Xu Jianyi to hug him.

Tell him she doesn't blame him.

The hot tears on his shoulders were hot and scorching, and Xu Jian hugged Jin Hanzhou tightly.

Her eyes were also wet.

This is the second time Jin Hanzhou cried.

The first time, when Xu Jianyi was injured and woke up, he was also like now, leaning on her shoulder and crying silently.

Last time I was so excited that I cried.

But this time, it was an inexplicable grievance.

He obviously didn't do anything, but he seemed to be a villain who committed a heinous crime.

He is trapped in the land of sin, with no escape.

Now that he is released, how can he not be wronged and cry.