Cultivate a black technology god

Chapter 224 Ariel's past (26)

In January 2001, Marcia said under hypnosis:

"I'm afraid of the world, I'm afraid of life, I'm afraid of getting involved. I'm afraid of being rejected, rejected, thrown aside."

It was her unnatural fear of "reconstruction."

"I'm looking forward to being one of the healthy people," Vanessa declared.
"Life is for living, and I waited too long."

"I think," Mike said shortly afterwards,
"Ariel is much more valuable than she reckoned and Sid and I thought before. People care about her, like Flora, Flora's mother. Well, of course there's the lady doctor and Ramon "

Sid added: "Maybe Ariel can do what Mike and I want to do without permission. Maybe a woman can do that partition. Maybe she can be the woman she wants to be and make a difference in her career. As long as she has Mike's and my craft and our passion, I'm sure she'll be successful. Mike and I have no objection to what she wants to do. We love this new Ariel .”

The new Ariel?Who have I become?she asked herself.

Dr. Wilbur was also puzzled: Who is the new Ariel?In fact, the only person who showed up at Dorset's appointments these days was the new Ariel.

When Dr. Wilbur wanted to find an avatar, he could only speak through hypnosis.

Shortly after Mary stepped out of the igloo, she merged with Arielle Ann.

Vanessa now continues to move closer to Ariel.

Her abhorrence of hypocrites now sharpened Ariel's eyes, past and present.

Marcia was afraid of getting better, but after she also expressed her willingness for her mother to die, she combined with Ariel.

Peggy didn't even show up when called.

Peggy Lou and Peggy Ann had already merged into one, becoming Peggy, and now this combination has grown further.

The terrible memories and rage abilities they possessed have been returned to Ariel.

After painting the portrait that Ramon admired (her last), Peggy ceased to exist.

But her self-confidence is already a distinguishing feature of the new Ariel.

The new Ariel is quite different from what Dr. Wilbur originally expected.

Since Vicky has all the memories and is closer to the original Ariel than the waking Ariel, the doctor originally wanted to remove all the avatars, including the waking Ariel, and make Vicky the only personality.

But the doctor later discovered that Vicki, like all other avatars, had a reason for existence.

This is all about covering up feelings that neither Ariel nor the avatar can bear.

Therefore, the answer is to preserve Ariel herself, and return to her the memories, feelings, knowledge, and behaviors of those avatars, so as to restore the capacity that the original child should have.

It also means giving back to Ariel roughly a third of the life experience that other avatars have lived alone.

This was the pioneering work of Dr. Wilbur.

The doctor knows that all the avatars have moved towards Ariel.

Ariel has changed, and her avatar has changed accordingly.

There were originally two denial attitudes towards Ariel's mother.

Ariel admits Heidi Dorset is her mother but denies having a grudge against her.

Other incarnations deny that the woman they hate is their mother.

Since Ariel admitted this hatred in the doctor's car, the avatars have also acknowledged Heidi, calling her "our mother." Even Vicky always said that her parents were in France but never came to claim their daughter, Finally he admitted:

"Ariel's mother is also my mother."

Ariel begins to adopt the behavior of her avatar.

Ariel is also as good at drawing black and white as Peggy Luna.

In fact, although the painting styles of each avatar are different, there are also overlaps and similarities.

On the other hand, although Peggy returned to Ariel the multiplication she had learned in Miss Henderson's fifth-grade class, Ariel was not yet proficient in applying it.

In May and June, the number of hypnosis applications decreased further.

It is now almost entirely limited to contacting the avatar, beyond that, dialogue is no longer possible.

Gone are the days when Ariel split and avatars appeared automatically.

Ariel is registered with the Faculty Employment Agency and wants to work outside of New York.

She now felt that she could take care of herself without Dr. Wilbur's help, and was eager to prove it.

She writes her resume in her apartment.While typing, her fingers suddenly felt numb.

She became frightened and called Dr. Wilbur, but he was not found.

She called Flora again.By the time Flora answered the phone, numbness had spread throughout her body.

She called on the phone:
"I'm sick. If something happens, please sell the stamp album to pay for Dr. Wilbur's psychological analysis."

Ariel wanted to continue talking, but she let go of her hand and the receiver fell off.

Her arms and legs moved involuntarily.

She fell forward, hit the wall, fell across the room, and fell slowly to the floor.

When Flora saw her, she lay there, bruised and blue, and looked terribly terrible.

She can finally speak.

"I see it all, every bit of it," she said triumphantly.

Ariel stood up, seemingly taller than her usual figure.

The voice is also younger, brighter and lighter than Ariel's.

"I'm the woman Ariel likes to be. My hair is blond and I'm lighthearted."

