I’m not going to die

5 – Feelings

So secretive, so secret, that only a few noble bloodlines knew their names.

I also burned the royal family and only found out after examining the secret documents hidden under it.

It is a place where black magicians have built their own magic tower, and a place where eternal life is studied.

Ambrosia

Black magic, demons, human body transmutation, sorcery, human sacrifice, etc. banned in all continents, monsters who want to achieve immortality by any means and methods.

The cause that changed my destiny, my life, and everything.

The most fundamental enemy to hate terribly.

That’s why they annihilated each one with flesh, and destroyed the entire royal family, their rear and final point.

Is it because it was a terrible past even looking back now?

Recalling the past, I closed my eyes and chewed on the pain and despair I felt then.

Not out of madness, but pure hatred and anger.

That’s why I swallow my emotions.

No need to rush, they’ll come to see you tonight.

The moment everyone is asleep, they will drag me to the bottom of the prison.

“We will camp here.”

“yes.”

The sky darkened, and night came.

The escort driver and Caron prepared for camp, and I stared at the porridge bowl that came up for a quick meal.

Originally, I had no appetite, but today, even more so.

I felt no appetite, no desire to sleep.

“Doesn’t it suit your taste?”

Noticing that I wasn’t eating at all, Caron looked up and asked.

I didn’t want to burden her, so I waved my hand and said.

“I have no appetite, so I’m thinking of skipping it.”

“That… . A snack if you like.”

“I don’t think I’ll be eating that anyway, so let’s skip today.”

Caron nodded at my words and prepared for bed.

There is a comfortable place to lie down in the wagon.

Even if I did, I had no intention of sleeping, but I pretended to lie down and close my eyes.

It was a situation that was exposed to danger, but I had to be caught at least once anyway.

Even in order to obtain a weapon that is my main armament and will become the strongest relic if used by Undead.

And then I felt something strange.

Why is Caron asleep in the seat across from me?

She wasn’t sleeping on the bed like I was, but it was strange that she was sitting in the carriage with her eyes closed.

My memory may not be accurate, but even now, at this moment, it is clear.

At that time, I was alone in the carriage.

But this time Caron was sleeping near me.

Of course, it has always been.

From the time I left the territory to the castle of Viscount Karis, to the time I came back.

Caron was very confident, sitting across from him in the carriage, so it seemed natural.

But now, recalling the exact memory, I knew that was not the case.

What conclusion did her strange behavior lead to?

“Caron, aren’t you sleeping?”

Although apparently sleeping comfortably, she is pretending to be asleep.

The sound of his even breathing stopped, and his closed eyes slowly opened.

Black eyes stared at me without wavering.

“Yes, Bocchan.”

“There is something I want to ask you.”

“Tell me.”

Although Karon’s behavior was different, it wasn’t too different from Raeli’s behavior toward me at first.

Showing a different side than usual, trying to get information through my reaction.

“You are doubting me.”

“…”

“You can doubt it, but are you thinking that I am someone else?”

“Because you have changed so much.”

“So far?”

No, it’s true that a lot has changed.

Since the person who ran away from the goblins was my original self, the thoughts of Karon, who had been with me since I was a child, weren’t that strange, but the direction was dangerous.

Dark magic and witchcraft had the diabolical power of possessing or stealing the body of another being.

Caron doubted it.

Some kind of being stole Argal’s body.

However, if Caron, who is only a maid, doubts these things, there will be no problem.

Gajoo, my older brother, my younger sister will believe my words.

It would be embarrassing in the first place.

It was because I was right, not another being possessed by this body.

“I am myself.”

“….Is that so?”

“If you doubt that, why don’t you call the priest to check?”

Of course, there was black magic that even saints beyond the clergy could not recognize, and he knew about it, but it didn’t matter anyway.

It’s not like I really possessed this body using such dark magic.

When I said that, Caron nodded as if he understood.

But there were still questions that lingered.

“Then why did you change, Bocchan?”

“…I’ll tell you someday.”

The past that became an immortal through human experimentation, killed everything with madness, and returned to the hero at the end.

I don’t feel the need to hide it until the end.

If I can gain someone’s trust through this, I intend to confide in it.

If anything is different from what you expected.

The fact that he said he would tell the story of the past to Caron first, not to his family.

As much as that, Caron has been by my side since I was young and knew everything about me.

That’s why I must have judged that it has changed completely beyond ‘changed’.

“I want to hear it now if possible… .”

Caron wanted to hear my story without delay.

But one step.

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The sound of footsteps penetrating this darkness.

the most important thing.

It was something I hadn’t forgotten while talking to her.

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The atmosphere cooled.

A sensation that makes the skin stand on end.

Even without seeing it, I knew who it was.

Especially since I killed them all with my own hands.

A master who can count ten fingers at most on the continent, less than one Arch Mage-class Transcendentalist.

The shadow of a kingdom capable of slaying a master if all forces are gathered.

The Executioner is here.

**

kingdom’s executive branch.

Unlike Ambrosia, the Enforcement Department knew a lot.

The royal family’s most secret sword.

A sword most feared by nobles and high-ranking officials.

Ambrosia isn’t weak enough to need an executive.

Ambrosia is where black magicians who can burn down a city are herpes.

