Not in love upgrade system

Chapter 199 The Secret in the Diary

To be honest, Jiang Tian was really interested in the contents of the diary.But now, when the girl gave it to him, he hesitated again.

Jiang Tian had a bad feeling when he thought of the system task related to the diary and the huge reward behind it.

"Ah, do you really want to show it to me?" So, he retreated subconsciously, and politely refused, "I was just joking last time, don't take it seriously. Things like a diary can already be regarded as a person's secret It’s better not to tell others without authorization.”

Jiang Tian waved his hand, wanting to put the kitten down, and left.

"But if you don't read it now, then I will never be able to express my gratitude to you in my lifetime..."

Beatrice had a pleading look in her eyes.

Oops, when it comes to girls, Jiang Tian just takes the soft side rather than the hard side.

"Okay... let me take a look."

The boy smiled wryly, put little Alice back in his arms, and took the diary over.

Ignoring the slightly nervous girl on the side for now, flipped the cover——

【First page】

"I just arrived in this very big country and barely learned a few words. I want to start a diary and record everything."

The words were crooked and it took Jiang Tian a lot of effort to finally make out the first line of words.

"Ah, Chinese characters are really difficult! If my mother hadn't taught me Chinese since childhood, I probably wouldn't be able to learn it in my life..."

"come on!"

Seeing this, the boy raised his head and cast a strange look at the girl.Seeing the other party blushing, he lowered his head and continued.

In short, there are only some boring journals recorded on the first page.

【The second page】

"My body is really weak. I fainted again today..."

"The maid has been taking good care of me, always trouble her, I feel a little sorry."

"My heart feels like it exploded, it hurts so much!"

"I can't breathe, I feel uncomfortable, I feel uncomfortable!"

Hey, this, the painting style has changed...

However, Jiang Tian has seen Beatrice fainted with his own eyes, so he can slightly understand the pain entrusted in the other party's words.

【The third page】

"I, will I die in pain one day because of my illness? Then, apart from Alice, Maid and Aunt Yelena, no one will know, right? Oh, everyone is dead, so why bother!"

"Well, I came here obviously to recuperate from my illness, but the illness has not been alleviated at all. If this continues, I might as well die beside my family... No, I don't have any family anymore. I just stay with Aunt Yelena."

"Today is several times more painful than before, I can't stand it anymore..."

"..."

"..."

"..."

Jiang Tian wanted to settle all Beatrice's pains in detail.But what is frustrating is that it seems that because the girl's body is getting weaker and weaker, she doesn't even have the strength to hold the pen, so the handwriting is getting more and more distorted, and it is even more scribbled than at the beginning, and it is not clear at all.

When his eyes scanned from top to bottom, only the bottom four characters could be clearly distinguished——

"I really want to die."

Seeing these pessimistic and negative words, Jiang Tian's eyes shrank suddenly.

It turned out that the seemingly happy and carefree girl had the same thoughts of death as he did now.

What a coincidence.

But this kind of coincidence can't make people happy.

【Page [-]】

"Well, there are many ways to die, but which one is more comfortable? Check the book, maybe you can find one."

"Alice said that if death can free me, she won't object to it and will stay with me. Ugh... It doesn't matter if I die, but what if it affects Alice?"

"There is no place to hang a rope in the room. Hang yourself. veto. The height of jumping off the building is not high, and it seems to be very painful. It will also cause trouble to people around. veto. I can't buy sleeping pills myself, and the maid will definitely not buy them for me." Denied... Damn it, I’m such a useless person, I can’t even die!”

"Hey, there is a book called 'One Hundred Ways to Suicide', maybe it can help me."

"After reading it, oh, the last page reads 'So suicide is painful, live on!' This sentence shattered my idea of ​​dying... Well, then I will try harder, um, come on oh!"

Seeing this, the young man's heart immediately sank.Fortunately, Beatrice came across this book, otherwise, she might have disappeared without a trace.

He secretly glanced at the girl again and saw that she was sitting there properly, still sweating in her hands.

However, starting from the fifth page, the content inside, including the emotions it expresses, changed suddenly, leaving Jiang Tian dumbfounded.

[fifth page]

"As always, I still can't go out. Although the scenery outside is very nice, if I get a little bit of wind, strong light, or get frightened by some noise, I may have to faint on the spot - so, stay good in the house. Just stay."

"Damn, darn, darn, darn! I'm so unwilling! No, I'm going to try to look outside. Anyway, it's early in the morning, it's quite quiet, and there's nothing irritating, so it should be fine."

"Yeah, it's really great outside~ I envy Alice. When she's bored, she can go out and hang out. It would be great if I could be like her. By the way, there's something I need to write down. : Halfway through, a young man with long hair passed by the street, riding a very strange vehicle, which almost scared me."

"Today too, I saw him again——"

"He stepped on a strange vehicle, with two boxes of milk behind him, and passed under the window at high speed. I don't know him, and neither does Alice, but his face is full of serious sweat, which attracts those who can't go out. Our line of sight, just like that, we watched his back disappear at the end of the street."

Looking at this, Jiang Tiancai suddenly realized that the "boy with long hair" refers to him!

By the way, Beatrice is really weird in some ways.

She mentioned before that little Alice spoke to her, "Hey, please, cats are very intelligent, and their big eyes seem to be able to talk."But, it's just a cat, it can't talk.It seems that the girl was so lonely that she started hearing hallucinations.

Also, you don’t even know about bicycles. There should be such things in foreign countries, right?Little sister Beatrice, are you a princess who grew up in a palace, or are you a canary who has been locked in a cage...

Jiang Tian was able to distractedly complain because the words at the back were more beautiful and easy to identify, and most of them were talking about his own affairs. If you read it carefully, it would be embarrassing.

Basically, it can be summed up in one sentence——

"He is working very hard to live. Seeing him working hard makes me want to work hard to live too."

Well, day after day, year after year, Beatrice and Alice, each time basking in the morning breeze, watched him zip across the street.Sometimes, when the sky is crying and it is raining, the water droplets outside may slip through the curtain line and wet the girl's face, but she does not divert her gaze, because the boy will still pass Ninth Street, consistently.

No wonder, little Alice would kiss him like this, because in its eyes, the boy was its second most familiar person, and it could meet him almost every day;
No wonder Beatrice doesn't mind an outsider entering her boudoir.Because, to her, the young man who showed up regardless of rain or shine was the spiritual pillar that encouraged her to go on strong.

What happened at the beginning was her own business, but later, on the very thick paper, were all his stories, that's why "Story about him" was written on the cover.

This is the biggest secret hidden in Beatrice's diary.

(End of this chapter)