In an instant, this woman no longer existed, and it was Ariel who remained there.

"I must have fainted. How come? How?" she asked.

Flora immediately understood that the blonde who appeared just now did not belong to the ranks of the fifteen incarnations she had seen, and a new incarnation appeared when Ariel was about to integrate?The immediate thing to do, of course, is to apply a cold compress to the bruise and call Dr. Wilbur.Then what?

"It was a major gastro-intestinal attack," Dr. Wilbur told Flora that evening.

"Also accompanied by conscious twitching and rigidity. Ariel was consciously aware of the entire episode."

So Flora told Dr. Wilbur about the blonde girl's appearance:

"This split is short-lived, no more than 1 minute."

"Last Tuesday," replied Dr. Wilbur thoughtfully,
"I saw this blonde girl in the clinic, but I didn't know it at the time. Ariel was talking, and suddenly her eyes were blank for a moment, just like before. Then, I heard the voice you just described, and for a moment 1 minute, fleeting."

The next day, Dr. Wilbur hypnotized Ariel in the consulting room, and Mary Ann appeared first.

"We've had a fit. There's too much to cause it. The ugly bare walls of Willow Corners Church, the people in the church, we hate them."

"There was another person in our house last night," Vicky said.

Marcia added: "That's the blonde, I've seen her before, I just don't know her name."

"Who knew?" Vanessa asked.

"I think Vicky knows," Marcia replied. "I think Vicky probably knows her. Who is she?"

"A girl who's new and not new," Vicky said.

Suddenly, the newcomer began to speak—strutting and reciting.

"I'm not new, actually. I've been here for 19 years. I'm who Ariel likes to be. I was born in peace and lived unseen. When other people were basically kids all the time, I Already a young adult. I don't have the trauma of my childhood. I don't know Heidi at all, I don't know Willard, I never lived in Willow Corners or went to church there. I'm from Omaha. I love the college life, I love New York. I'm supposed to be in sorority, have lots of dates, be the cheerleader at sports games or the head of the campus. I love life, I love life. The only thing that gets in the way is that I'm not alone, I can't walk in the sun, I can't face the world. But now everyone else is going to face the world, and I'm going with them. Now that they're free from trauma, I'm going to be with them Hold hands. My vitality will give energy, my zest for life will make them lively and light, my untraumatized past will make them more confident, and I, who has never been sick, will be with Ariel Walking in a world of healthy people."

"You're welcome," Vicky said.

"Victoria, you belong to me and I belong to you," said the blonde, who never gave her name.

"We were not raised in the cradle of trauma like others, but in Ariel's wishes. You and I are blond, only you and I among the sixteen of us, as far as I know You know, a lot of blonde hair in Ariel's maternal line. Her mother admired the color. We were both blondes because Ariel wanted to be blonde."

This blonde is the ideal personified, the girl of dreams.

It was she, looking in the mirror with Ariel, restless with youthful longing as she waited for Ramon.

If her speech was not natural, it was because a teenage girl was putting on airs and talking about things she had only recently learned.

"I have come to free Ariel, to set her free," the blonde declared.

"When she comes into the world, she will walk with me, not in the winter of life, but in the spring of life."

silence.Dr. Wilbur wanted to make the blonde talk more, but Vicki responded:
"This blonde is Ariel's puberty."

"Isn't it too late?" Dr. Wilbur asked.

"She needs to be with Ariel now," Vicky replied.

"Anyone else?" asked the doctor, as she had said at the beginning of the psychoanalysis.

"How could there be?" Vicki seemed to shrug his shoulders,

"We really didn't expect the blonde, that's true. But as she told you, she's been here for 19 years, even though she didn't show up. But when Ariel carries the weight of her childhood, nothing but How can the blonde show up when everything about puberty is bypassed except for physical growth?" Vicky paused and said,
"Ariel had a hard time having a normal puberty. She left so much of her childhood behind, and it was fixed in that time. Now, Ariel has seen through the trauma of her childhood. You should expect that The return of puberty is expected of Ariel's real maturity."

As soon as Vicky finished speaking, the cheerful and artificial voice of the blond girl sounded again:

"I was hesitating until Ariel fell in love. When I saw that Ramon wasn't going to do it, I came out to protect Ariel, a teenager, from breaking her heart. You know, when Ariel is in love Just a young man."

"If Ariel wanted to feel what it's like for young people to fall in love, she could do it," the doctor said.

"People of all ages can do it. She can be a blonde at 40. Ariel can integrate with you."

"She has done so," replied the blond.

"I'm not preventing her eventual recovery. In fact, I'm promoting it."

"Did you hear that, Ariel?" Dr. Wilbur asked.

