I’m Not a Badass

Thank you everyone for your hard work.

Sister Xue, you have worked hard too!

Be careful on your way home. There have been a lot of thieves on the trams recently.

Well, Sister Xue, you have to be careful yourself.

Saying goodbye to each of her colleagues, and after the last person left, Xue Xiaoyan rubbed her sore neck and began to pack her things and do final inspections.

Xiao Zhang's document seems to have a few errors. Forget it, everyone has been gone for a while, let me help him correct it. Xue Xiaoyan frowned slightly, adjusted the glasses on the bridge of her nose, sat down again and started busy .

Not far away, there were two men who had not left yet and were packing their things. One of the young men, who still looked a bit immature on his face, quietly looked at Xue Xiaoyan who was immersed in his work. With a hint of admiration in his eyes, he whispered: Team Leader Xue is so handsome...

When another man next to him saw this, he said with a smile: That's natural. Xiao Hu, you just came here not long ago, but you don't know that Sister Xue is very popular not only in our group, but also in the entire company. The company There are many people like you inside, who have a good impression of Sister Xue.

Brother Liu is like this too? Xiao Hu asked back.

Of course, Sister Xue is so good-looking, very temperamental, and friendly to people, so I naturally have a good impression of Sister Xue. Brother Liu first admitted generously, and then glanced at Xue Xiaoyan who was sitting over there, his eyes He dimmed slightly, shook his head and said, But I know how much I weigh, so I won't join in the fun with that group of people.

Hearing this, Xiao Hu was also a little discouraged. He pouted and raised the mirror on his desk to look at it, trying to find a few bright spots. Finally, he put down the mirror dejectedly and sighed: Then I will do this It’s even more hopeless.”

Xiao Hu thought about it and was still a little unwilling. He lowered his voice and asked: Brother Liu, you usually sit next to Sister Xue and give me some advice? For example, what type of person does Sister Xue like? Is there any man with whom I have a close relationship? Friends. Tonight is the annual fireworks display. If possible, I would like to try to ask Sister Xue to go with me. Maybe we can do it?

Brother Liu looked thoughtful, shook his head and said: I don't know about this either. At least I have never seen Sister Xue express obvious closeness to anyone, and she also maintains a polite distance from those suitors. She has never I promised to go out to eat alone with someone. I have been sitting next to Sister Xue for a year or two. In fact, from my own daily observation, I feel that Sister Xue...

At this point, Brother Liu showed a strange look and became hesitant.

Xiao Hu on the side was listening carefully and couldn't help but urge: Sister Xue, what is she? Brother Liu, you can't speak half of what you are saying!

Brother Liu hesitated for a moment, and finally said with a wry smile: I feel like Sister Xue already has someone in her heart. When she is resting, she will often look at her mobile phone in a daze. Once I happened to pass by and found that her mobile phone There is a very beautiful man on the screen, so beautiful that even a man like me cannot feel jealous. And when Sister Xue is usually in a daze, she is looking at that boy's photo.

Xiao Hu couldn't help but exclaimed softly, and then quickly glanced at Xue Xiaoyan, who was sitting far away, and found that no one was paying attention. Then he said with a bitter face: Doesn't this mean that I have no hope at all?

That's right, so you kid, just give up on this idea. Your brother Liu will accompany you to the fireworks display in the evening and introduce you to some other beauties. Brother Liu patted his shoulder and packed up. Dongxi walked over and said hello to Xue Xiaoyan, then pulled the unhappy Xiao Hu away.

Not long after, Xue Xiaoyan also finished handling the matters at hand. Before leaving the company, she went to the bathroom, stood in front of the faucet and looked at herself in the mirror. She was dressed in smart business attire, and her blond hair was tied into a single ponytail. Finally, a pair of glasses hung on the bridge of his nose, slightly covering his naturally vicious eyes.

Sometimes I really wonder if this is me. Xue Xiaoyan shook her head, dried her hands with the machine next to her, and turned to leave.

Bang, bang, bang...

Listening to the sound of the tram tracks in his ears, Xue Xiaoyan sat by the window and looked at the rapidly receding scenery outside, and couldn't help but be in a daze.

She has been living a boring and ordinary life like this after getting off work, taking the tram, and going home for more than three years since she graduated from college.

It's been seven years... Xue Xiaoyan muttered to herself, looking slightly dazed.

In just the blink of an eye, seven years have passed since the day I graduated from high school.

Thanks to catching up on her grades in her senior year of high school, she was admitted to a pretty good university. She studied hard enough during college, so she found a job in a good company soon after graduation, showing her excellent work ability. , was appreciated by his boss, and became the team leader in just three years. It can be said that he was very successful.

In order to achieve this step, she also made great efforts and sacrifices. Recalling that when she first entered the company, she put on glasses to cover her eyes, tightened the corners of her mouth, and showed an unnatural smile. Now she is a capable person who can skillfully deal with various complex interpersonal relationships in the workplace. .

