I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 7 Fengrenyuan Youth Hostel

Sitting on the side of the road with cars coming and going, only smoke can save my loneliness and my confusion about the city.I know I shouldn't use such a negative word as "confused" to describe my mood at the moment, but when you are faced with thousands of lights, but none of them belong to you, there will definitely be a lot of negativity in your heart that you cannot control Feeling, but this does not mean that I am disappointed in this city, I just want to have someone to talk to at this moment.

After another ten minutes or so, a scooter without a license finally stopped in front of me. A man with dreadlocks, shorts and slippers lit a cigarette and asked me condescendingly, "Is that you?" Have you booked a bed in our hotel online?"

I hurriedly stood up and asked, "Are you Fengrenyuan Youth Hostel?"

"Yes, I am the owner of the hotel, you can call me Tetsuo."

"Iron man?"

He just smiled and explained: "In Dali, not many people use their real names. People who come here want to forget something. Names are the cheapest things that can be forgotten, so everyone That's all it does."

Tie Nan's words stabbed me, so that after a little silence, he replied: "Hi, just call me Mi Gao."

Tie Nan patted me on the shoulder and said with a smile: "There is no need to bring the courtesy of a big city to Dali, we are all quite casual, hello, thank you or something."

……

Tetsuo drove me through several unlit alleys, and finally arrived at his inn. What puzzled me was that the inn was pitch black, and there was no atmosphere of being open at all.

Tie Nan opened the iron door and said to me: "Recently, the Erhai Lake is being treated. All nearby inns and hotels have been closed for rectification. We have been cut off from water and electricity, so you are the last guest that my inn picks up."

"Without water and electricity, can life be guaranteed?"

"It's okay, I've pulled a water pipe and wires from the farmer's house next door, and the basic life can be guaranteed... But after 8 o'clock, it's best not to turn on the lights, lest someone come to check."

I smiled and replied, "No wonder the beds in your inn are so cheap!"

"That's right, 15 yuan a day, this price, I'm not bragging with you, it has never happened in the entire history of inns in Dali... Such a shameful thing, I really can do it."

While talking, Tie Nan led me to the inn, opened one of the doors, and asked me, "Are you a smoker?"

I didn't quite understand what he meant by asking this question, so I replied conservatively: "Sometimes."

"If you smoke, live in the same room with me."

"No problem... By the way, I think there are quite a few beds in this room. Besides us, there should be other people, right?"

"There is also a buddy who sings in the bar, we call him Director Ma, he has lived in this room for half a year, but you have to take care of it, because this buddy's feet are extremely smelly!"

As Tetsuo spoke, he turned on a small desk lamp that was barely able to illuminate, then helped me arrange my luggage into the locker, and then said to me: "The wireless network in this room also rubs against the next door. When the signal is not good, you go up There can be two spaces for paving and climbing."

I didn't care too much about these, but I still replied jokingly: "Living here with you, if you don't build up your heart well, it's really unbearable!"

"It's cheap."

"Yes, I can buy a few more packs of cigarettes to smoke."

……

After I settled down, Tie Nan left. He said he was drinking with his friends on Renmin Road, and he ran to pick me up halfway, so he had to go back and finish the drink with a few buddies.

After he left, the whole youth hostel seemed to have nothing to breathe. It is estimated that this buddy would not dare to really go against the policy, so after the large-scale closure of the inn for rectification, he only accepted two long-term tenants, Mr. Ma and I. .I don't know how long Director Ma will live here, anyway, I just gave him two months' rent directly.

I don't mind the trouble of relying on the water and electricity grid here, and I even like it a little bit, because it gives me a lot of space for quiet thinking, just like when I was a child, everything was underdeveloped, but I rarely had troubles of unhappiness and loneliness.

However, the shoes left by Director Ma were so smelly that I couldn't rest in the room at all, let alone eat.

……

After I found a convenient bag to seal the shoes of Director Ma, I finally had an appetite and ate a bowl of instant noodles. Then I lay on the bed, facing the twinkling starry sky outside the skylight, but my heart was so empty.It wasn't until I lit a cigarette that I found a little feeling of being alive.

I habitually picked up my mobile phone, except for a message from the official "Welcome to Dali for tourism", no one asked me any more.I really wanted to talk to someone, and then I found the last message I sent to Wang Lei in the chat history.

She asked me: Have you thought about when to go to Dali; I replied: I am considering...

At this moment, I am in a small hotel in Dali, but she is gone forever.How can I not be filled with emotion?
I really miss her so much, I want to have a few more drinks with her in a certain tavern, and listen to her complain in Sichuan dialect about those guests who don't respect her enough.But she is like a flower that has faded, even if it sprouts again, it can only bloom on the other side that I will never see.