"I heard," Ariel replied,

"And I know the nameless part of me is telling the truth."

The wish personified by the girl in the dream brings new youthful vigor to the femininity that has died due to dryness and fits and starts.

As confusing as it is frightening, the presence of the blonde does become a drama*** in Ariel's recovery.

For many days after this, Ariel just sat and sucked in the affection, style, knowledge, and experience the avatars had voluntarily shared with her since early June.

Her personality is undergoing a massive reshuffle as she examines her new self.

The past and the present are mingled; the personalities of the various incarnations are mingled.

One by one, the past returned to the heart of the original child named Ariel.

The child has not existed as a whole since the age of three and a half.

Not everything of those past events comes into consciousness at once.

But what comes into consciousness are all important things and normal memories, and they are checked with the time before and after.

After 39 years.

The Clock of Life is no longer incomprehensible.

A week later, Ariel rejuvenated and told Dr. Wilbur about her desire to become an occupational therapist.

If these things can be done, they will leave New York.

"Your old fears seem to have dissipated. Your plan sounds good."

"Oh, yes, doctor," Ariel replied, smiling.

"I'll never have a spasm again. No matter what's going on, I know it. The blonde, well, I think she's with me. I know I'll never split again.

"You never said that," said the doctor,

"Neither did you tell in the days when the avatar didn't appear."

"I didn't really tell," said Ariel,
"Because I've never felt so sure."

"We can see if the memories of those avatars are all yours. Let's try and see," the doctor said.

In subsequent hypnosis sessions, Dr. Wilbur compared Ariel's memories with those of the avatar.

Ariel has all the memories of the incarnation.

Moreover, Ariel's attitude towards those incarnations has completely changed.

First there was denial, then hostility, then acceptance, and finally affection.

Knowing to love these avatars, her self-destructiveness turned into self-love.

This is an important sign of her entry into integration and recovery.

Two weeks later, Dr. Wilbur summoned Vicky after hypnotizing Ariel.

"How are things going, Vicki? Any progress?"

"I'm already a part of Ariel," Vicky replied,
"She always wanted to be like me. Now that we're one, I'm not completely free anymore."

Robert closed one of the screens and looked at the other screen. In the screen, Ariel was walking home.

Below each screen is marked in small characters, which are:

Ariel Isabelle Dorset 1983 A dry character.

Victoria Antoinette Charrou 1982 nicknamed Vicki; a confident, sophisticated and attractive blonde; traces of memory.

Peggy Lou Baldwin 1986 A warm-hearted, assertive, tantrum imp with a snub nose, short hair, and a mischievous smile.

Peggy Ann Baldwin 1986 Peggy Lou's copy, similar in appearance; always afraid of this and that.

Mary Lucinda Sanders Dorset 1983 A brooding, motherly, family-oriented person; rather stocky, with long dark brown hair parted to one side.

Marcia Lynn Dorset 1987 also sometimes surnamed Baldwin; writer and painter; highly excitable; shield-shaped face with gray eyes and brown hair parted to one side.

Vanessa Gail Dorset 1983 Strongly dramatic and attractive; tall red hair, slender frame, hazel eyes, and expressive oval face.

Mike Dorsey 1988 One of two male incarnations of Ariel; a carpenter and builder; dark skin, black hair, and brown eyes.

Sid Dorset 1988 One of two male incarnations of Ariel; a carpenter and repairman; fair skin, dark hair and blue eyes.

Nancy Lou Ann Baldwin's "birth" year is unknown Interested in politics as a fulfillment of Biblical prophecy; very afraid of Roman Catholics; suicidal; looks like the two Peggies.

Arielle Ann Dorsett 1988 Listless, to the point of nervous breakdown; pale, timid, with ash-blond hair, oval face, and straight nose.

Russie Dorset, undated, was a baby, an underdeveloped self.

Clara Dorset, undated, religious; very displeased with Ariel when she is awake.

Helen Dorset 1989 Very timid but determined; light brown hair and eyes, straight nose and thin lips.

Marjorie Dorset 1988 Serene, energetic, easy to laugh; an amused person; petite, fair-skinned, with a flat nose.

Blonde 1986 Nameless; an eternal youth; with blond curls and a lilting voice.

At the same time, at Zhixia Science and Technology Hospital, the floor where game sleepers are intensively treated, the attending physician took a report to inspect as usual, and explained to the nurse:

"Pay more attention to Ariel's condition, and arrange someone to watch at night."

The nurse nodded to show that she understood. Finally, as if thinking of something, she stopped the attending physician and asked:

"Then Peggy wants to follow up?"

The attending physician turned his head to look at the ward with Peggy's name plate at the end of the corridor, and sighed.

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