His little girl is not good again

Chapter 95 Blame Me
Li Yan waited anxiously outside the operating room, the doctor came out soon, Li Yan rushed over, the doctor: "Hello, are you the patient's family?"

"Yes, I am her husband!"

"It's like this. The patient injured her kidney, and the right kidney needs to be removed. The key is that she is a pregnant woman, and the fetus is already 29 weeks old. Although the fetus was not injured, it must be taken out by caesarean section, otherwise the lives of both of them will be in danger! But you We must be prepared that premature babies will not be kept."

Li Yanxin was in pain as if torn, almost unable to stand, clasped the doctor's hand with trembling hands, knelt down heavily, and begged: "Doctor, please save her, she is mine. Fate! If you can't keep the child, don't let it go... You must ensure her safety!"

The doctor quickly pulled him up, "Don't worry, we will do our best! You sign first!" Li Yan picked up the pen with trembling hands, and Li Yan suddenly said, "Doctor, if necessary, give her my kidney!"

The doctor said: "For most people, removing a kidney will not have much impact on life, and there is no need to donate a kidney." Li Yan's hands shook violently, and he signed the name that he did not know to write hundreds of thousands of times. For the first time, he felt that signing so hard...

After a few hours, the doctor came out, and Li Yan rushed forward and asked anxiously, "Doctor, what's the matter?"

The doctor said with a smile: "Fortunately, the child and adults survived. It is a baby girl weighing 2 catties, but the fetus is currently underdeveloped in lungs and has symptoms of anemia. It needs an assisted ventilator and an incubator. There is no Let the family members see it, and it will take a month to pass the dangerous period."

Li Yan asked anxiously, "Are you alright, sir?"

"Her situation is more complicated. The wound on her back has been stitched, and her right kidney has been removed, plus a caesarean section. She is now being treated in the ICU intensive care unit, and family members are not allowed to enter, but don't worry too much. We have a professional medical team!"

Li Yan said sincerely: "Thank you, doctor, for your hard work!" The doctor smiled and shook his head, "It's all what we should do."

I don't know how long it took, but Li Nian woke up from the pain. Li Nian was wearing a respirator, and felt pain all over his body as if his skin and bones were being peeled off. Li Nian's hands couldn't stop shaking from the pain, and Li Nian couldn't stop crying. down stream.

Suddenly Li Nian heard Li Yan calling Li Nian, Li Yan looked at Li Nian on the big screen in the visiting room, and Li Nian looked at him on the screen with tears in his eyes, so painful that he couldn't speak.

With scarlet eyes, Li Yan held back tears and said: "Baby, I know you are in pain, don't be afraid, I will watch over you every step of the way, our baby is born, it's a girl, you are great, and the baby is also great , you are all my life, you have to survive with the baby, Nian Nian, for our Mu Yi, you have to work hard..."

As Li Yan spoke, tears rolled down the corners of his eyes, and Li Nian was crying too, the nurse ran away to wipe Li Nian's tears, and Li Nian was not allowed to cry.

In the past few days, Li Nianguo felt that life was worse than death, and he couldn't help but ask the doctor for painkilling injections every day until midnight every day, so that he could fall asleep for a while.And if Li Nian doesn't sleep, Li Yan will never sleep, accompany Li Nian, and tell stories to Li Nian.

I don't know how long this kind of life lasted, Li Nian watched the hands on the clock keep turning every day, Li Nian looked forward to seeing the child.Finally, Li Nian was almost done. On the first day after he came out of the ICU, Li Nian muttered about going to see the child.

Li Yan refused, and showed Li Nian the photo of the baby, seeing her so small, but wearing a respirator, with tubes inserted all over her body, Li Nian cried in distress, Li Yan comforted Li Nian, and smiled Said: "She is very good. Once I went to see her, she smiled at me without opening her eyes. She smiles very cute, just like you."

Li Nian sobbed and said, "It's all my fault. I'm sorry for her, causing her to suffer so much at such a young age."

Li Yan also had red eyes, and hugged Li Nian tightly, "I'm sorry, it's my fault, from beginning to end, it's all my fault...Chen Sheng has already been arrested and imprisoned, you don't have to worry too much. I will let him live Better to die."

Li Nian sneered, and slowly said: "Li Yan, you can accumulate some virtue for the child... Change your shady methods and your cruel temper, I don't want the child to suffer any more harm !"

Li Yan froze for a moment, and said, "Okay, I'll change it, for you and the child, I'm willing to change anything..."

Li Nian didn't say anything. After a few days, Li Nian couldn't help but go to see the child. Li Nian went in wearing an anti-bacterial suit. Looking at her, Li Nian couldn't help but shed tears. She had already taken off the ventilator, but she was still breathing oxygen. , before her eyes were opened, Li Nian wanted to hug her, but she didn't even dare to touch her. The nurse said from the side, "The child is severely anemic. She has had seven blood transfusions and one plasma transfusion."

