I don't deserve your love

"Yes, I love you."

Fu Yanye looked at her with dark and deep eyes, and responded firmly.

"How come? Have you forgotten? You said you never loved me."

Zhuo Jian smiled and shook her head, looking at him with clear eyes full of tears at some point, not angry, just sad and funny.

"That's angry talk."

The moment Fu Yanye watched her tears come out of her eyes, he suppressed the boiling in his heart and explained to her.

"Angry talk?"

Zhuo Jian's voice was indistinct.

In the huge room, it suddenly became oppressive and overly quiet.

Zhuo Jian's hands pressing against the door panel were already covered in cold sweat, and she couldn't see anything clearly in the dim environment.

He said he loved her.

Her tears were so hot that she thought her face would burn.

If it is said that when the boy who died for Chengcheng fell into the sea, he couldn't bear to lay hands on Lin Ruxiang and make her heart die, then...

Ever since he said that he didn't love her that day, her heart was gone.

He doesn't love her.

Just a whim, his love.

Zhuo Jian gradually lowered her eyes, looking at his sexy Adam's apple, she couldn't help taking out a hand from behind her back, and gently touched the belly of her index finger.

She loves him.

Love his Adam's apple.

She loved him, she looked at his chin, and touched there with her fingers.

His sharp-edged jaw, his thin lips, his straight nose bridge, and standard sword eyebrows, eye sockets, twinkling eyes like stars.

Her hands touched them one by one.

His appearance had already been deeply imprinted in her heart.

However, she doesn't love him anymore.

She is tired.

"If you love me, let me go and set me free."

She spoke to him in a soft voice.

"Zhuo Jian."

He also held her face, how could he promise to let her go?

"If you love me, let me live alone with my children. I want to be beautiful alone, and I can raise them by myself and give them a good life. You must have heard from Chang Xia and Ouyang Ping. enough money for the four of us to live a good life."

"what about me?"

"You? You will also have a very happy life. You have Lin Ruxiang, you have Zhao Ran, and you will have many, many women. They will be more understanding than me, and they will be more sympathetic to your heart than me."

"No, you can't be so selfish."

He pressed against her forehead, and he didn't allow her to abandon him so coldly.

"But I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid to death. I often have nightmares. You don't love me."

Zhuo Jian couldn't help sobbing, covering her face with her hands, tears still flowing from between her fingers.

She never wanted to live that life of uncertainty again.

She is able to support her children, and she does not believe that children will be unhappy living in a single-parent family, as long as they are parents who can find the right way.

"Zhuo Jian, don't cry."

Seeing her crying so sadly, Fu Yanye suddenly didn't dare to touch her.

Zhuo Jian cried and leaned against his chest, crying till her hoarse voice whispered: "Fu Yanye, please, let me go."

Fu Yanye was suddenly speechless, his heart seemed to be torn apart.

But looking down and seeing her crying so heartbroken, he silently held her shoulders.

-

Later that night it rained heavily.

After this night, Fu Yanye seemed to disappear suddenly.

Even if he sees his sons every week, he only follows them when they go to the old house.

Zhuo Jian's life seemed to be on the right track, but Sheng Xin suddenly appeared.

Zhuo Jian saw him in a coffee shop outside the TV station, because she was still breastfeeding, so she drank milk.

Sheng Xin ordered a cup of delicious food, and just took a sip, "Just stay like this? How did he convince you?"

"He's going out to work on a new project, and he won't come back several times within a year."

Zhuo Jian answered him in a low voice.

Sheng Xin listened, and smiled subconsciously, "When will the emperor need to be involved in a project?"

Zhuo Jian looked up at him after listening to his words.

"Sheng Xin, let's not meet again."

Zhuo Jian looked at him, knowing that he was not happy with Fu Yanye, but one size fits the other, regardless of the matter between him and Fu Yanye, it's better for her to break up with this person sooner.

Sheng Xin looked at her unexpectedly, "Why?"

"Before you came to this city to live temporarily because your sister's heart was on Lin Ruxiang's body, but you have already got that heart back, so there is no need for you to come again."

"..."

She was too deserted. In fact, he had expected this a long time ago, but after hearing such words, he still felt cold in his heart.

Zhuo Jian smiled slightly, "I can't spare the energy to make friends now, except for going to work and being a child."

"Did he agree to divorce you? The condition won't be that you reject me?"

Sheng Xin suddenly guessed.

"It's nothing to do with him, but it's time for us all to start over and start a new life."

They are all alive and well, and they can't always be stuck in the past.

Sheng Xin frowned, and wanted to take another sip of the coffee, but he remembered the bitter taste before he drank it. He put down the cup and looked at the sunshine outside the window in frustration.

"Life goes on every day, why start over and not start over again, do you have to start over if you like someone if you can't get it? Are you sure you don't keep climbing with your body full?"

I have to lie to myself over and over again, it's all over, and tomorrow is a new beginning, beautiful and fulfilling.

Ah.

People are really good at deceiving themselves.

He looked at Zhuo Jian, from her gentle and melancholy eyes, he didn't believe that she could start a new life.

But she smiled at him so firmly.

As if to say, she can.

"As long as you have a bad life and want to leave, you can still call me at any time."

Before Sheng Xin left, he left these words.

Zhuo Jian didn't rush to leave after he left, looking at the coffee he didn't drink much, and the milk she didn't touch.

After all, it was just for a few words.

The mobile phone on the table rang, she glanced at it, and then immediately left with the mobile phone.

The program about postpartum mothers officially started recording and broadcasting.

The first guest invited was a hard-working, simple and kind-hearted mother who raised three sons by selling egg-filled pancakes with her husband.

The scene of her and her husband pushing the cart out before dawn was shown on the big screen. Her husband would push the cart out for her first, and help her get everything ready before going to her booth, and she started her day like this morning hustle.

Even during pregnancy, she has never slacked off with her big belly.

The guest relaxed after chatting with Zhuo Jian for a while.

When Zhuo Jian asked her why she insisted on working during pregnancy, she smiled and said, "Of course it's because of lack of money."

Zhuo Jian faced her decently, waiting for her to continue.

The guest clasped his hands and looked at the audience with a smile, "But it's not terrible to have no money. We are good at our hands and feet, just do it. My husband and I are both optimistic people, full of hope for life, and we all firmly believe that , as long as the family is together, nothing can defeat us, even if we are just peddlers selling pancakes, even if we have to get up early and stay late every day."

Zhuo Jian was even envious, she liked this kind of energetic woman.