I was on top of your heart

Huo Yan, who was about to carry her into the house, suddenly stopped when he heard her unconscious voice.

Huo Yan looked down at the person in his arms, only to see that her eyes were closed, her expression looked a little lonely and sad.

Is she getting drunk for Xu Junxian?

Just because I heard that the Xu family is going to arrange a marriage for Xu Junxian?

Huo Yan's heart suddenly ached.

It looked like it was gouged by some sharp weapon.

At the moment when the chisel was cut down, I didn't feel much pain, but the stamina was very strong.

Heartbroken and flustered, Huo Yan put Yu Wan down.

He pushed Yu Wan against the wall beside him, staring at her with scary red eyes,

"Are you getting drunk for Xu Junxian's marriage with someone else?"

His words successfully brought up Yu Wan's depressed mood.

Yu Wan didn't know what was wrong with her.

The moment she heard that Xu Junxian was going to marry someone else, she suddenly felt very sad.

It seemed that all the people who were kind to her were slowly leaving her.

She seemed to be abandoned by the whole world.

She was already in a bad mood, but when she saw Huo Yan trapping her between the wall and him, and asking her in an aggressive tone, Yu Wan immediately became annoyed.

"Who I get drunk for is none of your business!"

"Of course it's none of my business!"

"Yu Wan, no!"

Huo Yan panicked at this moment.

He suddenly realized that Yu Wan's feelings for Xu Junxian were not as innocent as before.

Her feelings for Xu Junxian have deteriorated without her being aware of it.

She no longer simply regards Xu Junxian as her elder brother.

Even, she has...

Huo Yan suddenly held Yu Wan's cheeks, and said anxiously and panickedly,

"You can't care, and you can't like him!"

Yu Wan, don't be so cruel, don't fall in love with others.

As if to appease his restless heart.

Huo Yan lowered his head and kissed Yu Wan frantically.

"Well--"

Being kissed suddenly, Yu Wan was so angry that she raised her hand to punch him.

Huo Yan grabbed her hands and cut them backwards on top of her head again.

Yu Wan was so angry that she arched her knees and pressed against him.

Huo Yan clamped her legs, kissed her madly and hotly, restlessly and sadly.

Yu Wan couldn't resist, and was furious.

The moment Huo Yan's tongue was about to break in, Yu Wan bit it viciously.

Huo Yan was in pain.

Immediately backed out.

Yu Wan stared at Huo Yan fiercely, as if if you dare to mess around again, I will bite you to death.

Huo Yan looked at her pair of loveless eyes, his heart seemed to have a hole, and all kinds of cold wind and ice balls were blowing inside.

not like this.

Yu Wan's eyes are not like this.

When she looked at him before, her eyes were full of love and coquettishness.

When kissing him, she will take the initiative to stick out her tongue first.

When he takes the initiative to entangle with her, her face will be full of charming spring, and her eyes will be even more seductive like silk, like a goblin who can seduce people, making people so fascinated that they wish to die on her body.

But at this moment.

Yu Wan, whose eyes were all about him, disappeared.

He was no longer in Yu Wan's eyes.

She began to love others.

Realizing this, Huo Yan felt like his heart was about to burst.

The pain made him feel worse than death.

He looked at Yu Wan with watery eyes, and rested his head on her forehead sadly,

"Yu Wan, it doesn't matter whether you ignore me, stab me with words, or don't love me, but if you can, don't fall in love with others."

His voice choked up, "Don't punish me in this way, okay?"

Huo Yan buried his head in Yu Wan's neck, and hot tears fell on Yu Wan's collarbone.

His tears were hot and hot.

It almost burned Yu Wan's skin.

After being kissed suddenly by him, Yu Wan, who was a little drunk before, was sober now.

She frowned, probably knowing what he was going crazy about.

Yu Wan looked ahead calmly, unmoved by Huo Yan's tears.

Even, she felt a little ironic.

"Why can you like others, but Yu Wan can't?"

She sneered back, "Huo Yan, the earth doesn't revolve around you alone, if you can like others, so can Yu Wan."

"Besides, you don't want Yu Wan first, what qualifications do you have to ask Yu Wan not to like others?"

Yu Wan's drooping head suddenly clenched into a fist.

Lin Ran roughly told her the story between her and him.

Although she couldn't feel the despair and heartbreak she felt when she was abandoned by her lover, it didn't mean she didn't feel sorry for the abandoned self.

