evening light

Chapter 174 Reality
"Fei Fei, I found another boyfriend, who seems to be from a good family. She is a sweetheart, this girl." They decided not to talk about this heavy topic anymore.

"Where are you from, and how are you treating Fei Fei?" Guo Hongjing was very concerned about this question.

"It's the people from Guangming City who treat her fairly well, but they don't look very good-looking, and Feifei refuses to post a frontal photo of him."

Xuan added another sentence, "By the way, it seems that they will get engaged after a while."

"That's still pretty good."

"What is Yao doing?"

"She is studying like you, but she seems to say that she recently fell in love with a good-looking boy."

"who is it?"

"Isn't she in a health school? A male doctor, an angel in white. He's so handsome."

"Then are they together?"

"No, it seems to be her unilateral liking. I don't know the details. You have been back for a long time."

"Come back after the Chinese New Year, are you coming back?"

"I want to come back, but you have to come back early, if it's late, I might have to go back to my hometown."

"Yes, I'll be back soon. Take good care of yourself."

"You have to take good care of yourself. It's not too late. I'm going to bed. Good night."

"Good night." After the conversation ended, Guo Hongjing almost understood.their situation.

Maybe Xuan will really get married and have children soon.

Two of her elementary school classmates are already married, and they both took wedding photos.Guo Hongjing watched a girl post a pregnancy test stick.It seems that they have children.

The pace is still quite fast, and she is still alone, but after she once again recognized the reality, her heart became more determined to study hard.

How important study is for a poor kid like her.

"Guo Hongjing, come here, mom will talk to you."

Guo Hongjing didn't know what Chen Qun wanted to say, but she had to say that her temper had improved a lot in the six months since she came here.

She stopped beating and scolding Guo Hongjing.

"You've been working hard recently, keep working hard, I'm optimistic about you. When I was young, I thought you could even do the extra questions. You will definitely have a bright future."

"Don't you see that you are doing well now? They always say that women are not smart enough to catch up with men. I don't believe in this evil. You study hard, don't read all the books like me."

"As long as you pass the exam, the family will definitely provide for you to go to college. Do you hear me? I still have great expectations for you."

Chen Qunyu spoke earnestly at the side, as if she had pinned all her hopes on her.

"In the past, I was wrong for beating you that time. Don't be distracted by it. You were obviously a very good child before. You are the one who criticized Dad so stupidly."

"He just hit you like this without confirming it. It was indeed too hard that time."

Although this belated apology was not sincere enough, Guo Hongjing's heart was still touched.

"You work hard, baby, it's not that you're not smart. Your father just favors your younger brother. I can't help it. You know it's all important now."

"Now, regarding your grandfather's matter, our concept has changed a lot. It is as important as having a son or daughter by yourself."

Guo Hongjing listened to this sentence, it was the words she had been waiting for for six or seven years.

She once doubted whether she could do it.

She once deeply questioned her parents' love for her.

She still remembers that when her father accidentally threw a cigarette butt and hit her on the arm when she was a child, she still has a scar until now.

She still remembers that her father accidentally got involved with her while using the belt.

Dad pretended that nothing happened, and hypocritically gave Guo Hongjing a dollar to comfort him.There is nothing like an apology, adults will not easily admit their mistakes.

Today, the sadness she had suppressed for more than ten years suddenly came out. She hid in the quilt alone and cried, tears streaming down her cheeks.

All of this happened so suddenly, she thought that this day would never come, but it still came.Why is it so sudden, she hasn't made any preparations yet.

Life has always been amazing.

Life is bitter when you pass by, sweet when you pass by, there is bitterness and sweetness, and some fatigue is used as seasoning.

Thinking about it carefully, she just lost herself in the exhaustion and busyness. Putting aside her vanity, she actually possessed a lot.She is a spiritually deficient person.

How will she establish a quiet, stable, and her own space in the noisy world, and how will she become a person with a fulfilling spiritual world.This is her main life.

She has deviated from the track of life, clinging to too much falsehood.

The near-perfect life she wants would be one of paranoia and cover-up.

Being paranoid about something that she can't get now, instead of studying hard, she conceals her never-confident heart. Everyone knows how important self-confidence is.

No one has described in detail how confident she is. If a person denies all her life, how can she get rid of inferiority complex.

Life is obviously very simple, as long as we find something we like and work hard to do it.Life will become full and people will be happy.

People's desires are always endless, which is the source of all people's troubles.

When you feel inferior, if you accidentally get what you have always wanted, you will feel panic and fear of losing it again.

After great sorrow and great joy, you are a dazed self, your desire will not be satisfied, and your hands will not be able to keep what you want.

At night, she had a dream.

This dream, back to childhood,
In the dream, there is a river pond, and there is light rain;

There is a sense of drenching, and childhood playmates;
Running in the lotus pond to catch people, wet the trousers feet with the grass by the river;

There are huge stick insects, squawking frogs, fish and shrimp;
There are quiet lotus leaves, they run panting;
There is no ridicule, disgust, and sarcasm in the dream,
Only the sweet smile echoes in the dream;
The foundation already laid by the river pond is very stable.

Slowly cover the pond;
In a blink of an eye, the river pond has changed from a garbage pond to a foundation;
When I woke up, it was the crying of the heavy rain,
indicting the city's insensitivity,

knocking on the concrete,

The only destination for revenge for heavy rain is the sewer.

When she woke up, she cried too.It turned out that unconsciously, the surroundings were already changing.

She's still walking around childishly.More than half of the beautiful youth left to her has passed, and now she is standing under the big wave of learning, and has no choice but to study.

what she misses,

some stories, some people,

We met too hastily,
Stop and go, fight and fight.

They finally became passers-by and no longer appeared in her world.

No matter how hard she tried to grab it with her hands, she could only catch the air in her arms.

(End of this chapter)