Along the way, only I know all the bitterness.

Especially for someone with a withdrawn and unsociable temperament like her, it is really extremely difficult to become such a good boss who is friendly and eloquent in the eyes of outsiders. The first thing that needs to be overcome is Her own psychology.

Fortunately, she survived all this. In order to make money and take care of her family, all these efforts are necessary and worthwhile. Now these efforts have been rewarded. In the eyes of outsiders, she is completely a representative of a successful person.

But Xue Xiaoyan always had a regret in her heart.

Look, it looks like snow...

The sudden words pulled Xue Xiaoyan from memories into reality.

She followed the sound and saw that the sound was coming from the small screen of the tram. On the screen was a scene of cherry blossoms in bloom, and a pair of childhood sweethearts who were only about seven or eight years old were chasing each other on a sea of ​​cherry blossoms. The picture was extremely beautiful. .

Immediately after the screen turned, a line of text appeared on it, accompanied by a female voice: The animated version of the popular masterpiece 5 Centimeters per Second will be released on July 28! If you buy a movie ticket on the same day and go to the cinema, you will have the opportunity to win An original novel signed by the original author of Five Centimeters Per Second!

Xue Xiaoyan was slightly startled, then smiled knowingly.

The novel he wrote has been animated, and it seems that Xia Xu's career as a writer has taken another step forward.

Although the two had hardly communicated with each other in the past seven years, she still remembered Xia Xu, a classmate she had met in high school. Seven years later, the little conflict at the time had long since been relieved.

Not long after, Xue Xiaoyan returned home. She lived in an ordinary apartment building, which she rented after she started working. The house was not big, but it was well-equipped and very warm. It was more than enough for one person to live in.

It was only after she started working for a year that she decided to move out and live alone. Firstly, it was relatively close to the company, making it easier to commute to and from get off work. Secondly, her younger brother was now grown up and she no longer had to worry as much as before. She could take good care of her father, so she felt comfortable moving out.

As for her mother Xue Ran... Xue Xiaoyan has changed her mind a lot in recent years. The main reason is that Xue Ran has truly changed her past. She no longer indulges in gambling, works hard, and strives to make up for her past mistakes. At least this is worthy of recognition. , although Xue Xiaoyan still looks cold and indifferent on the surface, in fact, she has basically forgiven her in her heart.

Xue Xiaoyan put her things away and went into the kitchen to make a simple dinner to fill her stomach. Then the phone rang.

She picked up the phone and looked at it, and found that it was her brother Xue Xiaojing's call, so she chose to answer the call: Hello, Xiaojing?

Sister, my father and I are going to watch the fireworks show, will you go too? Xue Xiaojing's voice came from the other end. Seven years later, Xue Xiaojing is already a big boy who is about to graduate from high school, with a steady tone in his voice.

Xue Xiaoyan smiled and said, I won't go.

It's true. Xue Xiaojing was not surprised by his sister's answer. He couldn't help but wonder: Sister, why have you gone to every fireworks display alone in the past seven years? Wouldn't it be better to go with us?

... Xue Xiaoyan just remained silent.

Xue Xiaojing sighed and said: Every time you say nothing like this, forget it, I won't ask too many questions. Sister, you have to take care of yourself alone. I will help take care of you at home. Don’t worry. Oh, by the way, Mom will come back from time to time. Although Dad has never expressed his attitude clearly, I can see that his attitude has softened a lot compared to before.

Well, thank you Xiaojing. Xue Xiaoyan said softly.

After hanging up the phone, Xue Xiaoyan leaned back in her chair and turned to look out the window. It was a dark night with few stars under the moon, and she could faintly hear the laughter of people walking on the street outside. At this time, many people had already gone out and were preparing to go to the designated square to wait. Set off fireworks.

I'll leave too.

Xue Xiaoyan took a deep breath, stood up, took a shower, changed out of her professional clothes, and then put on a casual white shirt, a pair of light-colored denim shorts, and her legs were slender and straight, like They are two tender white bamboo shoots, white and tender.

She took off her hair tie and let her beautiful blond hair hang down her head. Then she took off her glasses, revealing those familiar ferocious eyes that seemed to say Keep strangers out.

Just a simple change of clothes, Xue Xiaoyan's temperament changed drastically, from the easy-going and easy-going strong woman in the workplace to the bad girl she once was.

In fact, she has not changed. She just wears a mask in the company to adapt to the rules of the workplace. And whenever she returns home from get off work, she will take off her disguise and reveal her true self.

Xue Xiaoyan took a look at herself in the mirror, couldn't help but let out a long sigh of relief, stretched lazily, and murmured: Sure enough, it's much more pleasing to the eye.

She walked out of the house and came to a black motorcycle parked under the apartment. She sat on it with her long legs and took out the key to start it. The motorcycle took her away from the apartment building.

