[Conan/Through Her] Fairy's Indus

"Let's talk." Toru Amuro said calmly.

At this time, he had received the picture email from Yuanzi... His eyes were so complicated that I couldn't understand them.

I wring my fingers uneasily and said awkwardly: "Well... I asked Brother Wei to call my teacher on your behalf. I asked him to hide it from you. It's not his fault. You don't want it." Blame him..."

He looked at me expressionlessly, and I could see no emotion or anger in his calm eyes: "Is this what you want to say?"

I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at him: "...Also, I shouldn't have exposed your identity like this, I'm sorry..."

"The investigation organized by the organization did not find a child's homework. Didn't Jing say anything to you at the beginning? Your level of naughtiness is not enough to cause trouble to me." Toru Amuro said, "I didn't Angry about that.”

Well, if it's not about blaming, what does he want to talk about...

I looked at him blankly.

He sighed: "Actually, during that time, I always thought that you already hated me."

I was stunned, never expecting him to say that.

"Why should I hate you?"

"I wasn't nice to you at the time." Toru Amuro said, "I promised to be your father, but I didn't care much about you. I completely failed to do what a father should do and fulfill his responsibilities. . In addition, I also dug holes for you, doubted you, forced you to question you, and deceived you, right? After being treated like this, it would be strange if I didn’t feel disgusted..."

I interrupted him in shock: "Wait a minute, is this happening?"

Toru Amuro blinked in surprise.

I started trying to remember if I had forgotten something.

A brief silence fell between us.

"Anyway -" I cleared my throat without recalling anything new and declared solemnly, "I will never hate you."

He raised his eyebrows: "Oh? No matter what I do to you?"

"……What's the meaning……"

"For example, if after the showdown two years ago, I sent you away and told you not to come back until the organization was destroyed." He looked at me seriously, "——Don't you hate me too? "

My hands tightened: "...No...I can understand."

"...That look again." His big hand fell on my head, and he sighed and said, "Sure enough, although you call me daddy, you don't actually regard me as your father, right?"

"You will not rely on me, you will not want to act coquettishly to me, you will not want me to participate in your growth, you will not be angry with me when I hurt you, and you will not be unable to accept my abandonment of you. You treat me, No child has ever asked for a father... So what kind of existence am I to you? - Who am I to you?"

I subconsciously opened my mouth to refute them one by one, but suddenly found that I couldn't refute the most crucial sentence.

——"You don't regard me as your father."

He is right...I have always called him Toru Amuro in my heart, not dad.

But why was he able to discover this?How to play? This man is too keen!You can't hide anything on your mind. Toru Amuro is so scary!hateful!Have I already hurt him...

So for me...Who is Toru Amuro?

I've never thought about this question.

I still remember the day we first met, I said to him something like "I have nothing, you gave me a father", which probably impressed him to some extent.

However, that was actually just a lie I told in a despicable way to try to please him.

Even though he always treats me as a child, and I always hang out with the children and do what children do, I still know it in my heart.

Although in terms of IQ, I probably can't catch up with him even if I drive a Gundam, my mental age should still be about the same as his.

Therefore, although I call him "Dad", it is just a habitual call. In fact, I have never regarded Toru Amuro and his classmates as my elders... Even if I do, I can only rely on him. live. ?

So, is he a companion? Take him down. I am such a bad guy, even ten of them are not qualified for me.

Are they cohabitants? ——No, no, this is too unfamiliar.

A nurturing relationship?It seems to be twisted and there seems to be nothing wrong... No, what am I thinking...

I thought wildly for a long time before I spoke softly after careful consideration: "You are right... I have indeed never regarded you as my father. The name I called your 'dad' is indeed... not worthy of the name. "

He listened quietly, his eyes dimming a lot.

It's not the kind of loss that he pretends to gain sympathy in front of Yuanzi and the others. Although it is very real, it is really a false sense of loss. At this moment, he is truly feeling lost... After being together for almost three years, I still feel this little change in his mood. You can see it.

So I definitely realize that.I hurt him.

My heart also ached, and the guilt came overwhelmingly, almost drowning me.

I grabbed his hand.

What kind of existence is Toru Amuro to me?

"——You are my belief!" I almost shouted.

"You are all. Every birthday, every festival, every time I see shooting stars, every time I can make a wish, I will pray to the gods for blessings."

"I'm sorry, I can't regard you as my father, but that's my own problem. It's because my cognition tells me that I'm actually about the same age as you. My instinct cannot recognize that you are my elder. That's not Because you are not good - you have always been my favorite and most important person."

The more I spoke, the more panicked I became, and the more I spoke, the more incoherent I became.

"I am indeed relying on you. I don't act like a spoiled child because it is enough to be able to stay by your side. I am not a real child. I have a mature mind and I really don't need to act like a child. So much care and love. I didn’t want you to participate in my life. I didn’t invite you to my school activities because I thought you were so busy. Rather than accompanying me, I wanted you to spend time with me in your precious life. Have a good rest during the break... I did feel angry at the time, but I just calmed down quickly... If you don't want me anymore, I will be very sad, very sad, very sad, and I say I can understand it because, Wan If you really want to do that, I don’t want to embarrass you..."