Li Yan asked from the side: "Will she still experience high-frequency respiratory arrest?"

The nurse nodded: "The swallowing ability of a premature baby is very poor. She can only be fed through the nose. This phenomenon will occur during breastfeeding. It is not a big problem to rescue it in time."

Li Nian was so distressed, wishing to bear it for her, Li Nian looked at Li Yan with red eyes, and said in a low voice: "Li Yan, I'm afraid..." His eyes were moist in an instant, and he put his arm around Li Nian's shoulders, comfortingly said: "Don't I'm afraid, it's okay, we'll get through it with her..." Li Nian burst into tears...

Li Nian reached out and gently touched her tender little hand, she suddenly grabbed Li Nian's hand, Li Nian's heart melted instantly, Li Nian looked at her with red eyes, unwilling to look away, Li Nian Yan Ye lay beside the incubator, watching her affectionately, she suddenly smiled at Li Nian, Li Nian was moved to tears.

Li Yan reached out and gently touched her face, she smiled again, Li Yan said with a smile: "Our Mu Nian loves to laugh just like you!" Li Nian nodded with a smile.

A few days later, in the middle of the night, Li Yan suddenly ran to the child, Li Nianxin twitched suddenly, got up and went out quickly, the child suddenly developed a fever, suffered from apnea, and passed away after rescue efforts failed...

Li Nian hugged her small body and kissed her forehead. Li Nian never thought about it. The first time Li Nian hugged her was also the last time. weep……

Li Nian hugged her tightly and refused to let go, Li Yan leaned down and kissed her face, tears rolled down silently, he said weakly: "Nian Nian, let's say goodbye to her..."

Li Nian looked at the child quietly, ignoring him. After a long time, Li Yan took the child away from Li Nian, and Li Nian reached out to snatch her, crying, "Give her back to me...she hasn't opened her eyes yet." Just look at me..."

Li Yan came over, hugged Li Nian together, leaned on Li Nian's forehead, wept silently, he slowly said: "Mu Yi has seen it, she lived for 32 days, came to this world, suffered so much It's so hard, she went back after being with us for more than a month, let's not stop her, there is no pain in heaven, and Mu Nian will watch us from above..."

Li Nian cried so hard that she bowed her head and kissed her affectionately for the last time saying goodbye...

After the child was buried, the child became the biggest taboo between them. Li Yan didn't mention a word. After Li Nian was discharged from the hospital, the door of the child's room was locked, and all the amusement facilities in the hall on the first floor disappeared. up.

Li Nian seemed to be normal every day, eating and sleeping normally, but when he stopped, Li Nian's heart felt inexplicably uncomfortable, and the pain was severe. Li Nian couldn't sleep all night, and taking sleeping pills didn't help. Li Nian saw a doctor, and Li Nian suffered from severe depression.

Li Nian was walking alone on the empty street, it was raining heavily, and the raindrops hit Li Nian crazily, but Li Nian felt a little pleasure, Li Nian squatted on the ground quietly watching people coming and going, watching Li Yan suddenly Stopped the car, ran over with an umbrella, Li Yan helped Li Nian up, and shouted angrily: "Nian Nian, what are you doing! It's raining!"

Li Nian didn't say anything, and quietly followed him back.

After suffering for a long time, finally, Li Nian couldn't take it anymore, Li Nian lay in the bathtub, thinking about his past, how beautiful and happy he was, and how painful and lonely he is now...

The child is gone, Xu Xiu has also left her, she has no right to look forward to returning to him, Li Nian's once happy home is gone, it seems that Li Nian lost everything in a flash.

Li Nian slowly picked up the eyebrow trimming knife, and slashed across his wrist forcefully, blood flowed, Li Nian slowly put down his hand, death is a kind of relief for Li Nian.

Li Nian finally doesn't have to endure the pain of insomnia all night long, the endless longing, the suffocating loneliness, and the torture of physical illness... Maybe, he can still accompany Li Nian's dead child...

Li Yan called Li Nian outside the door: "Nian Nian? You have been washing for a long time, are you still okay?" No one responded, and he called again: "Nan Nan?" There was still no response, he felt something was wrong, kicked Kicking open the door, his heart almost stopped beating when he saw the scene in front of him.

Li Nian was lying in the bathtub like a dead person, his face was pale, and the water in the bathtub was stained red with blood.Li Yan yelled: "Mother Zhang! Call an ambulance!" As soon as he picked Li Nian out of the water, he ran out...

