I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 596 I'm still waiting for you

When I got back to my place of residence, I was not idle for a moment. I packed some luggage that I had to bring to Thailand; my itinerary was already clear, and I could leave for Thailand after dealing with Wednesday, Wednesday and the bar. ;And Brother Ping is not idle, he will personally go to Bangkok from Phuket tomorrow, and then fix the bed for me. Brother Ping really treats me like a brother, and he never mentioned any money to me He is managing things with his own money now; of course, I won't let him suffer, and when I get to Bangkok, I will return all the money he put in advance.

After packing up my luggage, I moved a chair and sat in the corridor. I was waiting for Nicole to come back. At that time, she also lent me a sum of money. I don't plan to do "One Key Tour" now. Of course the money had to be returned to her.

During the waiting process, I kept listening to the sound of rain falling, which would distract me, otherwise I would always think of Yang Sisi, and the picture of her jumping on me when she picked me up at the airport ...

She just left. Sometimes I feel that she is far away, and sometimes I feel that she is by my side. It is difficult for me to adapt to the feeling that she has completely disappeared from my world.

In the past, no matter how much trouble we had, as long as I wanted to contact her, I would be able to contact her, but this time, she took the initiative to cut off all ways of contacting me.This is a kind of transformation in nature, which means that she really has to let go, but for a long time, she is someone who will never leave in my consciousness, and this is how the feeling of not adapting comes, like In my world, a long-standing rule was broken.

……

In a daze, the phone vibrated again. I hurriedly picked it up to check, but it was a message from Lu Jia. She said, "I'm still waiting for you. I never gave up. Go back to Chengdu and give me a home. Give yourself a home too!"

I stared at this message for a long time, then I sneered, and I replied, "Okay, we're getting married."

Lu Jia replied in seconds: "Are you serious?"

"It's serious, as long as you are willing to marry, I am willing to marry... But didn't you say that you have already seen it? You have to use the money from selling the house to package yourself, and then find someone who is better than me in every way man."

"I have really thought about it, but every night, you are still the man who hides the deepest in my heart... I want to be your wife, I want to give birth to you... We are in Chengdu together, and we are in Shanghai. All my dreams come true, I really feel that there is nothing more meaningful in life than this... To be able to be married to the person I love the first time for the rest of my life is very happy just thinking about it... Don't you think?"

"Happiness, happiness for sure... You bring your registered permanent residence to find me in Dali, and we will register for marriage tomorrow."

"If you're not kidding me, I'll book a flight right now."

"You order."

After waiting for about 10 minutes, Lu Jia sent me a screenshot of the successful booking interface. Lu Jia was serious. She couldn't wait until tomorrow, so the flight took off at 09:30 this evening.

I hit the talkback button and laughed out loud, but didn't say a word.

"What’s wrong with you??????"

"I'm sick...hahahaha!"

"What happened to you?"

"I'm really sick... I went to the hospital for a re-examination yesterday. The doctor said that my common peroneal nerve was damaged. I will never be able to walk like a normal person again. If the treatment is not good, I will be paralyzed in a wheelchair for the rest of my life." On... Lu Jia, I am really thankful to you. During my most difficult time, you can say so many sincere words to me. I am very touched... Let's get married. I also feel that I can be with the person I fell in love with first. Being together is the greatest blessing in this life!"

After sending this message, I also took a photo of my test result and sent it to her; then I threw the phone aside, I knew that Lu Jia would not come back immediately, and I didn't care about the result, which is very important to her. For me, it's a way to vent, and then tear off the mask on Lu Jia's face.

Amidst the sound of rain, I found another match and threw it into my mouth to hold it. Although there was no smell of cigarettes, there was nothing to talk about. Just like without Yang Sisi, I couldn't accept the feeling of losing cigarettes for a while.

On the second day of quitting smoking, I already felt the pain. I always felt like I was holding a mouthful of phlegm in my throat, and my head was aching. Sometimes I would cry for no reason. If it wasn’t for being a healthy person again , I really don't want to quit smoking.

……

After waiting for almost half an hour, Lu Jia finally replied to my message, she said: "I'm sorry, Mi Gao, I really love you, and I can't forget the past between us... just when you told me this When this happened, I even had the urge to marry you regardless of everything... But I know this is irrational. Even if I don't think about myself, I have to think about the children I will have in the future. If he has a Paralyzed father, he will suffer countless hardships in his life, you will become his burden, and even affect his marriage and childbirth... I'm sorry, I can't take such a big risk!...I even I hope you are kidding me!"

Lu Jia's words perfectly interpreted my heart. When Yang Sisi and I mentioned marriage, that's what I thought of... If she chooses to be with me, she will very likely face the scene Lu Jia mentioned in the future. Even if I don't think about Yang Sisi, what about our children?What girl would want to marry into a family with a paralyzed father?
This is endless suffering, and it will continue to the next generation... It is precisely because of Yang Sisi's sincerity to me that I dare not let her gamble. If we really get married on impulse, she will not even There is no way back... So, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.

At this moment, I was actually a little thankful to Lu Jia. It was she who untied the knot in my heart and made me feel that I was not hurting Yang Sisi, but dedicated to her behind the scenes...

I finally replied to Lu Jia: "You're right...Are you still unwilling now?...Probably not...You don't have to worry about pain anymore!"

"I still won't be reconciled, but the reality is like this, and I have no choice... In the face of reality, people have no right to resist... What are you going to do in the future?"

When Lu Jia asked me this, I felt that the whole world suddenly became quiet...

As for Lu Jia, a woman who tried every means to force me to marry her, but in just a moment, she gave up the idea of ​​marrying me... If you want to talk about reality, is there anything more realistic than this?
But I didn't feel sad, because I am also a person who respects reality, I just feel very quiet at this moment... I also feel that this world is extremely real!
……

(End of this chapter)