I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 587 Your Hope Is In Bangkok

After Xiaobao left, Yang Sisi and I just looked at each other like this; I couldn't tell what mood I was in, I wanted to find a hotel to rest, but I wanted to stay with Yang Sisi for a while; so I took the initiative to say to Yang Sisi: "Let's go to the movies. .”

Yang Sisi shook her head, and replied: "I don't want to watch it, I'm a little tired... You should find a place and rest early."

"Didn't you just say you wanted to accompany me? Why did you suddenly change?"

With tears in her eyes, Yang Sisi said to me after a long time, "Didn't you hear me when I said I was a little tired?"

It wasn't until this time that I clearly felt that Yang Sisi's mood had changed. After a while of silence, I asked her: "Is there something I didn't do well that made you unhappy?"

"No... I'll go first."

After speaking, Yang Sisi was about to leave, I grabbed her from behind, and then said in a low voice: "Don't do this, can you?... It's not easy for me to come to Shanghai once!"

"You know it's not easy, why do you still look like this?"

"What's wrong with me?"

Yang Sisi turned around and looked at me, her eyes were very sharp, which made me feel overwhelmed, but I never thought she was a moody woman, she could be like this, I must have messed up something, and finally The terrible thing is that I didn't even know it!
Yang Sisi's tears fell, and she finally said to me: "I don't know what you are avoiding?... I wish I could tell everyone that I love you very much, especially... But, You didn't respond at all, I was like a joke, because there is only wishful thinking in my world... just now, even Xiaobao saw it, did you really not notice it at all?"

It was only then that I realized that during the conversation between Yang Sisi and Xiaobao, I hadn't expressed my attitude; the correct way was to tell Xiaobao firmly that I would not let her suffer. I want her to be the happiest woman in the world, but I didn't say it from the beginning to the end.

I can't blame me for this, because people's thoughts are dominated by the subconscious mind. How can I say these words with confidence under the premise that I think my life is hopeless?

This is self-deception, I can't do it!
Seeing that I was silent, Yang Sisi's pain increased even more, she said sharply to me: "I know, you always have Ye Zhi in your heart, and I'm your second best choice... If Ye Zhi's family invites you to dinner , Say something difficult for you, you don't have to use your brain to deal with the situation... Your love for her from the bottom of your heart will make you willing to do everything for her, even if her family does not agree that she is with you , even if it is elopement, you will take her away."

"Is this comparison interesting?"

"That's the truth..."

I can't tell the pain, so I just stay where I am, but from Yang Sisi's point of view, this is a kind of tacit consent, so she looks even more painful... She is such a woman, there is no room for a grain of sand in her eyes... But my concerns really have nothing to do with Ye Zhi.

Speaking of Ye Zhi, I seem to understand her a bit...

My leg is crippled, and I can no longer give Yang Sisi a perfect life, so I want to give up... I don't give up because I don't care, but because I care too much. I don't want her to suffer along with me.

This is not hypocrisy, it is said that there is no filial son in front of a long-term hospital bed, let alone a father and son, not to mention the unreliable relationship between husband and wife... If I really let her sacrifice her whole life for me, I will not be happy... I Will live in guilt forever, depressed.

I just watched Yang Sisi leave like this, and my heart suddenly felt so empty... I really hope that we can watch a movie about love together, and it will end with a comedy, because my situation is very unsatisfactory , I want to find a little comfort in those imaginary plots.

……

Snowflakes began to fall in the sky, which is rare in Shanghai, so the crowd boiled instantly; and I quietly hid in the crowd, trying to make myself neither happy nor sad...

I really want to have a chat with Director Ma. I suddenly feel that it is not so unacceptable to become a monk. It seems that I am not worthy of love.

I took my phone out of my pocket, and then stared at the snowflakes for a long time... I felt that I saw another world. In this world, there is no love or hatred in the world, and everyone in it They are all indifferent, they only pursue the realm beyond this world, just like this snowflake all over the sky, when it falls, it is in one state, and after melting, it is another state of colorless and odorless.

I finally found Director Ma's phone number... When I wanted to call him, I suddenly realized that this feeling of thinking that everything was empty was just a momentary impulse.

I'm not reconciled... I have unfinished business and people I want to be with.

Even if the latter is difficult, why should I give up the former? …Now I can still keep thinking, and when it comes to entrepreneurship, I never think that the body is more important than the mind, just like Hawking, although he is a quadriplegic, it does not affect him at all to become a great man of the times.

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In the snow, I got on a double-decker bus, and then wandered aimlessly in the city; no one would believe me, I kept a sitting position, followed the bus to the terminal, until the driver reminded me Me, I just got out of the car.

I changed to another bus, still not knowing where it would go, but I still sat in the same posture, looking out the window at the world gradually covered by snow.

I figured out where the end of this bus is, and I will find a place to live nearby.

……

When the car stopped at the platform, the phone suddenly vibrated. This time, it was Brother Ping who called me.

He is really not a person who likes to talk nonsense, so as soon as he got connected, he said to me straight to the point: "Are you sure, when will you come to Thailand?"

I was a little hesitant, because in my plan, I was going to take Yang Sisi with me, and before I had this plan, I didn't know that my legs would be so bad. I thought I could heal and run like before ,swim……

I don't have that heart anymore.

I finally asked Brother Ping: "Why do you care so much about my going to Thailand?"

Brother Ping on the other end of the phone smiled and replied: "To be honest, I haven't completely given up on real estate speculation... You have never been to Thailand. Whether you like it or not, you have to see it to believe it. Maybe if you stay here for a while and find that this place is suitable for living, you will be able to figure it out... At that time, let's start the business of real estate speculation together!"

Brother Ping probably forgot that I have actually been to Thailand; but at that time, I did not go there with the mood of vacation... and that time was a bit gloomy, so for a long time, as long as I think of Thailand, I was a bit depressed, and it was not until nearly a year that I came out of this depressed mood.

However, this has no effect on the conversation between me and Brother Ping, so I didn't specifically explain it.

……

Brother Ping is an elder, I wanted to tell him my current predicament, hoping he could give me some enlightenment, so after a while of silence, I replied: "Brother Ping, my current situation is very bad...my My leg has not recovered, I went to the hospital for an examination this morning, and it was found that the common peroneal nerve was damaged, and I may not be able to walk in the future... I feel that my life is over!"

Brother Ping on the other end of the phone was also silent for a while, and then he said to me: "Mi Gao, I won't say anything to persuade you... I made you the right call... I have a My friend works as a doctor in a hospital in Bangkok, and he is an authority in neurology... You can't delay this situation, come to Thailand as soon as possible, I will ask him to help you treat..."

I have my doubts about the level of medical care in Thailand.

Brother Ping seemed to see my worry, and he said again: "Don't underestimate the city of Bangkok, you boy. It can also be said to be first-tier in the world... The medical level is no worse than that of big cities in China, and this Doctors and I have a very strong relationship; you know, in the medical industry, whether it is related or not is completely two concepts... Come here quickly, your hope is in Bangkok... Our partnership is second, and the body is the first There is no delay in important matters..."

(End of this chapter)