I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 617 You Are Going To Do It

Under the warm sunshine, I let out a heavy sigh, and then looked back at Director Ma standing behind me. He also had a relieved expression. None of us thought that after coming out, Tie Nan, He seemed to see through it, he seemed to let go of a lot of things, and finally he was not so paranoid, which is a good thing for himself, or for us.

I smiled, and said to Director Ma: "It's just the two of us having lunch at noon. What do you eat? I invite you."

"Let me invite you, this meal is my practice for you."

Treating guests to dinner is a very common thing, but it surprised me from the bottom of my heart. I stared at him for a long time before replying: "I heard you right, since you went to Jizu Mountain , and never invited me to dinner again... You have been struggling for two years, and you finally got your salary?"

"We don't call it wages here, we call it clothing bills... Let's go, just pick an expensive place."

I was even more surprised: "An expensive place must have wine and meat... Don't you even eat these things?"

"I'm a vegetarian, you can order whatever you want, we don't affect each other."

"As you said, when you get to the place, don't feel bad about the money in your pocket."

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Driving all the way to the ancient city, I picked a restaurant that eats mushroom pots. I really didn’t give up on the horse guide. Anyone who has been to Dali knows that any mushroom pot restaurant, if you order a plate of fungi, it will be dozens of times bigger. , or even hundreds.

Here's what I think: In the past two years, I have been inviting Director Ma to dinner. Although he is a vegetarian, he is not expensive, but he can't stand it many times; today, it is rare for him to take the initiative to invite me to dinner. The principle of the past, of course I have to eat back.

In fact, I want to know more, why is he more stingy than before after he became a monk?I think the more expensive the meal, the more you can get the answer from him... In terms of income, he is definitely not empty-handed now, because I heard from insiders that Jizushan's treatment is not bad at all. Especially during the peak tourist season, those core monks will receive a very considerable amount of incense money, and Director Ma has long been one of the core monks of the temple with his pious heart to Buddha, so what is he lacking? , There will be no shortage of pocket money.

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Habitually sitting by the window, I looked at the menu and watched Director Ma out of the corner of my eye, but he called the waiter, and then bought a set meal for two with a group buying software, the total was only about [-] yuan money.

He smiled at me, and took the opportunity to take the menu away from my hand, indicating that it was no longer needed, which made me very disappointed. Before coming, I prepared a budget of 1000 yuan, even if I couldn’t eat it , You can also take it back to eat on Wednesday, these are good things tonic.

I complained to Director Ma: "I said to pick the most expensive land, why are you so fussy?"

"These fungi are also alive. If you eat one more, it is equivalent to creating one more murder... just enough to eat!"

"Don't be high-sounding, you're just picky..."

This time, Director Ma didn't answer my words, he took off the cloth bag on his body, and turned his gaze to the concert stage in the opposite bar... That was his life once, so his eyes didn't look so clean... …Maybe I will also think of a certain woman who struck up a conversation with him during his singing career; or, some other very flash scenes; or, because the singer who is singing on the stage is somewhat similar to him, Reminds him of his youthful appearance...

In short, I don't believe that he is really empty of all the big things...just because he still has desire for money.

He finally spoke to me and said, "I envy you."

"Aren't you wanting nothing, envying you is a false proposition."

"I really envy you, whether it's Ye Zhi or Yang Sisi, you still have choices in this life, and that's all I have in my life."

I felt inexplicably angry, so I retorted, "You are just talking nonsense; two years, two full years, Ren Bailu has been staying in Dali, and has never been anywhere...Who is she waiting for, how can you not know?... ...Is it because she doesn't want to get back together with you, or is there someone else who won't let you get back together?"

Director Ma looked at the street for a while, and he didn't explain to me. He just took out a key from his cloth bag, put it in front of me, and said to me: "I bought a house for Bailu, my little one." Two rooms, I just got the key two days ago, you give her the key for me, and tell her not to rent a house outside... She is a native of Dali, how can she not have her own home in Dali."

"You... are you going to rob a bank?"

"Don't talk nonsense, it's because I do a good job in business, and I also get a lot of incense money... This is all I have saved in the past two years."

I'm speechless, I always thought that he didn't lack pocket money, but I didn't expect him to save a house in only two years. This really overturned my understanding of this profession, no, Being a monk is not a profession, but to Lao Ma, it is more like a means.

"Why don't you go and give her the key yourself... You know better than anyone else that she is waiting for you, not me."

"I didn't ask her to wait for me."

Never before has such a sentence been spoken so resolutely from Director Ma... There is really someone like him in this world, wouldn't he long for someone waiting for him in this ruthless world?

After going through all kinds of things, I now have a new view on the word "waiting".In my opinion, waiting is a kind of guidance, a kind of warmth, and more importantly, a kind of motivation to come back... A world without waiting is a world where everyone fights. How ruthless and pale it is!
Because of this, I was speechless for a long time, until Director Ma looked away, and I said to him: "What do you mean?... Do you think Bai Lu is living like this because she is doing it for herself?"

Director Ma sighed heavily, and then there was another silence. When he opened his mouth to speak, the waiter had already brought the first dish we ordered; he said to me: "You know what? Over the years, she saved All that money has been spent on me. Because she is with me, the relationship in the family is also messed up, and the children I have brought up since I was a child can't meet each other... I live in these sacrifices of hers, really I feel ashamed... Mi Gao, you should be the person who understands me the most in this world... If you marry Sisi and your legs have been bad, you will definitely live endlessly in Sisi In self-sacrifice, even if she doesn't say anything, you will feel sorry for her. This kind of life is really tormenting, especially for a man with self-respect... So, it is precisely when you realize this that you can get out of it in time. Withdrew from her world... You are much smarter than me, at least you didn't make Sisi into a second marriage, but I have already made Bai Lu into a third marriage..."

After a short pause, Director Ma continued: "Don't care about his grievances, I'll be like this for the rest of my life... The only thing I can give her is to prove to her in this way that it is impossible for me to have any more love in my life." other women..."

"When two people who really love each other are together, what difficulties can't be overcome...Why are you doing this?"

"Easy to say, but you do it!"

I looked at the old horse in astonishment, and suddenly saw the vices of myself and most people in his eyes... We are always used to using the mentality of bystanders to judge other people's lives. This kind of innocuous self-confidence...and we will never be able to fully experience other people's experiences, so don't use sarcastic words to easily tear other people's scars.

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In a daze, the mobile phone on the table rang for a while, I picked it up and looked... It turned out to be a call from Yang Sisi's father... The last time we met for dinner, we left each other's phone numbers. I didn't think so, but he actually contacted me.

(End of this chapter)