I looked into his soft purple-gray pupils, and I no longer knew what I was talking about. I just felt so anxious that I wanted to cry.

"So, in short, it's all my fault. Don't be sad. I don't want you to be sad..."

He took the hand that I had just grabbed and brought me into his arms.

"That's enough, no need to say more." He whispered in my ear, "Xiao Ruri, you are committing a foul..."

The tips of my ears felt a little itchy, and I didn't understand his emotions for a moment, so I said "Huh?" in confusion.

But he didn't explain any more.

His embrace was different from Zhu Fu Jingguang's. His embrace was tighter, more forceful, and aggressive. He had the smell of sunshine on him, and it penetrated every pore of my body without a doubt.

I heard his heartbeat.

It was deafening, more beautiful than any sound in the world.

On the day of the cultural festival of Didan Middle School, it was a sunny day with cherry blossoms flying in the sky. The early spring sunshine shone warmly on us. The children set up two rows of stalls along the school road in a lively manner. Everyone had happy faces. smiles, and the air is filled with joy.

Wearing a black peaked cap, Toru Amuro sighed to me in a good mood: "I miss this place so much."

I drank the ordinary-tasting pearl milk tea brought from the stall in my class and looked at him with my head tilted: "Did Dad also belong to Didan before?"

"Yes." He answered me with a smile while looking around at the enthusiastic children, "Jing and I met in this school when we were your current age."

"Wow, that's great. That must have left a lot of good memories, right?"

"Well, there are really a lot." His eyes were full of nostalgia, and there was a happy smile from the bottom of his mouth. "It always feels like a lot of things happened just yesterday, but in fact it has been so long... In other words , it should be time to open the time capsule of our class soon. Unfortunately, Jing and I have special status, so we probably won’t be able to attend the agreed class reunion—but, that kind of trivial matter, it doesn’t matter.”

Although he said some depressing words, his tone was still full of happiness.

It's because now that he thinks about the past between himself and Zhu Fu Jingguang, he is simply nostalgic and happy.

That's great.

I looked at his beautiful smile and couldn't help but be happy along with him.

I followed his words and asked: "Time capsule?"

"Yes, every third grader in Didan will write a letter to themselves ten years later. They are divided into classes and stored in the school's time capsule archives. It is agreed that ten years later, everyone will meet again at the age of 25. time, open it together.”

Wow, Japanese schools are so romantic.

I had an idea: "Then let's take it out now! The letter between you and Brother Wei!"

Toru Amuro looked at me in surprise.

The more I think about it, the more feasible it becomes: "Anyway, the time you agreed to open the capsule is coming soon, right? Although you and Brother Wei can't see your old classmates for the time being, you can go get your letter for yourself now! You I can also take it for brother Wei and give it to him as a surprise later, how great!"

"Oh, that makes sense." Toru Amuro turned around and walked toward the teaching building, "Okay, let's go."

I kept up with him, feeling excited about doing bad things.

Things went smoothly and surprisingly, everyone was busy with the cultural festival, and no one visited the archives room at all.Whether it's the lock of the archives room or the small lock of the compartment where the children's letters are stored, Toru Amuro doesn't care.

I looked at him with envy as he skillfully used the wire to pick the lock: "I want to learn too."

"Okay, I'll teach you later." He agreed readily.

I jumped up and down happily: "Really! That's great! It's agreed!"

He smiled and patted my head.

We first turned to Zhu Fu Jingguang’s letter.

The font on the envelope was neat and beautiful, and it said "To me ten years from now - Zhufu Jingguang". Toru Amuro's eyes were very soft. He looked at the envelope for a long time, and finally put it in my hand.

"Can I ask you to leave it to him, Ruri-chan?"

Suddenly being entrusted with a heavy responsibility, I carefully accepted the task and replied solemnly: "No problem!"

After we found the letter "To Rei Fukaya Ten Years Later", Toru Amuro restored everything and took me out of this archives room where time seemed to have stopped.

We found a deserted cherry blossom tree and sat down leaning against the trunk. Toru Amuro opened a letter to himself.

When I just grabbed a petal in the air, he had already finished reading the letter and looked at me with a smile, his eyebrows were picturesque.

I looked back at him curiously: "What was written in the letter? Is there anything you can tell me?"

He stretched out his hand and handed the letter directly to me.

——Me ten years from now:

You will definitely not let me down, because I have confidence in myself.

Could you, the 25-year-old self, say the same thing to your 35-year-old self?

Falling down to zero

puff.

"Well, it's a bit short." I commented while holding back a smile.

"You're a fool and you're a bastard." He criticized his past self mercilessly.

We laughed together.

Toru Amuro stood up, moved his shoulders, and performed a set of handsome boxing skills in the air.

He stretched out his hand in front of me, and there were five cherry blossom petals lying quietly in his palm.

"What wish do you want to make?" he asked me.

Ouch, the legend of magical petals that grant wishes?Does he still have this kind of girlish heart?

I smiled, held his hand, and closed my eyes piously: "Then I wish you happiness and peace in your old age."