The reason why she can get along with Huo Yan so peacefully now is because she has no memory.

I don't remember the hurt and pain of being hurt, so I can get along with him so calmly.

The reason why she is willing to associate with Huo Yan is actually to create a fairly harmonious family for the two children.

Let them enjoy fatherly love and motherly love at the same time even when their parents do not love each other.

There is a child between them, and she doesn't want to make the childhood of the two children unhappy because of the love and hatred in the past.

But that's all.

She won't get back together with him.

Never will.

Before amnesia, Yu Wan no longer loved Huo Yan, and after amnesia, Yu Wan no longer loved Huo Yan.

Huo Yan's body was shocked by Yu Wan's words.

Huo Yan's body trembled violently.

He hugged Yu Wan tightly, and buried his face deeply in the hollow of her shoulder.

He said in a choked and fragile voice,

"Before I decided to be with Yaoyao, I was waiting for you."

"Yu Wan, I've been waiting for you for nearly five years."

"In those five years, I dreamed that you could appear in front of me."

"But you never showed up."

"I couldn't figure it out before, you love me, why would you not come back to find me?"

"It wasn't until Lin Ran said that you came back to me two years ago, and saw that Yaoyao and I behaved intimately, that I finally understood why you haven't come back to me."

"You think that I slept with Yaoyao, you are sad, you are sad, so you don't even question me, so you don't want me."

"I admit that when I saw you kissing He Minglang, I was very angry, I was very angry.

But Yu Wan, I never thought of not wanting you.

I just couldn't get away at the time. "

When Xu Shi mentioned the sadness, Huo Yan's tears fell silently.

"My dad committed suicide, my mom fell downstairs, and I couldn't walk away."

His eyes were red, and the fundus of his eyes was covered with bloodshot eyes, "I heard the news that you are going to get married, so I want to snatch the marriage.

But I didn't have time to go, my mother had just been paralyzed at that time.

My dad was gone and she was paralyzed again.

She commits suicide every day, saying she doesn't want to drag me down.

I have to be with her all the time, watching her. "

People really don't have all kinds of skills, Huo Yan at that time was really powerless.

Even when he drank his saliva, he had to look at his mother who wanted to die at any moment.

Huo Yan added, "Yu Wan, I really hated him at that time."

"I hate you when you say you marry someone, and when you say you don't want me, you don't want me. I hate you for bringing me into this sea of ​​love, but I can't extricate myself, but I sneak away by myself, alone and unrestrained."

Obviously no memory, but why, at this moment, my heart, which was like a pool of stagnant water, suddenly had slight ripples.

There is even a rising tide.

Yu Wan looked ahead with wet eyes and suddenly felt very sad.

My heart aches like I'm about to die.

Here, Huo Yan seemed to be vomiting bitter water, and continued to tell her about his pain and pain, "You blame me for giving up on you to like Yaoyao, but Yu Wan, I am a human being.

When I was overwhelmed by my father's mistakes, it was Yaoyao who helped me take care of my mother and persuaded her to have the courage to live.

In the past five years, she worked tirelessly to help me take care of my mother.

She is obviously a rich lady, but she is doing the work of nursing.

Let me ask, in that situation, how many men can remain unmoved? "

Huo Yan is not afraid to admit it, he dares to do it and admits it,

"I just want to like her in the past, even if you never show up, I will marry her, treat her well for the rest of my life, and spend my life with her hand in hand."

"But Yu Wan, it's you who don't want me first, so I want to like others."

"It's not that you haven't been back."

"You didn't even think about asking me to find out everything when you came back."

Even though seven years have passed, every time Huo Yan thinks of the powerlessness at that time, Huo Yan will still be touched,

He hugged Yu Wan tightly, eager and looking forward to her belated hug,

"Yu Wan, I really needed you at that time.

I really want you to hug me and say that you are here.

But you are not here.

I can't reach you.

Yu Yawen deliberately sent me those photos again.

See the photo, 'you' sharing the bed with him.

I thought you were really together. "

After a moment of silence, he said again, "Actually, if you come back to me, I might not let you stay."

"I was so poor that I didn't even have money for food, and Ziyu paid for my mother's medical expenses."

"How can I, who is so heavily in debt, drag you down?"

"But Yu Wan, I still selfishly want you to hug me, even if it's just for a moment."

