I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior

　　 As a teenager, Chen Feng had many fantasies.

　　 Suddenly one day, the figures of the biological parents appeared outside the classroom door, calling their names.

　　 Then you can leave this painful home and return to where you should go.

　　 But as the days passed, he slowly gave up his extravagance and became numb, no longer having illusions, and just wanted to get rid of the predicament by his own efforts.

　　He didn't know how he felt about his biological parents.

　　 Thanks for giving them life?

　　 should be grateful.

　　But why not care about yourself, so that she appeared alone in the home of the stranger, and became the son of the stranger who bought the money. Since making a note, remembering the word "parents", he didn't feel the slightest warmth.

　　 Therefore, he knew that it was wrong, but Chen Feng had some resentment against his biological parents.

　　He hated the other party, since he couldn't raise himself well, why should he be born.

　　Since I was born, I lost it, why don't you try to find me.

　　If it weren’t for me, I’m more stubborn, stronger, and pretended to be more cold-blooded. I really just sink into the abyss and can’t break away.

　　The resentment of this kind of youth was lurking in his heart, which he thought had been forgotten, but now he was suddenly put before Lu Wei's eyes, making him retreat.

　　 This deep-seated emotion impacted him even more than when he died as a human leader.

　　 Now he can shoulder the important task of saving civilization, but he is unwilling to face the pain of his youth for a while.

　　Lu Wei understood his mood and even sketched such scenes in his mind many times before taking out the document bag.

　　Chen Feng seemed to be decisively "not looking", but instead let her smell a strong "human taste" from this detached genius of the same age.

　　 Fortunately, you are not a fairy.

　　Five minutes later, Chen Feng spread his hands, "Let me see."

　　 I know your expression as soon as Lu Wei puts the sealed file bag in Chen Feng's hands.

　　 Inside is a few sheets of paper, and seven or eight reprinted photos.

　　Chen Feng didn't dare to look at the photos first, but the situation on the first few pages of paper.

　　 The truth is very consistent with one of his many guesses.

　　 For the past, Chen Feng still vaguely remembers it, but it is very vague. I can’t remember the specific time and place, or even the appearance of people’s faces and scenes.

　　He only knew that when he was very young, one day early in the morning, grandpa and grandpa carried their baskets and said they were going to the town to sell vegetables, and then he was handed over to a fellow young man to help watch.

　　 Then the little young man took him to wander around, probably went to the village health center.

　　 There is a small house near the health center, many people are playing cards, and young and young have also been added.

　　 The young man took the first straight flush or something. Anyway, it was a big card, killing the Quartet, and suddenly got a rush.

　　 Then the young man let Chen Feng play by himself.

　　 But he is not fun, because no one ignores him, and there are no other children nearby.

　　Chen Feng is particularly bored by himself and wants to go to grandpa and grandma.

　　 Not long ago, he went to town once on Grandpa's two or eight lap bicycles. I remember that there was only one oil road. The market where grandpa and grandma sell vegetables seems to be seen directly by the roadside.

　　He decided to go to his grandparents.

　　 He ran away quietly.

　　Five minutes later, he appeared at the T-shaped intersection formed by the village road dirt road and the national road Poyou road.

　　 Finished and forgot whether to go left or right.

　　Chen Feng lingered in place for a long time and decided to go to the left.

　　Maybe...maybe...should I be right?

　　……

　　 In 1999, in a city center of a county in Shu province, a boy squatted in a corner with a blank face.

　　 He hasn't eaten for a whole day, and is hungry.

　　 He was lost.

　　 An "enthusiastic" aunt took him to eat bowl noodles and said to help him home.

　　He believed.

　　 By the time he recovered, he had already appeared in a rural area thousands of miles away.

　　The three-year-old was faced with strange "parents", strange "relatives", and strange environment, and fell into great panic.

　　 "You are not my parents! You are not my grandparents!"

　　 This is the first sentence he spoke with the middle-aged couple and others.

　　 this sentence laid the tone of his first half of his life.

　　Sometimes Chen Feng regrets himself, why remember, maybe it is better to know nothing.

　　 Or you can be more clever, know that acting pleases others, don't break the words as soon as you come, it will be better. Starting

　　 But this is difficult for a three-year-old child who is too strong.

　　 What's more annoying is that he clearly remembered, but he didn't remember enough details, and he couldn't remember where it was, so that when he was 11 or 12 years old, he always wanted to pack his bags and start, but he didn't know where to go.

　　 The world is so big that there is nowhere to be home, and can only go back in vain.

　　Stumbled, he grew up like this.

　　 He didn't quite know what kind of life the children of other people lived. He only knew that he had to work since he was five or six years old.

　　 When I was in junior high school, some of my classmates dropped out of school to work, but he wanted to study because the teacher said that reading was useful.

