I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 589 Your sixth sense is very accurate

Looking at the message sent by Yang Sisi, I seem to be able to understand her mood. It is a feeling of love and hatred. When I hate it, I want to cramp and tear my bones; It is in this process that little by little is accumulated.

Putting down my phone, I looked around subconsciously, but I had no idea where I was. I was taken to this place by a bus, and then I found a small hotel on the side of the street, which seemed to be called "Love of Love" ".

The hotel is very broken and very cheap. You can stay for 60 yuan for one night, so I think there must be some university nearby, because this kind of hotel is obviously created for college students. College students are energetic and don’t choose a place. I just found a used condom under my desk.

In addition to being unhygienic, this kind of hotel has a computer in the room, which has become a standard configuration... But I still don't know what is the point of having an old computer in the room when the mobile Internet is so developed today ?
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After being in a daze for a while, I realized that I don't need to know where I am at all, as long as I have a mobile phone to locate me...

But do I really want Yang Sisi to come?
Undoubtedly, I thought about it... But after I came here, I would still think that I was a cripple with an uncertain future, and I couldn't let go of my hands and feet in front of her; when the time came, she would be suspicious again, saying that I had Ye Zhi in my heart. , Said that she herself was my second best choice.

I don't want to drag her down, and the fundamental reason why I don't want to drag her down is because she has many better choices besides me.

If she is also crippled, or something is not perfect, and we have no choice, then we can pretend that nothing happened, and just continue to go on according to the original plan.

I have always felt that "unbalanced love" is the most terrifying thing in this world. It may not be so obvious in a few years, but there are still many decades in her life, and she is an excellent person in all aspects. Girl, if she lives in the eyes of others who don't understand every day, and sees that other people's husbands can give love in all directions and without dead ends, won't she really feel unbalanced in her heart?
I'm not worrying unfoundedly, I can't hold her up when I get married, I can't help her with housework, I can't drive, I can't even pick up her children...

It's scary to think about it, and those who still believe in "true love is invincible" at this time are either naive or have watched too many idol dramas; because it is a real world composed of real people, if you try to be in the real world, It is undoubtedly the most selfish and vicious behavior to tie a person who walks with light to his broken boat.

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Based on these complicated and true thoughts, I finally sent a message back to Yang Sisi: "We don't see each other anymore, let's talk on the phone for a while, I happen to have something to ask you... Do you really think that Ye Zhi is the one between the two of us?" Is it the biggest obstacle in the room?"

"Yes, I was by your side during the days when you lost Ye Zhi. I know how much you love her and care about her better than anyone else...I'm not a fool, I can feel the love you gave me. Emotions are empty; this kind of emotion, like a particularly unreal existence, depends entirely on your personal preferences, but it is not from the heart."

I unscrewed the cap of the mineral water bottle, took a sip of the cold water in it, and then I was left alone for a while, before I replied to Yang Sisi: "You women, do you judge a person entirely by your sixth sense?"

"Am I wrong?... I don't know if I should blame you. You seem to be used to being the one who is favored. I am in front of you, just like you are in front of Ye Zhi. You should be better than anyone else." Understand my mood, this is a feeling of powerlessness...Maybe I can persist too much. If it were someone else, let alone three years, I am afraid I would not be able to persist for one year...You should understand me. Since childhood, I I don’t have the kind of pressure that most people would have, so I am very persistent in feelings... Every time when I can’t hold on anymore, I will tell myself: Yang Sisi, what other people want most, you are born You have everything, if love can be obtained so easily, then what is the meaning of your life?... You can regard Mi Gao as a practice in your life... But even if it is practice, it should be Is there an end?...I'm really confused. Every time I feel sad because of you, I seem to have died once. Not long after I was reborn, I would be bloodied by you again...Living in the [-]th floor of hell, Probably this is the punishment, right?"

"You say that, I'm really sad!"

"You don't need to be sad, I never really blamed you, just like today, I hated you to the core, but after a while, I started to miss you again... I even look down on myself, you have almost become me nightmare!"

When I was secretly heartbroken, Yang Sisi sent another message: "Do you know what I'm holding in my hand now?"

"I don't know, what did you take?"

"I stole the household registration book from home...let's get married...go to register tomorrow, and I will give birth to you the day after tomorrow...I have to be tough on you, because I don't know when, I will suddenly Can't stand it."

Yang Sisi didn't lie to me. After this message, she sent me a picture of her account book, and she said, "I met you at the best age of my life, but you think I'm naive... next year will be I'm in my zodiac year, is it old enough to be your wife?... Hehe, if you still refuse to want me, then in a few years, I will become an old leftover girl... Time flies really fast, in the blink of an eye It's been several years, and the only thing that remains the same is that I never regret meeting you...Because no matter good or bad, you have taught me the most vivid lesson in my life, this little kid!"

I leaned heavily against the wall, and then hit the hardest place with the back of my head. I was in more pain than Yang Sisi, but I couldn't promise her anything, let alone tell her the truth...I'm not afraid of her current whim; What I fear most is that she will regret it later.

Having decided not to smoke anymore, I took another cigarette out of the pack. My hands shook a little bit, but as soon as I closed my eyes, tears fell down...

I am not a hard-hearted person, it is fate that leaves me with no choice.

I thought of the scene I saw outside the clothes shop with Yang Sisi: the penniless boy finally gave up on the inexperienced girl...

Really desperate!

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Opening my eyes, I swallowed painfully, and then replied: "Since you are forcing me to get married, then I will tell you the truth... I will not marry you... Your sixth sense is very accurate , I just can't forget Ye Zhi, you are my second best choice...Even if I marry you tomorrow, I will definitely regret it in the future...Because you are not the woman I most want to marry. "

After this message was sent, Yang Sisi didn't reply for a long time. I seemed to have seen her tearing her heart apart... I failed her, and I failed her household registration book.

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In the midst of living like a year, I smoked another cigarette, and I felt like I was going to be useless...

But I have clearly booked the most stylish sea view villa from Brother Ping.

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Finally, there was a vibration of the phone...

I picked it up reflexively, but it was Ye Zhi calling again.

I was a little dazed, I don't know why it wasn't Yang Sisi's message, but Ye Zhi's.

(End of this chapter)