I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 561 Come on
After I gave this reason, Wednesday finally agreed, and he nodded and replied: "That's right... During this time, you have lost your temper with me several times. I have a slow temper. What do you say? I think you're doing it for my own good... But my fourth brother's temper, if not handled properly, will explode!"

"You're right to think so... In fact, it's really good now. As long as I think about her waiting for me, I will have a particularly strong motivation in my heart. I want to get out of these predicaments more than ever ..."

"I understand, this is called distance produces beauty."

"This statement is correct. Let's do a good job in the bar business first, and then develop the rest step by step... As long as you are determined in your heart, are you afraid that you will not have a good life in the future?"

Laughing three times on Wednesday, I finally breathed a sigh of relief... But this time, I didn't fool him. In the state of being in love, start a new relationship... I hope that one day, when I think back, there is only sunshine between us, and there is no haze... And now, it is a process for me to dispel the haze.

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After the meal, Nicole, who came to help, called me aside again, and she asked me, "It's opening tomorrow, are you nervous?"

"I'm really nervous... If the funds can't flow within a month after opening, both Chen Jin and I will die!"

Nicole nodded, and then replied: "Knowing that it's not easy for you two...Anyway, I will do as much as I can... Tomorrow, one long-term member of our bar will be counted as one, and they will all be brought to your bar Go cheer you on."

I smiled and said, "Chen Jin was worried about your reluctance before, but he really worried too much!"

"If it's someone else, I'm definitely not willing... But what is our relationship?... Looking at the whole of Dali, we get along like a family... If I don't even want to help you, then What is the relationship between people?"

I nodded, feeling a little sad because I remembered the time when I first came to Dali. I, Director Ma, Tie Nan, Tao Zi, Bai Lu, Yang Sisi...were also a small circle, like a family.

Director Ma has become a monk, and there is no sign of returning to secular life. Tie Nan went to prison, Tao Zi disappeared, and Bai Lu gradually moved away from me.

To be honest, I miss that time very much, and everyone who appeared in that time, I miss them...but the time is gone forever.

Nicole waved her hand in front of me and asked, "What were you thinking?"

"Nothing, nothing..."

I lit a cigarette and leaned against the wall to smoke. After Nicole was silent for a while, she said to me again: "Look, opening a bar is not a trivial matter... It just so happens that Ye Zhi is also in Dali, do you want to put it on?" Invite her to come over and have fun together?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then replied in a very flat tone: "Bars are open for business, if you think it's appropriate, you can invite her in your name... Anyway, I won't invite her. "

"Then I'll invite her."

I didn't say anything, I just closed my eyes and exhaled heavily...

In addition to the smell of tobacco, there is also my unexplainable mood; I really don't like it, and then I heard the names of Yang Sisi and Ye Zhi from other people.

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On this day, I was busy at the bar until 12 o'clock at night before returning to my residence. As soon as I opened the door, someone stopped me. He was wearing a shirt, but he was carrying a guitar.

I smiled and asked him, "Are you ready to return to vulgarity? I haven't seen you carrying a guitar on your back for several years!"

Director Ma came to my side, said "go in and chat" and then entered the yard before me; it seemed that he came here specially to find me.

Under the jujube tree, Director Ma and I sat on both sides of the stone table. He didn't drink alcohol, so I made a pot of tea, which was jasmine-flavored and very light, and would not delay sleep.

After taking a sip from the cup, Director Ma said to me: "I heard that your bar will open tomorrow, and there is nothing to give away... I will give you this guitar. I have been with me for ten years."

"Ten years of things, how can I bear it... Besides, there is no clear rule, saying that monks are not allowed to play the guitar?"

Director Ma smiled and replied: "Actually, in the first year when I first went to the temple, I really had the mundane world in my heart... But after a long time, my heart became clean, and I felt that there was nothing I had to do... This guitar , is the only thing I brought up the mountain... It's a pity to throw it away, but now that I send it out, I will really break my heart."

"Don't, Bai Lu is still waiting for you!"

"Whoever is waiting for someone is not the final return journey in a person's life... In my eyes, only the result is true, but the process can be ever-changing, so it is all false."

"If Bai Lu lets go, that's fine... If Bai Lu can't let go for the rest of her life, don't you really feel guilty?"

Director Ma replied very flatly: "Since everything I do now has nothing to do with the result, why should I feel guilty?"

I glanced at Director Ma and felt very tired in my heart, because every time he said a word, you had to think about it several times before you could figure out what he wanted to express... He said this was the realm of a Buddha, but I I think it's a hoax.

If we really live for this result and the process can be omitted, then what is the meaning of being in this world? Is it true that birth is death?
I beg to differ.

Director Ma probably also realized that we already had irreconcilable ideological conflicts, so he didn't say anything more. He drank the tea in the cup and prepared to leave.

Although I felt that there were still some things to say, I didn't call him to stop, but just watched his strange back silently, getting farther and farther away from the yard... And the curtain call followed by the time when I first came to Dali , it seems that all the interpersonal relationships we formed at that time have undergone major changes at this time.

Perhaps, Taozi is the only one who can really talk to me... But where is she at this moment?
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Lighting a cigarette, I lay on the chair facing the moonlight, my heart was calm for a while, and I was very restless for a while... I am indeed not as advanced as Director Ma, so I am very concerned about whether the bar will open tomorrow. What kind of result will come.

This result is very important to me... because it will affect my mood when I went to Shanghai to find Yang Sisi.

I hope that I am high-spirited, instead of bringing another failure and letting her live in my bitterness and hatred.

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Forcibly cheering up, I patted my face again, and said silently several times in my heart, "Come on! Come on!"

(End of this chapter)