　　 But in the "home" every day urge, every day scolding.

　　 said that he didn't do anything in his free time, and the children of other people could go out to earn money and send money back.

　　 He was good, he knew to read some useless books, and raised an unfamiliar white-eyed wolf.

　　 You bought it for more than a thousand, you lose money.

　　Chen Feng was cut off the cost of textbooks and reduced the cost of living. Even the oil flowers in every meal were extravagant.

　　If the teacher didn’t think he had good grades, he was thin and stunted. He often asked him to eat at home. Chen Feng suspected that he had to die from malnutrition in junior high school.

　　 As for the textbook fee, the principal of the school paid him the advance, saying that he was a good child and had to study.

　　 In high school, things got worse, he couldn't get a penny anymore, and "home" would not be returned.

But the old men in the county elderly activity center helped him a lot. He just had to sweep the floor, help run up and down to drink tea, accompany the old men to babble, and from time to time were pushed onto the chessboard to kill the piece of armor. , A few hundred yuan a month.

　　 But life is not all good. Chen Feng used to have a relatively lonely personality, dressed in poor clothes, and also made him suffer from campus bullying when he entered the county to study high school.

　　 But after others saw him killing hard, he stopped a lot, but isolated him and did not die with him easily.ァ新ヤ~⑧~1~中文网ωωω.χ~⒏~1zщ.còм

　　 He has very bad interpersonal relationships among his classmates, few friends, but there are also.

　　He finally succeeded in entering the 985 grade Hanzhou University with good grades, embarked on a life of his own, and was completely emotionally separated from that "home".

　　Time flies, and now it is now.

　　Chen Feng hates and loves the world.

　　 His hatred is very confused, because he really does not know who he hates, but there is fire in his heart.

　　 But his love was clear in his goals. He helped his teacher, the classmates who put vegetables and meat in his empty lunch box from time to time, the old people in the senior activity center, Tang Shuang...

　　If it were not for the existence of these people, Chen Feng did not know what kind of person he would become.

　　His experience doomed him to be a complicated person.

　　 In the past six months, in addition to making a lump sum payment to the foster parents, Chen Feng successively asked the person to return to the hometown that was not his hometown, and contacted the people who had helped him.

　　He told others that if he needs help, he can help.

　　But most people said no matter whether they were difficult or not, we had a good time. You had to spare time to organize a party. The big guys ate and ate together, just chatting.

　　 says that things gather together in groups, and that the goodness of youth becomes the cultivation of youth when they grow up.

　　 Seeing his life at a glance, Chen Feng's character and experience helped him complete the process of selecting friends in advance.

　　 Even Chen Feng didn't dare to say big things, if you are short of money, don't make trouble, don't hesitate to tell me.

　　 It was these true friends who responded that feelings would be vulgar with money, but if we are really careless, we will find you and rest assured.

It's a pity that the old men who had the deepest friendship with him had walked away several times in recent years. Chen Feng wanted to go back a few times to see the remaining two old men. But he had been busy until now, only Can arrange individuals from time to time to give some health products and small gifts.

　　 No one wants to be expensive.

　　 Including classmates' meals, he also stalled.

　　He doesn't have a home, these people are his "home", but he has no time to return.

　　 But now he finally saw another home of his own.

　　 This is a picture of a man.

　　 A man in his twenties or so, dressed in a green military uniform, with dark skin, a strong and strong smile in the sun, UU reading www.uukanshu.com eyes condensed, but it reminded Chen Feng of his future makeup photos when wearing military uniforms.

　　 The photo is a kind of old-fashioned color photo of the film. The color should be Lucky film.

"that's nice."

　　He opened the second picture again.

　　 This is a woman wearing a white nurse's uniform. She has a beautiful smile and a bright smile.

　　 She was standing in the shade of the tree, and the light transmitted by the sun radiated on her face, making her slightly open her eyes.

　　 is obviously a serious photograph, but her eyes are trying to float to the left.

　　Left feet wearing blue socks were found on the left side of the screen.

　　 "My mother is so beautiful."

　　 he said.

　　 The third photo shows the woman holding a child about two months old, standing side by side with the man.

　　 adults are still working hard to squeeze smiles on their faces, and the child in the woman's arms opens her mouth to cry, and the blue elf socks on the legs are particularly conspicuous.

　　 Turning to the next photo again, it turned into two old people sitting on the chair, centered in the layout of the photo, and the child fell into the arms of the grandmother, still struggling.

　　 The two adults stood behind the old man, the man's military posture was still straight, the woman's eyes flickered down and fell on the child.

　　 also has three or four photos, taken about one or two years old, with a single photo, or he was held by the two old people.

　　Although he is very young in the photo, Chen Feng can see his shadow in his eyes.