In the dim light and the sound of the tide, I spent all the time making up assumptions.If Wang Lei didn't die, and I opened a profitable inn in Dali as she wished, and after a few years, I would take her over, and we would run the inn as our home together, wouldn't that be a good thing? How about a wonderful thing?

But the more you make such an assumption, the more painful it will be, because you will regret it.I should readily agree to Wang Lei, and then persuade her to come with me, maybe such a tragedy will not happen.

After Wang Lei, I thought of Lu Jia who didn't know where she was.I don't have a lot of emotions, just a little bit sad because I still love her.

……

After this state lasted for a while, someone finally contacted me, but it was the person I wanted to avoid.To be honest, when I knew the real motive of Lao Huang asking me to escort Yang Sisi, I quite rejected him.Otherwise, I would not have chosen to buy a plane ticket when I was in Wuhan, planning to go to Dali alone without Yang Sisi.

But until now, I haven't figured it out, even if Yang Sisi is cheating, as long as I don't want to, I can still choose to abandon her in the next city after Wuhan, but why didn't I do it?

Maybe it's because she really needs me.After all, such a long road cannot be easily managed by a woman.Just like the Shanghai woman driving a big G that I met on the road, she could only passively wait for road rescue in that bad weather when she encountered something like a flat tire, but it would be a big deal to have a man accompanying her. same.

I finally got through to Lao Huang's call, and he asked with great concern, "Have you and Sisi arrived in Dali?"

"Here we are, in the afternoon."

"Did you follow her?"

"No, after arriving in Dali, we went our separate ways."

Lao Huang was stunned for ten seconds before he sighed and said: "Mi Gao, look at you...why did you take my words of exhortation and ten thousand warnings as deaf ears? I let you follow her just to have someone to take care of you. , let us find her in Dali, you are telling me to go your own way now, isn't this messing up my plan!"

I replied dissatisfied: "Mr. Huang, let's be reasonable. She's a woman. I can't eat, drink, and sloppy and follow her. If she wants to hide from me, can I follow her?"

"Then you have to keep in touch anyway!"

I responded to his philistinism and utilitarianism with silence.

Lao Huang was even more anxious, and he said: "Sisi and her parents still have a week to go to Dali, there is still a little time, please contact Sisi quickly, as long as we go, don't miss her, Even if I, Lao Huang, have the favor of Mi Gao in my heart."

"It's not a matter of inhumanity at all. It's really inconvenient for me."

"Don't you... I've made a deal with Sisi's parents, and I'm sure I'll find her in Dali. Where do I put my face?! And I let Xiaobao (Lao Huang) His son’s nickname) has returned to China, and he will follow him to Dali, so success or failure depends on one action. I really really hope that Sisi can study abroad with Xiaobao!”

"Your dream is quite beautiful, but I still have to tell you, judging from my contact with Yang Sisi in the past few days, you may really be beaten this time. You haven't seen her determination to stay in Dali !..."

Lao Huang interrupted me: "Why didn't I see it? She had a big fight with her parents at home earlier because of this matter. I had no choice but to think of such a compromise method to stabilize her first. It didn’t happen that you came to Dali too, how dare I have such a heart, no matter what happens, her parents will have to trap her in Shanghai and discipline her severely!”

"You're right, but I don't care about that."

After I finished speaking, I hung up Lao Huang's phone. I didn't want to be disturbed by people from Shanghai again and again in Dali.

But I don't want to, after a while, Lao Huang sent me another message: "Your father called the company today to ask about your situation. What he meant was that I should take care of you. I kept it in mind. I didn't dare to tell him about your resignation and going to Dali, but your attitude now makes me very angry, because you young man doesn't understand the principle of being a human being!"

This piece of information made me shudder. In my memory, my dad did have the phone number of Lao Huang's office, and it is not ruled out that he will contact Lao Huang to inquire about my situation during this sensitive period.

This gave me a very heavy reminder that even if I have the determination to cut off my wrists, it is impossible to completely sever contact with my previous life.And what I can't see the most is that my parents are worried about me, so I bowed my head to Lao Huang for the first time in unwillingness, and I finally replied: "Don't threaten me, I can only do my best to find Yang Sisi. Because, if I can find it, I will give you news as soon as possible."

Seeing that I was subdued, Lao Huang took advantage of the opportunity to attack me with sugar-coated bullets: "I said Mi Gao, there is really an opportunity in front of you now. The company has recently had a personnel transfer, and there is a vacancy for a product manager in our department. If you are willing to return to the company , I can recommend you to Boss Lu, after all, you have been working in the company for so many years, and you are definitely qualified for this position in terms of ability and experience, this time you will come back to Shanghai with us."

(End of this chapter)