Huo Yan buried his head on Yu Wan's neck, hot tears could not stop falling,

"At that time, I was really helpless and felt like the sky was about to fall."

The hard wall of the heart seems to have been cut open.

Pain from all directions suddenly came towards Yu Wanjuan.

He obviously didn't remember anything, but tears couldn't stop falling from the corners of his eyes.

For whom is she hurting, and for whom is she crying?

"I know that after you came back, I said a lot of things that hurt you, but you used Yaoyao's illness to force me like that, I really can't accept it."

"Yaoyao has sacrificed a lot for me, I already feel ashamed, you still use her illness to force me and you..."

After a pause, he said again,

"I didn't know you wanted a child to do that."

"Yu Wan, you don't tell me anything."

"You hate me for speaking ill of you, but Yu Wan, who knew nothing about me at the time, really didn't want to be shaken by you.

I promised Yaoyao that we will be together when she recovers.

If I waver with you, I'm being unfaithful to her. "

"I thought I could really not love you.

But Yu Wan, you are too deeply rooted in my heart, when I can't see you, I won't feel it.

But when I saw you, everything was messed up. "

"I try my best to avoid you, avoid you, and don't want to ask anything about you."

"I told myself, I can't let Yaoyao down. But—"

Yu Wan suddenly cut him off, "Enough."

Yu Wan looked at the brown door of the opposite apartment with scarlet eyes, her eyes were so sad, so sad,

"Stop talking, no amount of talking can change the fact that you once gave up on me to try to like someone else."

Obviously I haven't remembered anything yet.

Why is she still so sad?

Is it because he talked about a sore spot in her heart?

Yes.

She knew what that sore spot was.

It was he who gave up on her to like someone else.

When she was still in love with him, he gave up on her and liked someone else.

Yu Wan is too aware of her own temperament.

She has an extraordinary attachment to feelings.

It's the kind of temperament that would rather be short than excessive.

She couldn't bear it. When she was still in love with the other party, the other party had already given up on her and chose to like her.

Yu Wan before amnesia must be very sad.

Sad that the man she loved so much gave up on her and chose to like someone else.

She even gave up her and the child in her stomach for others.

Even if Yu Wan has no memory of the past at this moment.

But her heart still hurts.

My heart aches for Yu Wan who was abandoned by her lover.

Huo Yan's figure was shocked again by Yu Wan's words.

Then, he hugged her even harder.

Yu Wan didn't push him away either, but just said blankly,

"Yes, you have your difficulties, but Huo Yan, the feeling of being abandoned by others is not good. Even if I don't have the memory, I still feel sad when I think that I have been abandoned by you. Because it is engraved on the The pain in the soul is the pain that cannot be erased by everything you do."

"Huo Yan, you should be thankful. You should be thankful that I lost my memory and forgot about those pains. Otherwise, you wouldn't even have the qualifications to stand in front of me."

Yu Wan pushed him away,

"Don't do the transgressive thing again, or I will move out of here with the stars and the stars."

Huo Yan looked at her unsteadily, opened his mouth for a long time, but couldn't say a word.

Yu Wan ignored him, turned around and entered the password, and went straight in.

with a snap.

It's not just a door that closes.

And Yu Wan vowed not to open her heart to Huo Yan.

Huo Yan sat paralyzed on the ground at the door of Yu Wan's apartment.

He put his hands on his eyelids and curled up into a ball.

His body began to tremble violently.

At the back, like a helpless and desperate child, he covered his face with his hands, and wept bitterly and restrainedly.

Extremely sad.

Huo Yan bit his arm.

He still didn't cry out any sound.

He just bit his arm, put his head against the wall, and looked ahead vaguely, his heart ached so badly that he couldn't breathe.

At this moment, Huo Yan really realized it.

Even if he spends his entire life in poverty, he will never be able to bring back Yu Wan's love.

After amnesia, Yu Wan couldn't forgive Huo Yan.

It was even more impossible for Yu Wan before amnesia to forgive Huo Yan.

Xu Junxian is right.

The Yu Wan who loved him so much is dead.

She was buried in the cold river that year by his own hands.

He lost Yu Wan who was full of Huo Yan.

She's never, ever coming back.

Inside the apartment.

Yu Wan looked at the two children who were playing in the living room, and tears poured out like a flood that had been released from the sluice.