I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 555 Midlife Crisis
The people who walked into the office building had already dialed back and forth several times before I took the phone out of my pocket.I am going to send a message to Yang Sisi, telling her that at this moment, I am standing downstairs in her father's company, and I really want to meet her.

When I opened WeChat, my mood suddenly dropped, because among my unread messages, there was a message from Lu Jia 10 minutes ago, she said: "I went to the place where you live to find you, I heard, you go After leaving Shanghai... Mi Gao, can you be more unpromising?... When you first came to Dali to open an inn, it was Wang Lei who gave you money; It was Yang Sisi who gave you a sum of money for the business of Jiulongju, and you finally made it... You said you had a project you wanted to do, but you couldn't think of a way from me, so you ran to Shanghai again. I know you are going to ask Yang Sisi for money... Do you really plan to live on women all your life?... You are a man, you should have the courage to be a man, instead of taking advantage of some women's liking for you, go Unrestrained demands... This is eating soft rice... But is there a soft rice in this world that can last a lifetime?... Being down-to-earth is the foundation of being a person... I don't mean to be sarcastic, I just don't want you to be in a The wrong road is getting more and more wrong... This society is too realistic, so there is no absolute pure love for a long time... If one day, Yang Sisi doesn't love you anymore, she will see all your shortcomings, and she will also see you On the soft side, she will look down on you!"

I can't describe how I feel at this moment, I just feel the blood rushing up, my brain is buzzing, and I can't calm down for a long time...

I was so angry that I was shaking. This was the first time in my life that someone said that I was a softie. I didn't want to admit it...but what Lu Jia said was the truth...

Yes, I can say that I donated all the money Wang Lei gave to Hope Primary School after I made money myself; I also doubled the money Yang Sisi gave her... But no one would If you care about such a result, everyone will only see how you made your fortune... It is indisputable that the two most important turning points in my life were deeply imprinted by women. stain.

Even if I know that there are Lu Jia's ulterior motives in these words, they have actually dealt a heavy blow to my thoughts... At this moment, I seem to be standing in front of a mirror. The me in the mirror is full of It's a face that eats soft food, and behind me are those women who have given me... I saw contempt in their eyes... I also saw countless sloppy mouths, like blood basins Same, opening right towards me... My psychological defense just completely collapsed!
In the gloomy weather, I walked across the road on crutches and sat down on a bench, having lost the mood to do anything.

I want to go back to Dali, right now, right now...

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The sky was getting dark, and in the process, I tried to book a flight back to Dali, but the flight would have to be tomorrow at the earliest...

I finally calmed down a bit, and I realized that the reason for such an extreme reaction was that Lu Jia knew me too well. She knew where the biggest weakness in my character was, so she was able to pierce my heart with an arrow.

Before coming to Shanghai, I was relying on a whim, and I was not so determined; now, my heart is even colder... I am afraid that I will see a humble self in Yang Sisi's eyes.

I lit a cigarette and smoked it blankly... Then I saw Yang Sisi's Scirocco in the passing traffic.

She stopped in the opposite lane for about ten seconds because of the traffic lights. I finally saw her short haircut. There was a person sitting in the passenger seat. I couldn't tell who it was, but I could vaguely see Yang Sisi turning her head and talking to her. He (she) was joking, and Yang Sisi seemed in a good mood, not as lonely as I imagined.

I took another deep breath, and Yang Sisi had already driven away in just one breath; so, there were only countless flashing circles of light left in my eyes, which made me feel fearful of the city again , and let me see myself more clearly...

I shouldn't have come to Shanghai at this time, because this is not my best state; at this time, my legs are broken, my will is disabled, and my heart is even more sensitive. How can I face the body of a young lady? Yang Sisi?
Even if Yang Sisi herself doesn't care, I should look at the relationship between the two of us from a long-term perspective. I'm not young anymore, and I really can't play around in the world in a romantic cloak like Yang Sisi.

Under the dazzling city light, I feel that the first mid-life crisis in my life is taking big strides and forcing me to come over.

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When I was about to leave, I received another WeChat message sent to me on Wednesday. He guessed that I was already with Yang Sisi at the moment; In any case, don't tell Yang Sisi that I have been to Shanghai.

I don't know if he will listen to me, and I don't care about it anymore. I just want to find a place to drink a little wine.

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In my impression, I have not seen my cousin Dai Qiang for more than three years; when I saw him again, he had changed a lot, and he looked like a social elite. He came to pick me up in his own car, although it was nothing It’s a great luxury car, but it’s also enough to be a symbol of self-success; at least, I haven’t been able to buy a car on my own during the years I’ve been struggling in Shanghai; at the same age, he is much more successful than me.

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After walking around the Bund, Dai Qiang took me to a western restaurant and ordered a bottle of high-end red wine.As soon as we sat down, Dai Qiang complained to me: "Look at you, you said to bring your girlfriend here. I specially ordered a western restaurant. I knew it was just the two of us, so I went to find a Sichuan restaurant to eat."

"How can a Sichuan restaurant reflect your current identity?"

Dai Qiang came over, rolled up his sleeves, showed his watch, and said to me with a smile: "I bought it when I went to France on a business trip last month. It's a famous Swiss watch. It costs more than 1 yuan...Brother, it used to be really expensive." I didn't dare to think about it...but I did it...I think the most correct thing I did in my life was to choose to develop in Shanghai...Here, what you can see is our small county, and you will always be in touch with it. less than..."

"I see your progress..."

"When I buy a house in Shanghai, you can tell me that I am making progress...Anyway, I feel that I have just stood at the starting point of my life."

I looked at the high-spirited Dai Qiang, and felt a little strange. I really couldn't connect him with that young man selling stewed vegetables along the street... In him, I saw a thirsty heart that was not willing to stop.

(End of this chapter)