I don't know how long it took, Li Nian slowly opened his eyes and watched Li Yan put his face on the back of Li Nian's hand. He saw that Li Nian had woken up and hurriedly called the doctor. Comfortable?"

Li Nian looked at the ceiling, and said weakly: "So I didn't die like this..." Li Yan's eyes were scarlet, and he frowned, "Nian Nian, I won't let you die! You don't want to stay by my side, I will I can let you go, you want to go to Xu Xiu, I will send you there, I beg you, don't do this...seeing you like this, I feel worse than death...I beg you to live well, okay?"

Li Nian smiled wryly and said: "It's so hard to live...I can't take it anymore, I can't sleep all night, I feel suffocated, I don't want to go on like this, I want to be free..."

Li Yan's tears fell silently, he held Li Nian's hand, choked up and said: "Nian Nian, I have already lost my baby, I can't lose you again, haven't you always been the strongest? Isn't it just depression? Let me get through with you, okay?"

Li Nian's dull eyes didn't know where to look, and he suddenly said: "Li Yan, do you know? I dreamed about a child just now, she called me mother, and said she hoped that I would live happily with you... You say, Is it because she is dissatisfied with our unfortunate marriage that she doesn't want to stay in this world?"

Li Yan burst into tears, "Li Nian, cut me with a knife! Let yourself go, the child's death has nothing to do with you! If you can't take it, I'll let you go, okay? Where do you want to go, what do you want to do, I agree , if you want Xu Xiu, I will ruin that wedding and send him back to you, so you can live well, okay?"

Li Nian shook his head, and whispered: "Don't... I'm not worthy of him anymore, I can't bring him misfortune! You can't disturb his life! I want to be a sinner..."

Li Yan hid his face in collapse, and for a long time, he choked up and said, "Okay, then tell me what you want, okay? I will hold everything you want in front of you, and promise me to treat it well, okay?"

Li Nian looked at the helplessness and pain in his eyes, and said nothing.

After Li Nian was discharged from the hospital, Li Yan guarded Li Nian every step of the way, and took Li Nian with him to work. Li Nian stayed quietly in his office and drew pictures, trying to bring back the memories of Dali, Lijiang, Erhai Lake, Sanya, New Zealand They were all drawn, and every place was full of memories of Li Nian and Xu Xiu... Li Nian couldn't help crying while drawing, how beautiful the past is, how bitter it is to recall.Li Nian couldn't continue to draw, and ruthlessly tore off everything.

Half a year passed like this, Li Yan invited the world's top experts to treat Li Nian's illness, and Li Nian's depression finally improved. Later, Li Nian completely indulged himself, fell in love with smoking and drinking, and wanted to use alcohol to numb himself , but in the end, Li Nian couldn't get drunk...

Li Nian painted delicate and heavy makeup, wore exaggerated big earrings, a sports vest with a backless design, and shorts, and planned to go dancing as usual on Hentian high.

Li Yan stopped at the door and said coldly: "Go change your clothes, there are only two ropes on your back, which are all exposed, what's the difference between not wearing them?"

Li Nian got out from under his arm, looked back and smiled, "Li Yan, you don't understand, this is how you can show off your charming figure! Li Nian has a figure, why hide it?"

Li Yan supported his forehead, sighed weakly, Li Nian said with a smile: "Why are you sighing, let's go, don't you want to go with Li Nian?" He walked out holding his hand.

Li Nian fell in love with Bundi, fell in love with wanton indulgence and indulgent enjoyment.Think about it before, didn't she say she would never come again?Actually fell in love, Li Nian chuckled.

Li Nian reveled recklessly on the bar, jumping up and down, as if only at this moment, Li Nian would forget everything and only be happy.And Li Yan and his friend sat quietly not far away and watched Li Nian.Cheng Ye drank and said with a smile: "Brother, sister-in-law is dressed like this and jumping around in the crowd, don't you care?"

Li Yan played with the red wine glass and said with a smile: "I want to control it, but seeing that she is so happy, I let her make trouble. Anyway, I will just watch from the side to see if any man dares to touch her, I will definitely Take his arm off."

Gu Xiuye ​​smiled, "Sure enough, she is still my elder brother, but how do I think she has changed too much? It seems that she is not the same person anymore."

Li Yan looked at Li Nian quietly, and said with a wry smile: "Blame me, I made her into what she is today..."

Li Nian was tired from dancing, and walked towards them, Cheng Ye and Gu Xiuye ​​greeted Li Nian with a smile: "Hi sister-in-law!" Li Nian smiled, crossed his legs, sat on the sofa, and said with a smile : "Hello, long time no see!"

Li Nian took out his cigarette and asked Cheng Ye with a smile: "Did you bring a lighter? Borrow it to light it!"

(End of this chapter)