Farmer’s Little Girl

  Chapter 3412 Extraordinary Yin or

  Yin has known since he was a child that he is different from other children, because he is like an ice cube in summer, he has to be carefully guarded and protected from heating.

   seems to be in danger of ablation every day.

  Everyone wants him to live, grandmother, father, sisters, but no one has asked him if he wants to live.

  Yin or not thinking about it at all.

  He didn’t feel the fun of being alive, he only felt pain. In this world, he has no friends, nor will he have friends;

  He has relatives, but the love they give him makes him almost breathless. Sometimes he even wonders whether they love him or the identity of his inheritance.

When he couldn't sleep at night, he wanted to kill himself more than once. He thought of many ways. There was no need to hang the wrist and take medicine. All he needed to do was gently kick the quilt away or send it to his mouth. Pour out the medicine, and he can achieve the goal.

In fact, he did this too, but the result was that those who served him were put in the yard and punished severely. If he hadn't heard the movement, he would cough fiercely with fright, and almost coughed up his life to serve him. Xiao Si is afraid of being beaten to death.

  But since then he has understood that his life is not only his life, but the life of those around him. . .

  He can not care about his family’s sadness and death, but he can’t care about the life and death of those around him, especially the longevity that he personally chooses to come to him, he is his person.

  So he thinks being a person is weird and boring, life can't compete with heaven; death can't compete with others. Life and death can't be the master, and being a man can be regarded as the first in the ages.

  He was already prepared to live his life according to their arrangements, but he was still a little unwilling when he came to the end.

  Having finally become a human being, why should he be trapped in this small courtyard until death?

  So when he was about to tell him a kiss at home, he used a lot of effort to persuade the family to send him to the Imperial College to study.

  He doesn’t want much, so he wants to go out and see other people, other sceneries, anyway, he has to let his heart know that he has lived in this world.

  Even if it is only two years, or even one year.

  So Yin might go out of the house regularly to go to school at the Imperial College for the first time.

  Although this will increase the load on his body and make him feel uncomfortable to get up every day, he never gets tired of it, which gives him a feeling of being alive.

  He can feel that the doses of medicine sent recently are getting bigger and bigger. They are waiting, waiting for his body to be adjusted to the best degree, waiting for him to find a suitable person to marry him, then get married and have children...

  Once a child is born, the task he has left in this world for his entire life is even completed.

  Yin may think that he wants to live every day as the last day. Before entering the Imperial College, he did not expect to meet people like Bai Shan, Zhou Man, and Bai Er.

  He knows that many people outside hate him, they will not make friends with him, or even have contact with him, and he himself knows why.

  He never thought about making friends.

  Make friends...you will be sad even if your friend dies?

  So it’s boring to blame. Since you all know you’re short-lived, why bother to make friends?

  To deceive a tear?

  When Yin or himself is emotional, whether it is sadness, anger, or shame, as long as the emotions fluctuate, tears will flow down uncontrollably. He hates this kind of himself, and he once changed it privately with Changshou.

  But when he gets emotional, he will cry. He forcibly resists the redness of his eye sockets. On the contrary, he will be more agitated, and finally fainted and fainted.

  He felt that compared to crying, those standing opposite him should be more afraid of fainting?

  So he has no choice but not to change it. Anyway, for him, face is not even a human being, so what kind of face can he still need?

   But still very angry.

  Especially because of him, his elder sister always troubles those people, not only angry, but also ashamed.

  He had the idea of ​​not going to school anymore, but he thought that this was an opportunity he had fought for by his fate, why didn't he go?

  He thought that the "struggle" with Bai Shan would eventually be the same as those before. Bai Shan was defeated by his sisters, and finally stayed away from hostility to him, but he did not expect that his senior sisters and junior brothers would come to the door.

I never thought that his senior sister was a little lady who was younger than him. She was obviously younger than him. When she saw him, she looked old-fashioned. After seeing him, she didn't scold and insult him. Instead, she told him earnestly. , "You are sick, this is a disease, you have to be cured!"

  Yin or the eye sockets were red at the time, thinking she was cursing, but after a pause, she realized that she was not. She was just stating that she really thought he was sick.

  For the first time, someone said that he was sick because of his crying, and looked at her eagerly or curiously.

  For many years afterwards, whenever he thinks of their encounter, Yin may have to be grateful for his rise that year, otherwise he will not go to the Imperial College, nor will he meet Bai Shan, and thus meet Zhou Man and Bai Er.

  Even he was a little grateful to his sisters. If they hadn't stopped Baishan, the four of them probably wouldn't have so much intersection.

  Since then, Yin may feel kindness and the feeling of being treated equally with outsiders for the first time.

  It turned out to be so happy to be treated like this without "pity".

  He was very happy that he had made friends. For the first time, he felt that it was a good feeling to be alive.

  Whether they are Bai Shan, Zhou Man or Bai Er, they are very healthy. Not only can they run and jump, crying and laughing presumptuously, but they can also use sack to trap people...

  Being a human being is really fun.

  For the first time, Yin may have the idea of ​​living for himself. He wants to live, don’t pass on from generation to generation, and live according to his own ideas, even if he died early.

  Many times, he wanted to talk to Bai Shan, he wanted to give him longevity, and he had installed the identity, but he just couldn't send it out.

  He is not courage enough, he couldn't say that to the look that grandmother expected.

  In the end, Zhou Man made the decision for him and told him, “As long as you are not married and take good care of your body, I can let you live for many years, really.”

  With this reason, Yin may finally talk to her grandmother tentatively.

  It's a pity that grandmother doesn't trust Zhou Man. No, she should not trust him.

  Yin may make the third boldest decision in his life, to pour the medicine given to him at home, to drink the medicine Zhou Man gave him, and to accept her needle...

  This is probably the second most correct decision he made in his life.

  It was also from that day that he deviated from the path chosen for him at home, and became more and more biased, until he was able to follow his own ideas completely.

  Yin may once asked his father, "Don’t you blame me?"

   Yin Li shook his head: "No blame, as long as you live."

  Yin may ask with red eyes, "Then why didn't you think so before?"

   Yin Li helplessly said: "I used to think so too. I thought you were the best way to live like that. I don't know how hard you are living like that."

  　The extravaganza is about to end. Recently I am working on the information and outline of the new book, so there are few in the world, and I will update two chapters every day.

  (End of this chapter)