However, the goal they want to achieve is impossible without the means to freely engage in outside activities.

That’s why it was the executive branch that gave the royal family the freedom to use it.

Thanks to this, Ambrosia was able to order and bring the test subject she wanted to the enforcement department.

There must be a lot of complaints as the executive department has to follow the words of a black magician and move like limbs, but what can I do?

If there is one fortunate thing, the enforcement itself is not the same tendency as Ambrosia.

If Ambrosia had arrived here herself, no one would survive here.

Caron and the knights escorting me must all be dead.

The executive wasn’t merciful, but they weren’t killing more than was necessary.

I only took a few steps, but I felt a strange presence outside the window.

Something blurry like a shadow said.

[You’re awake]

“…”

“Huh!”

[Did you know I was coming?]

Caron was startled by the feeling of being restrained all over and tried to twist her body, but she couldn’t move.

I, too, have a shadow restraining my entire body.

He alone possesses this unique power.

It was a bit surprising.

High Executor Dante.

Even though he contracted with the great devil and gained great power, he was defeated by dying five times.

What surprised me was that a high-ranking executor had come to this matter.

[Well, I guess it doesn’t matter.]

My body floated in the air.

The bailiff seemed intent on tying up Caron and dragging me along.

It seems that the shadow has been coated with sleeping pills, and consciousness is gradually blurring.

Caron’s trembling eyes look at me.

I tried to open my mouth as if there were words left unspoken, but the shadow held me tight.

There was no easy way to dispel Dante’s shadow.

The level of resistance itself is impossible unless you are a certain level of prowess.

But that doesn’t mean there’s no way out as an ordinary person.

No more desperate.

If there is one thing you want to do even if the world collapses.

The shadows will be released.

It was possible because his shadow was close to witchcraft, not magic or black magic.

The shamanistic part is sensitive to emotions.

However, there are very few cases in which this rule of law works.

Normally, he struggles with the shadows surrounding him and then despairs, but it is difficult to overcome the despair and escape.

but.

I saw something astounding in my eyes.

“I’m sorry!!”

She was released into custody.

Only a blurry afterimage remained of the shadows surrounding it, and Caron, who was released immediately, cried out to me desperately.

As if responding to that voice, the escort knights woke up and rushed armed.

“Bocchan, are you okay?!”

“Who are you!”

The voices of the knights were booming, but there was no meaning.

Not just an enforcer, but a high-ranking executor.

He was strong enough to annihilate all the power here by himself.

More than this, the fact that Caron had been released from the shadows was a mystery.

Why did you have such earnestness?

[…something is strange.]

When Dante clicked his finger, all the vigorous knights fell to their knees.

The shadow crossed the line that covered the body and crushed them in the form of a huge monster.

[One guy got kidnapped, but that’s what it is, and that bitch unleashed my shadow.]

The emotions that are clearly buried in that tone.

Even I know that feeling well.

I’m debating whether to kill them all or not.

“Ssssssss, hesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.s.s.s.s.s,ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss”

[Are you kidding me?]

A shadow was strangling Caron.

Displeasure was evident.

“Kek, Kek!”

Caron’s face gradually turns blue.

The gaze that has nowhere to go is directed towards me in the end.

It’s not asking for help or complaining.

Even until the very end, the emotions of worrying about me were contained in both eyes.

It was strange.

so much

When Raeli was saved, it was just to prevent a strange variable.

I never felt any special value there.

But, why the hell now?

Why do you want to save Caron?

Why is my heart aching?

Do you remember the memory of piercing her heart and killing her?

feet touch the ground

The body that had regained freedom moved forward.

I breathed in the cold night air.

I was once a semi-transcendant.

His immortal body did not break even if he pursued only strength through all means and methods.

Black magic, sorcery, human sacrifice, devil’s pact.

Even if your body turns to mud and becomes half a corpse, the ultimate destination you will eventually reach is transcendence.

How could I not know witchcraft?

I didn’t even have to control my emotions.

It’s because you have to release it according to the established rules.

I spoke to the bailiff, who was still holding Carol’s throat, unaware of my approach.

“High Executor Dante.”

[…what?]

When he saw me standing still, he laughed at the absurdity.

As her gaze shifted, the power of the shadow holding Carol’s breath weakened.

I couldn’t hit Dante to death now.

I didn’t have the power of the great devil right away, and I didn’t even have a conventional dagger to use black magic.

Well, if you make up your mind and ask them to use black magic, there’s nothing they can’t use.

However, since I was planning to infiltrate Ambrosia’s headquarters, I couldn’t let anything more happen here.

In any case, the best thing is to be quietly kidnapped by him.

[You’ve been such a jerk today, how do you know my name?]

“That doesn’t matter.”

[An executor will come today, and what is more important than knowing the executor’s name and title?]

He sighed deeply.

That, after all, doesn’t matter.

What is most important to him is… . It’s your mission to kidnap me.

Systematically, Ambrosia’s command was also identified with the king’s order.

Of course, it’s not exactly the same, but if you ignore Ambrosia’s order, it’s the same as ignoring the king’s order.

“Executor, don’t forget your duty. Is your mission to exterminate everyone here?”

The executor’s eyes flickered in the blurry shadows.

“Or are you kidnapping me?”