The scenery on both sides of the street quickly receded. Xue Xiaoyan's blond hair was fluttering in the wind. The buzzing sound of the motorcycle's engine attracted the attention of many passers-by on the surrounding streets, perhaps including colleagues and subordinates in her company. But I'm afraid no one would have thought that this bad girl who seemed hard to get close to was the close and reliable team leader Xue in their company.

The night is getting darker, but the city is becoming more and more lively. The fireworks ban has been issued for so many years. Ordinary citizens who want to see the fireworks can only wait for this day, and naturally they don't want to miss it.

Moreover, after years of development, today's fireworks displays are no longer just for viewing fireworks. Whether it is a tryst between men and women or a gathering of families, this night is very suitable.

Xue Xiao drove his motorcycle and avoided the crowded central square. Instead, he came to another remote uphill road, just above the central square.

This was a good place to watch fireworks that she finally found after searching around the city on her motorcycle. Not only are there few people, but the view is very wide. When the fireworks display officially starts at 8:30 in the evening, you can perfectly appreciate all the details of the fireworks blooming, which is much better than in a crowded square.

Xue Xiaoyan parked the motorcycle, took out the key and put it in his pocket, then walked to the iron fence on the side of the road, supported the iron fence with both hands, and looked towards the square.

In fifteen minutes...the fireworks will go up from that place.

Xue Xiaoyan was stunned. She actually knew that there was no point in doing this. He didn't come seven years ago, and it would be even more impossible today seven years later.

But for some reason, Xue Xiaoyan still had a faint hope in her heart.

Sometimes she felt that she was ridiculous. The other person was the brightest moon in the sky, and she was just a tiny speck of dust underneath. Her unrealistic fantasies should have been extinguished as early as high school. She knew from the beginning how far apart they were.

It's enough to watch him from a distance - this is what Xue Xiaoyan thought at the time.

Now that I think about it, when I helped him out on the tram, I unexpectedly got his attention and concern. That time was really like a dream, very unreal.

But dreams are still dreams. With the arrival of graduation, her dream also woke up, but that experience and memory were well preserved.

Xue Xiaoyan unconsciously raised her hand and touched the side of her white face. In a daze, she recalled the moment when he put the plaster on herself.

That was their first real communication and the beginning of the dream.

During these seven years, she had carefully treasured that memory in her heart, and it was her precious treasure.

Xue Xiaoyan put down her hands and looked up at the bright moon. Seven years later, maybe she should try to let go of the obsession with the past and embrace the future.

As for the regret that it cannot be completed, let it stay in my heart forever...

In the blink of an eye, it was only half a minute away from half past eight.

Xue Xiaoyan looked quietly in the direction of the square, waiting for the fireworks to bloom.

Suddenly, there were very slight footsteps coming closer from far away, and finally seemed to stop not far behind her.

Xue Xiaoyan thought he was just a passerby, so he ignored him and didn't even look back. But at this moment, a familiar yet unfamiliar male voice sounded: Excuse me, are you here to enjoy the fireworks too?

Xue Xiaoyan's heart trembled and she turned around in a daze.

A young man was standing opposite, looking at her with a smile and warm eyes.

At this moment, it was like a ray of light broke through the darkness and shined into her heart.

Xue Xiaoyan looked at this figure that haunted her, and she had thousands of words in her heart, but she couldn't say a word at this moment. The eloquence she had developed in the workplace became a joke at this moment, and she became that lonely girl who was stupid and didn't know how to express herself.

Xue Xiaoyan's lips moved a few times, her eyes fixed on the face that had appeared countless times in her dreams, and finally she only said three words: You are here.

Bai Mufan snorted lightly and walked up to Xue Xiaoyan. Looking at this bad girl who was still the same as before, with a trace of heartache and guilt in his eyes, he said softly: I'm here to fulfill the agreement back then. I'm sorry, I'm here. late.

Xue Xiaoyan looked at him, and he was also looking at the girl. The moment their eyes touched, Xue Xiaoyan was sure... that she was not in a dream.

This is reality.

Bai Mufan really came to fulfill the agreement made back then.

A promise for two people to enjoy the fireworks together.

Bang!

As if according to a timetable, the fireworks took off at exactly this moment, exploded suddenly, and bloomed with beautiful light like flowers, illuminating the dark night.

Some people say that rose-colored youth is the beautiful youth worth recalling. It's as if the whole world has been dyed in the color of roses, so colorful that it makes people forget to leave.

Xue Xiaoyan did not have rose-colored youth, but she felt at this moment that no beautiful scenery in the world could compare to this moment.

She looked at the figure beside her and then at the fireworks blooming in the night sky. A beautiful smile appeared on the corner of her mouth like spring snow melting, and she spoke softly.

The fireworks are so beautiful.

Um.